第四章 自作自受

guanyuanbeituidaochemenbian,naodaizhuangzaimenshangfachumenxiang,xianxiehunjueguoqu。

guchenshenturanhenhenyipaichemen,zhenggerenyazaiguanyuanshenshang,nuqisiyi。

“guanyuan!nizhenkeyi!nizheimexihuanta,dangchuyouweishenmeqiuzhewoquni?qianma?jiushiweileqian?!”

tadeshouzhiyidiandiancangbai,kanzhezheinvrendelian,henrugusui。

“haoa!nijiranneimezaihuta,neiwodainiqujianta,xiache!”

guanyuandexinmengdeyisuo,fanshoujiuzheguchenshendeyiling,zhidaotatiqiqinfan,xinzhongshenzangdeneifenjiyicaibeibaqi,yidaoyidaorutongzaitaxinkoulingchi。

sannianlaitatouyiciduiguchenshendahandajiao:“woweishenmejiajini,nibushibisheidouyaoqingchu?guchenshen,shinihaidewoxianxiejiaporenwang,shinirangguanjiaqiuni,shinirangwojiajini!wodouzuodaole,niweishenmelianzheidianyuanwangyebunengmanzuwo!?”

“woduiguanjiazuoleshenme,”guchenshenbiqianglifachuyishengmenheng,“neiyeshinimenzizuozishou!”

“dui,wojiushizizuozishou,dangchunimenyonghunyinzuochoumadeshihou,wojiugaisi!”guanyuanyiziyidundeshuochuzheijuhua,kouzaitayilingdelidaochuqideda。

guanyuanmeiyouxiangxiangguozijihuiduiguchenshenbaofa,weileguanjia,tazhibeiyunxuzuoguchenshenxihuandeshiqing。

ruguotasile,guanjiagaizenmeban?taweiyidemuqingaizenmeban?

tamenhuibatazhiyuhedi?

guanyuanbishanglezui,tahaiyoutaiduonuqiyaofa,taiduoyuanhenyaoxie,dantarenzhule。

kanzheguchenshendeyanshenchongmanlepaichi,lengmo,shenzhichaofeng。

“neiniaiwo,yeshizizuozishou。”talenglengdepaoxiazheijuhua,jianglianpiexiangyibianbuzaikanta。

quetingguchenshenjiuzhetadetoufalengxiaodao:“guanyuan,nizhengaisi!sile,wojiubuaile……”

kanzheqinfanyuanqudeshenying,tabaleitunjinduzi。

buxiangzaigenshenqiandenanrenjiuchan,taganjueqiansuoweiyoudepibei,xiaofuyinyinzuotong,tazhixiangjinkuaihuiqu。

对,回去,去医院!

她要堕胎!

guchenshenbataliuxiazhengli,rangtashaohouzijijinqu。

guanyuanyishenwenhenzhedouzhebuzhu,yanleirenxingdezaiyankuangzhongdazhuan,tonghongdeyanjingfase。

真的不想去。

huranquejianyiliangchezaiguchenshenshenbiantingxiale,takaichuangqiaoni,congcheshangxialaidenvrendabanjiaoyan,jianshiguchenshen,lijixingfendepudaotadehuaili。

“chenshengege!wojintianpiaoliangma?”

yipangxialaidezhongniannanziganjindaduan,peixiaodao:“guanyan!xiajiaoshenme,jiaojiefu!”

guanyanniunizhe,yilianbuqingyuan,“buma,woxihuanjiaochenshenzuogege。chenshengegebujieyideduiba?”

guchenshensulailengkudanmo,jianletaquewenheyixiao,“wusuowei。”

guanyuankanzaiyanli,yishijianyouxieshishen。

cengjiheshitayinxiangzhongdeguchenshenyinggaishizheigeyangzide,wenrouerdanya,tiexinyouchanren。

youshihouguanyuanshenzhizaixiang,guchenshenxihuandeqishishizijidemeimeiguanyanba。

yaoshidangchujiajiguchenshendebushitaguanyuan,ershiguanyan,tahuibuhuibixianzaihaodetaiduo?

“chenshenjintianyoushizijilaidema?zenmemeijiandaoayuan?”guanfangguozuoyouhuanshidoumeijiandaota,bianshitanxingdewendao。

guchenshenjibukechadelinlemuguang,“tayihuijiulai。”

guanfangguoganjindao:“zheihaizipixingtaicha!jinintianmafanleba?takezhenshide,bandianmeiyouwomenyanerdongshi,yanerzheihaiziyoutebienianni,yaoshidangchurangyanerjiajinijiuhaole……”

guchenshenmuguangweixie,zhenghaoduishanglecheneiguanyuandemuguang。

chewaiderenbiantingjianguchenshenlengxiaodao:“buhao。chufeitasile。”