第1章
pengcheng，yijiadingjidesirenyiyuannei。
chuciliansecangbai，qiruoyousi，tangzaizuigaodangdebingfangzhong。
zhouweizhanmanleshenchuanbaidaguadeyishenghexizhuanggelvde‘xinfu’。
renqunzhong，yimingshenchuanxizhuang、daizheheikuangyanjingdenanrenshangqianliangbu，qingshengwendao：“chuxiansheng，woshininpinqingdelvshi，qingwenninhaiyoushenmexuyaojiaodai？”
lvshihuayinluoxia，shenhoudexinfumen，lianshangluchugezhongqidaidebiaoqing。
tamenmanhuaiqidai，fenfenzaixinzhonganzicaice，zijinenggoudedaogongsideduoshaogufen？
zhongsuozhouzhi，chucibingrugaohuang，shiriwuduo。ranertaqueliuxialeyigeruodadeshangyediguo，huixiazichanjueduinengzaizhenggehuaguopaideshanghao。
zheiwuyishiyifenjudadedangao！
chucizhiwai，chucijieranyishen，meiyourenheqinren。yejiushishuo，congfalvcengmianshangeryan，chucimeiyouyigehelidejichengren。
zaizheizhongqingkuangxia，waijierenshifenfencaice，chucihenyoukenenghuijiangzishendezichanzhuanzengjishoudixiadezheiqunxinfu。
cishi，renqunzhongyijingyoubushaorenkaishidaqilexiaosuanpan。tamenmuguangzhuozhuo、yanshenhuore，kewangcongchucidekouzhongtingdaozijidemingzi。
jiuzaizheishi，beizhongrendingzhedechucirudongleyixiazuichun，shunjianxiyinlechangzhongsuoyourendezhuyili。zhijianchucichuanleliangkoucuqi，huanhuandao：“keke......zaiwosihou，wodegeren......gerenzichan......quanbujuanzengjihuaguodegueryuan！”
shuowan，tachuanzheqi，bishangleyan。
huayingangluo，bingfangneiyaquewusheng，biandeluozhenkewen。
xiayike，zhongrenhuiguoshenlai，lianseyibian，ziyaliezui，qijibaihuaidikanzhebingchuangshangdelaoyezi。shenzhiyoulianggepiqijizaode，zhijiechongzhetahanjiaoqilai。
erzheigeshihou，yimingshenchuanbaidaguadeyishengmeitouyijin，takanleyiyanzhoutingdexindiantu，ranhouyaoleyaotou，xuanbulechucidesiwang。
pengchengshoufu，chuci，xinzangbingfa，qushi！
......
“wuwu......”
erbianchuanlaiyizhenqingweideqisheng，shengyinqingcui，fangruoyouyizhiwenchongzaierpanhuanrao。
suizheqishengchuanlai，chucijianjianyouleyisiyishi，tarudongzuichun，dongledongyanpi，nulijiangyanjingmikaileyitiaofenger。
“zheilishinali？wobushisilema？”chucijiannanzhengkaiyanjing，kanzheyanqiandeyiqie，muguangmili。
ta。。mingmingyijingsile！
为什么还会有意识？
nandaoshuo，zheilishidiyuma？
keshi...zheilikanshangquyebutaixianga？
chuciyitouwushui，tahuanglehuangnaodai，zhengzhazhecongyingmuchuangbanshangzuoqishenlai，daizheyiduziyiwen，taimouningshisizhou，jiangyanqiandeyiqiejinshouyuyandi。
shijianbuzhang，chucizhongyumoqinglezhouweilvexianmoshengdehuanjing。
zheishiyijianmianjibudadewuzi，toudingshipolandemutoufangliang，shangmianguazheyichuanjinhuangdeyumi，zhanleyicenghouhoudehuichen。buyuanchu，youyangguangzhaoshejinlai，neishiyigepoledongdechuanghu，shangmianyonglaojiudebaozhihuzhe，danshifengxijianhaishiguajinlaileyizhenliangsousoudelengfeng。
sizhou，nituduiqierchengdeqiangbishangtiemanlecongbaozhishangjianxialaigezhong‘mingxing’zhaopian。zhaopianhunhuang，sihuzaiqiangshangtielehenzhangyiduanshijian，beiranshangleyicengnitudeyanse。
fangjianzhong，sanluozhexuduozawu，haibanyouyizhendandandemeiwei......
zangluan、chenjiu，chengweilezheijiannitufangdedaimingci。
chucirenzhuweilifangundebushi，fanshenzuoqi。
“zheili......daodishinali？dengdeng，zheili......zheilizenmerucishuxi？”chucifangruoxiangqileshenmedongxi，yuekanyuexinhuang。
xiayike，tamengranzhuantou，kandaoleyizishangneidiaoqidetangcigangzi，shenziyizhen，yiduiyanjingdunshidengdegunyuanwubi。
tangcigangziyanseandan，meiyoulewangrideguangxianwaibiao，shangmiankezheyigediaoqidewujiaoxingtuanyiji‘1980’sidagezi。
chuciqingxijide，zheishiqiziqiujingzaijiehundangtiangoumaidegangzi，yigongyouliangge，duixiaoliangkouyouzhongyaodexiangzhengyiyi。
chucimolemoshuxidetangcigangzi，huanhuanzoudaoqiangbian，zaiyipiancanpodejingzizhongkandaoleyizhangliansecangbai、lvexianqingsedemiankong。
yucitongshi，qiangshangguazhedelaojiugualishangxianshizhe1983nian8yue，zhiyujintianjutishinayitian，chuciyewufaduanding。
“nandao......nandaowohuidaoleguoqu？”chucixianshiyijing，ranhouhuiguoshenlai，buganzhixindidaliangzhefangjianzhongdemeiyijianshiwu。
zheilidewupincanpoqiechenjiu，danshichucideyanshen，quezaijidongzhong，liuchujifenwenrou，taxianrulehuiyizhizhong。
chenfengdejiyixiangshidakailezhamendehongshui，buduanyongrulechucidenaohai。guoqudeyimumuchangjingxiangshifangdianyingyiban，zaichucidenaohaizhongbuduanchengxian。
balingniannianchu，taheqiziqiujingjiehun，tongnianniandinveryiyilaidaozheigeshishang。
yuanben，rizikushikuledian，danshiyijiasankoubuchouchichuan，rizidaoyehemu。
raner，zheizhonghaorizibingmeiyouchixuduojiu。liangnianhoudemouyitian，chucibeipengyoupianqulejialisuoyoujixu，shidebenjiubufuyudejiatingxueshangjiashuang。
bujinruci，tahaiqianxialeyi**zhai，congcidierulewanzhangshenyuan。
qianxiayi**zhaihou，chucixingqingdabian，ranshanglexujiudeexi，zhongriyinjiuduri。zaiduanduanyigeyuenei，tabiancongyigechongmanchaoqideqingnianzhuanbianweiyigebeicunlirenyilunfenfendejiugui。
xujiu，wangwanghuidailaijiabao，chuciyebuliwai。zainverhaotaodekushengzhongzaiqizishenshangliuxialexuduochumujingxindeshangkou，tongshiyezaijiujingdemabixiasiyishuaihuaiguojiazhongdewujian，yicilaifaxiexinzhongdebutongkuai。
zaiyiciourandeyaozhaiqijian，yaozhairenduoduobiren，yanchengyaozhuazouchuyiyiqudizhai。chucibeiyaozhairendeqishihedezhanzhanweiwei，suozaiqiangjiaobugandongdan。ranerzaizheiweijiguantou，yixiangrouruodeqiziqiujingzaitingdaozheijuhuahou，jingshizhanluchulebusudeshenshou，yixunleibujiyanerzhishijiangyiqunwudasancudeyaozhairenzoulegebiantilinshang。
qiujingdeshenshou，chuhulesuoyourendeyiliao，tayirenzoupaolezheiqunwudasancudeyaozhairen。ranhouzhuanguoshenlai，jiangchucimalegegouxuelintou，shuozheiriziguobuxiaqule。
kandaoruciqiangshideqizi，chucineixinyijing。danshipingrilitayangchenglejiabaodexiguan，yagenjiubujupaqiujing。mianduiqiujingdemanma，chucibuguanbugu，nachujiazhongzuihoudeyibiqian，bianyaotachuyuanmenqumaijiu。
chucilinzouzhiji，qiujingbaozhehuaizhongchuyiyilanzaileyuanmenkou，qingxujilie，shengchengchuciyaoshigantachuquyibu，tamenniangliangjiubuhuole！
mianduiqizideweixie，chucizhiruowangwen，yinweizheizhonghuatayijingtinglebuxiashibian。taduandingqizibuganzuochushenmeguofendejudong，suoyimeishirenyiyang，tachuleyuanmen。
raner，zheiyici，chucicuole！
shijianbuzhang，dangtaganggangzoudaocunkou，bianxiudaoleyigunongyan。dengdaotahuiguotoulai，shenhoudejiayijinghuaweileyipianhuohai。
nongyangungun，liehuoxiongxiong。
jialidefangziwanquanshiyounituhemutouduiqide，yidianjiuzhe！
dengdaofujindecunminzaihelidalaishuiximiedahuohou，chucikandaoleliangjujinjinbaozaiyiqide，beidahuoshaochengjiaotandeshiti！
shitiyidayixiao，zhengshizijideqizihenver。
qiujing，xinggeganglieruci！
chucikanzheyanqiandeyimu，jiujiuwufajieshou，tongku、aohuideqingxuchongchiletadexintou。yezhengshicongzheishiqi，tafanranhuiwu，xuanzelelangzihuitou，wanghoudijiubuzhan。raner，meidangyeshenrenjing，tamoranhuishoushi，quefaxianshenhouzaoyikongwuyiren。
huaizheyizhongkuijiudexinqing，chucitashanglenanxiadehuoche，likailezheiyigechongmanletongkuhuiyidejiaxiang。
houlai，chucizaiwaimianyilumopagunda，chengjiulejudadeshiye。qijianyoubushaonvrencengjiejinguochuci，danshitawudongyuzhong，yizhimeiyouzaiduquqishengzi，linsiqiangengshijiangzijisuoyoudezichanjuanzengjilegueryuan，yicilaijiushuzijidexinling。
zheiduanbukanhuishoudewangshi，xiangshiyikuaixuelinlindeshangba。rujinzaiyicibeijiekai，chuciganjuedaozijidexinzangbuweichuanlaiyizhenjuliedejiaotong。
chucidakouchuanxi，etoushangmaochuleyicenglenghan。dangwuzhiji，tazhixianggaoqingchuyigewenti——zijideqizihenvershifouhaihuozhe？
呜呜呜~
jiuzaizheishi，qingcuidekushengzaiduchuanlai，chucixunshengtuikailemumen，kandaoletangwuzhongdeliangdaorenying。
qiziqiujinghenverchuyiyiyiweizaiyiqi，chuyiyiquansuozaimuqindehuaizhong，tanchuyigexiaonaodai，kudelihuadaiyu。dangtakandaochucituikaifangmendechanei，suolesuoxiaonaodai，dunshizhizhulekuqi。
“qiu...qiujing！”chucikanzheyanqianhunqianmengraodemunvliangren，chichidekaikou，neixinwuweizachen。
lingwaiyibian，qiujingtingdaochucihanziji，zhuanguoshenlai，luchuleyizhangjingzhideguazilian。qiujingpifubaixi，shencaigaotiao，dayanjingheibaifenming，hongpupudeliandanshangfeichangganjing，meiyouyisizazhi，shuyuneizhongchuntianrandemeinv。
zaiyicikandaoqiujing，chucihuixiangqilezijidejiabaowangshi，bujinzaixinzhonganmazijizhenshige**。
qiujingtongyangdingzhechuci，jiujiumeiyoukaikoushuohua。
raner，chuciqueshizhuyidao，qiujingdemouguangbingleng，erqietadeyizhiquantouzuandehenjin，lianxiangdaoguoqudejiyi，chucibujinshenziyizhen，danxinqiujingerhuabushuo，chongshanglaishoushizijiyidun。
“nandaowozhendezhongshengle？！”chuciqialeqiazijidedatui，tengdeziyaliezui。
“chuci，nidaodixiangganshenme？jialiyijingmeiyouqianqujinimaijiule！”qiujingshengyinhenleng，yiduimeimousisididingzhechuci。
mianduibaonudeqizi，chucishanshanyixiao，dixiatouqu，zhuanerkanxiangqiujinghuaizhongdechuyiyi。
chucidejudongfeichangguaiyi，qiujingyouxiemobuzhetounao，tawuyiweichuciduinverdongleshenmewaixinsi，lianmangbanverbaodaoleshenhou，erhouzhanqishenlai，lengshengdao：“chuci，wogaosuni，niyaoshiganduiyiyidongshenmexinsi，womenniangliangjiubuhuole！”
chucikesouyisheng，zhidaoqiziwuhuizijile，tazhanglezhangkou，youtaiduodehuaxiangyaoheqizisushuo，danyishibanhuieryoutubuchubangezilai。
yizhongaohuizhongdaizhekuangxidefuzaqingxuyongshangxintou，xiangyigenishuibeijiuqidezishazhe，xintoudefuzaqingxunanyiyanshu。
“wo...wo...”chucizhizhiwuwulebantian，zuihouyangqizijideyoushou，yilianrenzhendidao：“qiujing，nifangxin，woyihouyidingbuhejiule，jiniheyiyixingfudeshenghuo。”
“zheihuashuochulainizijixinma？”mianduichucidedanbao，qiujingshengyinbingleng，fangfochucishijiejidirenyiban。
yanqiandezheigenanren，jiletataiduocishiwang，tayijingbuhuizaixiangxintadehuale。
“jingjing，nizaixinwozuihouyici！zhende，zuihouyici！”chucihuayukengqiang，kanshangqufeichangchengken。
但......
qiujingyijingchedisixinle，kanzhechucixinshidandandeyangzi，tazhijuedeexin。
zhibuguo，zaikandaochuciyanzhongdeleihuashi，qiujingxinlimougedongxi，haishibeiweiweichudongleyixia。
tahuranjianjuede，yanqiandechuci，sihuyoushenmedifang，butaiyiyangle。
qiujingdaliangleyiyanchuci，mouguangzhongchongmanlehuyizhise。
jiuzaizheishi，yuanziwaichuanlaiyizhenxuanxiao，chucitouguotangwudamen，kandaoyuanneichongjinlaiyiqunwudasancudenanren，tamenshouchimubang，mamalielie，dapolexiaoyuanneideningjingqifen。
yuanzizhong，shaizheliangdakuangdadou，neishiyijiarenzhongyaodeshenghuolaiyuan。
“xingchude，ganjinjilaozihaiqian！”lingtoudeheiyinanrenchekaisangzihoudao，tazhangdeyaocubangyuan，yilianxiongxiang，lianshangliuzheyidaozhangzhangdebahen，shuohuadeshihouxiangshiyouyizhiwugongzailianshangrudong，kanshangqukongbuershenren。
chuyiyibeituranchuxiandeyiqunnanrenhedehaotaodaku，qiujingjiangnverjinjinhuzaishenhou，zhunbeiqishenquheyaozhaiderenjiaoshe。raner，yipangdechuciqueshixiantayibulaidaoletangwudamen。
chucizhuanguoshenlai，shenshenkanleyiyanchuyiyi，erhouduiqiujingyuqipingjingdao：“jingjing，nizaizheilibuyaochuqu，zheijianshiqingjiaojiwolaichuli。”
shuowan，chenzhewuwaiderenheqinvbuzhuyi，taqiaoqiaochaoqiyibajiandao，biezaiyaohou。
ranhou，tazhuanshen，duizhewuwaidenanren，liekaizui，luchucanlandexiaorong，dabuzoulechuqu。
衣服，遮住了剪刀。