第五章一心求死
5.
chuyuandiyitian，jingxingjiupobujidaizhaoshanglemenlai，tabawoduzaimenkou。
caiduanduanliangzhou，tarenshouleyidaquan，yonglibaozhewodeshihougutouluodewoshengteng。
[wodenglehenjiuyebujiannilaikanwo，suoyiwozhihaoguolaizhaonile，mengshu。]tadexiaorongkuse。
[nishizhendebudongwodeyisihaishifeidezheimesipilailian......]
jingxingdaduanlewo，taidugengjiabeiweile。
[wodongnideyisi，mengshu，bieganwozou，wojiushishunluguolaikankanni，meibiedeyisi。]
wosaolesaoshoujishangdeshijian，bunaideshuo：[wodaihuiyaochuqugenyejiayandefumuchifan，nizhiyoushifenzhongshijian，youhuajiushuoyoupijiufang。]
[hao…haode，nigenyejiayanfumutamenchifan，shidaolejianfumuzheigejieduan？xiayibuzhunbeigenyejiayanjiehunma？]
[dui，wogenyejiayanqingmeizhumabiciyesuanzhigenzhidi，woliangnianjidoubuxiaolejiuzaodiandingxialaile。]worucishuo。
tachelechezuijiao，xiaoqilaibikudehainankan。
[neigongxinia，mengshu，yejiayanzhenxingyun。]
[buguanyiqianwomenfashengguohaodehuaide，douyibigouxiaoba，jingxing，meigerendouyouzijideluyaozou，xiwangyihounihaohaodeba，woyaochumenle。]wonabao，zhanleqilai。
[hao......]tawuzhudeliezuixiaolexiao，[daraonideshijianle，duibuqi。]taxiaoxinyiyizhuazhewodeyixiu，xiangshigebeimuqinyiqidekelianhaizi，shizhongbushedefangshou。
woqingqingyizheng，tadeshoujiudiaolexialai。
tayibusanhuitou，zuibamingmingzaixiao，yanleiqueruduanxiandezhuzichuanchuandiaoluoxialaile。
lushangxitonglailexiaoxi，tixingwo：[renwujijiangshunliwancheng，nanzhujiaojingxingcishidenvexinzhigaodabaifenzhi90，zaijiabajingwomenjiuchenggongla！]
woshenzhikaishihuanxiangdangyishengxuangaowodabingquanyu，wohuidaoxianshilikandaobamaneigezhenjingdeyangzi，kendinghenxingfuba。
wocongxiaoshentijiubuhao，zicong6suibeizhenduanchubaixuebingzhihoujiuzongshiyiyuanjialiliangbianpao，bamaweilewojiumeiguoguoyitiananshengrizi。
binghaozhihou，woyidingyaohaohaoxiaojingbabamama，buhuizairangtamenshoukule。
jiexialaijitianjingxingmeilaizhaowo，wodanxintashifoujieshoulewoyaogenbierenjiehunzheigeshishi，nvexinzhihaibugou。
还需要加强力度。
xitongjiuyoulaixiaoxile，huaixiaoxi。
[nanzhujiaojingxingzhangshijianxujiu，weichuxuebukenruyuanjiuzhi，xiehaoyishuzhihoushengcunyizhiboruo。]
woyijing！jingxingkeqianwanbunengchushia，xitongjiwoanpaizheigerenwujiushiweilerangtabingqilianainao，weirihouquanshenxinbaohurenleihuanjingshiyezuogongxian。
wangxiaodelaishuo，tasileworenwushibai，wogenyejiayandouwanwanle。
wocongmanggandaotajia，yidakaimen，wojianzhijingdaile。
xiaobangeketingdepijiuping，dongdaoxiwai，kongqizhongpiaolaidedoushisanbudiaodejiujingwei。
jingxingwaiqiniubadetangzaiyugangli，woshilaodajingerbatatuochulaishi，zhongtutaxingle。
taqiliangdebiaoqingrangrenkanlexinsui，[zenmekenengshini，mengshu，nizaojiupaoqiwole。]
wopaipaitadelian，shuo：[shiwo，woshimengshu，wolaikannile。]
[nizhongyushedeguolailema？]
[haishiwozaizuomeng？]jingxingyongliroulerouyanjing。
taturanjiuqinleguolai，woxianqideduokai，tuizhetashuo：[nixianxizaoshuaya。]
tabumandidunanglejisheng，buzhidaoxiangdaoshenme，xiaozhongdailei：[womenhaigenyiqianyiyangkeyima？mengshu，nilaikanwoshibushijiubiaoshinihaishizaihuwode？]
[wodanxinnichushi，jingxing，buguanyinweishenme，doubuyaoqingyifangqizijideshengming，woqiaobuqizheiyangderen，suoyibuyaozuoshashi。]
wodeshengyinyansuleqilai。
jingxingbeiwoshuodeyoudianweiqu，tadianlediantou，baozhengdao：[wobuhuide，zhiyaonizaiwoshenbian。]
[meiyourenkeyipeiniyibeizi，nandaomeiyouwonijiubuhuolema？nimamazhiyounile，haiyounidemengxiangni，nishuoguodengnahuilainiwaigongdegongsizhihounixiangjixuchuguoshenzao，huilaijiansheshehui，xiangbayouxiandeshengmingyonglaizuoduirenleiduihuanjingyouyiyideshi，zheixienidouwanglema？]
[womeiwang，woainigenwodemengxiangbuchongtu。]jingxingqingqingbaozhewo，xiximimidewenjiuchanleshanglai。
zheiduanshijianwohongzhejingxing，buduangulita，hualihuawaiyiyousuozhi：[renbuyinggaijuxianyulianrenzhijiandeqingqingaiai，xinzhongzhuangyoudaaidenanrencaigengyoumeili。]
tasihubeiwoshuofuledeyangzi，diantou，niniwaiwaidegenwobaozheng。
[dengwoyanghaoshentijiuqushenqingxuexiao，yuwoyiqi，nidushangxuebangwoguanligongsi，woduhuanjinggongchengwangkeyandedaolufazhan。]
[womenfuqidapei，ganhuobulei。]
tazaijihuawomendeweilai，wozaizhunbeilikai。
xitongtixingwo：[xianshishijieliwoyijingzhongduhunmishiliutianle，zaibuhuiqu，yishenghuizhijiexuangaowodenaosiwang。]
就再也回不去了。
xianshishijiedeyitian，wozaipingxingshijieliguoleyinian。
guowanleyigemingjiaomengshudenvhaiduanzandeyisheng。
zheicihuilaijingxinghenbudebawoshuanzaikuyaodaishang，qunadouyaodaizhewo，haibahukoubentoulechulai。
jiehundengjineitian，zaoshangchumenwozhunbeixianquyinxingquxiexianjinbaohongbao。
meixiangdaowoyudaoleyinxingqiangjie。
wobuxingbeixiechizuoweirenzhi，hunluanzhizhong，wozhongdandangchangsiwang。
zheishidejingxingpengzheyishuxianyandemeigui，zaiminzhengjumenkou，dengdaiyigezaiyebuhuiguolailedenvhai。