wo，yigebeilaoshiyaotoutanxidezishenxuezha，gaokaoqianturanbeixuexiaofengyunxuebasuzhezhaoshangmenqiuzhu。“xiongdi，
tingshuonitebiehuitang？”tashenmixixiyadishengyin，“jiaojiaowozenmezuofeiwu！
”weilewanjiunianjidiyijijikeweidebailanrenshe，takaishigenwoxuetouhenaicha、shangkeshuijue、kaoshixiameng。
daojiazhanghuishang——taneikexuejiafumuzaitouyingyitoufangchu“suzhetongxuebenciyuekaochengjinianjipaiming：1”shi。
tashoulidezhajitui“pa”zazainianjizhurengangshuhaodedizhonghaishang。“zheijiushinikouzhongdexuezha？！
”wodangzhequanxiaodemianbanaichahutayilian。“bendan，jiaonizenmekaobeidashizhen，xiangpaoniyeshizhen！
”01.jitongyigexuezhadangjiajiaozuihouquebeitaqidezhujinxiaoyiwushishishenmetiyan？（biexuewo，
zheichunshunaozijinnaichale！）renzaibingchuang，gangshuwanputaotang，bizilihaimimanzheyiguhuizhibuqudetangjingwei，
linghunyiyinjidushesierlijiachuzou。
zheiyiqiedouyao“guigongyu”woneigeshishangzuibuchengzhide、bawotuoruwudishenyuande“xuesheng”——linxiaoxu。
rangwoxianjiaodaiyixiabeijing。birensuzhe，gaosan（7）ban，rujiabaohuandenianjidiyi。
zheigetouxianguazaiwonaodaishang，sannianle，chenzhongrutaishanyading，yadewochuanbuguoqi。niwenweisha？
yinweinianjidiyizheibiaoqianjiushigedaxiejiacude“bujinrenqing”waijia“juanwangzhiwang”buffa！
bierenjuedewozouludaifeng，shizaisikaogaosidingli；fadaiwangtian，
shizaimoxie《lisao》；lianchifanpaiduidoudenachubendancishu。tiandiliangxin！wozhendeshizaidanchundi——fadai！
kejiabuzhuzhouweineiyipian“wa，suzhehaonuli”dexingxingyanhelaoshinei“ruzikejiao，
guozhidongliang”dexinweilian。zheirizi，jianzhishitaozhejinsilongdejuanwangshenghuo。
jiuzaiwokuaiyaobeizheiwanmeiwuqueyoukuzaofaweiderenshengbifengdeshihou，
yidaoguangzhaojinlewohuiandegaosan——linxiaoxu！tashei？womennianjixiangdangdangde“shuishen”jian“xuezhazhiguang”。
lazi；wulishijuankongbaibidatikahaiganjing；lishikehuida**zhanzhengnayiniannengtuokouerchu“1949nian，
jiefanglebei！”tajianzhijiushigebujidexuezhafuhao！neitiantiyukeziyouhuodong，
wozhengduozaicaochangjiaoluozhangyishangkanxianshu（guizhidaowoduozaizheilitoukanyanqingxiaoshuoyouduobiequ！），
zhenghaokanjianyigemantouxiaojuanmaodenaodaizaiqiuchangshangshangcuanxiatiao，huoxianggeyongdongjichengjing。jiushita，linxiaoxu。
yunqiuguorendongzuoxiaosa，kexitoulanjingzhundudagaizhibiwoshuxuegongshibeicuodegailvdiyidiandian。dannikanta，
toudiugeqiuhaigentongzhuogoujiandabeixiaochengyituan，yangguangxianeihuyaludekezhenhuangyan。
yigefengkuangde、juemiaodeniantouzaiwosishuiweilandexuebaqiyunzhangheli，zhakaile！woyaojiejinta！woyao！xue！
xi！zuo！xue！zha！yushijiuyouleneigefeng（sha）he（diao）ri（kai）li（chang）dexiawu。
woshenxiyikouqi，niezheliangbeiyonglinghuaqianzaishitangmenkouxiaomaibumaideliezhigouduinaicha——mitaowulong，
tiandenenghousirenneizhong——nuotengdaolegangdawanqiu、hunshensanfazheqingchunhanwei（biewuhui，
bushichoude）delinxiaoxumianqian。taliaoqiqiuyixiabaicahan，luchuyijiejingshoudeyaoxian，
zhouweijigenvshenglikeditoujiazhuangjianqiu。woxinlineidianjinzhangshunjianbeizheihuamianjiaochengleyiguoluanzhou，
qiangzhuangzhendingdibanaichadiguoqu：“hei，gemener！”linxiaoxulengleyixia，kankannaicha，youkankanwo，
juanmaoqiaodegenglihaile。tapangbianneigesunyouhouzi（waihao）yilianchilecangyingdebiaoqing：“su、su……zhe？
zhaoxuge？youshi？”taneiyanshen，huoxiangkanjianyizhiqiechuanzhehuamianaozaichidaoshangtiaogangguanwu。
02.wonulichechuyigechunliangwuhaideweixiao，yanshenpiaoxianghaizaimengquandelinxiaoxu，yadishengyin，
xiangdixiadangjietou：“linxiaoxushiba？jiuyangdaming！”tazhabazhabayanjing：“a？woma？
”neibiaoqingchongmanleyizhongqingchedeyuchun。“duidui！”wozhongzhongdiantou，yanjishunjianbaofa，shengyinyadegengdile，
haidaizheyisiqiadaohaochude“gongqing”，“xiongdi，tingshuo……nitebieshanzhang……”wobieleliangmiao，
zhongyuguqiyongqi，tuchuneigeduiwoeryanwubishenshengdeci，“tang？”“ng？？？
”“jiushineizhong……zenmedanggeqingsong、kuaile、chuncuide……”woyanlekoutuomo，zuizhonghuochuqule，
“feiwu！”linxiaoxu：“……”houzi：“……”zhouweikongqixiangshibeichouganle，
zhishengxialanqiuzazaidishangdedandiao“pengpeng”sheng。neiyike，linxiaoxukanxiangwodeyanshenjiqifuza，
yihuozhongdaizhezhenhan，zhenjingzhongjiazazheyizhong“gemenernishibushibeiyunshizahuainaozile”delianmin。
houzigengshizhijie，tayilianshengwukeliandiwuzhulian：“wanlewanle，liannianjidiyidoubeigaokaobichengshadiaole，
zheijiegaosanmeijiule！”wogangadejiaozhitounengkouchusanshiyiting。buxing！wobunengfangqi！
weilewodexuezhadaye！weilekaojinzheifenyaoyandebuji！“woshizhenxinde！”wobanaichaqiangyingdiwangqianyitui，
jihuduidaotahuaili，“bangbangwo！rangwoyetiyanyixianizheizhong……chuncuidekuaile！”zuihouneijuhua，
wozijitingzhedouga，danhaishihuochuqule。linxiaoxuniezheneibeiguntangdetianninaicha，
shangshangxiaxiadalianglewohaojifenzhong，zuizhong，tasihuzuochuleyigezhongdajueding，
yiyizhongyingyongjiuyibandezitaijieguonaicha，xiliuleyidakou，haomaidiyipaiwojianbang：“xing！
xiongdinizheilixiang……goubiezhi！yihougenwohun！baozhengdainijianshishenmejiaozhenzhengdekuaile！”neiyike，
tayanlideguangliangxiangshibazhenggecaochangdeyangguangdouxijinqule。erwo，
xinruleigudiwozhelingyibeitongyangguntangdenaicha，jidongdechadianbengqilai——xuezhayangchengjihua，qidong！
mubiao：cengdaochunzhengxuezhazhiguang！03.weilejinkuairongrulinxiaoxude“xuezhaquan”，wo，suzhe，
zhankailejiankuzhuojuedewodishengya。diyibu：baishixueyizhiketangmoyu。wotedixuanlegelinxiaoxuhoupaizuowei，
“xuxin”guanmo。zhijianwoqinaidelinxiaoxu“laoshi”，shuliandimochushoujizangzaileigaodexitijihoumian，
zhijianfeiwu，pingmuliangqiyipianwuguangliusedezhandouhuamian（houlaicaizhidaoneishishoujibanlianliankan）。
wozuijiaochouchu，ganjinditoujiazhuangjibiji，
zaibenzishanghuaqilejianbiduizhanxiaoren——haodaiwohuadehaishiqbanlishirenwudajia，zhangfeizhanyuefeishenmede，
yinggaibilianliankanshaoweitieheketangyidiandianba？danyuguangpiejiantazhuanzhudayouxidecelianshi，
xintiaomomingyoulouleyipai。dierbu：xuezhabixiuzhitongshinaicha（zhemoban）。
dangworenzheweibufanjiangdaohaidetiannigan，
niezhebiziguanxiadisanbeilinxiaoxudiguolaide、xiezhe“yunshifengwei”shijishangtiandenengyinfatangniaobingdenaichashi，
tazhongyufaxianlebudui。“zhea，nizale？lianzagenchilesuanputaoside？”taguanqiedicoujin，
daizheyiguqingshuangdexiyifenwei，yanjingdengdeliuyuan。woganjinjichuyigejiannandexiao，
nuliyanxiazuihouyikoutiandaofakude“hefeishui”：“hao……haohe！zeididao！zheicaishixue……budui，
shiziyoudeweidao！”xinlileiliuchenghe，zheinalishiziyoudeweidao，
zheifenmingshirengongxiangjinghunhesiwangtangjingdeyetaikuxing！weilexingxiang，woren！disanbu，
shizuijiannandeyibu：xuxinqiujiao“xuezhashenji”zhi——ruhezaibuhuideqingkuangxiabaxuanzetimengdetianhualuanzhui。
zixike，wonazhezhangwulijuanzicouguoqu：“xuge！zheiti，xuansha？jidianzhijiao？
”wozhizhezuihouyidaodati，neishiyidaowobizheyandounengchaijiechusangejiefadejiandanshoulifenxi。
linxiaoxudiaozhenaichaxiguan，waizhetoukanleyiyanti，youkankankongbaidedatiqu，
meitoudoumeizhouyixia（yinweitakenengyagenmeikandongtigan），
luchuleyigewubizixin（qiemangmu）dexiaorong：“xiongdi，zheihaibujiandan！paichufaa！
”tashayoujieshidiyonghongbizaitiganliquanquandiandian：“nikanzheigeli，tazhangdejiubuzhengjing！paichu！
xuanxiangcneigefuhao，shibushixianggezhengzaipichadezimu？taibukaopule！paichu！
shengxiaaheb……ng……zheigebma……”tachenyinleyixia，lianshangshanguoyizhongmizhilingguang，“‘b’，
xieyin‘bi’，bishuwuyia！jueduicuowu！suoyidaanshia！”tadudingdiyipaijuanzi，qingcuixiangliang，
“kendinga！xinwo！”wokanzhetadudingzixindexiaobiaoqing，
zaikankanbeiwoqiangrenzhebiechulaidesangexuanxiangdemanyandacha（axuanxiangqishiyeshicuode），
zuijiaojuliedichoulechou。xiongzhongbenyongdedanmushi：zheitikaodeshinidayedexieyingengma！？luojini！
niudundeguancaibandouyaoyabuzhulewei！genglipudeshi，tajianwomeidongbi，haitiexindicoudaowoerbian，
xiangchuanshoubuchuanzhimiyiyang，yadishengyin：“zhe，jiaoniyizhaojuehuo！”tadereqipenzaiwoerkuoshang，youdianyang，
woxinjianyegenzhezhanleyixia，“baneixiesijiyingbeidepogongshi，douhuanchengnidongdejiyidian！biru，
‘yiliuerxiaosanmutan’zheizhonghuaxuepowanyi……”taxingzhibobo，shengyindoudaleqilai，
“nijiuji‘yiliu（liu），erxiao（xiao），sanmo（mutan）’，kaoshixiangdaozheige，jiubeiershuang！dongbu？
bei！er！shuang！”shuodao“beiershuang”deshihou，tahaiyongliwoquanxiangxiazuolegekuazhangde“shuangbao”shoushi。
wonaozili“hong”yisheng！taneiju“beiershuang”rutongdailegediyinpao，zaiwoluneixunhuanhuidang，
shunjiangaiguolesuoyoudelixinggongshi！04.jitianhou，yichangzhiguanzhongyaodeshuxuemonikao。kaochangsusha，
anjingdenengtingjianbijianhuaguozhizhangdeshashasheng，quanshicuimingfu。wozhengkazaiyidaozhengmingtideguanjianbuzhou，
pingshixinshounianlaidefuzhuxianzuofacikejuranchenglejianghu。jiuzaizheishi，
erbianbuzijuedi、bushoukongzhidi、guishishenchadi——huidangqilelinxiaoxuneimoxingxinaode“beiershuang”。
“yiliuerxiaosanmutan……beiershuang！”gengyaomingdeshi，
jurantongbufuxianchutawozhequantou、xingfendihanchuzheisangezishineiliangdaohuangyandedabaiyaheshanshanfaliangdeyanjing！
neihuamianpeihezhe“beiershuang”dejiezouganzaiwonaozilifengkuangbengdi！wanquankongzhibuzhu！
woxianggebeitixiancaokongdemuou，
tiaojianfanshedijiuzaicaogaozhishangxiayishixiexialeneijujingtiandongdide——“yiliude！erxiaode！
sanmo（mutan）！kaoshishixiangdaozheijiubeiershuang！beiershuang！”bijianhuaxianeigejudadegantanhaodeshihou，
jiankaolaoshizhenghaoduobuxunshidaowoshenhou。zhenggekaochangdeshijian，turan“kada”yisheng，jingzhile。
wushudaoshixianxiangjujiaodengyiyang，“shua”dijizhongdaowo，
yijiwoneizhangmojiweigan、zizitouchuqingche（shadiao）delinghundecaogaozhishang。
wozhijidejiankaolaoshineizhangzhouwenjiaocuodelian，congjinge，daomangran，
zaidaoyizhong“zheiwanaozimeishaohuba”deshenqiedanyou，zuihoudinggezai“aimodayuxinsi”demuranshang。
tadeshengyingansedexiangshazhidamotiexiu：“suzhetongxue……nixiedezhei……shishenme……kaoshimijue？
”zhenggekaochangdedaoxilengqishengheyayibuzhude“puchi”shengjianzhiyaobafangdingxianle。
shijiezaineiyikeliwoerqu。woyanqianfahei，
erpanzhishengxiazijizheneryulongdexintiaoheneigemoyinguanerde“beiershuang！beiershuang！”wuxianxunhuan。
naozilizhishengxiasangezifengkuangshuaping：wandanle！wodexuebarenshe！tafangle！
erqieshidijibuwenzidongbaoponeizhong！
wojihunengyujiandao“nianjidiyikaochangfafenggaohanbeiershuang”jiangchengweiweilaisangeyuetiebaretietoutiao！wo，
suzhe，yishengqingming，douhuizaizheige“beiershuang”shangle！05.yuekaochengjidanxialaihou，
woneikexuejiafumu（dui，jiushineizhongchuanshuozhongbierenjiadebama）shoudaofengle。
tamenduiwozheicide“jingshenzhuangkuang”biaodalegaoduguanqie，bingleilifengxingdijuedingchuxijiexialaidejiazhanghui。
haiteyizhufubanzhuren，yaobawodangchengzhongdian“pouxi”anli。jiazhanghuineitian，gaosan（7）ban。
jiazhangmenjijiaiai，lianshanghuoyouxinchongchonghuowangzichenglong。wozuozaihoupaijiaoluoli，henbudebazijisuojindifeng，
wanmeibanyanyigeyinweibeilinxiaoxutuduerbiande“jingshenhuanghu”dewentixueba。
pangbianzuozhebeiqiangxingyasongguolai“pangting”、yilian“woshisheiwozainaguanwopishi”delinxiaoxu。jiangtaishang，
nianjizhurenhongguangmanmian（tajintiantiqianbanxiaoshishutou，
bazhenguidejilvmaofafeichang“yanjin”dicongqianeshudaoletoudingzhongyang，xingchengleyidaozengliangdedizhonghaiqiaoliang），
**yangyidizhanwanggaokaoqianjing。wobamazuozaiqianpai，
yigenazhepingbandiannaozuobijijilu（jushuoyonglaifenxiwodexingweimoshi），yigejincumeitoushenshizhejiangtai。
zaichangguixiangmujinxingdaoyibanshi，banzhurenlaozhangqingleqingsangzi，yudiaochentong：“xiamian，
womenlaizhongdianfenxiyiweitongxuedeqingkuang。zheiciyuekao，mouweitongxuedechengjibodonghenda，
gengzaikaochangbiaoxianchuyi……yichangzhuangtai！”suoyoumuguang“shua”ditouxiangwo，daizheshenpandeguang。
wobamaliansegengchenle。wodizhetou，ganjuehoujingliangsousoude，pangbianlinxiaoxuzuolibuan，
fangfodengzishangyoudingzi，xiaoshengdigu：“kao，zhe，nibamazheiqichang……juele！
xianglaizhuawaixingrenhuishiyanshijiepoude……”laozhanghuayingangluo，woba——suyuanshanjiaoshou，
neigegaotiantiwulideyanjinnanren——huodizhanleqilai，bufachenwendizoushangjiangtai。
nianjizhurenyoudianeran：“su……sujiaoshou？”wobameilita，taochupingban，
shuliandilianxianjiangtaideduomeititouyingyi。jimiaohou，dapingmushangqingxiditouyingchutapingbandiannaoshangdeneirong。
bushishenmejingshenfenxibaogao，
ershiyizhangfangdabande、qingxidaolianxingmingpangbianzhaopiandouyiqingerchudenianjichengjizongpaimingbang！
wodemingziheranzaidiyiwei。gaoliangjiacude“suzhe”。houmiangenzhexingmudechengji：zongfen719，
banjipaiming：1，nianjipaiming：1。zhenggejiaoshi，luozhenkewen。suoyoujiazhangdezuiba，