写在旧书扉页的告白第1章

muse,xiangyikuaibeishuiyinshiyoulianggandejiubu,chenchendifugaixialai。“museshuwu”dezhaopai,zaixiangzishenchubeishiguangheyouyanxundeandanwuguang,zijimohu,fangfosuishihuironghuazaishenqiunianchoudekongqili。

chenmuzuozaijutaihoumian,xiangshudianliyijiangudinglehenjiudelaojiaju。toudingyizhanwusidengpao,zhengzhazhetuchuhunhuangdeguangyun,mianqiangzhaoliangtashoushangyibenfengmianjihutuoluode《bainiangudu》。chenaizaiweiyideguangshulixuanfu、wudao,wushengwuxi。tadaizhedingzhen,yongcumianxianxiaoxindifenghezheshujiduanliededifang,dongzuohuanman、zhuanzhu,daizheyizhongjinhuqianchengdeyishigan。zhenjianchuanguofahuangbiancuidezhiye,fachuxiweide“chichi”sheng,shizheifangcunjijingliweiyidejiezou。

dianlimimanzhejiushuteyoudeqiwei——hunhezhezhizhangdemeiwei、youmodeweise,haiyoushiguangchendianxialaide、yizhongnanyiyanyudechenjiuqixi。shujiajijiaiai,chenmodichulizhe,shujirutongchenshuideshibing,shujishangmengzheyicengbobodehui。chulechenmu,zaiwutaren。zhiyouqiangjiaoneizhilaojiudeguazhong,guzhidifachu“kada、kada”deshengxiang,xiangyikezaikongkuangxiongqianglitiaodongdexin,bujibuxudishuzheliushidefenmiao。

chuangwai,chengshidexuanxiaobeizhaixianghegaoqiangguolv,zhishengxiamohubuqingdedichenwengming,xiangyaoyuandechaoxi。tiankongshiqianhuisede,yadehendi,meiyouyisifeng,kongqichenmenderangrenxiongkoufadu。

“kuangdang”yisheng,xuyandedianmenbeidalituikai,zhuangzaimenhoudeshuduishang,jiqiyixiaopianhuichen。yigeaizhuangdeshenyingguoxiezhexiangziligengnongzhongdeliangqichuanglejinlai。

“chenmu!woshuonixiaozi,longlehaishizenmezhe?hannibantianbuying!”

shilaoma。gebijiuwuhuishouzhandelaoban,chenmufuqindelaoyou,sangmenhongliang,xiangyimianpoluo。taliushishangxia,toufahuabaixishu,lianshanggouhezongheng,chuanzheyijianzhanmanyouwudeshenlansegongzhuangwaitao,shoulitizheyigegugunangnangdeshepidai,haobukeqidi“dong”yishengzazaichenmumianqiandejutaishang,zhendejutaishangdehuichendoutiaoleqilai。

“re,youjinishouleyiduipolan!”laomachuanzhecuqi,jiekaidaikou,luchulimianluanqibazaokunzhazaiyiqidejiushu,pinxiangdaduobujia,sanfazhegengnongliedemeiweihechentuqi。“xianzaisheihaikanzheiwanyier?shoujiyihuala,shameiyou?nizheipodian,haozhedian,jiaozhezu,yitiandaowanliangeguiyingdoujianbuzhe!chenzaoguanmensuanle!badifangzuchuqu,shoudianzujinbubinizaizheiersishouzheqiang?”

chenmushoushangdedongzuotingleting,yanpidoumeitai,shengyindichen,meishenmebolan:“fangneierba。”tajixuchuanzhenyinxian,fangfolaomadebaoyuanzhishichuangwaipiaoguodeyizhenwuguanjinyaodefeng。

“fangneier?fangneierzhandifang!”laomadengzheyan,badaiziyouwangjutailituiletui,jihuyaopengdaochenmuxiubudeshu。“woshuonishizhenzhoua!gennidieyigeyang!yumugeda!xiangzikouneipianpopingfang,kanjianmei?zuotiantuitujidoukaiguoqule!honglongyixia,quanchenglezha!xiayigejiulundaonizheier!zheidifangyaogaidashangchangle,dongbudong?shidaibianle!nizheixiaoposhudian,hainengdangdezhuneitiejiahuo?”

chenmudeshouzhiweiweiyidun,zhenjianzaizhifushangliuxiayigexiweideaohen。tahuanhuantaiqitou。hunhuangdedengguangxia,tadelianxiandeyouxiecangbai,lunkuofenming,yanshenxiangmengzheyicengbowudeshentan,pingjingdejinhukongdong。tawangxiangmenkou,shixiansihuchuantoulebanbodebolimen,wangxiangxiangzishenchuneibeigaolouqiegedezhishengxiazhaizhaiyixiandehuimengtiankong。

“dangbuzhu,jiubudangle?”tadeshengyinhenqing,xiangziyanziyu。

“hei!nizheixiaozi!”laomaqidehuzidouqiaoleqilai,shouzhidianzhechenmu,“haolaihuatingbumingbai?woshirangniganjinjizijizhaotiaohoulu!biedaoshihoubeihongchulai,baozhenizheiduiposhushuidajie!”tahentiebuchenggangditanlekouqi,yuqiyouruanxialaijifen,“woshuomuzi,tingshuyijuquan,biezaizheierhaozhele。nidiezoule,shudianye……yezaobushiyiqiandeshudianle。gaifangxiade,defangxia。”

chenmudemuguangcongmenwaishouhui,luohuishouzhongneibenshanghenleileideshushang。tacucaodeshouzhiwuyishidimosuozhefengmianbianyuandemosun,neiliyijingmodefamao、faliang,luchuzhibancucaodeneixin。tameiyouhuidalaomadehua,zhishiyoudixiatou,jixutabeidaduandefengbu。

laomakanzhetazheifuyouyanbujindeyangzi,zhongzhongdi“ai”leyisheng,yaoyaotou,yebuzaiduoshuo,zhuanshencongpangbiandereshuihulijizijidaolebeishui,gudonggudongguanxiaqu,molebazui。kongqizaicixianruchenmo,zhiyouguazhongde“kada”shenghezhenxianchuanguozhizhangde“chichi”shengjiaozhizaiyiqi。

jiuzaizheishi,menkouchuanlaiqingweide“pada”yisheng。yizhangbobodeyingzhipian,congmenfenglibeisailejinlai,hualuozaidibanshang。

laomalidejin,wanyaojianleqilai,zuilidunangzhe:“shawanyier?guanggao?”tafanguolaiyikan,yanjingmilemi,“yo,haitingjiangjiu。”

neishiyizhangshejijijian、zhiganqueyichangkaojiudeyingzhika。chunbaidedise,meiyouhuashaodetuan,zhiyouyixingyouyadetangjinyingwenyishuziyinzhehualangdemingzihedizhi,xiafangshizhanlankaimuderiqiheshijian——jiuzaijinwan,yaoqinghan。

“**haishigegaojihuo!”

xiyinchenmushixiande,shikapianbeimian。meiyoushuming,meiyouluokuan,zhiyouyixingdayinshangqude、qingxiwubidehanzi:

“suoyouhuazuo,doushiguanyunidejiyi。”

shijianfangfozaineiyikebeianxialezantingjian。

chenmufengshudedongzuochedijiangzhu。zhenxuanzaibankong,mianxianbengdebizhi。tataiqitou,kanxianglaomashouzhongdekapian。hunhuangdedengguangluozaineixingzishang,meiyigebihuadouxiangdaizhewuxingdegouci,mengdizhajintachenjiletaijiudexinhushenchu。

“sheidea?shenshenmimide……”laomacoujinkapian,nulibianrenzheneixingzi,youkankanchenmudouranbiansedelian,youxiemobuzhetounao。

chenmumeiyoushuohua。tahuanhuandi、jihushiyouxiejiangyingdizhanqishen。yizituiyushuinidimianmoca,fachucierdeshengxiang。taraoguojutai,conglaomashouzhongjieguoneizhangkapian。zhijianchupengdaozhimian,shiyizhongweiliangde、daizhegaojitucengteyoudeguanghuagan,yutashouzhongxiubudecucaojiushuxingchengcimudeduibi。

tadeshouzhitingliuzaineixingzishang,weiweizhandou。zhifuxiadezhimianfangfodaizhedianliu,shunzhezhijianyilucuanshangshoubei,zhidixinzang。yizhongyaoyuanerchaoshideqixi,daizhejiubaozhiheyushuideweidao,haowuyuzhaodichongpojiyidezhamen,xiongyongerzhi。yigejihubeisuiyuechenaichedifugaidemingzi,xiangchenchuanbeidalaochushui,daizhexiujihewufamomiedelunkuo,qingxidi、daizhejudachongjilidifuxianzaitayanqian——

林小雨。

neigexiangchumaoyiyangqieshengshengduoyudenvhai,neigequansuozaijiaoluoanjingkanshudeyingzi,neigezaiyuyechongjinyumu、daizheshiwangjuejuexiaoshidebeiying……

xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouhenhenzuanzhu,zhouransuojin,youmengdikuangtiaoqilai。xueyezaiermolibenyong,gaiguoleguazhongdedidahelaomayihuodexunwen。

tawozhekapian,chenmodizhuanshen,zouxiangshudianshenchuzuijiaoluo、zuigaodeneigeshujia。neiliduimanlejihuwurenwenjindejiubangongjushuhemengchendewenxian。tadianqijiao,shoubeishenxiangshujiadingduanyigejihukanbujiandefengxi。mosuopianke,zhijianchudaoleyigebingleng、jianyingdefangxingwuti——yigezaoyitunse、bianyuanxiushidetiepibingganhe。

tabatanalexialai,hegaishangjilehouhouyicenghui。tayongxiuziyonglicaleca,dakaishengxiudedakou。hezilimeishenmezhiqiandongxi,jimeishengxiudeyingbi,jizhangfanhuangdejiuyoupiao,haiyouyibenbazhangdade、fengmianmohudejiutongxunlu。

zaizuidixia,yazheyigeshenlansesirongdexiaofanghe。

chenmudeshouzhiyouxiebushoukongzhidifadou。tabokaineixielingsui,xiaoxinyiyidinieqineigesironghezi。hezihenxiao,fangzaizhangxinjihumeishenmefenliang,quefangfoyouqianjunzhizhong。tashenxiyikouqi,xiangshiguzulebishengdeyongqi,dakailehegai。

yimeixiaoxiaode、jiqiposudeyinsejiezhi,anjingditangzaishenlansedesirongchendianshang。meiyourenhehuawen,meiyourenhebaoshi,zhishiyigeguangtutudeyuanhuan,zaihunanzhongfanzheweiruo、qinglengdeguang。taxiangyimeininggudeyanlei,fengcunzheyiduancongweiqichidechongdong,yiduanzaichenmozhongshengshengyanxiade、chidaoleshiniandeyongqi。

chenmuyongmuzhiheshizhi,jiqixiaoxindinianqineimeijiezhi。binglengdechuganshunjianchuandidaozhijian,zhidixinfang。tajinjinzuanzheta,zhiguanjieyinweiguoduyonglierbengjin、fabai,shoubeishangqingjinweiweituqi。jiezhijianyingdebianyuanluozhetadezhangxin,dailaiyizhenqingxidetonggan,queqiyidirangtahunluandexintiaoshaoshaopingfuleyixie。

chuangwai,yunniangleyizhengtiandeyu,zhongyuluolexialai。xianshilingxingjidi,shitanxingdiqiaodazheshudiandebolichuang,liuxiawanyandeshuihen。henkuai,yudianbiandemiji,pipazuoxiang,lianchengyipianmianmide、binglengdeyumu,jiangchuangwaibenjiumohudeshijiechedigejue。

yushengyuelaiyueda,qiaodazheboli,qiaodazhewuyan,yeqiaodazhechenmujinzuanzhejiezhihede、weiweizhandoudeshou。

neifengyaoqinghanjingjingditangzaijutaishang,neixing“suoyouhuazuo,doushiguanyunidejiyi”dezi,zaihunhuangdedengguangxia,xiangyijulaiziyaoyuanguoqude、daizheyushengdezhouyu。