wozaixiangqindahuishangjiabanqianfu
三十岁，离异。
zaifumuheqinqiyanli，zheijiushiwozuidaderenshengwudian。
tamenfeijinxinsimanzhesuoyouren，shenzhibiwocanjiaxiangqindahui。
wunaizhixia，wozhaolegeyanyuanjiabanwode“xianrenzhangfu”。
meixiangdaotabuanjubenyan，dangchangchuopolezheichangnaoju。
gengmeixiangdaodeshi，zheigeyanjipaidejiahuo，haoxiangduiwodonglezhenganqing。
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“xiaorou，daodizenmexuan？zheiweijixianshengjializaixianggangzuowaimao，jiadiyinshi，youliangtaofang，jiushinianlingbinidashiduosui。”
mamabayidiezhaopianbaizaicanzhuoshang，neixiezhaopiandoulaizixiangqinwangzhandedayinyemian，shangmianxiemanleduifangdegerenziliao。
woniezhekuaizi，chenmobuyu。
zuotianshilixiansheng，qiantianshiwangxiansheng，daqiantianshizhangxiansheng。meitiandouyouxindexiangqinduixiangsongshangmen，wobeipoxiangtiaoxuanshangpinyiyang，fankanzheyizhangzhangzhaopian。
“xingle，zheigebuxing。”wobazhaopiantuidaoyibian，“xianchifanba。”
mamatanlekouqi，shouqizhaopian，“nidou30le，haitiaoshenmetiao。xianzaidehaonanrendoubeiqiangguangle，nizaibuzhuajin，lianerhundedouzhaobudaole。”
wojialeyikoucai，weiweicumei：“ma，wodoushuoguole，wobuxiangxiangqin。”
“neinishuozenmeban？”mamapaianerqi，“nizongbunengyibeizidouzheimehaozheba？guguwenqinidezhongshendashi，wodoubuzhidaozenmehuida。”
“jiushuowoliyile，buxiangzaihun。”
“hushuo！”mamadeshengyintigaolebadu，“nizheibeizidoubiexiangrangrenzhidaonijieguohundeshi。zheiyaoshichuanchuqu，wogennibadelianwangnafang？”
wofangxiakuaizi，taitoukanzhemama：“ma，lihunbushishenmediurendeshi。dajiadouhenkaimingle。”
“kaiming？nizhidaozuotiannibiaojiezenmeshuodema？shuowomenbaniguanhuaile，caihuilihun。shuonicongxiaobeichongzhe，yangchenglerenxingdexingge。”
“taguanxindegenbenbushiwodexingfu。”wolengxiaoyisheng。
“ni！”mamayifuyaoyunguoqudeyangzi，“woshangbeiziqianlenide。haohaoderizibuguo，quxiangxinshenmezhenai。xianzaidaohao，lilehunhaizuiying。”
zheishihou，babataiqitoulai：“nimashuodedui，zanjiazaiqinqiliyizhidoushibierenjiadehaizi。xianzaijiunizheigeqingkuang，tairangrencaoxinle。”
“bama，nimenjiufeiyaowozhaogerenjiehun？”
“buranni？nidasuanyibeizizheiyang？”mamajieguohuatou，“niyebuxiaole，gaiweiyihoudasuandasuanle。”
womeizaishuohua，balazhewanlidefan。
zheizhongduihua，zuijinyigeyuejihumeitiandouzaishangyan。zicongwolihundexiaoxichuandaoqinqierduoli，jialijiuchenglexiuluochang。
geluqidagubadayilunfanshangzhen，chongdangquanshuodashi。jiwoguanshu“nvrenyaoyijiatingweizhong”desixiang。
“dingdong。”shoujixiangleyisheng。
wotaochulaiyikan，shibiaomeifalaideweixin。
“tangjie，buhaoyisi，jialidexiangqindahuiwobuqule。”
woyitouwushui：“shenmexiangqindahui？”
“yi？gugumeigennishuoma？xiazhouliuzaixxjiudianyougexiangqindahui，tajinibaomingle，haitedirangwopeiniqu。”
woshunjianzhanqilai：“ma！niyoubeizhewobaomingxiangqin？”
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mamabeiwozheiyishenghoudeyijiling，suijilizhiqizhuangdao：“zheibushiweinihaoma？nikankannibiaomei，renjiadoujiehunshengzile。jiunizhengtianzhaizaijiali，liangeduixiangdoumeiyou。”
“wodoushuolebuxiangzhao！”
“buxing！”mamayetigaoleshengyin，“zheicishizhengjingdexiangqindahui，laidedoushiyoushenfenderen。zaishuole，biaomeidoudayingpeiniqule...”
“biaomeiganggangshuobuqule。”wohuanglehuangshouji。
“shenme？！”mamayibaqiangguowodeshouji，kanwanxiaoxihoulikedadianhuajigugu，“jie，xiaomeizenmeshuobuqule？bushishuohaodema？”
wochenjihuifangjianshoushidongxi。
zheizhonghuanjingwoshiyifenzhongyedaibuxiaqule。ganglinqibaozhunbeichumen，mamajiuchongjinlailanzhuwo。
“你去哪？”
“huiwozijidefangzi。”
“buxing！”mamahengzaimenkou，“niyigerenzhutaibuanquanle。erqienineigefangzi...bujili。”
wozhidaotazhideshishenme。neishiwojiehunshimaidefangzi，lihunhouwozhudongbanlechulai。
danxianzaiwobixubanhuiqu。zaizheiyangbeibizhexiangqinxiaqu，wohuifengde。
“ma，nijiubieguanwole。wozheigenianji，zaojiugaiyouzijideshenghuole。”
“nineijiaoshenmeshenghuo？zhengtianjiuzhidaogongzuo。liangeshuohuaderendoumeiyou，zheibushizaotazijima？”
woshenxiyikouqi：“ma，woyouzijideshejiaoquan，yeyouhenduopengyou。”
“doushixieshenmepengyou？neigepojuzulidexizi？”mamabuxiedishuo。
shide，woshiyimingjuzuhuazhuangshi。zaimamayanli，zheifengongzuobugoutimian，jiechudedoushi“busanbusi”deren。
danzheifengongzuoshiwodereai，yeshiwodelishenzhiben。
“xingle，bugennizheng。wozoule。”
“nigan！”mamadangzaimenkouburangwozou。
zheishibabayezouleguolai：“ting**meicuo。zaishuole，niyigerenyebunenglaozheimepiaozhe。zhaogewendingde，dajiadoufangxin。”
“wohenwending。”wolenglengdishuo。
“nineijiaowending？zhengtiangenzhejuzudaochupao，liangezhengjingbabaidedanweidoumeiyou。zheirangwomenzenmegenrenjiajieshao？”
wobuxiangzaijixuzheigehuati，yingjiguomamashenbianjiuyaozou。
mamayibazhuaizhuwodebao：“niyaoshiganzou，wojiu...”
“你就怎样？”
“wojiu...genzheniyiqizhu！”mamaweixiedao。
wojiangzhule。zheigeweixiehenyouxiao，yinweiwozhidaotazhendezuodechulai。
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shangciwolijiachuzou，tazhendetuozhexinglixiangzhuidaowozhuchu，zailouxiayoukuyounao。zuihouwobudebubanhuilai。
mamajianwotingxia，yuqihuanhelexie：“tinghua，zheicixiangqindahuihenzhengshide。laidedoushigexinggeyedejingying，shuobudingjiuyudaoheshidele。”
**zaiqiangshang，yizhenwuliganxilai。
zheizhongwuliganbingfeiyuanyutili，ershimianduiyuanshengjiatingshideneizhongjingshenpibei。tamenyongyuanbuhuilijie，wozhixiangguozijixiangyaodeshenghuo。
“neige...wokaolvkaolvba。”wofuyandao。
mamayanjingyiliang：“zheijiuduile。nifangxin，mamakendingjinibaguan，juebuhuirangnizaishouweiqu。”
wohuidaofangjian，tangzaichuangshangwangzhetianhuabanfadai。
shoujiyouxiangle，zheicishijuzudewangdaoyan：“xiaorou，xiageyuexinxikaiji，niyoukonglaibangmangma？”
wozhengyaohuifu，mamaturanzaiwaimianqiaomen：“sheizhaonia？”
“gongzuodeshi。”wosuikoudadao。
“shenmegongzuo？buhuiyoushineigejuzuba？nikexiangqingchule，zhaoduixiangzuizhongyao。”
wobatoumaizaizhentouli，fachuyishengmenheng。
turan，yigezhuyizaiwonaohaizhongshanguo。
jirantamenzheimezaiyimianzi，feiyaoyinmanwoliyideshishi，neiwoburujiangjijiuji？
wodakaishoujitongxunlu，fandaoyigexujiuweilianxidehaoma。
neishiwozaijuzurenshideyanyuan，suiranzhihezuoguoyibuxi，dantajiwodeyinxiangbucuo。
yaobuyao...“jiaxizhenzuo”yiba？
dakaixiangce，wofandaoyizhangjiuzhaopian。neishiqunianpaixishidegongzuozhao，tachuanzhexifu，xiaorongwennuan。
woshenxiyikouqi，dianjilebohaojian。
“wei，dinglei，haijidewoma？woshihuazhuangshixiaorou...”
wodeshengyinyouxiefadou，danneixinyijingxiadingjuexin。
jirantamenzhiyiyaojiwoanpaiyichangxi，neiwojiurangzheichangxibiandegengyouquyixie。
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dingleibiwojiyizhonggenggaolexie，juzujieshuhoutahaoxiangyoujianshenle。tazuozaikafeitingli，yishenxiuxianxizhuang，kanqilaihenshideti。
“suoyi，nishixiangrangwojiabanniqianfu？”tajiaobanzhekafei，yanshenyouxiekunhuo。
“bushiqianfu，shixianrenzhangfu。”woyadishengyinjieshi，“woxuyaonijiazhuangwomenhaizaihunyinguanxizhong。”
“jutishishenmeqingkuang？”tafangxiajiaobanshao，renzhendikanzhewo。
wotanlekouqi，bafumuweileweihumianzimanzhesuoyouqinqi、zhiyianpaiwoxiangqindeshiqingshuoleyibian。
“suoyinishixiangyongyige'jiazhangfu'laizuzhizheichangxiangqin？”taruoyousuosi，“danzheiyangfengxianhenda。wanyibeichaichuan，nifumudemianzihuigengguabuzhu。”
“wozhidao。”wocuozhebeizi，“danwoshizaishoubulebeibihunle。meitianzhaopianbaiyidui，henbudebawoanzaizhaopianshangxuan。”
“weishenmeturanzhaowo？”
“yinweiwojuedenirentinghaode。”wokuxiao，“erqienishigeyanyuan，zheizhongshiduinilaishuoyinggaibunan。”
dingleibakafeituidaoyibian：“danzheishizaixianshishenghuozhong，bushizaijuzu。wanyibeichuochuan...”
“buhuide。”wojimangshuo，“wofumucongmeijianguowoqianfu。wojiehundeshihou，tamenjilifandui，suoyigenbenmeiqucanjiahunli。”
dingleizhoumei：“zheimeshuo，nishitoutoujiehunyoutoutoulihun？”
“suanshiba。”wodixiatou，“suoyixianzaitamendasuanmanzhesuoyouren，jiazhuangwocongweijieguohun。”
“ranhoubiniquxiangqin。”tajieguohua。
“dui。wobuxiangzaijingliyicicuihun，suoyi...”wotingdunleyixia，“niyuanyibangwoma？jiuzheiyici。”
dingleichenmolehenjiu。jiuzaiwoyiweitayaojujueshi，tashuo：“hao。”
“zhende？”woyouxiebuganxiangxin。
“ng。buguowoyougetiaojian。”tazhengsedao，“zheijianshijieshuhou，nidedayingwoyigeyaoqiu。”
woxinliyijin：“shenmeyaoqiu？”
“daoshihouzaishuo。”taluchuyigegaoshenmocedeweixiao。
“ruguoyaoyan，jiudeyouwanzhengderenshe。biruwomenshishenmeshihourenshide？zainalijiehunde？weishenmeyizhibulumian？zheixiexijiedoudeduihao。”quedingzhihou，dingleimashangkaishisikaozenmebanyanzhangfu。
“woxiangguole。jiushuowomenshiqunianzaijuzurenshide。niyannanzhujiao，woshihuazhuangshi。yinweigongzuoxingzhiteshu，suoyiyizhimeishijianjianjiazhang。”
“tingqilaiheqingheli。”tadiandiantou，“buguohaideyougengduoxijie。birudiyiciyuehuiqulenali，qiuhundechangjing，hunlideguimo......”
woyishiyusai。zheixiexijiewoqueshimeixiangneimeduo。
“yaowoshuo，gancuiyongzhenshidelaigaibian。”tanachushoujifanlefan，zhaochuyizhangqunianjuzushaqingshidehezhao，“nikan，zheizhangjiutinghao。zhenghaonengzhengmingwomenqueshirenshi。”
“shuodedui，deyongdianzhenshisucai。”wocouguoqukanneizhangzhaopian。neishishaqingyanshangdeheying，wozhengzaibangtabuzhuang，tazexiaozhepeihewodedongzuo。
“diyicijianmianjiushedingzaizheitianba。”dingleizhizhezhaopianshangderiqi，“qunianchuntian，nifuzejiwozuodingzhuang。dangshiwobeizhuangqianzhuanghoudechajuzhenjingdaole，jiuduinichanshenglexingqu。”
woxiaole：“tingqilaixiangzaipaiqingchunouxiangju。”
“xiyaozuo**。”tayibenzhengjingdishuo，“zhihouwojiujingchangzhaoniliaotian，qingnihekafei。niyikaishiduiwohenfangbei，juedeyanyuandoubukaopu。danwoyonglesangeyueshijiandadongni。”
“zheidaoshiheli。”wodiandiantou，“hewozhiqiandehunyinjingliyenengduishang。”
dingleinachubijibenrenzhenjilu：“ranhoushiqunianguoqing，juzushaqinghouwojiuqiuhunle。zaidonghailudehaibingongyuan，wodanxiguidi，nigandongdekule。”
“dengdeng，weishenmexuanneili？”
“yinweineilirenshao，shihepaizhaoquzheng。”tadiaochushoujixiangce，zhaochuyizhangqunianzaihaibingongyuandegongzuozhao，“nikan，zheizhangzhaopiandebeijingjiuhenxiangqiuhunchangjing。”
wobudebupeifutadezhuanyesuyang，lianzheizhongxijiedouxiangdaole。
“婚礼呢？”我问。
“jiushuoshijiandandezhuceyishi。”tasisuopianke，“jiuwomenlianggerenqudeminzhengju。yinweidoubuxiangdacaodaban，yefuhenibuyuanzhangyangdexingge。”
woanzijingtantaduiwodelejie。queshi，woyixiangdidiao，zheiyangdeshedinghentieqie。
“duile，haiyouyigewenti。”tazhengsedao，“jiranshifuqi，jiudeyouyixieshenghuoxijie。biruniyoushenmexiaoxiguan？shuijueshishifoudahu？xihuanchishenme？taoyanshenme？zheixiedoudetiqianzhidao。”
woyaozhezuichunsikao。zheiqueshishigenanti，fuqishenghuodexijieshizaitaiduole。
“youyaozuichun。”tatixingwo，“zheigexiguanwojide，meicijiwohuazhuangshinijinzhangjiuhuizheiyang。”
“nizenmelianzheigedoujide？”woyouxiejingya。
taxiaolexiao：“yanxiyaoshenrushenghuoma。qunianhezuoneichangxi，wokeshirenzhenguanchaguoni。zhidaonixihuanhejiaotangmaqiduo，danji**，meicizhihebanbei。wucanaichiroumoqiezi，taoyanhuluobu。gongzuoshixiguanzhawanzitou，xiuxilejiupizhe。”
wolengzhule。zheixiexijielianwozijidoukuaiwangle，tajurandoujide。
“suoyiwojianyi，zanmenjiuyongzhenshidelaitao。”taheshangbijiben，“zheiyangbijiaoziran，burongyiluxian。”
kanzhetarenzhendeyangzi，woturanyouxiehuanghu。ruguodangchuzhendeyudaozheiyangyigexixintitiederen，huoxuwojiubuhuiyouneiduanshibaidehunyinle。
“xing，jiuzheimedingle。”woshenxiyikouqi，“buguohaiyouzuihouyigewenti。”
“什么？”
“choulaodeshi......”
“woshuole，zheijianshijieshuhounidayingwoyigeyaoqiujiuxing。”tazhanqishen，“shijianbuzaole，wosongnihuiquba。mingtiankaishipailianfuqirichang。”
kanzhetaliluodijiezhang，bangwonabaodeyangzi，woturanjuedezheichangxi，sihumeiyouxiangxiangzhongneimenanyan。
jiexialaijitian，womenkaishipailian“enaifuqi”dexima。
dingleihenzhuanye，bujinshejilewanzhengderenshe，haibangwoxianghaolegezhongyingduifangan。
“haole，womenlailianxiyixia。”dingleizhanqishen，“daihuiwomenquguangjie，yanlianyixiafuqirichang。niyaoxiguanwodezhitijiechu。”
woxiayishiwanghoutuileyibu。
“kan，niyouluguaile。”tawunaidishuo，“zhenfuqihuizheiyangma？”
woshenxiyikouqi，nulirangzijifangsongxialai。
dandangtazirandiqianqiwodeshoushi，wohaishihunshenjinbeng。
“fangsong。”tazaiwoerbianqingshengshuo，“bazheidangchengpaixijiuhao。”
woqiangpozijidairujiaose，manmanshiyingtadechupeng。
guangjieshi，dingleibiaoxiandehenziran。tahuizaiwoshiyifushijichuzhuanyeyijian，haihuizaiwopibeishidishangyibeinaicha。
budebushuo，tabukuishizhuanyeyanyuan。meigexijiedouhendaowei，lianlurendouyiweiwomenshiyidui。
“niyandetaihaole。”huiqudelushang，worenbuzhugantan。
taxiaolexiao：“zheibushiyanji，shitaidu。duidaiganqing，woyixianghenrenzhen。”
woyishiyusai，buzhidaogaizenmejiehua。
zhengqiaozheishishoujixiangle。shimama。
“nizainani？zenmezheimewanhaibuhuijia？”
wokanleyanshijian，yijingbadianduole。
“wo...”wozhengyaobiangeliyou，dingleituranjieguoshouji。
“ayininhao，woshixiaoroudezhangfu。jintiandaitachulaiguangjie，suoyihuiquwanle。ninbiedanxin。”
wodengdayanjing，meixiangdaotahuizheimezuo。
dianhuaneitouchenmolejimiao，ranhouchuanlaimamazhandoudeshengyin：“ni...nishishei？”
“henbaoqianxianzaicaigenninlianxi。”dingleiyuqichengken，“womengongzuodoubijiaomang，jushaoliduo。danwoyizhihenaixiaorou，yeyizhixiangzhaojihuijiannin。”
wanle，zheixiazhendewandale。