diyizhang：xuesehunjiefayijiepoudaoqiekaidisigenleiruangushi，wopiaozaipaifengguandaolishubingjudeshuanghua。
guchendejinsiyanjingmengzhewuqi，jiemaojiezhebingjing——zheishitalianxudiqitianjiepouwodeshiti。
lengjudejixiewengmingshengli，wodelinghunzhengbeimouzhongliliangsiche。meidangjiepoudaohuakaipirou，
shengqianjiyijiuxiangfuermalinrongyelidezuzhibiaoben，zaiqiangguangxiaxianhaobixian。"youxiaozhichenjiuxingfushishang，
chuangmianchengshanhuzhuangfenzhi。"tadebijiantingdunzaishijianbaogaoshang，gangbishuiyunrankaijiyilidexue。
sannianqiandehunlixianchang，bailingbofangdeweizaoluyinrengzaijiaotangqiongdinghuidang："huojubianhaotc-7，
zoudianmiangonglu..."woguizaijiudianhouxiangdehuafenchibian，jingyongshoudiantongzhaojianhunjiekazaipaiwuguanlvwang。
yansuanfushiyezhuoshangshouzhideshunjian，guchendepixienianguowodehunshaqunbai："zheimexihuanhedufandajiaodao？
buruqujitamenshoushi。"shengbaoluodajiaotangdecaihuibolilvchuanhongdeguang，
wodingzheshengtanshangneimeigulinglingdehunjie。guchendingzhitadeneitian，wozhengqianfuzaimiandianbianjingdeduxiaolaochao。
jiequanneicekezhe"cs&ny2035"，cikequexiangdaochirudeluoyin。
bailingchongjinlaishichuanzheverawanggaodinghunsha——bengaishiwodeneijian。"chenge，
woshizaiburenxinkannibeipian！"tashuaisuideshoujibengchudianliuzayin，
sanlingchensandian...tc-7huoju...wushigongjin**..."binkexixiangqidaochoulengqideshengyin。
jidujuzhangdechabeizazaicaizhuanshang，biluochunhunzhecipianjianshangwodetousha。guchenzhuaqihunjiezaxiangpaishuikou，
bojinquandanjintiezhadecuixiang，biwozhongdanneitiandegulieshenggengcier。huafenchideechouxundewozhengbukaiyan。
jingyongqiangguangshoudiantongxia，hunjiekazaishengxiudelvwangjian，xiangmeibeiyiqideyueliang。wushuimanguoyuweiqunbai，
yansuancongpoliedeguandaoshenchu，zaiyoushouxiaozhishichushanhuzhuangshanghen。"nanjingguanzheishizaixiaohuizhengju？
"guchendeshengyinguozheyeyudehanqi。liangminghenjianyuanjuzhexiangjibiexiao，shanguangdengmingmiejian，
wopiejianbailingzhanzaixiaofangtongdaokou，zhijianzhuanzhebengaishuyuwodexinniangpenghua。dangniezijiaqihunjieshi，
lvwangturantanta。wobennengdishenshouqulao，yansuanshunjianfushipirou，zhiguzaiwushuilifanchusenbai。
guchendepixienianguosanluodetousha："zheimexiangyao？burubashoukanxialaipaofuermalin。"jiepoudaoturanzhenzhan，
dantoucongxinshihualuo。guchendetongkongjulieshousuo——7.62mmbuqiangdandiyuankezhecszimu，
zhengshitamingzisuoxie。sannianqianwotouzangdanqiaozuoxiukoushishuoguo："dengnatianwoxunzhile，
nijiukanzhezheige..."lengjujingbaoturanjianxiao。wodelinghuntiezaifangbaobolishang，
kanzheguchenliangqiangzhuangfanqixietai。shoushujianhuapotashouwanshi，xuezhuqiahaodizaidanqiaokehenshang，
yuhunlineiyewozhijiandexuehunzaiyiqi。neitianlingchensandian，wozaifukezhenshiniezherenshenliuzhoudebchaodan。
yishengzhizheyinyingquzhoumei："peitaishouqiangfushixingwuzhiganran..."zhenshimenbeichuaikaidejuxiangzhong，
guchenjuzhesouchalinglengxiao："nanjingguanhaiyoukongweizaobingli？""zigongbicanliuwujiancedao**yanshengwu。
"guchendeniezijiaqibanpianjiaoheizuzhi，zheishitajintiandisanciniancuoshijianshuyu。jiepoushijiankongjiluxianshi，
bailingcengzaishenyeqianru，jiangweixingxinhaofasheqifengjinwodezigongchuangkou。lengjuwenduzhoujiangzhilingxia25du，
我的灵魂开始结霜。
guchendebaidaguaranzhelanlvseyingguang——neishi"lanyaoji"yetaidupinyuxuedefanyingtezheng。
sannianqianjiaohuozheizhongdupinshi，wodefanghufubeigepo，duyeshenruhunlidangtianliuxiadeshangkou。
taturanchekaichenshan，xiongkouzhengningde"yu"zizhengzaishenxue。zheishizuoyetazaitingshijianyongshoushudaokede，
daorenshanghaizhanzhewozigongdednayangben。dangwodelinghunsuipianluozaineidaoshangkoushangshi，
binyiguandeliangzizhongturandaozhuan。jiyirudamudanzailuqiangzhakai。dufandezidanchuantoufangdanyishi，
wozhenghuzheneigechuanguojixuexiaoxiaofudexiaonvhai。tashubaoshangdekittymaoguazhuizheshelengguang，
neibuxinpianyuhunjielvwanglidefasheqipinlvxiangtong。"mamashuoyaoxiexienanayi。
"xiaonvhaidilaidebangbangtangtiezheduxiaojituandeanma，woyanxiayongdaohoujiandexuemo。zidanjiaosuizigongdeshunjian，
wokanjianbailingzhanzaitiantai，tuzhedankoudeshouzhianxiayinbaoqi。guchencikezhengguizaijiepoutaipang，
badanqiaosaijinxiongkoudeshangba。tabojingbaochuqingjindemoyang，
xiangjilehunlineiyebawoanzaiyanshitaishangquyangdefengkuang。wodelinghunzhongyukaishixiaosan，
zuihouyilvyishichanshangtazhandoudezhijian。binyiguanwaibaoyuqingpen。
guchendebaidaguakoudailihuachubanzhangjiaohuangdezhi，neishiqinianqianjingxiaodetinengceshibiao。
zai"kangfushixingxunlian"pingfenlan，tayonghongbixiezhe："nanyu，youshouxiaozhishenjingminganduyichang，
jianyizhuanwenzhi。"yumuzhongturanliangqichedeng，bailingdemashaladijianqishuihua。tajiangxiachechuangqingxiao："chenge，
tc-7huojudeguhuihe，haiyaoduoxienanjingguanqinziyasongni。
"houzuoshangdexiaonvhaizhengbainongzheranxuedehunjie，xiaofuxiukouluchubanjielianhuaciqing。
wodelinghunzaileimingzhongchediyinmie。zuihoutingjiandeshishijianbaogaobeisisuideshengxiang，hunzheguchenyeshoubandeaihao。
neimeikezhecsdedanqiaogunjinxiashuidao，yusannianqiandehunjiezaihuafenchizhongfeng。
dierzhang：yueguangciqingjingxiaojiepoushideziwaixiandengwengwengzuoxiang，bailingsuoguxiadelianhuaciqingzhengzaishenxue。
guchenqianzhizhewodeyoushouanzaiguangpuyixia，jinshuliaokaozaijiepoutaibianyuanzhuangchuciermingxiang。
zheishibiyeqianzuihouyichangmonixingzhenke，wodejiaosecongyouxiuxueyuanbiancheng"fanzuixianyiren"。
"jiafengcanliuwuyuqinghuawuzhuoshangchuangmianpipeidu98.7%。"tadeshengyinxiangdiwenlengdongdejiepoudao，
剖开我最后的尊严。
sannianqiandetongkuanguangpuyicengjianzhengwomendechuwen——dangshitajiaowojianceshitiweineirongwu，
wodebijianzhanlemizhuroutaochongbiaoben。bailingdexiangnaierwuhaoxiangshuizaifuermalinqiweizhongsikailiefeng。
tayizhexiaodujuliaoqizhensichenshan，
lianhuaciqingzaiziwaixianxiafalan："nanxuejieshuozheigetuanxianghuafenchilideshuizao..."jiepoushituranduandian，
yingjidengliangqideshunjian，guchendetongkongshousuochengzhenjiandaxiao。bailingxiongkoudezhuoshangchengxianzhuwangzhuangkuosan，
zhengshi"lanyaoji"jiechupifu72xiaoshihoudetezheng。zheizhongshangzhougangjiaohuodexinxingyetaidupin，
cikeguiyidichuxianzaijingxiaogengyishi。"nanjingguanwangwoneiyidaodushishuoguo..."bailingturanchouchuzhezaidao，
hounaoshaojingzhunkezaiwuzhengxianglengjiao。tazangzaizhangfalidexuenangpolie，
renzaoxuejiangshunzhejiepoutailiujinpaishuikou——neilimianhunzhezhenzhengdelanyaojiyangben。
wodeyoushoubeianzaipianzhenguangxianweijingxia，hukouqiangshangjiedejiazhengzaishenxue。
zheishisangeyueqianwodijinsanjiaoshiliuxiade，duxiaodegeluoke17dingzhetaiyangxuekoudongbanji，
zidanquekazaigailiangguodedantangli。"xiaoyinqicanliudexiaoyanfanying。"guchenyongmianqiantongjinshangkou，
xinxianxueyejianzaiquzhengdaishang。taturanzhoumei——bengaichengxiandianlansedexiaoyanceshiji，
cikezhengfanzhelanyaojiteyoudeyingguanglv。gengyishijiankongshishixiangqijingbao，
huamianlide"wo"zhengjiangzhenguancixiangbailingbojing。guchenchexiawodejinghaopaizaxiangpingmu，
feijiandebolizhalizangzheweixingcunchuqi。dangduquqiliangqihongdengshi，
womentongshikanqingshipinyuanshuju——paisheshijianzhengshiwozhongdanhunmideneiwan。tingshijianjiankongxuehuashandong，
guchendebaidaguajiezhebingcha。tabaozhewodongjiangdeshouanzaixiongkou，shoushudaojiancipopifudeshunjian，
liangzizhongturannitiaosange。zheishidiqicishijianhuisu，
wodelinghunsuipianjidemeicilunhuilitakexiade"yu"zishenqian。
"weishenmexuanjidu..."taninanzhejiangxuezhudujinwochunjian，zheishiwomenchuyeshidewenti。
dangshiwoyaopotasuogushuo"yaoqinshoujifumushoushi"，quebuzhidaoshoushirendanganliqianzhebailingfuqindemingzi。
lengzangjuturanbaojing，wodezigongchuangkoushenchulanlvsenianye。
guchendetongkongzaiguangpuyixiazhenzhan——zheishilanyaojiyurhyinxingxuehunhehoudetezhengfanying，
erbailingjinzaogangjitashuguo300cctongxingxue。jiyirujiepoudaohuakaiyingnaomo。biyedianlineiye，
wozuanzhejidujudiaolingduozaibachang。guchenzhaodaowoshi，zidanqiaoyizaijiaobianduichengxiaoshan。
tacazhewojingjiandehanshuo"biedanglieshi"，quezaiwodiaolifayizhongxinneitian，shouxialebailingsongdedujinshoushudao。
cikeneibadaozhengchazaitingshijianqiangbishang，dingzhebanzhangshaojiaodehuikuandan。jingwaizhanghuliushuixianshi，
bailingjiazuzhensuomeiyuejieshoude"yiliaojuanzeng"，zhengshijinsanjiaoduxiaoqingxideheiqian。
wodelinghunturanbeizhuaihuijiepoutai。guchendetingzhenqihuajinwoxiongqiang，jinshutantouchudaoxinzangbanmoshi，
zangzaizuoxinerdenamixinpianturanqidong。quanxitouyingzaikongzhongzhakai，bailingchuanzheqiufuningxiao："chenge，
tc-7huojudeguhuihehaowanma？"jinglingturandazuo，gengyishichuwujubengsheyoulanhuoyan。
shaojiaodexiaofukoudaili，dangniandetinengceshibiaozhengzaitanhua。zai"kangduwufushi"pingfenlan，
guchenyonghongbibiaozhude"nanyuyoushouxiaozhishenjingsunshang"，cikezhengbeihuoyantianshichenghui。
wodelinghunsuipianzairelangzhongfanjuan，huanghukanjianshibasuidewomenzhanzaishengwushiyanshi。