第一章

wohelinjugegelianaisannian。

taquezaiwomenaiyizhengnongdeshihoutilefenkai。

wowufajieshou,zhengchaojianfashenglechehuo,taweilehuzhuwoshuangtuishoushang。

jialiweilepabeiqianlian,zaitademorenxiajiangwoliufangbingdaoliangnian。

rujinwobeiyunxuhuiguo,queshicanjiatadehunli。

ertadeweihunqi,shiwozuihaodeguimi!

dezhizheiyixiaoxidewodaiwengdeyixia。

zheibukeneng!tazenmekenenghuihehaoyoujiehun?

他在骗人!

kezheiniantouzhiyishun,woyouxiangdao,tashijingchengshoufu,wulunxiangyaoqusheidounengzuodao。

“ni······kaiwanxiaode,duiba?”wohoulongfagan。

duanduanyijuhua,quesichechuxuexingwei。

woqidaidekanzheta,qiwangtanengshuochuyige“dui”,huozhediantou。

taquemeihuida,zhongxindixiatoufanguowenjianyiye:“huishejibuqujitadaoqian。”

谁给谁道歉?

woyouxiemangran,dengfanyingguolaishoudouzaifadou:“shitatouwodezuopin,queyaowojitadaoqian?”

tataitouzhouqilemei,yandiyinyinyounuqishengteng。

wangchangwoyidinghuituirangtingtadehua。kezheiyici,wozuobudao。

woyijingshiquleqinren、airenhepengyou,

ruguolianzijidexinxuedoubaobuzhu,neihuozhedeyiyishishenme?

wojinjinzuanzheshou:“wobuhuijitadaoqian,womeiduibuqitaguo,shitaqianwo。”

他淡淡的看着我。

haoyihuier,caodonglunyilaidaowomianqianyiziyidun-

“neiniqianwodeni?niyiweineiliangnianjiushiquanbu?”

tingdaozheihua,wosuoyoudeyongqidoubeishunjiandasan。

wokanzhenanrenneishuangbizhiqizhangquezaiyezhanbuqilaidetui,chanlewoliangniandeneigeemengzaicifuxiannaohai。

qiqudeshanlushang,chezizaizhuangshanglubiandedashitouhougunxiadoupo。

一圈,又一圈。

zuihouchekazaixiamianpanshanludehulanshang,biqianglichuleqiyouxieloudeweidao,quanshixuexingwei······

wohetanengzaineichangchehuolicunhuoxialaishigeqiji,gengqijideshizijimeishoushenmeshang。

yintayizhibawohuzaihuaili,dantadetui

wozhidaozheishizijiqiantadeyongyuanyehaibuqing。

wokeyiduinvrenbuman,danruguozheiyiqiedoushitadeyisi,neiwojiubunengyouyidianbuyue。

keneixiezuopinxiangdangyuwodeshengming!

banshang,wozhongxinkanxiangtashengyinshaya:“ruguowobazheishuangtuipeijini,ninengbunengrangnvrenbawodedongxihaijiwo?”

一片死寂。

takanwodeyanshenjiuxiangzaikanyigefengzi:“wozhijiniyizhoushijian,xianghaolejiuquhetadaoqian。”

woxinlikuchaozhe,yingzhetalengliedemuguangzhuanshenzouchulejituan。

woyangtouwangzhejituandaloudedingceng,shenmedoukanbuqingchu。

kenaohaizhongganggangtadewenti,likejiuyouledaan。

不会。

erwoyejuebuhuixiangnvrendaoqian。

zuoxiajueding,wozhongxinzoujinlejituandedalou。

zouchudiantideneike,woquezhengzhule。

zhijianyigerenzhengbeiduizhewo,zhanzairuodadeluodichuangqiandadianhua。

qiangliedeyangguangxia,tawuguanwanmei,xizhuangxiadeshuangtuibizhiyouli。

他骗了她?

wodanaoyipiankongbai,zenmeyewufajieshouzheigeshishi。

ruguotameishi,neizijibeiquzhudaobingdaodeneiliangniansuanshenme?

wodekuijiu,nanguohehouhui······zheixiedousuanshenme?

erjiuzaiganggang,tahaizaishituyongtadeshuangtui,laibipozijixiangnvrendaoqian!

wohunshenxueyeniliu,taguaduandianhuazhuanshenhuitoukanlai。

simuxiangdui,wobuzhidaozijihainengshuoshenme,zhiyouyigeniantou—likai!

wozhuanshenkuaibuchaodiantizouqu。

yexushizoudetaijile,wojiaoxiayiban,zhenggerenchaoqianzaidaoxigaizhongzhongdekezailedishang!

tadichendeshengyinxiangqi,yucitongshihaiyoupixiecaizaicizhuanshangdeshengxiang。

“你回冰岛吧。

wozhenglenglehenjiu,caifanyingguolaitashuoleshenme。

huibingdao?zheiciyoushiyinweishenme?

yinweiwobuyuanyibazuopinrangjinvren?haishiyinweizhidaoletashuangtuigenbenmeishidemimi?

wosisizuanzheshou,zhijiadouxianruzhangxin:“wobuyuanyi。”

tadelianseshuranlengchen:“nimeidexuan。”

wokanzhetadebeiyingyankuangfasuan,xianxiejiuyaobaneigezangzaixindiliangniandemimidashenghanchulai-

tamen······cengyouguoyigehaizi。

zhikexihaimeibeirenherenzhixiao,jiuzailiangnianqianneichangchehuoli,wushengwuxidesiqule。

woxiangdaodezhizheijianehaoshidetongku,haiyouzheiliangnianzaibingdaoshideziwozhemo。

wocengjingyiweitahuizaihude。

danxianzaixiangxiangneishihoudezijitianzhendaohaoxiao。

tuozhepibeideshentihuidaojia。

wodenaohaineimanmanfuxianqicengjinghetadeneixiejiyi,tianmide,meihaode。

daohoulaidetongku,zhemo······

yanleishunzheyanjiaohualuo,wodaozailechuangshangquansuochengyituan······

zaixinglai,shibeinongyanqiangxingde。

wokesouzhezhengkaiyan,jiukanjianfangjianliheiyangungun。

yucitongshi,menwaichuanlaixiarendejingjiaosheng:“buhaola!zhehuola!”

laibujiduoxiang,wowuzhekoubijiuyaowangwaizou。

kezhangshijiandequeyangrangwozhixiwuli,jiaogangcaidaodijiuyiruan,zhijieshuaizailedishang。

mudibanzaihuoyandemanyanzhongyuelaiyuetang,woyaoyachengzhepaqilaipudaomenbian,quzhuaimenbashou。

门拉不开。

worenzheyanjingliyanxundecitongqukan,jiuqiaojianmumenzaigaowenxiabianlexing,suokazhule。

jiuzaizheishi,menwaichuanlaikanfumuzhejinahandeshengyin。

zhaojiejiedeshifuqin,zhaodidideshimuqin。

tamenhanshengzaihuohaizhongneiyangqingxi,woquejiangzaiyuandizaiyedongdanbude。

没有一个人记得我。

wodexinyechedidechenjinleshenyuan。yaosizaizheierlema?

死了也好。

wosile,fumu,jiedi,haiyouta······tamensuoyourendoubuhuizaiyinweiwodecunzaierxinfanle。

shuobudingneishihou,tamenyehuiyouyidiandiandehuainian?

zheishi,yidaoshenyingchuangjinlehuohai!shita!

woyanshenyilianghaimeihanchulai,jiujiantachaolingyigefangxiangzouqu,jiangnvrendahengbaoqi。

ta······shilaijiutade。

wodehuxizaigaowenxiabiandeguntang,kanzhecongcongjiuyaoxiaoshideshenyingdashenghanleyisheng。

xiayimiao,tatingxialejiaobuzhuantoukanlai。

neiyishunjian,woxintiaojicuqilai。yaodejiule!

kejinjiezhe,jiujiantashouhuilemuguang,daizhenvrenburongwanliudekuaibuzoulechuqu!

chaneijian,woyanlideguangchedianlexialai,xinrusihui。

jiuzaitachedizouchudeneiyimiao,wotoudingdemuliangfachuzhigadeshengxiang。

daizhetiaoyuedehuoyan,zhongzhongchaotazaluolexialai……