第四章 死过一次

一杯牛奶,让傅北辰真心笑了。

tashuo:“beibei,haishizheiyangbijiaoshiheni。”tanachufangjin,mantiaosilicaqulianshangdewuzi,yishuangyanyouheibujiandi。zheijiushitadezhenmianmu。zaozaibanianqian,wojiuzhidao,zheigerenjingmeidepinangxiashiheitouledexingan。

qiaobeibeiaishangzheigeren,shitaminglidejie。weilezheigerenzuocuodeshi,shiwoyibeiziyaohaidenie。erduoliyoushiyizhen‘wengweng’dehongming。wozhuanguoshen,haosiluohuangertao。

haichengshieryuedehanfeng,xiangdaoziyiyangchuizaiwolianshang,youhaoxiangguazaiwoxinshang。yipianpian,chuidewotongbuyusheng。kewozenmehaihuiweilefubeichenxintong?qiaobeibeiyijingsile,sizailebanianqiandongzhineiripujiangbinglengdeshuili。rensile,zenmehaihuishangxin?

suoyi,zheizhishiwodecuojue。shiweitaitongle,tongdewokongzhibuleyanlei。huidaojia,chileweiyao,woquansuozaichuangshang。erduodehongmingyizhimeihao,wobutingdefazhedou,

fanweiheexinbidewopaqilai,congzuixiamiandejuzizhaochuyao,douzheshouchilehaojike。kaozhebinglengdejuzixujiu,ermingcaizhongyuxiaotui,wokaishihunhunyushui,zhenggedanaodesiweibiandebushoukongzhi。

woxiangqileqiaobeibeidiyicijianfubeichendeshi。neiniantashiqi,tadebabashihaichengshoufu,mamashizhiminghuajia,dididongshitinghua。

ertaziji,zhuiqiuzhenengpaidaopujiangwai,jiaoaodexiangchushengyuyidexiaotiane,meirennengrutadeyan。zhidaoqiaofuyouyitiandailegeshaonianhuijia。shaonianshiqiaofuguyouzhizi,fuqinzaoshi,muqinganggangqushi,meiyouqinqi,wuyiwukao。

qiaofuhaoxinjiangshaoniandaihuijiazhongzhaogu。shiqisuishiyujiandeshaonian,jingyanleqiaobeibeideyisheng。fubeichenzheigemingzi,jiucikerutadegusui。dantabuzhidao,zheishishangruguochuxianyigewanmeiwuquede‘airen’,zhikenengshige‘jiaren’。

suoyiqiaobeibeiaideyiwufanfu,honghonglielie。fenshensuigu。buzhiguoleduojiu,fanweideganjueshangyong,wodesixuhuidaodanao。ganoulejisheng,wopaqilai。

zheijiushiweishenmewobuxihuanchiyao,meicichiwanyao,wodouzhaobudaozijihuozhedeganjue。chuangwaidetianyijingheile。wozouchufangjian,yipianqihei,yuanliehaimeihuilai。

shoujiyixiang,wonaqiyikan,shiyiyuanzheigeyuedecuikuanduanxin,zonggongliangwansi。bishanggeyueduolebaqian,nandaoshibingqingyoujiazhongle?wodanxindezhouqimei,xinxiangmingtianhaishiquyiyuanyitang。wanshang,woshishuibuzhede。

wonachuqianjitianmeikanwandeshu,yiziyizidekanzhe。zhidaotianliang,wokandaogushijiewei。——shijieshangzuihouyizhidaxiang,paihuaizaigangtiedoushi,zuihou,tatingzailegaojiaqiaoshang。roulerouyanjing,woguanshangshu,naqiqianbaochulemen。

yiyuan。wozaijiaofeitaishualeka,nazhedanziquzhaozhuzhiyisheng。yishengkanwandanzi,tanxiyisheng:“shangciwoyijingshuoguo,jiangxianshengyijingshiniaoduzhengwanqi,touxiyebuguobeishuichexin,chufeizhaodaoshenyuan,fouzeyezhishizaituozheshouzhemo。”

wodechunzhanlezhan,jiyishengjugong:“mafanninle,zaibangwomenzhaozhaoba,qianbushiwenti。”yishengzhizhilewo:“nibiejidong,womendangranhuijinli。”gaobieyisheng,wolaidaobingfang,qiaoleqiaomen。kaimendeshigecanglaoderulaorendezhongniannvren,kandaowo,taminleminchun,liansebuziran。

wozoujinqu,chuangshangdenanrenkanjianwo,lahuangdelianmianqiangxiaoleyixiao。peizheshuolehuihua,wozhanqishengaobie。kanzhenvrencangcudeshentai,wolianmanganwei:“ninbiedanxin,woyidinghuizhihaoshushude。”zouchubingfang,wotingjiangebichuangbingyoushuo:“nimenzhenyouyunqi,meiyouernv,haiyougezhinvzheimejinxinjinli……”wodejiaobuyidun,xinkouxiangbeirenmengdizuanjinle。

bushide,tamenyouyigeerzide。tamendeerzi,yuanbenyehenyouxiu。niannianjiangxuejin,baosong985,shigexiaoqilaiyougejiuwodemiantiannanhai。banianqian,taweilejiuyigenvhai,yongyuanshuizailepujiangli。tajiao——jiangyan。