diyizhanghongzhuqixuehongzhubaoliedehuoxingjianzaihunfushangshi，wohaiwozhesuqingyideshoushaxiao。“ayi，
nijintianzhenhaokan。”xuexingweimanshanglaishi，wocaifaxianneibaguanchuanxiongtangdebishou，
bingshangxiangqiandeheiyaoshizhengyingzhewoniuqudelian。suqingyidezhijianhuaguowojingcedongmai，
zhijiashangdekoudanbizhuhuogengyan：“shenyan，bieguaiwo。nidetianshulingmai，shiwozhengdaodezuihouyibu。
”woxiangzhiwentayandineisanniandewenroushibushijiade，
xiangwenwenchucixiangyushitadilaideneibeirekekeliyoumeiyouxuanji，kehoulonglizhinengyongchupaomozhuangdexue。
tafushentianletianwoerchui，shengyinqingdexiangqingrenjiandeninan：“neiben《wuqingdaomilu》shuodemeicuo，
shazuiaizhiren，fangnengzhanduanchenyuanfeisheng。”shixianmohujian，wokanjiantabojingjiandeshuangyuyupeiliangqiqingguang，
neishiwoqunianzaigudongjietaolaisongtadedingqingxinwu。yuanlaicongyikaishi，tayaodejiubushiwozheigeren。
jutongxijuanyishidezuihouyimiao，chuangwaijingleizhaxiang，yupeituranbengchucimudebaiguang，
jiangwochedijuanruwubianheian。dierzhangyuxiangzhongfeng“xiansheng，xuyaobangmangma？
”shuxideshengyinrangwomengdijingxing，yusidashilechenshanlingkou，yanqianshichengzhelanbaigezisandesuqingyi。
tabinjiaobiezheduobaimoli，
hesannianqianyimoyiyang——jintianshi2022nian9yue17ri，wohetaxiangshiderizi。
woxiayishimoxiangxiongkou，neilimeiyoushangkou，zhiyouxinzangzaifengkuangleidong。
suqingyizhengwanyaobangwojianshisanluodehuaju，zhijianbujingyicaguowoshouwanshi，
woqingxidiganjuedaoyisiweiruodelinglibodong。zhongshengle。wojingranhuidaolebeijukaishidezheiyitian。“xiexie。
”wojieguohuaban，keyibikaitadechupeng。qianshidewojiushibeizheifuwenroumoyangpianle，
yiweijiandaolediaoluorenjiandetianshi，shubuzhishiyinlangrushi。tabojingjiankongkongruye，
kanlaishuangyuyupeihaimeidao“gaichuxian”deshihou。“ninshihuajia？”suqingyiwaitouxiao，
sanyandeshuizhudiluozaitashoubei，“qianmianyoujiakafeiguan，woqingninhebeirekekepeizuiba，
gangcaibuxiaoxinzhuanglenin。”rekeke。wodingzhetaxianzhangdeshouzhi，xiangqixinhunyeneibaranxuedebishou。
qianshijiushizheibeijialeliaoderekeke，rangwoduitaxiexiasuoyoufangbei，yerangtachenjimoqinglewolingmaideweizhi。
“haoa。”wochechugejiangyingdexiao，genzhetazoujinyumu。luguogudongdianchuchuangshi，
neimeishuangyuyupeizhengjingjingtangzaijutaili，yangguangtouguoboli，zaiyupeishangtouxiaguiyideanying。
disanzhangbubuweiyingkafeiguannuanhuangdedengguangli，suqingyijiaobanzhekekedeshaoziturandunledun：“shenxiansheng，
ninhaoxianghenpawo？”wozhijianmosuozhemakebeibianyuan，
yuguangpiejiantaxiuzhongluchubanjiefuzhi：“zhishijuede……su**hewoyiweigurenhenxiang。
”qianshizhidaosi，wodoubuzhidaotashixuanmenshijiadechuanren，gengbuzhidaotajiejinwoshiyinweigujijizai，
shenjiadixixuemaizangzhenengzhuxiushifeishengdetianshulingmai。tayandifeikuaishanguoyisijingti，
suijiyouhuifuwenrou：“zhenqiaoni。duile，wozuijinzaizhaoyibenguji，jiao《wuqingdaomilu》，nintingshuoguoma？
”laile。woxinlilengxiao，mianshangquezhuangzuomangran：“meitingguo，buguoworenshigujixiufushi，xuyaobangmangma？
”zheishiwopaochudeyouer，qianshitahualebanniancaitongguoheishimaidaomiluchaoben，zheiciwoyaoqiangzaitaqianmian。
suqingyideyanjingliangle：“neitaiganxiele！”taqishenshi，fashaosaoguozhuomian，
yimeixiaoxiaodeqingtongfupaicongkoudaihualuo。woyanjiaoyuguangsaodaofupaishangkezhe“qingxuguan”sangezi，
shunjianxiangqiqianshizhenglitayiwushijianguodetongkuanshifupai——neishixuanmenzhongzhuanmenzhuizonglingmaidefaqi。
gaobieshiyuyijingtingle，suqingyizouhou，wolikedachequlechengxideqingxuguan。
daoguanhouyuandelaodaoshikandaowoshi，jingdeshoulidefuchendoudiaole：“tianshulingmaixianshi？
kenideqixi……zenmedaizhesiqi？”“wobeirenzhuisha。”woyadishengyin，jiangxinhunyedezaoyuyinqu，
zhishuoyourenjiyuwodelingmai，“daozhangkezhisuqingyi？”laodaoshiliansezhoubian：“neishiqingxuguanpantu！
toule《wuqingdaomilu》taoxiashan，jushuoyaozhaotianshulingmaichiyouzhelianxieshu！
”tacongxiuzhongquchuyimeihushenfu，“zheishizhenlingfu，nengzanshiyinzangnidelingmaiqixi，
dantaruoyonglexunmaifu，haishinengganyingdao。”wojieguofuzhi，zhijianchuanlaibingliangdechugan。zouchudaoguanshi，
shoujishoudaoxinxiaoxi，shisuqingyifalaide：“shenxiansheng，gujideshibaituoninla，mingtianyiqichifanxiangtan？
”pingmuyingchuwobinglengdeyanshen。suqingyi，zheiyishi，lierenheliewudeweizhi，gaihuanyihuanle。
disizhangyupeixuanjidiertianfuyueqian，woxianquleneijiagudongdian。laobanshigebojiaodelaotou，
jianwodingzheshuangyuyupei，hunzhuodeyanjingturanliangle：“xiaohuozi，dongxinga？zheikeshiqingxuguandefaqi，
nengwenyanglingmai，yeneng……xishilingmai。”woxinzangyisuo：“shenmeyisi？
”“ershinianqianyourenbatadangdiao，shuoshishenmefeishengmibao。”laotouyongbucazheyupei，“yupeiyouliangmian，
yangmianyangmai，yinmianshimai。yaoshibeixinhuaibuguiderennadao，zaipeishangtianshulingmaidexue，
jiunengzhijieduoquduifangxiuwei。”nanguaisuqingyiyaowosongtazheige。wobudongshengsedimaixiayupei，
tieshenzangzaichenshanli。gangzouchudianmen，jiukanjiansuqingyizhanzaijieduimian，shoulitizhegeshihe。“shenxiansheng，
wozuolexiedianxin。”tazirandiwanzhuwogebo，linglishunzhezhijiantanguolai，
quebeiwotieshendezhenlingfudanglehuiqu。tameitouweicu，henkuaiyoushuzhankai，“zuotianshuodeguji，youmeimulema？
”“zhaodaolexiansuo，buguoxiufushiyaoxiazhoucaihuilai。”wosahuangshi，guyipenglepengtadeshouwan，
neilizangzhexunmaifudehenjihaimeixiaotui，“duile，wozuotianquleqingxuguan，daozhangshuorenshini。
”suqingyidejiaobumengdidunzhu，xiaorongjiangyingleyishun：“shima？woxiaoshihouzaineizhuguoyizhenzi。
”tahenkuaizhuanyihuati，zhizheqianmiandehualang，“tingshuoshenxianshengdehuazhanchuzaizheili？
”hualangliguazhewoqianshihuade《yuyexiangyu》，huazhongdesuqingyichengzhesan，yandizangzhebuyichajuedefengmang。
wozhanzaihuaqian，tingjiantaqingshengshuo：“zheifuhualidelingqihaonong。”“kenengshihuadeshihoutaitourule。
”wozhuantoukanta，turanjuqixiangji，“su**，nengbangwodangmotema？jiuyizheifuhuaweiyuanxing。
”kuaimenanxiadeshunjian，wokanjiantatongkongzhousuo，
yinweixiangjilizhuangzhelaodaoshijidezhaoyaojingsuipian——zhaopianshangdeta，shenhouyinyuefuxianchubantoumingdehuwei。
yuanlaitabuzhishixuanmendizi，haishigebanyao。qianshiwodaosidoubuzhidao，taxiuliandegenbenbushishenmewuqingdao，
ershixuyaoxishilingmaicainenghuaweirenxingdeyaoshu。“shenxiansheng？”suqingyideshengyindaizheyisizhandou。
wofangxiaxiangji，xiaodewenrou：“meishenme，zhishijuedesu**bihualihaimei。
”koudailideshuangyuyupeiweiweifatang，xiangshizaihuyingzheshenme。zheiyishi，wobujinyaofuchou，
haiyaojiekaitasuoyoudemimi。diwuzhangyupeiqixuehuidaogongyushi，museyimanguochuangtai。
wojiangshuangyuyupeifangzaizhangxin，zhijiangangchudaobingliangdeyumian，yupeituranjuliezhenzhan，
yinmiandewenlujingshenchuanhongsedeyeti，xiangjilexinhunyewoxiongkoutangchudexue。
“zheibushiputongdeshimai……”woxiangqigudongdianlaobandehua，jimangfanchulaodaoshijidezhenlingfu。
kedangfuzhitiejinyupeishi，fuzhijing“zila”yishengshaochenghuijin，
kongqizhongpiaozheyigujiaohudexingqi——zheihewoqianshibeibishoucichuanshiwendaodeweidaoyimoyiyang。
shoujituranzhendong，shigemoshenghaomafalaidecaixin：yizhanglaodaoshiyuheishishangrenjiaoyidezhaopian，
beijingliduizhechengxiangdexunmaifu，fuyanzhiyousigezi：“tazaipianni。”wohoubeishunjianqinmanlenghan。
nandaocongqingxuguankaishi，wojiutarulelingyigexianjing？womengdixiangqilaodaoshijiandaowoshidefanying，
tazhiwenlelingmaihesiqi，quejuekoubuti《wuqingdaomilu》——ruosuqingyizhentoulemilu，
taweihebuzhuiwen？zheishi，yupeituranfachuxisuideguang，
yinmiandewenlujingmanmanxianluchuyixingxiaozi：“qingxuguanzhu，shimaichengmo。”woxinzangzhouting。
nandaolaodaoshicaishizhenzhengjiyulingmaideren？neisuqingyide“beipan”youshishenme？
wozhuaqiwaitaochongxianggudongdian，quezaixiangkouzhuangjianhunshenshishangdesuqingyi，tahuailijinjinbaozhegeranxuedebubao，
kanjianwoshi，huweibushoukongzhidilulebanjie。“kuaipao！”tapuguolaizhuazhuwoshouwan，
zhangxindexuecengzaiwochenshanshang，“laodaoshiyaoshani！tacaishitoumiluderen！
”diliuzhanghuyaozhenyanwozhengtuotadeshou，houtuibanbudingzhetadehuwei：“niyouzaishuashenmehuazhao？
”suqingyiliangqiangzhekaozaiqiangshang，zuijiaoyichuxuemo：“womeipianni……”tadakaibubao，
limianshibenfanhuangdeguji，fengmianshangzhengshi《wuqingdaomilu》，“ershinianqian，womuqinjiushibeilaodaoshishade。
tafaxianshenjiayoutianshulingmai，quezhaobudaochiyouzhe，jiujiahuowotoulemilu，rangxuanmenzhuishawo，
haojiewodeshouzhaoni。”wodingzheguji，
turanxiangqixinhunyetadehua——tashuo“shazuiaizhirenfangnengfeisheng”，
keciketayandidehuangluanbuxiangzuojia。yupeizaiwokoudailifatang，
yangmiandewenlujingyugujifengdidetuanwanquanwenhe。“neinijiejinwo，bushiweilelingmai？”woshengyinfajin。
suqingyicanxiaoyisheng，huweichuizaidishang：“shiweilelingmai，danbushiweileduomai。”tajuanqixiuzi，
shoubeishangbumanzhengningdebahen，“woshibanyao，ruobunengzaiershiwusuiqianzhaodaotianshulingmaichiyouzhejieqi，
jiuhuiyaohuaersi。laodaoshipianwoshuo，jieqixuyaoshaleni，kewo……”tadeshengyinturangengyan，
zhijianfuguogujishangdepizhu：“womuqinliuxiadebijilixiezhe，jieqizhixushuangfangziyuan。wojiejinnihou，
quefaxianzijizhendexihuanni……”zheishi，xiangkouchuanlaijiaobusheng，laodaoshizhuzhefuchenzoulai，
fuchendesuizishangzhanzhexueji：“qingyi，biehuailewodeshi。”takanxiangwo，yanjinglishanshuozhetanlandeguang，
“shenyan，nidelingmai，jintiangaiguiwole。”diqizhangfuzhimijusuqingyidangzaiwoshenqian，
huweishuqilaihuzhuwo：“tabuhuijinide！”laodaoshilengxiaoyisheng，
congxiuzhongquchuzhangjinsefuzhi：“niyiweiwoweishenmejishenyanzhenlingfu？neifuzhinengzhuizonglingmaiweizhi，
hainengxueruotadelingli。”tazhijianqiajue，fuzhizaikongzhongranqihuoyan，“xianzai，
nidelingmaiyijinghewolianzaiyiqile。”woturanjuedexiongkoujutong，tianshulingmaideweizhixiangbeiwushugenzhenzaizha。
koudailideyupeimengdifeichulai，xuanzaibankong，yangmianduizhewo，yinmianduizhelaodaoshi，fachuciyandeguang。
“bukeneng！”laodaoshiliansezhoubian，“zheiyupeimingmingshishimaifaqi！”“tayeshihumaifaqi。
”gudongdianlaobandeshengyincongxiangkouchuanlai，tazhuzheguaizhangzoujin，bojiaodezuotuijingmanmanshenzhi，
luchujiaohuaishangdexuanmenyinji，“woshixuanmenzhifazhe，dingleniershinian，qingxuguanzhu。”laodaoshihuangleshen，
zhuanshenxiangpao，quebeiyupeifachudeguangkunzhu。suqingyichenjijianggujirengjiwo：“fandaozuihouyiye！
youjiezhoudebanfa！”wofankaiguji，zuihouyiyehuazhegefuzadezhenfa，
pangbianxiezhe：“jiezhouxuyibanyaozhixueweiyin，lingmaichiyouzheziyuanduli。”“niyuanyixinwoma？
”suqingyikanzhewo，yandimanshijuejue，“ruonibuyuanyi，woxianzaijiushalelaodaoshi，napatongguiyujin。
”yupeideguangyuelaiyueqiang，laodaoshidecanjiaoshengzaixiangzilihuidang。woxiangqixinhunyedexue，xiangqiyuxiangdechuyu，
xiangqitadilairekekeshidewenrou——huoxucongyikaishi，wojiucuokanleta，yecuokanlezheichangfuchou。
wowozhutadeshou，jianglinglishunzhezhangxinduguoqu：“woxinni。
”dibazhangxueqizhizhensuqingyidehuweituranfachubaiguang，yuyupeideguangjiaozhizaiyiqi，
xingchengyigeyuanxingdezhenfa。laodaoshizaizhenzhongzhengzha，shenshangdelinglibeiyidiandianxijinyupei：“nimenhuihouhuide！
banyaohelingmaichiyouzhejieqi，zhihuihuxiangtuolei！”womeilihuita，zhizhuanzhudiduzhelingli。
suqingyidexuedizaizhenfazhongyang，yuwodexuerongzaiyiqi，gujishangdewenzituranfuzaikongzhong，
fachujinsedeguang：“xueqiyicheng，shengsiyugong。”zhenfaxiaosanshi，laodaoshidaozaidishang，hunshenganbie，
xiangbeichouzoulesuoyoushengmingli。yupeihuanhuanluozaiwozhangxin，yinyangliangmiandewenluzhongyuhezaiyiqi，
bianchenglewanzhengdeshuangyutuan。suqingyidehuweimanmanxiaoshi，shoubeishangdebahenyedanlexie：“jieqichenggongle。
”takanzhewo，yankuangfanhong，“duibuqi，zhiqianpianlenizheimejiu。”womolemotadetou，
turanxiangqineigemoshenghaomadecaixin：“shinijiwofadexiaoxi？”tadiantou：“wofaxianlaodaoshigenzongni，
jiuyongniminghaomatixingni，kehaishiwanle……”zheishi，gudongdianlaobanzouguolai，
jiangyimeiqingtongfupaidijiwo：“zheishixuanmenzhifaling，yihouruoyouxuanmenzhirenzhaonimafan，
pingzheigekeyidiaoyongzhifazhe。”takanleyansuqingyi，“nimuqinshigehaoren，
tadangnianweilebaohulingmaichiyouzhe，caibeilaodaoshishahai。”suqingyijieguofupai，zhijianweiweizhandou。
wokanzheta，turanjuedezhongshenghoudezheichangfuchou，jingbianchengleyichangjiushu。kejiuzaizheishi，
yupeituranfachuyizhenguiyidehongguang，gujishangdewenzikaishiniuqu，
manmanbianchengyixingxindezi：“xueqifeizhongju，momaijiangxianshi。”wohesuqingyiduishiyiyan，
doucongduifangyandikandaolebuan。yuanlaizheiyiqie，haimeiyoujieshu。dijiuzhangyiwuyiyunhuidaogongyushi，
chuangwaiyipiaoqixixue。suqingyijianglaodaoshidefuchenfangzaizhuoshang，
fuchensuizijianjingchanzhebanpianyinsuo——neishitamuqindeyiwu，ershinianqianshizongshijiudaizaishenshang。
“zheizenmehuizaitashouli？”suqingyizhijianfuguoyinsuo，suoshenkezhede“qing”ziyibeixuezimohu。
woturanxiangqigudongdianlaobandilaidezhifaling，beimiansihuyeyouxiangtongdewenlu，gangyaokaikou，
zhangxindeshuangyuyupeituranyuyinsuochanshenggongming，liangdaoweiguangjiaozhizaiyiqi，
zaiqiangshangtouchugecanquedetuan：xiangshizuodaoguandelunkuo。“shichengjiaodejingxinguan。”suqingyituranchusheng，
“womuqinshengqianshuoguo，neishixuanmenyonglaizhenyaxiewudedifang，ershinianqianturanfeiqile。
”womenlianyefanzhaolaodaoshideyiwu，zaitasuishendemuxianglifaxiangeange，
limianzangzhesanyangdongxi：yibenqueyedexuanmendianji、banzhangfanhuangdezhaopian，haiyoufengmeichaifengdexin。
zhaopianshangshilianggechuandaopaoderen，qizhongyigeshinianqingdelaodaoshi，lingyigerendelianbeihuademohu，
zhiluchuyaojiandeqingtongfu——hegudongdianlaobandezhifalingyimoyiyang。“zheishixuanmenzhanglaodefupai。
”suqingyizhizhezhaopian，“womuqinshuoguo，dangnianzhiyousanweizhanglaoyouzheizhongfu。”tachaikaixin，
xinzhifanhuangfacui，zijiquetouzhehuangluan：“momaijiangxing，zhenmoshiyisui，ruotianshulingmaiyubanyaojieqi，
xuxunhuisankuaisuipian……pantuzaizhanglaozhizhong，qiewuxinrenheren。”xinweimeiyoushuming，
zhihualegeheyinsuoshangxiangtongde“qing”zi。woturanxiangqigudongdianlaobanjiaohuaidexuanmenyinji，
neiyinjibiputongzhifazhedegengfuza——nandaotajiushizhaopianshangbeihuaqulianderen？zheishi，
suqingyicongyinsuolikouchulimilidadejingshi，jingshiyijiechuyupei，
likefachuciyandelanguang：“zheishi……zhenmoshisuipian？”tashengyinfazhan，“womuqinbijilixieguo，
zhenmoshinengyazhimomai，ershinianqianjiushiyinweizhenmoshisuilie，jingxinguancaihuifeiqi。
”yupeishangdeshuangyutuanturanzhuandong，yangmianwenluzhixiangchuangwai，xiangshizaizhiyinfangxiang。
wozhuaqiwaitao：“qujingxinguan，huoxunengzhaodaodierkuaisuipian。”suqingyijiangyinsuozuanzaishouxin，
zhijianfanbai——tazhongyuyaojiejinmuqinsiwangdezhenxiangle。
dishizhangwusuohuangguanchengjiaodejingxinguanzangzaiwulinshenchu，jixueyakualedabanyuanqiang，
zhuhongdamenshangde“zhenmofu”yitunsechenghui。tuikaimenshi，menzhoufachucierdezhiyasheng，
wuqishunzhemenfengyongjinlai，daizhegufuxiudetanxiang。“xiaoxindian，zheiwubuduijing。
”wojiangsuqingyihuzaishenhou，yupeizaizhangxinfatang，yangmianwenluliangdeciyan。zoulemeijibu，
jiaoxiaturantidaogedongxi——shibanjiedaopaoxiuzi，buliaoshangxiuzhexuanmenzhanglaodeyunwen，
xiukouhaizhanzheweigandeheixue。“zheixueshixinxiande。”suqingyidunxiashen，zhijiangangpengdaobuliao，
wuqituranfanyong，wushuheiyingcongwulizuanchulai，xiangbeichesuideyingzibanchanshangwomendejiaohuai。
“nimenbugailaizheili。”heiyinglichuanlaishayadeshengyin，“zhenmoshisuipianbeinimenhuanxing，
momaihenkuaijiuyaochongpofengyinle。”wojianglinglizhuruyupei，languangshunjianzhakai，heiyingcanjiaozhehoutui。
suqingyichenjishuaichufuzhi，fuzhizaikongzhongshaochenghuijin，
quezaidishanghuachugewanzhengdezhenfa——hegujilidexueqizhenyouqifenxiangsi，zhishizhenyanchuduolegeaocao，
ganghaonengfangxiazhenmoshisuipian。“zheishizhenmozhen！”suqingyijingsheng，“womuqinbijilihuaguo，
xuyaosankuaizhenmoshisuipiancainengqidong。”tagangyaowanyaoqumozhenfa，wuqituranningjuchenggemohuderenying，
renyingyaojianhuangguogeshuxidewujian——shigudongdianlaobandeqingtongguaizhang。“kuaizou！
”wolazhesuqingyizhuanshen，shenhouchuanlairenyingdelengxiao：“shenyan，niyiweizhifazhezhendebangni？tayaode，
conglaidoushinihemomaideliliang。”wuqiyuelaiyuenong，womendiediezhuangzhuangpaochujingxinguan，huitoushi，
zhengzuodaoguanjingbeiwutunshi，lianlunkuodoukanbujianle。suqingyishouxindeyinsuofatang，
zhenmoshisuipiandelanguangruoledaban：“gangcaiderenying……zhendeshichenlaoban（gudongdianlaoban）ma？
”wozuanjinyupei，gangcairenyingyaojiandeguaizhangbuhuicuo——neigebangwomenjiechuanlaodaoshideren，
huoxucongyikaishijiuzaibuju。dishiyizhangrijicanyehuidaogongyushi，tianyiweiliang。
wofanchufuqinliuxiadejiuriji，neishitashizongqiansuozaishuzhuochoutilide，
zhiqianwoyizhiyiweizhishiputongdejiazusuoshi，zhidaocikecaifaxian，
rijilizangzheyongzhushaxiedemixin：“1999nian，momaiyidong，xutianshulingmaiyubanyaozhixuezhenya，
zhenmoshisuiweisan，yikuaizaijingxinguan，yikuaizaixuanmenbaoku，yikuai……”houmiandezijibeisidiaole，
yebianhailiuzhezhijiazhuanaodehenji，xiangshixierijiderendangshijiweitongku。
woturanxiangqilaodaoshixinlidehua“pantuzaizhanglaozhizhong”，fuqinshizongneinian，
zhenghaoshiershinianqian——nandaotadeshizonghemomaiyouguan？“nikanzheige。