wozaimiqilinsanxingcantingzhaodaizhongyaokehu，shoujituranzhendong。tongshitanqifalaiyiduanluyin：“xuzong，
nibangongshihaoxiangyoudongjing...”zhijianhuaguopingmudeshunjian，
zhenggecantingxianrusiji——nvrenwangqingde**tongguolanyayinxiangzhaxiang。kehumenbiyidemuguangxiangdaozi，
jinglitieqingzhelianqingwolikai。zhiyouwozhidao，neishengyinbushi**yanyuan，ershiwodeqizilinyin。
gengfengcideshi，luyinlirangta**denanren，shitadezhumazhangyang。wochongchucanting，
shoujizaicizhendong，shilinyindeduanxin：“laogong，jinwanzhangyanggelaijialixiushuiguan，woliutachifane。
”diyizhangshoujizaipuzhexuebaiyamazhuobudezhuomianshangwengwengzhendong，xiangyizhichuisizhengzhadekunchong。
wozhengduanqineibeiguidelipudebogendihongjiu，
shituyongtadechunhoulaiyazhuxintouneidianyinjingbiaoyalidailaidefanzao。beiyangangchudaozuichun，pingmuliangle，
shitanqidemingzitiaochulai。“xuzong，nibangongshihaoxiangyoudongjing...youdianqiguai，woluxialaile，nitingting？
”yixingzihoumiangenzheyigeciyandeyinpinwenjiantubiao。zhijiandaizhedianmanbujingxindefanzaohuaguopingmu。
jihushitongshi，yigubinglengde、daizhejinshuzhigandedianliumengdicuanguowodejizhui——wowangle！
weilegangcaijikehuzhanshifangan，wodeshoujilanyahailianzhecantingzheitaodingjideb&ohuanraoyinxiang！
“ng…a…zhangyang…bie…bieting…”yigenvrendeshengyin，
daizheyizhongbeirousuilede、binlinbengkuidejizhihuanyu，
haowuyuzhaodisilielecantingliyuanbenliutangdebahedatiqinzuqu。neishengyinbaoman、gaokang，
meiyigewanzhuande**doudaizheshiluludezhanyin，xiangcuiledudegouzi，
jingzhundichuantouleshuijingdiaodengrouhedeguangyun，chuantouleyinzhicanjuqingweidepengzhuangsheng，
chuantoulesuoyoukeyiweichideyouyajiamian，henhenzazaimeiyigerendeermoshang。shijian，ninggule。wojiangzaiyuandi，
neibeibogendifangfozaiwoshoulishunjianningguchenglexuekuai。kongqibuzaishikongqi，
bianchenglezhanchoude、lingrenzhixidejiaoshui。wonengqingxidiganjuedaozhouweisuoyoumuguang，xiangwushugenshaohongdegangzhen，
congsimianbafangciguolai，zhazaiwodelianshang、shenshang，daizhehaobuyanshidezhenjing、biyi，
haiyouyisilieqidexingfen。linzhuoneigechuanzhexiangnaiertaozhuangdenvshi，jingediwuzhulezui，
yanjingdengdeliuyuan；xieduimianneigeyizhishitugenwotaojinhudetudingwangzong，lianshangfeiroudoudongzhe，
zuijiaoliekaiyigejiqiweisuoyouxingzailehuodehudu；wozijidekehu，
neiweiyiyanjinkebanzhuchengdedeguolaotouhansi，meitouningchenglesijie，
jingpianhoudelanyanjinglishihaobuyanshideyanehenanyizhixin，fangfokandaoleshenmejiqiwuhuidedongxi。siji。
zhiyouneilingrenmianhongerchide**haizaibuzhipijuandihuidang，zhuangjizheguangjiedeqiangbi，zuanjinmeiyigejiaoluo。
wodedanaoyipiankongbai，wengwengzuoxiang，xueyefengkuangdichongshangtouding，youzaixiayimiaotundeganganjingjing，
liuxiachegudebingleng。shouzhixiangbeidongzhu，zenmeyedianbudaoneigegaisidetingzhijian。
neishengyin…neishengyin…“xuxiansheng！”cantingjinglixiangyidaoheisedeshandian，shunjianchuxianzaizhuopang，liansetieqing，
zuichunminchengyitiaofenglidezhixian，shengyinyadejidi，quedaizheburongzhiyidebingleng，
“qingninlike、mashangtingzhibofang！bingsuiwolikai！ninyanzhongraoluanlebencantingdezhixu，
wurulesuoyoukerendeyongcantiyan！”xiuruganxiangguntangdeyanjiang，shunjianyanmeilewo。womengdizhuaqishouji，
zhijianyinweiyonglierfabai，henhenchuoxiangpingmu。neilingrenzuooudeshengyinzhongyujiaranerzhi。dansijibingweixiaoshi，
fanergengjiachenzhong，yaderenchuanbuguoqi。meiyidaomuguangdouxiangbianzi，choudazhewo。“hansixiansheng，wangzong，
lizong…wo…”woshitukaikou，shengyingansedexiangshazhimoca，houlongliduzheyituan**ladeyingkuai。
woxiangjieshi，xianggaosutamenzheishigewuhui，yigegaiside、huangmiudewuhui！kewonengshuoshenme？
shuoneishiwolaopodeshengyin？shuoneishiwolaopozaibiedenanrenshenxiafachudeshengyin？hansimengdizhanqishen，
dongzuodadedaidaolecanjin。takanyemeikanwoyiyan，yongdeyuduizhulijicudishuolejushenme，
neizhulilikekaishishoushiwenjian，yanshenduoshan。wangzongzemanyouyoudinaqicanjincalecazui，
lianshangneimoyounidexiaoronggengshenle：“aiya，xuzong，nianqingrenma…lijie，lijie！jiushizheichanghe…zeze，
tai**ledian！xiacizhuyi，xiacizhuyia！haha！”neixiaoshengxiangdundaozigerou。“xuxiansheng，qing！
”jinglideshengyinzaicixiangqi，bingleng，qiangying，daizhezuihoutongdiedeyiwei。taceshenrangkai，
shoubeizhixiangchukoudefangxiang，zitaiburongkangju。woxiangyijubeichoukonglelinghundemuou，
zaiwushudaomuguangdelingchixia，jiangyingdizhanqilai。angguidexizhuangcikexiangchenzhongdejiasuo，ledewowufahuxi。
wonengganjuedaozijilianshangdejirouzaibushoukongzhidichouchu，guntang，youbingleng。woshenzhibuganqukanneixiemuguang，
zhishisisidingzhejiaoxiaguangkejianrendedalishidimian，neishangmianmohudiyingchuwoniuqu、langbeideyingzi。
meiyibudouxiangcaizaishaohongdetanhuoshang，chuanguoneilingrenzhixidejijing，
zouxiangneishanxiangzhengzhechedishehuixingsiwangdexuanzhuanmen。shenhou，xisuideyilunshengzhongyuxiangchaoshuibanyongqi，
daizhebiyideqingxiaohehaobuyanshidezhizhidiandian。
“zhenexin…”“kanzherenmogouyangde…”“gonggongchanghefangzheige，naoziyoubingba？”“zeze，
shifengrixia…”neixieshengyin，meiyigezidouxiangcuiledudezhen，zhajinwodeerduo，cichuanwodexinzang。
womengdituikaichenzhongdebolimen，chuqiuyewanweiliangdekongqipumianerlai，feidanmeiyoudailaiqingxing，
fanerxiangwushubingzhenzhajinwoguntangdepifu。wojihushiliangqiangzhechongdaolubian，fuzhebinglengdedengzhu，
weiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai，qiangliedeoutuganyongshanglai，queshenmeyetubuchu，zhiyoudanzhidekusezhuoshaozhehoulong。
jiuzaizheishi，koudailideshoujizaicizhendongqilai。woxiangbeitangdaoyiyangmengditaochuta，
pingmudeguangzaihunandeludengxiacideyanjingshengteng。shilinyin。“laogong，haizaiyingchouma？xinkulee！
gennishuoyisheng，jialichufangshuiguanturanbaole，shuimanjinshanla！haihaozhangyanggezhenghaozaifujinbanshi，
woganjindadianhuajiaotalaibangmangle。taxiuhaole，yishendoushitoule，woliutazaijiachigebianfan，dengnihuilaie！
aini，memeda！(づ￣3￣)づ”houmianhaigenzheyigeqiaopideaixinbiaoqing。
“zhangyangge…”zheisangezi，xiangsanbashaohongdeluotie，henhentangzaiwodeshiwangmoshang，tangzaiwodeshenjingshang。
gangcailuyinlineiyishengshengshiguxiaohunde“zhangyang…bieting…”shunjianzainaohailizhakai，
yuyanqianzheitiaokansipingchang、shenzhidaizhedianwenxinsajiaoyiweideduanxin，
xingchenglezuihuangdan、zuiedu、zuilingrenzuooudeduibi！“yishendoushitoule…”wodingzhezheijigezi，
yachiyaodegegezuoxiang，yiguxingtiandetiexiuweizaikouqianglimimankai。shixiushuiguannongshide？
haishi…biedeshenmegengjilie、geng“wangwo”deyundong？neisuoweide“bianfan”，cikezaiwoniuqudexiangxiangli，
chongmanlelingrenfazhide**qixi。tamenshibushizhengzuozaiwohelinyinjingxintiaoxuandecanzhuopang，
yongzhewomaidewankuai，fenxiangzhegangcaineichang“jilieweixiu”houdeyuyun？
linyinshibushihaichuanzheneijianwozuixihuande、lingkouyoudiandidezhensishuiqun？zhangyangnei**shitoudechenshanxia，
shibushihaicanliuzhewoqizizhijiadezhuahen？“aini，memeda！”neigeciyandeaixinbiaoqing，
xiangyibacuidudebishou，henhentongjinwodexinzang，zaiyonglijiaodong！
jizhidefennuheyizhongbeichediyunong、beidangchengchetoucheweishazidejudaxiurugan，rutonghuoshanrongyan，
shunjianchongkualewozuihouyisilizhidediba。“a——！
”yishengyayidaojizhide、yeshoubandedihoucongwohoulongshenchubengfachulai。womengdiyangqishou，
yongjinquanshenliqi，jiangneigehaizaishanshuozhelinyin“aiyi”deshouji，henhenzaxiangbinglengjianyingdeboyoulumian！
“peng！”yishengcuixiang，bansuizhepingmuzhuwangbanzhaliedeciyanguangmang。suipiansijian，
xiangshiwociketongyangzhiliposuideshijiehexinzang。wodakouchuanzhecuqi，xiongkoujulieqifu，yanqianzhenzhenfahei。
cantinglineilingrenzhixidebiyimuguang，tongshimenkenengdeqiexiaoheyilun，jijiangdaolaidezhichangzainan…zheiyiqie，
zaiqizi**luodebeipanmianqian，doubiandemohueryaoyuan。zhishengxianeiluyinlishigude**，
heyanqianzheitiaoxuweidaolingrenzuooudeduanxin，xiangliangtiaobinglengdedushe，sisichanraozhewodeshenjing，
kenshizhewodelinghun。jia？neigecengjingwennuande、chengzaizhewosuoyoufendouyiyidegangwan，cikezaiwonaohaili，
yijingbianchengleyigejudade、angzangdexianjing，yigezhengzaijinxingzhe**gouhedeyinku！womengdizhiqishen，
xiangyitoubeichedijinu、shiqulesuoyoulizhidekunshou。binglengdeyefengguanjinwochangkaidexizhuanglingkou，
quesihaowufalengquewoxueyelifeitengdeshayihehuimieyiqiedechongdong。woyaohuiqu！like！mashang！
woyaoqinyankankan，zheiduigounannv，zaiwoyongxuehanqianmailaidefangzili，zaiwojingxinbuzhidehunchuangshang，
daodihaineng**daoshenmedibu！wochongdaolubian，wushishenhoucantingbaoantoulaidejingtimuguang，
cubaodilakaiyiliangganggangtingxiadechuzuchechemen。“shifu！qufenglinlvzhou！kuai！yongzuikuaidesudu！
”wodeshengyinsiyadebuxiangrensheng，meiyigezidouxiangshicongyafengliyingjichulaide，
daizhenongzhongdexuexingqihewufayizhidezhandou。sijishigezhongniannanren，
beiwozhengningdeliansehehairendeyuqiheleyitiao，xiayishidisuolesuobozi，
touguohoushijingfeikuaidipielewoyiyan，dagaishikandaolewoyanzhongneijihuyaopenboerchudechihongnuhuo。
tameiganduowen，zhishijinzhangdiyanlekoutuomo，mengdiyijiaoyoumencaidaodi。chuzuchexianglixianzhijianbancuanlechuqu，
luntaimocadimianfachucierdejianjiao。qiangliedetuibeiganjiangwosisianzaizuoyishang，
chuangwaidenihongdenghecheliushunjianlachengyipianmohuerniuqudeguangdai，rutongwocikehunluanerkuangbaodeneixinshijie。
wosisizuanzhequantou，zhijiashenshenxianjinzhangxin，dailaiyizhenjianruidecitong，
quesihaowufazhuanyixinkouneibeisiliebandejutong。
naozilixiangzaibofangyichangshikongde、chongmanseqingyubaolidedianying：linyinqiaoxiaoqianxidijizhangyangjiacai，
他们一起收拾碗筷，
shiwoshi…neizhangkuandade、puzhelinyinjingtiaoxixuandeaijimianchuangdandehunchuang…linyinneijuwowubishuxideshenti，
xiazhanfangchuwocongweijianguode、luyinlineizhongjizhidemeitai…tayehuineiyangwangqingdihan“zhangyang…bieting…”ma？
“e…”weibuyoushiyizhenjuliedejingluan，womengdiwuzhuzui，etoushangshunjianshenchulenghan。
sijiconghoushijinglidanyoudikanlewoyiyan。“xiansheng…nin…meishiba？yaobuyaokaimandian？”“bu！kuai！
zaikuai！”wojihushihouchulaide，shengyinyinweijidudeyayierniuqubianxing，“yongzuikuaidesudu！jiwokai！
”sijibuganzaishuohua，zhishibayoumencaidegengshen。yinqingfachuchenmendesihou，
chezizaicheliuzhongfengkuangdichuansuo、chaoche，meiyicijizhuanwandourangwoshentibushoukongzhidizhuangxiangchemen。
shentidetengtongweibuzudao，wozhixianglike、mashangchongjinneigesuoweide“jia”，yongzuizhijie、zuibaoliedefangshi，
sisuineiduigounannvjingxinweizhuangdejiamian！fenglinlvzhouneishuxidedamenlunkuozhongyuchuxianzaishiyejintou。
gaodangxiaoqudemenjinsenyan，dancikezaiwoyanzhong，neihuanhuantaiqidedaozha，
jiuxiangyizhangwushengchaoxiaozhewode、liekaideheisedazui。“ting！jiuzheili！”wosihouzhe，
budengcheziwanquantingwen，jiushuaichuyizhangbaiyuanchaopiao，mengdituikaichemenchonglechuqu。sijizaihoumianhanzhe“xiansheng！
zhaoninqian！”，shengyinshunjianbeiyefengsisui。woxiangyidaoguoxiezhediyulieyandeheisexuanfeng，chongguoxiaoqudamen。
baoantinglidebaoansihuxiangkaikouxunwen，danbeiwoneifuzerenershidekongbushenqinghedebahuayanlehuiqu，
xiayishidihoutuileyibu。shuxideloudong，shuxidedanyuanmen。wochongjindianti，
fengkuangdianzheneigedaibiaozhe“jia”deloucengshuzi“17”，
fangfoyaojiangneibinglengdejinshuanniuanjindiantibili。diantipingwenshangsheng，
jingmianqiangbiyingchuwocikedemoyang：toufalingluan，shuangyanchihongbumanxuesi，
liansecanbaizhongtouzheyizhongbingtaidechaohong，zuichunyinweijinyaoershenchuxuesi，angguidexizhuangzhoubabadiguozaishenshang，
zhenggerensanfazheyizhongbinlinbengkuide、huimiexingdeqixi。“ding——”diantimendakaideshunjian，
woxiangyitouchulongdemengshou，yibujiukualechuqu。zoulanglipuzhehouhoudeditan，xizoulejiaobusheng，
zhishengxiawocuzhongrupofengxiangbandechuanxizaisijidekongqizhonghuidang。
wozhanzaineishanshuxide、tiezhe“fu”zideshenzongsefangdaomenqian，xinzangzaixiongqianglifengkuangleidong，
jihuyaozhuangsuileigutiaochulai。yaochi…yaochizainali？woshoumangjiaoluandizaikoudailifanzhao，
shouzhiyinweijuliedezhandouergenbenbutingshihuan。xizhuangneidai…meiyou！kuzikoudai…meiyou！gaiside！
wobaozaodidihouyisheng，mengdixiangqigangcaizaicantingmenkou，
sihubayaochiheqianbaoyiqisaijinlegongwenbao…ergongwenbao…haoxiangbeiwoyiwangzaicantingneigaisideyizishangle！
“cao！”yishengyayidezhoumachongkouerchu。judadecuobaiganxiangyipenbingshui，
zanshijiaoxileyidianwofeitengdenuhuo，
querangneigubeijuzhimenwaide、beichedipaichuzai“jia”zhiwaidebinglengjuewanggangengjiaqingxicigu。
jiuzaiwojihuyaokongzhibuzhuyongjiaoquchuaineishangaisidemenshi，menneiyinyuechuanlaileshengyin。shiyinle。
qingroude、shuhuandejueshile，yonglandesakesifengxiangqingrenaimeideeryu，
sisilvlvditouguohouzhongdemenbanzuanchulai。haiyou…xiaosheng。linyinneishuxide、daizhedianjiaohandeqingxiao，
xiangyinlingyiyangqingcui。jinjiezhe，shiyigenanrendichen、daizhecixingdexiaosheng，shizhangyang！
neixiaoshenglichongmanlehaobuyanshideyuyuehe…mouzhongxinzhaobuxuandeqinmi！tamenzaixiao！
zaiwoganggangjinglilerenshengzuijizhidexiuru，zaiwoxianggesangjiazhiquanyiyangtaolineigediyubandecanting，
zaiwobeifennuhetongkusichedekuaiyaobaozhadeshihou…tamenzaiwojiali，tingzheyinle，tanxiaofengsheng！neixiaosheng，
birenheedudezhoumadougengcier，biluyinlide**gengrangwogandaowanjianchuanxin！taxiangyibadundaozi，
zaiwoxinkoufanfudi、huanmandiqiege，chaoxiaozhewodeyuchun，wodeshibai，wode…yibaitudi！
wofangqilexunzhaoyaochidetulao，zhenggerenxiangbeichoudiaolegutou，
tuirandi、zhongzhongdikaozailebinglengdejinshumenbanshang。etoudizhebinglengdemen，
neidianliangyisihaowufalengquewonaozhongfantengde、zuyifenhuiyiqiedelieyan。menneideyinlehexiaosheng，
qingxidi、canrendichuanjinwodeerduo，meiyigeyinfu，meiyishengqingxiao，douxiangcuiledudezhen，
mimimamadizhajinwodeshenjing。wogaizenmeban？xianggefengziyiyangzamen？ranhouni？
mianduitamenkenengyiguanchuchu、yilianwugudezhiwen？tinglinyinyongtaneitaodishuibuloudehuangyanlaifenshitaiping？
kanzhangyangnei**jiaxingxingdibanyan“haogege”dejiaose？bu！neitaibianyitamenle！
neizhihuirangwoxiandegengjiakebei，gengjiashikong！yigebingleng、heiandeniantou，
rutongdushebanqiaoranhuaruwodenaohai。zamen？bu。woyaoting。woyaoqingqingchuchuditingxiaqu。woyaozhidao，
zaiwozheige“zhangfu”quexideyewan，wodeqizihetade“haogege”，daodineng“qinmi”daoshenmechengdu！
woyaoshoujizhengju，woyaorangtamenzheiduigounannv，fuchuzuicantongdedaijia！woyaoranglinyinshenbaiminglie，
rangzhangyangneigedaomaoanrandeweijunzichediwandan！woyaoduohuiwoshiqudeyiqiezunyan，
napa…napashiyongzuijiduandefangshi！fuchoudeduye，shunjianqudailechuncuidefennu，
kaishizaiwoxueguanlibinglengdiliutang。tadailaiyizhongjinhucanrendelengjing。woshenxiyikouqi，
qiangpozijizhanzhishenti，likaineishanbinglengdemen。jiaobufangdejiqing，xiangyoulingyiyang，
qiaowushengxidituidaolezoulangguaijiaochudexiaofangtongdaomenhou。zheiliguangxianhunan，youyipianxiazhaideyinyingkeyizangshen，
younengqingxiditingdao1701menkouderenhedongjing。woxiangyigezuinaixindelieren，
youxiangyigezuiedudetoukuizhe，jiangzijichediyinzangzaiheianli。erduoxiangzuijingmideleida，
buzhuozhemenneichuanlaidemeiyigexiweideshengxiang。yinlehaizaijixu，yonglandesakesifengliaobozheyese。
linyindexiaoshengyouxiangqile，
daizheyizhongwocongweizaitaduiwoshuohuashiliuluguode、jinhusajiaodetianni：“…zhangyangge，nichangchangzheige！
woxinxuedehongjiuhuiniuwei，dunlehaojiuni，roudousule！”“ng，wenzhejiuxiang！
”zhangyangdeshengyindaizhexiaoyi，tingqilaihenjin，fangfojiutiezaimenhou，“yinyindeshouyizhenshiyuelaiyuehaole。
ze，xuzanneixiaozi，zhenshiyoufubuhuixiang，tiantianjiuzhidaozaiwaimianyingchou，cuoguoduoshaomeiwei。
”tajiaowo“neixiaozi”？haipingjiawo“youfubuhuixiang”？yiguxiehuomengdicuanshanglai，wosisiyaozhuhoucaoya，
caimeirangzijichongchuqu。“aiya，tamangma…”linyindeshengyintingqilaihenziran，
shenzhidaizhedianweiwokaituodeyiwei，danjinjiezhe，tadeyuqisihuweiweibianle，
daizheyisibuyichajuede…youyuan？“…youshihou，shitingmeiyiside。jialishuiguanbaole，denghuaile，
huozhezhishi…zhishixiangzhaogerenshuoshuohuadeshihou，tadoubuzai。haihao…younizai。”zuihousangezi，
tashuodehenqing，henrou，xiangyipianyumaoqingqingfuguo，quezaiwoerzhongbuchiyujinglei！“shagua，
”zhangyangdeshengyindichenxiaqu，daizheyizhongjinhuchongnidewenrou，“genwohaikeqishenme？congxiaobujiuzheiyang？
nideshi，jiushiwodeshi。zhiyaonixuyao，wosuishidouzai。”tadeshengyintingdunleyixia，sihugengkaojinle，
“…buguanshishenmeshihou。”menneichuanlaiyizhenqingweide、yiwumocadexisusheng，
haiyoulinyinyishengjiqingde、daizhebiyinde“ng”。neishengyin，xiangxiaomaodewuyan，
chongmanleyilaihe…mouzhongnanyiyanyudemanzugan。wodezhijiayijingshenshenqiajinlezhangxinderouli，tengtongjianrui，
queyuanbujixinkouneibeifanfulingchidetongchu。tamenjiuzaimenhou！yexuzhigezheyicengbobodemuban！
zhangyangdeshoushibushizhengfangzailinyindejianshang？huozhe…gengguofendedifang？linyinshibushizhengyangzhelian，
yongneizhongwocongweijianguode、chongmanchongbaiheyiliandeyanshenkanzheta？“duile，”zhangyangdeshengyinzaicixiangqi，
daizhediansuiyidekouwen，quexiangyibazhongchuizazaiwoxinshang，“xiawuzainijiashufang…e，
bangnizhaoneibenjiuxiangcedeshihou，haoxiangbuxiaoxinpengdaonidiannaole？meinonghuaishenmeba？”shufang？xiawu？
wodeshufang？！yiguhanyishunjiancongjiaodibanzhichongtianlinggai！xiawu…womingmingzaigongsi！
tamen…tamenxiawujiuzaiwojia？zaiwodeshufangli？！zhaoxiangce？duomezhuolieyouduome“heli”dejiekou！
wodediannao…wofangzaishufangshuzhuoshangdesirenbijibendiannao！neilimian…“a？meiyoumeiyou！
”linyindeshengyintingqilaihenqingsong，shenzhidaizhedianxiaoyi，“jiuliangleyixiapingbao，meishide。neipodiannao，
xuzanbaobeidegenshenmeside，shelebabaidaomima，pengyixiayoubuhuizenyang。”taqingmiaodanxie！
tashenzhidaizhedianduiwo“xiaotidazuo”dechaonong！ketabuzhidao…tagenbenbuzhidao！
xiawuneigeshijiandian…woyinweiyaolinshichuliyifenjiqimingan、shejigongsihexinshangyejimidehaiwaihetongcaoan，
cengjingyongyuanchengzhuomianduanzandilianjieguojialidediannao！suiranzhishihenduandeshijian，
erqiewoquerenguotuichushisuodinglepingmu…danruguozhangyang“buxiaoxin”pengdaolejianpanhuoshubiao，
hetabeihouneijiayizhiduiwomengongsihushidandandejingzhengduishou…yigekepade、binglengdeniantoushunjianjuezhulewo！
luyin…tanqifalaideluyin…didianshiwodebangongshi！shijian…shijiansihuyewenhe！
nandao…nandaozhangyangxiawuquwojia，genbenbushiweileshenmegoupi“xiushuiguan”huozhe“zhaoxiangce”？
tademubiao…shiwodeshufang？shiwodediannao？！erlinyin…tazaizheiqizhongbanyanleshenmejiaose？
shiwuzhibeiliyongdeqizi？haishi…tongmou？！judadekongjushunjianyadaolefennu！
ruguowodecaiceshizhende…neijiubuzhishibeipan！zheishi**luodeshangyejiandie！
shizuyijiangwo、jiangzhenggexiangmu、shenzhijianggongsituoruwanjiebufushenyuandezhimingxianjing！
erlinyin…wodeqizi…tajingranchenglebangxiong？huozhe，tabenshenjiushixianjingdeyibufen？
menneidetanxiaoshenghaizaijixu，cikequexiangemodediyu。linyinsihuqishenle，
wotingdaoyizinuodongdeshengyinhezouxiangchufangdejiaobusheng。“zhangyangge，zaihediantangba？woqujinisheng。
”tadeshengyinyijiuwenrou。“hao，xinkuyinyinle。”zhangyangdeshengyindaizhexiaoyi。
**zaibinglengdexiaofangtongdaoqiangbishang，shentikongzhibuzhudiweiweifadou。lenghanjintoulechenshandehoubei，
nianniditiezaipifushang。fennu、tongku、beibeipandejuewang，
cikedoubeiyizhonggengpangda、gengbinglengdekongjusuofugai。woxiangdiaojinleyigeshenbujiandidebingku，
sizhoudoushihuabuliushoude、daizheeyideheian。wogaizenmeban？chongjinquzhiwen？dacaojingshe？
ruguozhangyangzhendeqiequlejimi，tayidingyouhoushou！baojing？zhengjuni？jinpingyiduanluyinhewofengkuangdeyice？
gongsineibian…hansineigexiangmu…cantingdechouwen…suoyoudeshiqingxiangyituanluanma，sisichanzhulewodebozi，
yueshouyuejin，rangwozhixi。jiuzaiwodanaoyipianhunluan，jihuyaobeizheituruqilaide、gengkepadecaiceyakuashi，
koudailideshouji…youyicizhendongleqilai！bushilinyinneibubeiwoshuaisuide。
shiwoyizhifangzaixizhuangneidailide、zhiyoujishaoshurenzhidaodesirenbeiyongji！
zheigezhendong…zhikenengshi…woxiangzhuazhujiumingdaocaoyiyang，zhandouzheshoutaochuneigexiaoqiaodeheiseshouji。
pingmuliangqi，yigemeiyoubaocunmingzi、quezaoyikezaiwonaohaishenchudehaomazaishanshuo。shitanqi！
womengdianxiajietingjian，jiangshoujisisitiezaierbian，pingzhuhuxi，xinzangkuangtiaodejihuyaocongsangziyanlibengchulai。
dianhuaneitou，tanqideshengyinyadejidi，daizheyizhongqiansuoweiyoudejicuhejinzhang，
shenzhi…youyisibuyichajuedekongju：“xuzan！tingzhe！biehuijia！qianwanbiehuiqu！likelikaineili！
zhaogejueduianquandedifang！kuai！”dierzhangtanqideshengyinxiangyigenbinglengdezhen，
shunjiancichuanlewonaozhongfantengde、jihuyaojiangwotunshidehunluanyanjiang。
neishengyinliyunhandejipohekongjushirucizhenshi，xiangyizhiwuxingdeshou，mengdizuanjinlewodexinzang，
rangwodehuxidouweizhiyizhi。“biehuijia！qianwanbiehuiqu！likelikaineili！zhaogejueduianquandedifang！kuai！
”meiyigezidouxiangzhongchuizazaiwodeermoshang。anquan？likai？weishenme？fashengleshenme？
wushugewenhaozaiwobeifennuhekongjusiliedenaohailifengkuangzhakai。woxiayishidiyadileshengyin，
houlonggansedefabuchuwanzhengdeyinjie，zhinengcongchifenglijichusiyadeqiliu：“…tanqi？zenmehuishi？
ni…nizaina？”“meishijianjieshi！xuzan，tingwode！xianzai！like！zou！
”tadeshengyindaizheyizhongburongzhiyidejuejue，
shenzhinengtingdaobeijinglijicudejiaobushenghemohude、leisijingdideyaoyuanhuixiang？“xiangxinwo！likaifenglinlvzhou！
qu…qu‘laodifang’！womashangdao！jizhu，bieyongchangyongshoujilianxi！yongzheigehao！kuaizou！
”dianhuabeimengdiguaduan，zhishengxiajicudemangyin，xiangchuisizhedexintiao，zaiwoerbianfengkuangdiqiaoda。
“laodifang”…neishiwomendaxueshi，weileganxiangmutongxiaodadan，
changqudeyijia24xiaoshiyingyede、zangzaishenxianglidepojiukafeiguan。zhiyouwohetazhidaoneili。
tanqiyongzheigeanhao，yiweizheshitaiyanzhongdaochaohuxiangxiang！tashenzhitidaole“anquan”！mennei，
linyinhezhangyangdetanxiaoshengyijiuyinyuekewen，neiwenxindejueshileciketingqilaiquexiangzanglidexuqu。
gangcaitanqidianhualibeijingdejingdisheng…shizhendema？shizhenduiwo？haishi…zhenduizhangyang？
huozhe…shizhenduiwojializhengzaifashengdeyiqie？judade、binglengdekongjushunjianjuezhulewo，
bigangcaidefennuhecaiyigengshen！tanqibuhuiwuyuanwugufachuzheiyangdejinggao！tayidingshizhidaoleshenme！
zhidaolebiqizichugui、bikenengdeshangyeqiemigengkepadeshiqing！woxiangbeidusheyaoleyikou，
mengdicongxiaofangtongdaodeyinyinglidankai，houbeizhongzhongzhuangzaibinglengdeqiangbishang，fachuyishengmenxiang。
xinzangzaixiongqianglikuangtiao，jihuyaochongposhufu。wosisiwuzhuzui，
shengpaneijuliedechuanxishenghuijingdongmenneide“emo”。zou！bixuzou！tanqidejinggaoxiangjingzhongzainaozhonghongming。
liuzaizheili，wulunshichongjinquzhiwen，haishijixutouting，doukenengxianruwufayuzhideweixian！
zhangyang…tadaodishishenmeren？linyin…tazhendezhishibeimengbima？
neigeluyin…tanqifalaideluyin…tashizenmeludaode？taxiawuzaibangongshi？takandaoleshenme？
wushusuipianhuadexinxi、caiyihekongjuzaiwonaozhongfengkuangxuanzhuan、pengzhuang，jihuyaojiangwodelizhichedisisui。
danqiushengdebennengyadaoleyiqie。woqiangpozijilengjingxialai，napazhiyouyimiaozhong。bunengzuodianti！mubiaotaida！
xiaofangtongdao！woxiangyizhishoujingdelimao，mengdilakaichenzhongdexiaofangtongdaomen，shanshenjinqu，
youxiaoxinyiyidijiangmenxuyanshang，jinliangbufachurenheshengyin。loutijianlimimanzhehuichenhexiaodushuidehunheqiwei，
shengkongdengyinweiwodechuangruerzhouranliangqi，canbaideguangxianzhaolianglepanxuanerxiadebinglengshuinitaijie。
wogubushangxuduo，yibukuaxialiangjitaijie，pixiecaizaishuinidishangfachukongdongdehuixiang，
zaijijingdeloutijianlixiandegewaicier。wolikefangqingjiaobu，jihushidianzhejiaojianwangxiachong。yiceng，
liangceng…xinzangzaikuangbenzhongjihuyaozhakai，feibu**laditeng。naozilizhiyouyigeniantou：likaizheili！
qu“laodifang”！zhaodaotanqi！dangwozhongyuchongchudanyuanmen，zhongxinhuxidaoxiaoqulidaizhecaomuqinglengdekongqishi，
yizhongjiehouyushengdexutuoganshunjianxilai。wofuzhebinglengdeqiangbi，dakouchuanzhecuqi，lenghanjintoulechenshan，
nianniditiezaipifushang。wojingtidihuangusizhou，ludenghunhuangdeguangxianxia，xiaoqulijingqiaoqiaode，
zhiyouyuanchuouerchuanlaideqicheshiguodeshengyin。meiyoukeyiderenying，meiyoujingche。
danzheipingjingfanerrangwogengjiabuan。baofengyuqiandeningjing。woxunsuzhenglileyixialingluandexizhuang，
jinliangrangzijikanqilaibuneimelangbeihekeyi。bunengdache！chepaihuibeijilu！wobianrenleyixiafangxiang，
chaozhexiaoqulingyigexiangduipianpidecemenkuaibuzouqu。jiaobujinliangbaochipingwen，dansudujikuai，
xiangyidaorongruyesedeyingzi。fenglinlvzhouhenda，zoudaocemenhualejiangjinshifenzhong。zheishifenzhongli，
meiyimiaodouxiangyigeshijineimemanzhang。yefengchuizaihanshideetoushang，dailaiyizhenzhenhanyi。
wodedanaozaigaosuyunzhuan，shitujiangsuoyoudesuipianpincouqilai。linyindebeipan（qingganshangjihuyiqueren）。
zhangyangdejieru（mubiaokenengbujinshilinyin，haiyouwodeshangyejimi？）。tanqidejinggao（jiduweixian，
bixulikelikai）。beijingdejingdi（guanlianbuming，danjuefeijizhao）。
haiyou…neigegaiside、rangwoshenbaimingliedeluyin！tanqishizenmededaode？taxiawuzaibangongshi？
takandaolezhangyanghelinyin？haishi…kandaolebiede？cemenjinzaiyanqian。baoantingliangzhedeng，
yigenianqingdebaoanzhengditouwanzheshouji。woshenxiyikouqi，nulirangbiaoqinghuifupingjing，
shenzhijichuyisipibeide、yingchouguilaideshense，zirandizoulechuqu。baoantaitoupielewoyiyan，
dagaishirenchulewozheigeyezhu，youdixiatoujixukanshouji。zouchuxiaoqu，
rongruwaimianjiedaoxiangduirenaoyixiederenliucheliu，wocaishaoweisonglekouqi，danxinzangyijiuzaikuangtiao。
woguaijinyitiaoxiangduipijingdexiaoxiang，querenshenhouwurengenzong，caizaiyige24xiaoshibianlidiandeyinyinglitingxia，
yongneibubeiyongjifeikuaidijitanqifaleyitiaojiamixinxi：【yichu，anquan。qulaodifang。dengni。
】fawanxinxi，wolikeguanji，baxiadianchi——zheishitanqihenzaoyiqianjiujiaoguowode，
zaijiduanqingkuangxiaqieduanzhuizongdezuihoushouduan。zuowanzheiyiqie，wocaizhenzhengganjuedaoyisiweiruode“anquan”。
dangengdadekongjuheyiwen，rutongnongzhongdeheiwu，chenchendiyazaiwodexintou。wolanleyiliangluguodechuzuche，
baochuneigeshenzangzaichengshizhezhoulide、mingwei“shiguangjiaoluo”dekafeiguandizhi。
sijishigechenmoguayandezhongnianren，meiyouduowen，zhishimomokaiche。**zaiyibeishang，bishangyanjing，
danyanqianhuangdongdequanshilinyinqiaoxiaoqianxidelian，zhangyangneikansiwenheshizeshenbukecedeyanshen，
haiyoucantinglineixiebiyidemuguang…yijitanqidianhualineishengsilijiedejinggao。
chezizaimigongbandelaochengquchuanxing，zuizhongtingzaiyitiaoxiazhaide、dengguanghunandexiaoxiangkou。fuqianxiache，
wokuaibuzoujinxiangzishenchu。shuxide、daizhechenjiumutouhekafeidouhunheqixideweidaopumianerlai。
“shiguangjiaoluo”neishandiaoleqidelvsemumenjiuzaiyanqian，menmeishangguazheyizhanhunhuangdefengdeng，
zaiyefengzhongqingqingyaohuang，xiangyizhipibeideyanjing。tuimenjinqu，menshangdetonglingfachuyinyade“dingdang”sheng。
dianlikongdangdangde，zhiyouzuilimiankaoqiangdekazuoli，zuozheyigeshuxideshenying。shitanqi。
tachuanzheyijianshensedelianmaoweiyi，maoziladehendi，jihuzhezhuledabanzhanglian。mianqiandekafeiyikoumeidong，
yijingliangle。tashuangshoujinjinwozaiyiqi，fangzaizhuomianshang，zhijieyinweiyonglierfanbai。tingdao**，
tamengditaiqitou。dengguangxia，tadeliansecangbaideheren，zuichunmeiyouyisixuese，yanjinghongzhong，bumanlexuesi，
yanshenlichongmanlejinghunweidingdekongjuheyizhong…shenqiede、jihuyaoyichulaidebeishang。kandaowojinlai，
taxiangshinishuiderenzhongyuzhuazhulefumu，shentiweiweiqianqing，zuichunzhandouzhe，sihuxiangshuoshenme，queyougengzhule。
wokuaibuzouguoqu，zaitaduimianzuoxia。xiaxiaodekazuoli，kongqifangfoninggule。
wonengqingxidiwendaotashenshangchuanlaide、dandandexiaodushuiwei，
haiyouyisi…ruoyouruowude、shuyujingjuhuoyiyuanneizhongdifangteyoudebinglengqixi。
“tanqi…”wodeshengyingansedelihai，“daodi…fashengleshenme？”tanqimeiyoulikehuida。
tashenshendixileyikouqi，fangfoyongjinlequanshendeliqi，caimianqiangyaxiahoulonglidegengyan。
tataiqineishuangbumanxuesideyanjing，zhizhidikanzhewo，neiyanshenfuzaderangwoxinjing——youkongju，youhoupa，
younanyizhixindezhenjing，haiyouyizhong…shenshende、rangwogandaomoshengdelianmin。
“xuzan…”tadeshengyinshayadexiangshishazhimoca，“ni…nibangongshi…xiawu…chushile。
”wodexinmengdiyichen。“chushi？shenmeshi？luyin…luyinshinilude？nikandaoleshenme？
”tanqiyonglidiyaoleyaotou，yanleizhongyukongzhibuzhudiyonglechulai，shunzhetacangbaidelianjiahualuo。
“buzhishiluyin…xuzan…shi…shimingan！”“mingan？！”zheilianggezixiangliangkezidan，
shunjianjichuanlewodeermo，hongdewodanaoyipiankongbai！womengdizhuazhuzhuoyan，zhijiajihuyaoqianjinmutouli，
“shenmemingan？！shei？！sheisile？！”tanqideshentijuliedizhandouqilai，tayongshousisiwuzhuzui，
caimeirangzijikuchusheng。takanzhewo，yanshenlidekongjuhebeishangnongdehuabukai，yiziyiju，rutongbingzhui，
henhenzaojinwodexinzang：“shi…shilinyin！xuzan…xiawu…zainibangongshi…sideren…shilinyin！”shijian，
kongjian，siwei，yiqiedouzaizheiyikechedibengta、fensui！linyin…sile？xiawu…zaiwobangongshi？
jiali…neigehelinyinshengyinyimoyiyang…hezhangyangtanxiaofengsheng…jiwofaduanxinshuoliuzhangyangchifandenvren…shishei？
！judade、wufalijiedehuangmiuganheyizhongshenrugusuidebinglengkongju，shunjianjiangwotunshi！
woxiangyizunbeishunjiandongjiedeshixiang，jiangzaikazuoli，lianhuxidouwangjile。zhenggeshijiezaiwoyanqianxuanzhuan、niuqu，
zuizhongxianruyipiansijide、lingrenzhixideheian。disanzhangtanqideshengyin，
neilianggezi——“linyin”——xiangliangkeshaohongdezidan，shunjianjichuanlewodeermo，hongdewodanaoyipiankongbai！
bushierming，shizhenzhengde、wulixingdehongming，fangfoluguneibuyoushenmedongxizhakaile，suipiansijian，
gelielesuoyoudeshenjinglianjie。“mingan？！shenmemingan？！shei？！sheisile？！
”wodeshengyinwanquanbianlediao，siya、jianli，xiangbinsideyeshouzaihaojiao，shentibushoukongzhidiqianqing，
shuangshousisizhuazhuyounidezhuomianbianyuan，zhijiakoujinmutouli，fachulingrenyasuande“gezhi”sheng。
tanqideshentijuliedizhandouzhe，xianghanfengzhongzuihouyipiankuye。tasisiwuzhuzui，leishuixiongyongerchu，
zaitacangbairuzhidelianshangchongchuliangdaolangbeidehenji。takanzhewo，neishuangcengjingchongmanjingminghehuolideyanjingli，
cikezhishengxiawubianwujidekongjuheyizhong…rangwolinghundouweizhidongjiede、shenqiedelianmin。
neilianminbushijiwode，gengxiangshi…jiyigeyijingchedizhuirushenyuan、quehaimangranbuzhidekelianchong。
“shi…shilinyin！”tagengyanzhe，meiyigezidouxiangshicongposuidehoulongliyingjichulaide，daizhexuemo，
“xuzan…xiawu…zainibangongshi…sideren…shilinyin！”“hong——！”zheiyici，shizhenzhengdetianbengdilie！
linyin…sile？xiawu…zaiwobangongshi？
yangtanxiaofengsheng…jiwofaduanxinshuoliuzhangyangchifan…shenzhi…shenzhiluyinlifachuneizhongshigu**denvren…shishei？
！judade、wufalijiedehuangmiugan，hunhezheyizhongbixiboliyahanliugengcigudebinglengkongju，
shunjianjuezhulewodexinzang！taxiangyizhiwuxingde、daizhebingcidejushou，mengdizuanjin，ranhouhenhenyining！jutong！
wufahuxi！yanqiandeyiqie——tanqikuqidelian，hunhuangdebideng，
zhuoshangliangtoudekafeibei——shunjianniuqu、xuanzhuan，secaitunqu，
zhishengxiadapiandapianlingrenzuooude、huangdongdeheibaixuehuadian！
“bu…bukeneng…”wotingdaozijifachuyizhongjiqiguaiyide、xiangshilouqifengxiangbandeshengyin，ganse，posui，
wanquanbuxiangrensheng，“ni…nihushuo！tanqi！**zaihushuobadao！wo…wogangganghaishoudaotadeduanxin！
tazaijia！hezhangyangzaiyiqi！wotingdaole！wojiuzaimenwai！wotingdaoletadeshengyin！tadexiaosheng！
ni…nipianwo！”womengdizhanqilai，dongzuodadedaidaoleyizi，fachucierdeguacasheng。