第1章
26suile，yekewangweizijiderenshenglaiyichangfantianfudidegeming，keshizhiyaoyewandaolai，wohaishihuibukezikongdeduoluo，duoluozaijiubali，duoluozaidengguangxia，duoluozainvrenhenvrendehuaibaozhijian。
zheiyoushiyigezhoumodeyewan，woheyiqunrenzaijiubafengwan，changyin。
wodezuoshoubianshirenranjie，jinnian31sui，bendimougezhimingqiyejiamingmeizhengqudelaopo；qunian，zheigeqiyejiazaiwaimianyoulexiaosan，renranjieyekaishifangfeiziwo，chenglezheigejiubadechangke......
wozuixihuanherenranjiedajiaodao，bujinzhangdepiaoliang，haichushoukuochuo，zhiyaotalaijiuba，womenjiubuhuihelianjiadegongyepijiu，tazongshitiaozuiguidedian，youqianjiushitazuixianzhudebiaoqian，suoyi，womendouqinqiedechenghutawei“guifu”，tayezhizhe，meiciwozheimehantadeshihou，tazongshihuishanzhemilideshuangyan，fanfuqiangdiao，tashiyigeyoujimo，youmeiyourenaide“guifu””。
renranjiexihuanhewozaiyiqi，yinweiwoyoumofengqu，erqiejiuliangbusu；cike，renranjiedeshouniezhexiangyan，kaihuaidaxiao。
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woyoushoubiandezheigenvrenjiaozuoxiaowei，tashizheigejiubadezhuchanggeshou，jinnian23sui，daxuegangbiye；xiangbiyuchengshuderenranjie，tajiushaoxianjinchihezhinen，danzheiyebufangaitaxihuanwo，zhunqueshuoshichongbai。
tashuowoshiyigeba“ziyou”dangchengyizhongzhuiqiu，bingzuodaojizhidenanren！
wojiushizheiyangde，daxuebiyehou，womeiyouxiangdabufenrenneiyangxuanzequzhaoyifenwentuodegongzuo，woxianshizaijiubazhuchang，zhuangouqianzhihou，bianmaileyiliangershoudefangche，kaishizaiquanguogediyoudang，hunrizi......
zuoxiaoweixihuandejiushizheifenwoyongbuwuzhengyehuanlaideyueli，tashiyigeyouwenyiqingjiedeguniang，xihuantingwojianglushangdegushi，xihuanwo“chaotuoshisu”zhihouyangchengdebujiqizhi，tayizhixiwangwonengdaitachuquzouyizou，keshi，wohewodefangcheyijingzaiqingdaotingleyinianban，yejiushizheiyinianban，wojieshilerenranjieheta，yijiqitayizhonghupenggouyou。
cike，zuoxiaoweijiukaozaiwodejiantou，shoupengjiubei，zaihuanxiangzheshenme，zhidaoleduihantashangtai，tacaihuiguoleshen。
wochengren，wocengyinweizuoxiaoweiduiwodehaogan，yuzhifashengguonannvguanxi，keshiwomeiyouyinciduitadongqing，gengbuxiangrangtazuowodenvpengyou；suoyi，zaizheijianshiqingfashengzhihou，woduoletayigeyue，zhidaotabuzaiwen，woyebutile，womencaiyoumeixiumeisaodewanzaileyiqi。
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“hai，zenmeneimehuai......cailiangtianjiushenai，shuodehaoxiangzhenai；woduinishuohai，jintianyoumeiyoulianai，shifoutanleyoushuai？haishuonanyuzhenai；woyaonixianzai，bachoushidoushuochulai，caihuitingnibiaobai......tingnishuonishizhendexihuanwo，zhendexiangtanlianaile......”
wutaishangdezuoxiaowei，chuanzheduanqun，niuzheyaozhi，changzhe《huxijueding》，zheishiyishouzuijinzaidouyindahuoderemengequ，haoxiangzaisushuozheyediannannvneikesaodongbuandexin，youchongmanleanshihetiaodou......
wojianjianyinweitaxinggandechangqiangshileshen，woyoudianxingfen；huran，youmeilaiyoudeshiluo：woderenshenghaoxiangtongtoule，jiuzhishengxialexiangyan、xing、jiu、gewufeiyang，yeyeshengge......
我想出去透透气。
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dianshangxiangyan，shenxileyikou，zaiciganshouzheigeshijie，zuoxiaoweidegeshengyijingbiandeyinyue，chengshidezaoyinyoupumianerlai，napawokeyiduokai，haoxiangzheigeshijieyeconglaidoubuhuizhenzhenganjingxialai。
“hanchao......”
wozhuantoukanqu，shirenranjie，talianseweihong，kanshangquhaiyouxiezuitai，xiangbiyeshichulaitouqide。
woxiaolexiao，xiangtawendao：“jintianwandekaixinma？”
“kaixin，henizaiyiqihejiu，dangrankaixin......youhuoma？jiegehuo。”
wojiangdahuojidijileta，tashuliandidianshangleqiazaishoushangdexiangyan，ranhouyouduiwoshuodao：“daihuierzanlianghuangedifangjiezheheba。”
“xinga......nishuodifang，wopeinihedaodi。”