wohunshenhanmaoshuqi，geboshangqileyicengjipigeda。
tazoulejinlai，wosesuozaichuangtou，jingtididingzheta，beizidixiadeshouzuandejinjinde，zhangxinliqinchuleyicenglenghan。
“niyaoshifangwozou，woyebuhuizheimezuo。”
taneizhanglian，heyiqianyiyangjunmei，kanwodeyanshenquezaiyebufucongqiandewenrouchongni，ershirutonghuabukaidehanbing。
wohuranganjuechuanbuguoqilai，xinlifangfoxialeyichanglianmiandeyinyu。
chuixiamouzibuzaikanta，quetingjiantakouzhongyishengbuxiedechixiaosheng。
woxinzhongfuqiyizhenbuhaodeyugan，gangyitaitou，biankanjiantabuzhidaoshenmeshihouyijingzoudaowodemianqian，miandaichaofeng。
“shijialidefancaibugouhaochi，haishinimudaxiaojiechinilejiachangcai，xuyaohuanhuankouwei？”
mingzhidaowozaijueshikangyi，taqueguyizheimeshuo，shiyouyiyaojinuwo，haishitielexinyaojiangworuanjinzaizheili？
wolenghengyisheng，“niruoshibufangwozou，wojiujueshidaodi！”
ranerzheijuhuasihubingmeiyouduitazaochengshenmeweixie。tashenzhiyongyizhonggewaihaoxiaodebiaoqingkanzhewo，yanzhongbuzaiyouyiwangdelianxi。
taxuanshenzuozaiwopangbian，wobudongshengsediwangpangbiannuolenuo，xinliqueyuefameiyoudiqi。
“nimudaxiaojieyiqianyigebukaixinjiunaojueshi，xuzhangshengshi。zheiyidian，nijuedewohuibuqingchuma？”
tachongmanxiaoyideyanjingfangfoshigenwoshuoqileyiwangyijianqushi，ranertayanlibuzhehenjidelengliequerangwobujindalegehanzhan。
yiqian，wodequejingchangnazheishilaiweixiebabaheta。zhiyinwodudingtamenshiwoweizhangzhongbao，yidinghuiduiwoxinruan。
然而现在——
“nijinguanjueshi，kankanshiwoxinying，haishinideshentiying！”
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午夜，我被饿醒了。
jiangtianshengshuodaozuodao，guoranmeizairangrenjiwosongfan。
wozhengzheyanjing，yanqianshiwujindeheian，biyan，liangnianqianneichangmiedingzhizaizaiwoyanqianyimumushangyan。
neixiecengbeiwokeyiyiwangdejiyi，cikeruciqingxi。
edaojizhile，wozhinengyongyachiyibianbianmozhezijideshoubei。yuanbenguanghuadeshoubei，henkuaibianfuxianchuzhenzhennieyaoguodehenji，chumujingxin。
zaiyizhenzhenjiehejuewangzhizhong，woaodaoleshangwu。
xushieguoletou，woyijingmeiyouneizhongjichangluludejiaozhuogan，danwoquanshenyijingshiquleliqi，zhinengxuruoditandaozaichuangshang。
fangjiandemendakaile，wonulizhengkaishuangyan，kanjianjiangtianshengxiangwokaojin，miandaiyisiheiqi。
“buguocailiangtianeryi，zheimekuaijiuchengbuzhule？”
talengmowuqingdehua，fangfoyizhishenledudelijian，shunjianjiangwobenjiuqiancangbaikongdexinchuantou，woyanqianzhenzhenfahei，henhenyaolexiashejian，yishiqingxinglexie，“jiangtiansheng，fangwozou，buran，ni，huihouhuide。”
woqiangchengzhefangleyijuhenhua，raneryinweiedehenle，shengyinyouqiwuli，xiaoguodadazhekou，feidanmeiyouduiyanqianderenzaochengsihaoweixie，fanerhaiyinlailetachaofengdemuguang。
woxintouqixuefanyong，liangyanyifanyunleguoqu。
dangwoxinglaideshihou，faxianzijiyiranzaifangjianli。butongdeshi，shoubeishangchalegenshuyeguan，weiliangdeyetijianjiancongguanzhonghuaruwodexueguan。
“mudaxiaojiedejueshiyouxiwangouleme？”
jiuzaiwoshenqinghuanghudeshihou，jiangtianshengdeshengyincongbuyuanchuchuanguolai，womengdiyijing。
“niduiwozuoleshenme？”
woshunjianjingkongqilai，shituzuoqilaibadiaoshoushangdeshuyezhen。
ranergangyizuoqi，wobiangandaofuzhongyizhenkongxu，zuilifaku，naodaigengshixiangbeirennazhechuizibuduanqiaojiyiyang，youyunyouteng，xianxiezaicihunjueguoqu。
“zhishiyidianyingyangyeeryi，nigaibuhuidanxinwojinizhusheshenmebuhaodeyaowuba？”
tachunbianliuchuyisijifeng，duiyuwofangcaixianxiehunjueguoqudeyangzi，sihaomeiyoufanying。
woyaochun，yibachexiashoushangdezhenguan，fenranrengzailedishang。
youyuyongli，shoubeichuanlaiyizhentengtong，worenbuzhu“si”leyisheng。
wangguoqu，zheicaifaxianwodeshoubeishangcanliuzhemimimamadeyayin。zheixietagaishidoukanjianleba，keshita……
xinzhongbuyoufanqiyizhensuanchu。
“bieyiweiwohuijiuzheimequfu！”
yongjinleliqi，caiqiangchengzhenumayiju。
jiangtianshenglenglengkanleyiyandishangdezhenguan，youlenglengkanxiangwo。tabingshuangbandeyanshenrangwobuhanerli。
“muchuchu，nijiujixuzuoba。dengniedekuaisile，wozaijinizhashangyizhen。zaiezaizha，niebusi……”
tatingdunxialai，shensefangfomoguiyiban，yishuangheimouqiheiyoushen，jianbudaodi，zhishengxiayipianfennudehuoguang。
“jiuxiuxiangcongzheilichuqu！”
womoranyileng，fuzhongdekongxuzaicixilai。
yishunjian，wokuaiyaochengbuzhu，chadianxiangtaguidiqiurao。
raner，mianduizheigemogui，wozenmekeyi？
“nibushihenhenwoma？yaoshijiuzheimeesile，nizenmebaofuwo？”
tatiaomeiyixiao，yijuhuabianjiqilewodedouzhi，wohenhendikanxiangta，ruguoyanshenkeyisharen，neitazaojiubeiwoshaleqianbaici。
“jiangtiansheng，niyijingdedaolemujiadeyiqie，hebihaiyaoweinanwo？”
wojihushiyonghoudeshuochuzheijuhua，neiyishunjian，huiyixiongyongxilai，chongchilewozhenggedanao。
shitahaiwojiaporenwang，shitahuilewoyuanbenxingfudejiating！
这一切，都是他……
henyihuanhuanfajiao，henkuaibianzhanjulewozhenggeneixin。
kepianpian……wocengjingneimexihuanta。