huidaobeiliangdiyiri,wobiankaishixuexifenxiangchahua,xuexisancongside,xuexizhenzhinvhong……woxiaoxinyiyi,ririrulvbobing,shengpatahuifanhuishalewo。
yinweitazaibeiliang,guodebingbukuaile。
tazaihuanggongzhongzoudemeiyibu,wodouqinyanjianguo。
woqinyanjianguo,tianhandidong,hanchanqiqie,tawozaibingshang,shengshengronghualebingceng,zhiyinwohuangxiongshuoxiangchidongrilideyu。
woqinyanjianguo,tayanhanxiaoyi,yongshouzhuazhehuangxiongrengjitadegoushi,guixiehuangjiashengen。
……
shishenmeshihou,wocaizhidaoyuanyin,pingriliwuyibinglidehuangxionghuituranyourucishili,nenggoumoufanpanluan,shalehuanggonglidesuoyoujinweijun。
juranshiyinweiqilianhetonghuangxiongzuolejiaoyi。
他助皇兄继位。
nantangmeinianshanggongjineshangzhangwuqianbaiyin,jinbowanpi,gongnvqianren……erzheixieqian,houlaidouyongzuoleqilianhemoufandejinku。
我该恨他的。
可我却恨不起来。
beiliangnaneryinengwangongshejian,mabeishangduotianxiaweirong。
qilianhegengshiladeyishouhaogong,queyinweiwodehuangxiong,tacishengdoubunengzailagongrumanyue,zaiyebunengqimachichengjiangchang。
neiriwobaozhefuhuangjiwodegongjianquzhaota,xiangrangtajiaowo。
neizhangjunmeidelianpangshang,meiyujianluoxiaaichou,luoleichuimou,「cisheng,padoubunengjiaogongzhuwangongle。」woyinggaihuxiatade。
我为何没能护下他。
ruruowozhidao,tangruowozhidao……
woririxiaoxinjinshen,shengpatanatianhuixiangqizaibeiliangjinglideyiqie,shalewo。
ketaduiwozhendehenhao,haodaorangwofangsonglejingti。
tajiwowanfaji,shuowodeedinggao,zhiyoutadewangfeicaipeideshang。
tazhidaowoxiangchibeiliangsumamazuodenailaosu,banyeqimabenbosanrijiwomaihuilai。
tapawobuxiguanbeilianghuanggongdeguijutiaoli,anweiwoshuozhiyaotazaiyiri,wobianbuyongshouguiju。
……
直到一年后。
zhengyuannianshiqiri,mantianxuehuayangailemandidecanwu。
祁连赫反了。
tadelianjiashangzhanshanglebanbanxueji,zhangjianwozaishoushang。
baixideshougushanghaizailiuzhexue,luchuyicengsensenbaigu。
tazhanzaibixiamianqian,miansekebu,meiyousihaobiaoqing,danmodexianggemeiyoushengmingdemuou。
tademuguangtingzaitashangneizhangmanmuyoubudelianshang,daizhejifenshenshi,shensepingjingwubo。
huanhuanqikou,shengyinhenlisenran:「nijiangwosongqunantangzuozhizi,wobuguaini,liunianlainibuwenbuwen,buguanwodeshengsi,wobuyuanni,kenitingyouneigenvrendehua,shuowomufei***hougong,bushoufudao,kenilianbianjiedejihuidoubujiwomufei,rangtasizaibinglengdelaofangli,daosidoubudejiantianri。ni……gaisi。」jianjiancitouxiongtang,xianxueruzhu。
dianxiazhongren,renrenweise,mianmianxiangqu,quewuyirenganzhihuiyier。
qilianhedeshoumeiyoubanfenzhandou,gexiatafuqindetoulu,boxiapi,zhazaishizijiashang,meiyoubanfenshouruan。
xianxuelinlindetoulubeiwuyakenshidiaoyizhiyanqiu,qilianhezhishidandandepieleyiyan。
huanghoubeifaxiandeshihou,shenzhiyiranbuqingle。
toufashanghaizhanzhewuzhuozhiwu,zaitudiliduoduosuosuoguibaizhangshengtian。
qilianhemingrenbatadeerzidaidaotamianqian。
tacaimianqianghuifulexieyishi。
「woxiaoshihou,nihaibaoguowo,nishuofuhuangdehaizijiushinidehaizi。rujinwoyijinghuilaile,yutashiyiyangde,huanghoutiwoshaletaba。」qilianhechaotaerzi,yejiushitadeqindidi,tiaoletiaomei。
qilianhebajiansaidaotashouli,bizhetamushiqianfang,duizhuntadeerzi。
jianrujili,xianxueyongchu,jianletayilian。