我姓傅。
傅山的傅。
打小身体就不太好。
chushengzhihou,dabingxiaobingbuduan,quanshihanjianbing。
yaobushiwodiedangshiyijingxiahaiduonian,poyoujixu,nenglingzhewodongbenxizoudeqiuyi,zhipazaojiuyaozhele。
pengdaogesuanmingxiansheng,shuowochunyangruming,suiranyoudajie,kezhiyaonengaoguoqu,wanghoumingyouxiantu,yishengpingtan,ledewodieduojiletawushikuaiqian。
congsansuidaojiusui,womeiyouzaishengguoyicibing。
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jiusuineinian,wofumuliqishizong。
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banye,womengdicongmengzhongjingxing,mimihuhudezouchufangjian,huhuanyeye。
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jiuzaizheishi,shushuchuxianle。
shushushiyeyedexiaoerzi,shinianzhiqianlijiahou,bianturangenquanjiadouduanlelianxi。
zheicizaihuilai,haidaizhewodebiaojie——jushuotongyangminggebufan。
tashuofanzhengjialiyijingyouyigele,bupazailaiyige。
tabijingshiwodeqinshushu,heqingheli,qitaqinqiyebuganduoshuoshenme,henqingsongdedaizoulewo,shunbianbangwojianguanfumu,yeyeliuxiadeyichan。
diyicijiandaobiaojie,wojiufaxianshushupianlewo。
biaojiebujinmianrongchoulou,haishensechisha。
tadequeminggebufan,buguogenwowanquanshilianggefangxiang。
taderenshengzhongbucunzaikan,yinweizhengtiaoludoushikengkengwawade,yishengdouhuiliunianbuli,guanguagudu,zuihaodeguisujiushicanjizhonglao。
biaojiewaizhetou,tangzhekoushuikanzhewo,shushuyexiaomimidekanzhewo,wen。
“xiaoshan,niyuanyibangbangwomenma?”
“xiaoshan,nifangxin,shushuzhishixiangrangnimenliangpinghengyixia,nandaobuhaoma?”
xiangqishizongdefumu,siqudeyeye,kanzheshengbingdebiaojie,qiaocuideshushu,wojihushixiayishidewenleyiju:“zenmepingheng?”
xiayimiao,shushumengdizhuazhuwodenaodai,yigenbishoubeihaicudeyinzhenmengdicichuanwodenaoqiao,wodeyanqianyipianheian,wodeerpanzhishengxialetamenniuqudeshengyin。
“zenmepo?nititaqusi,ziranerranyejiupinghengle。”
“woyaonidexue,woyaoniderou……woyaonideming!”
yongwodeming……qupinghengbiaojiedeming?
yiyezhihou,wojihuzaiwulishangbeitaokong,yibarengjinleluanzanggang。
shushubuganshawo,tashuowodemingtaiying,yingdaozhiganrangwotianshou。
wojiuzheimetangzailuanzanggangdaoxiademubeishang,xiangzhewodebabamama,yeye,yidiyanleicongwodeyankuangzhonghualuo。
jiuzaicishi,yigepoyilanshandelaozhecongpangbianmaochulai,wailewai,wenwo。
“wa,nihaixianghuobu?”
想活不?
wohaimeizhaodaobabamama,haimeizhaodaoshayeyedexiongshou,haimeibaochouxuehen,wodangranxianghuo!
wohaobuyouyudedianlediantou!
老者跟着点了点头。
“hao!bukuishichunyangming!jiushiyingqi!”
“buguo,wa,zheitiaolu,huihennanzou!”
laozhejiushiwodeshouyeenshi,yihandewobingbuzhidaotadezunxingdaming,zhizhidaotaxingxia,cunziliderendoujiaotaxiaagong!
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youdianxiangchumaxian,kexiaagongdeshouduangengbadao。
shuoshiqingshenshangshen,burushuoshijielishangshen。
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neitian,daliushuyezihualalade,xianranshibuyuanyi。
kexiaagongxiaolexiao,daliushujiuyouanjingle。
wanghoujiunian,woyizhidouzaigensuixiaagongxuefuji。
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我问他为什么。
tazhishuozheishitadeguiju,wozuoweitadeguanmendizi,diyicifuji,bixushijitafuling。
womeicidoushuo,neiwobushidedengdaosansishicainengfujile?
neiwodeshenmeshihoucainengxuehuibenshi,qubaochouxuehen?
bijingxiaagongnianjisuida,keshenziguyichangyinglang,biwopaodedoukuai,fanshanrulvpingdi,zenmekanyebuxiangshifengzhongcanzhu。
meidaozheishi,xiaagongjiuhuiheiheiyixiao,dianranyandai,manyouyoudeshuo。
“xiaoshan,nixianzaihaibudong。shifuzouzhiqian,huibayiqiedougaosunide。”
woshuohao,jidebanideyinxingkamimayegaosuwo。
xiaagongtinglejiuxixihaha,lunqiyandaizawo。
dangshidewoconglaimeixiangguo,wozheibeizifujidediyitian,laidejuranhuineimekuai,neimeturan!
那是一天清晨。
wozouchufangjian,zhijianxiaagongyishenxianhongshouyi,wozaitangyili,diaozheyandai,taiqirushanyibandeyanpi,manyouyoudekanzhewo。
“xiaoshan,shifudeshichendaole。”
“woyousanjianshiyaojiaodaijini,niyidingyaojizhu,quandoubanhaole。meiyijianshi,doushiguannidexingming!jiwotingqingchule!”
“womenzheimen,yuqishuojiaofuji,burushuojiao。”
“养神。”
xiaagongshenxiyikouyandai,huanhuantuchuyikounongzhongdebaiseyanwu。