第一章 你到底是谁

郑医生:你好。今天,我养了三年的仙人掌小美死了。我给她做了一个墓,希望她在下面能开开心心。

wojintianheleliangwanzhouhaichileyigejiaozi,bizuotiandeduohenduo,qingnifangxin。zhishiyouwanglechiyao,duibuqi。

——2020nian12yue,dongzhi,daxue。0557hao,qiaoyuxi。zhanzailudengxiaxiewanzuihouyigezi,woanxiafasongjian。

zheishimeitianyaojiyishengfaderiji,woyijingxielesannianle。badongdefahongdeshouchuaizaiyifukoudai,wodizhetouwangbeihoufulitanghuangrutongzhuangyuandehuisuo“huangchao”zouqu。

zaigengyishihuanshangtieshendezhangqun,wobayurongfuguazaichuwuju,yanshenyidun。zhijianzheichuanlesanniandeyurongfuneice,polegedong。nanguaizongjuedeyuelaiyuebubaonuanle。

dalegepenti,wozhihaodadingzhuyidaowangshangzaimaiyijian。zhenxishengming,shiyishengjiaowodediyitiaoguiju。suoyizhinengweibeiwodediertiaoguiju:budaowanbudeyibuhuaqian。

laidaobaotai,wozhengqiandao,zongjinglihongjiefengfenghuohuozouleguolai。tasaoleyiquandeguniang,zhizhewo:“qiaoyuxi,nidingtiyixiadaqiaoquzongtongbaojiansongxiajiu。

”“a?”“zenme?”hongjiemeimaoyishu,“nibushijizheyongqianma?zongtongbaojiandeyemenshouzhiyiloujiugounipingchangyigeyueticheng。”“e。”qishiwozhishizaiyouyu,xinmaidexianrenzhangaming,jintianbujiaoshuihuibuhuichuwenti?

xiaoxinyiyideduanzheyipingbiaojia3wanmeiyuandelangmujiu,hongjiedaizhewoshanglezuidingceng。zheishiwocongmeilaiguodedifang,hexiamianzhuguangbaoqidezhuangxiubutong,zheiyicengguxiangguse,zhayikan,jianzhixianggeqiguan,zhiyoukongqizhongdeqianjinyiliangdetanxiangzhanshizhekanbujiandehaoshe。

jigemeidegeyouqianqiu,bushujimingxingdexiaoshouzhengdengzaizoulang,kanjianhongjielianmangyingshanglai。qizhongyiyankanquzuihaokandeneigekanjianwo,zhoulemei。“hongjie,zenmebazheishazijiaolaile?”“tazhangdehao,younenghe,yibanrenfaxianbule。”hongjieshuowan,daizheyiduirenwangqianzou。

shuohuademeirenzouzaiwoshenbian,kanwoyishensujing,congbozishangzhailexiangliandaizaiwoshenshang。meihaoqideshuo:“jinquhou,nibuyaosuibianshuohua。”lingyigejiaorouqingyademeirenyiliu,qiaorouchahua:“xiaoqiao,nibiezongshiqifuta。”

wocheqizuijiaochaoxiaoqiaoxiaolexiao。woshuolehaoduobian,wobusha,zhishiyoudianjingshenshidiao,yishengshuoshikeyizhihaode。suoyiwohenqingchu。xiaoqiaosuiranjiaowoshazi,ketayanlicongmeikanbuqiwo,haihuzhewo。

eryiliubiaomiankekeqiqi,quecongmeizhengyankanwo。hongjiegongjingdeqiaoleqiaomen,daiwomenzoujinbaoxiang。hunanbumingdeguangxia,weishoudenanrenshirantaiyankanlai。tayouzherangrenyiyanlunxiandemeiyan,qizhijingui,rutongqiaoyu。

kewozhidao,tamianseyuenuan,taguzilidexuebianyueleng。kandaotadeshunjian,woermingle。jiushizimianshangdeyisi,woermingle,erduoliyipianwengming,shijieshangxiayaohuang。

ruguoyourenxiangzhidaoshishenmeganshou,dagaixianglianxuzuole10tangyunxiaofeicheba。woxiangzhianchun,xiayishibatoudixiaqu,keshentiquenanyikongzhidezhandouqilai。niuqudeshijieli,woshenbianderenyingyigegeshangqian。wozhidaozheishihongjiezaijieshaotamen。zheiyike,woxiangtao。

keshentidelingyizhongliliangquerangwosisizhanzaiyuandi,zhidaohongjieyibalaguowo,jieshao:“zheishiqiaoyuxi,renhentinghuade,jiushidanziyoudianxiao。”“lai,yanyan,dagezhaohu。”woganjuehongjiedezhijiadouxianrulewoderouli,danwohaishibugantaitou。“e,qiaoyuxi。”

neigewocengwubishuxideshengyinxiangqi。woturanbuermingle,mianwubiaoqingdetaiqitou。neinanrenqingxiaoyisheng:“niyiqianbushijiaoqiaobeibeima?”