第四章

“haoba,buquyiyuanyexing,danniderangwojinishangyao。”

kenengshiyinweiwodefanyingguoyujilie,muchibuzaijianchi,ershituoxiele。tahoutuiyibu,meiyoudengdaiwodehuida,jiuzhijiejiangwokangqi,kangzaijianshang,wushizhongrenzhenjingdemuguang,jingzhishangleerlou。

jiuzaiwomencajianerguodeshunjian,wopiejianbaiyinneiwanmeidexiaorongchuxianleliehen,tadeyanshenbiandeyinhen,fangfoyaojiangwosichengsuipian。

jinrufangjianhou,muchijiangwofangzaichuangshang,nalaiyaoxiang,congzhongquchutangshangyaogao,kaishiweiwochulishangkou。

taxiaoxinyiyidijuanqiwodeyixiu,yongmianqianzhanlexieyaogao,qingrouditumozaitangshangdedifang。

“haitengma?”taturantaitou,xiruandefashaolveguowodelianjia,dailaiyizhensumadeganjue。

tademuguangzhuanzhuerrelie,rangwochanshengleyizhongcuojue,fangfotazaiweiwogandaoxinteng。

wolengzhule,dengwohuiguoshenlaishi,tadeshouzhiyijingfangzaiwodexiaobeishang,qingqingdirounie。

tadezhijianyichangwennuan,fangfoyouyituanhuozairanshao。

raner,woquegandaohunshenjiangying,weiliyizhenzhenfangun,renbuzhuganouqilai。

woxiangqilegangdaojiaohuishideneiduanrizi,youyiciwochaozheyaojianmuchi,wumushijiujiangwoguanjinleyijiantingshifang。wokandaotacongyipaipaixiangchoutiyiyangdejuzililachuyijunanshi。

neijunanshikanqilaihennianqing,celiankanqilaijuranyoujifenxiangmuchi。

wumushibiwoheneijunanshitangzaiyiqi,ranhoutawozheneijunanshideshou,yicunyicundifumowodejifu。

tadeyanshenyinleng,lianshangqueguazhewenhedexiaorong,rangrenbuhanerli。

“nidemuchizaimonini,shanshan,nixihuanma?”

neijushitiyijinghuibai,jiangyingerbingleng,sanfachulingrenzuooudeqiwei。

woheneijushitiyiqiduguoleyizhengye,dangwokandaochenguangshi,woxinzhongdefangxianchedibengkui。

wojideneitianwoguizaiwumushimianqian,yibianyouyibiandikuzheqiutafangwochuqu。

ertazhishidandandiwenlewoyiju,“haixiangjianmuchima?haiaimuchima?”

不见了。

不爱了。

wotingdaozijizheiyanghuida。

wumushiciaidipailepaiwodetouding,“haohaizi,niyaojizhu,nihenzang,henjian,nishigezuiren,nibupeihemuchizaiyiqi,zhiyouwocainengjiushuni。”

muchideshentiyijiang,yandishanguoyisibaoli,taturanfahendijiangwoyazaishenxia,sichezhewoxiongqiandeyifu。

wobuduanzhengzha,qiutaraolewo。

muchiquebukenbaxiu,tadeyanjingweixiandimiqi,shoushangdelidaoyuefazhongleqilai。

“nicongqianbushixihuanwoma?niwangledangchunishizenmeqiuwoshuinide?nixianzaiyouzaiganshenme?qushan,yuqinguzongyeshiyaoyoudixiande!”

“bushi,womeiyou,muchi,woshizhendebuainile,qiunifangguowoba。”

wohaipajile,shentibuyouzizhudizhandou。

wobumingbaimuchiweishenmeturanbianderucifengkuang,tabushitaoyanwoma?

他不是喜欢白茵吗?

dui,yidingshiwobuhao,shiwowuyizhonggouyinleta!

wumushishuoguo,chufeitayaoqiuwofengxian,fouze,heqitananrenqinjin,jiushizaifanjian,shizuinie,shiyaobeijinzhulong,xiahuokengde。

wocengjingjianguoyigexiahuokengderen,tabanzhangliandoubeishaodefahei,pifuaotubuping,zaiyueguangxia,youruguimei。

我不想变成那样。

我该怎么办?

woxinzhongdekongjubeituidaoledingdian,shentidebennengcushiwoshengchuyiguliliang,mengdituikaimuchi,chaochuangtouzhuangleshangqu。