weishengjianlisiyibandejijing，zhiyouwocuzhongeryayidehuxisheng。wodingzhelajitonglineizhixiaoxiaodeyanyunbang，shangmianliangtiaoqingxide、ciyandehongsehenggang，xiangyigecankudexuanpan，jiangwodingzaileyuandi。
我怀孕了。
zaizheigewoailesanniandenanren，weiletadebaiyueguangpaoxiawodezheigeyewan，wofaxianzijihuailetadehaizi。
mingyundewanxiao，kaideheqielie。
wofuzhebinglengdeqiangbi，huanhuandihuazuodaodishang。xiaofuhaishiyipianpingtan，kewozhidao，neiliyijingyunyuleyigexiaoshengming。yigewoheshenyandehaizi。jiuzaizuotian，wohaimanxinhuanxidixiangxiangzhe，womendinghunhou，yaoshengyigexiangtadenanhai，huoshiyigexiangwodenvhai。erxianzai，zheigexiaoshengmingdecunzai，chengleyigejudadefengci。
用孩子留住他吗？
zheigeniantouzhizainaohaizhongshanxianleyimiao，jiubeiwoqiamiele。wolinshu，jiusuanaidezaibeiwei，yezuobuchuzheizhongyaoweiqiliandeshiqing。yigexinyijingbuzainishenshangdenanren，jiusuanyonghaizikunzhuletadeshenti，yekunbuzhutadexin。wobuxiangwodehaizi，congchushengqijiuhuozaiyigemeiyouaidejiatingli，chengweifumumaoheshenlidejiasuo。
genghekuang，tashiweileneigejiao“anran”denvrenlikaide。neigerangtanianchumingzishi，shengyindouhuizhandoudenvren。neigerangtajuede“kuiqian”denvren。
woshule，shudeyibaitudi。
wobuzhidaozijizaibinglengdedizhuanshangzuoleduojiu，zhidaoshuangtuifama，wocaifuzheqiangbi，yaoyaohuanghuangdizhanqilai。wozoudaoketing，neiwantameihewandetangyijingchediliangle，tangmianshangningjieleyicengbobodeyouzhi，jiuxiangwomenzhijianyijinglengquedeganqing。
wonaqishouji，pingmushangganganjingjing，meiyouyitongweijielaidian，meiyouyitiaojieshideduanxin。
tazouderucijuejue，fangfodudingwohuizaizheilidengtahuilai，tingtaneitaochilaide、guanyu“kuiqian”dejieshi。
xinkoudeduntongyizhenzhenxilai，woqiangpozijibuquxiangtacikezhengzainali，zhengzaiheneigenvrenshuoxieshenme。wodakaitongxunlu，botonglewozuihaodepengyou，jiangxiadedianhua。
电话几乎是秒接。
“shushu？zheimewanlezenmehaimeishui？shibushizaigennideshendazongcainiwaini？”jiangxiadeshengyindaizheyiguandexixue。
wodehoulongxiangshibeishenmeduzhule，yigeziyeshuobuchulai，zhinengtingdaozijiyayide、posuidehuxisheng。
jiangxialikechajuedaolebuduijing。“shushu？nizenmele？chushenmeshile？nibiehewo！”
woshenxiyikouqi，yongjinquanlirangzijideshengyintingqilaipingwenyixie：“xiaoxia，shenyan……zoule。”
“zoule？qunaerle？chuchama？”
“bu，”wobishangyan，ganjueyouguntangdeyeticongyanjiaohualuo，“taqujiantadebaiyueguangle。yige……jiaoanrandenvren。”
dianhuaneitouxianrulezhangjiudechenmo，suijibaofachujiangxiadenuhou：“anran？tahuilaile？！**！shenyanzheigewangbadan！tazenmegan！nimenxiageyuejiuyaodinghunle！”
“shia，”wochelechezuijiao，xiaodebikuhainankan，“jiuyaodinghunle。”
“nidengzhe，womashangguoqu！”jiangxiadeshengyinlimanshinuhuohexinteng，“nibieyigerendaizhe，youshenmeshidengwodaolezaishuo。”
gualedianhua，woquansuozaishafashang，jianglianshenshendimaijinxigaili。zaizheigeruodade、cengjingbeiwoshiweijiadefangzili，wodiyiciganjuedaolecigudehanleng。
banxiaoshihou，menlingbeiandezhentianxiang。wodakaimen，jiangxiayizhenfengsidechonglejinlai，tashangxiadaliangzhewo，kandaowocangbaidelianhehongzhongdeyanjing，yibajiangwojinjinbaozhu。
“meishile，meishile，youwoni。”taqingqingpaizhewodebei，xianghongyigehaizi。
wennuandehuaibaorangwojinbengdeshenjingshunjianduanlie，wozaiyerenbuzhu，fuzaitadejiantou，fangshengdaku。zheisanniandeweiqu、tianmi、xingfuhecikedebeipan、xinsui，quandouhuazuoleguntangdeleishui，jinshiletadeyishan。
kulehenjiu，zhidaosangzidouyale，wocaijianjianpingfuxialai。
jiangxiafuwodaoshafashangzuoxia，jiwodaoleyibeireshui，ranhouzuozaiwoduimian，lianseyinchendenengdichushuilai。
“anrandaodishigeshenmedongxi？dangnianyishengbuhangdijiuxiaoshile，xianzaiyoupaohuilaizuoshenmeyao？”tafenfenbupingdimadao。
woyaoleyaotou，shengyinshaya：“wobuzhidao，wozhizhidao，shenyanshuo，taqiantade。”
“qianta？taqiantashenmele？”jiangxiachixiaoyisheng，yanshenlichongmanlebuxie，“wodaoshitingguoyixiefengyanfengyu。jushuo，dangnianshenyanhaizaichuangyechuqi，zijinlianduanlie，sichupengbi，shianranpeizaitashenbian。houlaiyouyici，tamenliangqushanqukaochaxiangmu，yudaolenishiliu，anranweiletuikaita，zijibeigunluodeshitouzaduanletui，liuxialeyongjiuxingdehouyizheng，zouluhuiyoudianbo。”
wodexinmengdiyichou。yuanlai，shizheiyangyizhong“kuiqian”。shijiumingzhien，shishentishangdeyongjiushanghai。
nanguai，nanguaishenyanhuishuo“tabuyiyang”。
jiangxiakanzhewodelianse，youxieburen，danhaishijixushuolexiaqu：“houlai，shenyandegongsizoushangzhenggui，yuelaiyuehao，keanranqueturanxiaoshile。sheidoulianxibushangta，zhiliuxiayifengxin，shuotapeibushangta，buxiangchengweitadetuolei。shenyanzhaoletahenjiu，jihukuaifengle。zhidaohoulaiyudaoleni，tacaimanmanzoulechulai。suoyourendouyiweitafangxiale，meixiangdao……zheigenvrenjuranyouhuilaile！”
peibushang？buxiangchengweituolei？
duomeweidaergaoshangdeliyou。zaiyigenanrenzuiluopodeshihoupeibanta，zaitagongchengmingjiushiqiaoranliqu，zhiliuxiayigerangtayongyuankuiqian、yongyuanhuainiandebeiying。zheigejiaoanrandenvren，shouduanshizaigaoming。
tashenmedoumeizuo，queyingleyiqie。
“suoyi，tayihuilai，shenyanjiujuede，tabixuqumibu，quchanghai，duima？”woqingshengwen，xiangshizaiwenjiangxia，youxiangshizaiwenziji。
“goupidemibu！”jiangxiaqidepaileyixiazhuozi，“tayaomibu，neizheisanniandenisuanshenme？tabanidangshenmele？liaoshangdeyaogaoma？yongwanlejiureng？linshu，nitingwoshuo，zheizhongnanren，buzhide！jiusuantaxianzaihuilaiguizheqiuni，niyejueduibunengyuanliangta！”
wokanzhetayifentianyingdelian，xinzhongyongguoyizhennuanliu。wozhidao，tashizhendeweiwohao。
wochenmolepianke，ranhoutaiqitou，kanzhetadeyanjing，yichangpingjingdishuo：“xiaoxia，wohuaiyunle。”
jiangxiadebiaoqingshunjianninggu，zuibazhangdenengsaixiayigejidan。tadaizhilejimiaozhong，cainanyizhixindizhilezhiwodeduzi：“ni……nini……shenmeshihoudeshi？shenyanzhidaoma？”
“ganggangcaiqueren。tabuzhidao。”woyaoleyaotou，“woyebudasuangaosuta。”
“bugaosuta？”jiangxiadeshengyinbagaolebadu，“weishenmebugaosuta？zheishitadehaizi！niderangtafuze！kantayoulehaizi，neigeanranhaihaobuhaoyisijixujiuchan！”
“xiaoxia，nibudong。”wodaduanleta，yanshenjianding，“wobuxiangyonghaizidangchouma。ruguotaaiwo，youmeiyouhaizitadouhuixuanzewo。ruguotabuaiwo，jiusuanwoyonghaizibatabangzaishenbian，dedaodeyezhishiyigequqiao。wohewodehaizi，doubuxuyaoneiyangdelianminheshishe。”
jiangxiazhengzhengdikanzhewo，yanzhongdenuhuojianjianbeixintengheyisijingpeisuoqudai。talejiewo，zhidaowoyidanzuolejueding，jiubuhuizaigenggai。
“neini……dasuanzenmeban？zheigehaizi……”tawendexiaoxinyiyi。
wodeshouzaicifushangxiaofu，zheiyici，xinzhongbuzaishihuangluanhekongju，ershiyizhongqiyide、jiandingdeliliang。
“woyaoshengxiata。”woshuo，“zheishiwodehaizi，yushenyanwuguan。congjinwanghou，tazhishiwoyigerendebaobei。”
zheishiwolinshudehaizi，shiwoshengmingdeyibufen。wobunengyinweineigenanrendecuowu，jiuboduotalaidaozheigeshijiedequanli。
“hao！”jiangxiawozhuwodeshou，yonglididianlediantou，“wozhichini！buguannizuoshenmejueding，wodouzhichini！dabulewogenniyiqiyang！tashenyansuangeshenmedongxi！”
youlejiangxiadezhichi，woxinzhongzuihouyisipanghuangyexiaoshile。
jiuzaizheishi，wodeshoujipingmuliangleqilai。
来电显示——沈言。
wohejiangxiaduishiyiyan，douzaiduifangyanzhongkandaolelengyi。
woshenxiyikouqi，anxialejietingjian，bingkailemianti。
“linshu。”shenyandeshengyincongtingtonglichuanlai，daizheyisipibeiheshaya。
womeiyoushuohua，zhishijingjingditingzhe。
dianhuaneitouchenmolejimiao，sihuzaizuzhiyuyan。“duibuqi，jinwan……shifaturan。anranta……tazheixienianguodehenbuhao。woxuyaoyidianshijianchuli。”
处理？说得真好听。
“nizaitingma？linshu？”tameiyoudedaowodehuiying，yuqiyouxiejiqie。
wozhongyukailekou，shengyinlengdexiangbing：“shuowanlema？”
shenyansihubeiwodelengmoyeleyixia。“wozhidaonihenshengqi。nijiwodianshijian，wohuigennijieshiqingchuyiqie。dengwoandunhaota，wojiuhuiqu。”
“bubile。”wodandandishuo，“shenyan，womenjieshule。”
“linshu！nibieshuoqihua！”tadeshengyindourantigao，“wochengrenwojinwanchulidebuhao，danwomensanniandeganqing，bunengyinweizheigejiu……”
“sanniandeganqing？”worenbuzhulengxiaochusheng，“zainihaobuyouyudichongchujiamen，benxianglingyigenvrendeshihou，nigenwotansanniandeganqing？shenyan，nijuedekexiaoma？”
“bushinixiangdeneiyang！woduianranzhishizeren！”tajiqiedibianjie。
“zeren？”woyiziyidundifanwen，“neiduiwoni？niduiwoyoushishenme？shixiaoqian，shiweijie，haishinikongchuangqiliyigeliaoyi**detidaipin？”
wodemeiyigezidouxiangyibadao，zhaxiangta，yezhaxiangwoziji。
dianhuaneitou，shenyanchedichenmole。
因为他无法反驳。
liangjiu，tacaiyongyizhongjinhuaiqiudeyuqishuo：“linshu，biezheiyang……dengwohuiqu，womendangmiantan，haoma？”
“wobuxiangtanle。”woshuo，“zheigefangzi，wohuijinkuaibanzou。zhiyudinghun……jiudangshigexiaohuaba。”
shuowan，womeiyouzaijitarenheshuohuadejihui，zhijieguaduanledianhua，ranhoujiangtadehaomalajinleheimingdan。
zuowanzheiyiqie，woganjuequanshendeliqidoubeichoukongle。
jiangxiazouguolai，zaicibaozhulewo。“zuodehao，shushu。jiushiyaozheiyang，gancuililuo！”
**zaitadejianbangshang，kanzhezheigecengjingchongmanwomenhuanshengxiaoyudejia，yanzhongzaiwuyisiliulian。
zheigedifang，yijingbuzaishuyuwole。
diertian，woxianggongsiqinglezhangjia。womeiyouqushoushiwoheshenyandedongxi，neixiedouwusuoweile。wozhidaizoulewozijideyiwu、zhengjian，yijiwosuoyoudeshejigao。
linzouqian，wozuihoukanleyiyanzheigefangzi。wodemuguangluozaileshufangdezhuoshang，neilifangzhewoweiwomendinghunjiezhihuadeshejitu。tuzhishang，liangmeijiezhijiaozhichanrao，xiangzhengzheyongbufenli。
wozouguoqu，naqibi，zaituzhidebeimian，xiexialejigezi：
“zhuniheta，bainianhaohe。”
ranhou，wojiangtuzhifanguolai，zhengmianchaoshang，pingpingzhengzhengdifangzailezhuozizhongyang。
zheishiwoliujitazuihoude，yeshizuitimiandegaobie。
wolazhexinglixiang，zouchulezheidonggongyu，meiyouhuitou。
jiangxiayijingzailouxiadengwo。tabangwobaxinglifangjinhoubeixiang，ranhoufadonglechezi。
“womenqunaer？”tawen。
wokanzhechuangwaifeisudaotuidejiejing，zheizuowoshenghuoleduoniandechengshi，cikequerangwogandaowubidezhixi。
“likaizheili。”woshuo，“quyigemeirenrenshiwomendedifang，zhongxinkaishi。”
chezihuiruchuanliubuxidechehe，chaozheweizhideyuanfangshiqu。
woqingqingdijiangshoufangzaixiaofushang，neili，youwoweilaidequanbuxiwang。
沈言，再见了。
congjinyihou，wodeshijieli，zaiyemeiyouni。