[xitongtishi：yishishangchuanxieyi'yujin'yichufa。shengwutizheng（linjing，id:07）querenxiaoshi。
zhengzaigoujianbeidongguanchazhequanxian...goujianwancheng。]wode“shengming”，yiyizhongquanxinde、binglengdefangshi，
zhongxinkaishile。meiyouxintiao，meiyouhuxi，meiyoutongjue。wozhishiyiduanpiaofuzaifangzhouzhushujukuzhongdedaima，
yigeyongyoulinjingsuoyoujiyiheshijiaode“guanchazhe”。wo“kan”jianle。
1touguozhongyangzhihuishiwuchubuzaidejiankongtantou，wokanjianleluyuan。wodezhangfu，fangzhoubihusuodezongzhihuiguan。
tazhengzhanzaijudadequanxixingtuqian，meitoujinsuo。neizhangyingjunderutonggudiandiaosudelianshang，
fuzheyicengqiannianbuhuadehanshuang。tachuanzheyishenbitingdeheisezhifu，jianzhangshangdeyinxingzailengbaisededengguangxia，
fanshechuciyandeguang。“‘xinshi’xiaodui，zuihouyicitongxunshishenmeshihou？”tadeshengyin，hetaderenyiyang，
lengjing、dichen，budaiyisiganqing。tongxunguandeshouzhizaiguangpingshangfeisuqiaoji，
shengyinlidaizheyisizhandou：“baogaozhihuiguan，shi……shiqishierxiaoshiqian。
linjingduizhangfahuizuihouyitiaoxinxihou，xinhaobianwanquanzhongduanle。”“xinxineirong。
”“‘yididamubiaoquyu‘chenjizhigu’，zaoyugaoqiangdunengliangfengbao，tongxunshourao。
women……womenhuidaihui‘puluomixiusizhihuo’。’”“puluomixiusizhihuo”。
neishirenleiwenmingyanxuxiaqudezuihouxiwang。yizhongnenggouzhongqifangzhouhexinjubianrongludechaowendingtongweisu。
weileta，fangzhouyijingxishenglesanzhizuijingruidexiaodui。erwo，linjing，shidisizhixiaoduideduizhang。
luyuanchenmole。zhihuishili，siyibandejijing，zhishengxiafuwuqidichendewengming。wo“kan”zheta。
woduoxiangcongtaneishuangshensuiruyuandeyanmouli，zhaodaoyisidanyou，yisijiaoji。danwozhikandaolefanzao。
yizhongjihuabeidaluan，mubiaowukenengdiushidefanzao。santianqian，womenbaofalejiehunyilaizuijiliedeyicizhengchao。
qiyinshitade“zuiyoushengcuncelve”。weilequebaowozheicirenwude“jueduichenggonglv”，tajueding，
xishengdiaobeikunzailingyipianfeixuli、jincunsanmingxingcunzhede“bihu”xiaodui，jiangtamenjinyoudenengyuan，
zhuandiaojiwo。“tamencunhuodegailvdiyu17%，yongtamendenengyuan，
huanqu‘puluomixiusizhihuo’9%dechenggonglvtisheng，zheishizuilixingdexuanze。
”tadangshijiushiyongzheiyangbinglengde、burongzhihuideyuqiduiwoshuode。“lixing？”wojihuyaoxiaochushenglai，
“luyuan，neibushishuju，shisantiaohuoshengshengderenming！tamenhaizaixiangwomenqiujiu！”“linjing，”takanzhewo，
yanshenlidiyiciluchuleshiwang，“nideganxing，zhengzaichengweifangzhouzuidadefengxian。zuoweizhihuiguandeqizi，
woxiwangninengmingbai，shenmeshidaju。”“wozhizhidao，wozuobudaoyanzhengzhengdikanzhetongbanqusi！
”“neinijiuquzhixingrenwu，zhengmingnidexuanzeshiduide。”tajuejuedizhuanshen，“daihui‘huozhong’，fouze，
nijiubuyonghuilaile。”wodaizhemanqiangdebeifenyushiwang，tashanglezhengtu。rujin，wozhende……buyonghuiqule。
“zhihuiguan，”yigeqinglengdenvshengxiangqi，daduanleluyuandechensi。shiyifulinboshi。
fangzhoushouxishujufenxishi，yeshiluyuan“lixingzhishang”linianzuijiandingdezhichizhe。
tachuanzheyichenburandebaiseyanjiufu，shouzhongpengzheyifenshujuban。“genju‘chenjizhigu’denengliangmoxingtuiyan，
‘xinshi’xiaoduizaizaoyu72xiaoshidechixunengliangfengbaohou，shenghaijilvwei……0.01%。”tadeshengyin，
xiangshoushudaoyiyangjingzhunerbingleng。“jianyi，jiang‘xinshi’xiaoduizhuangtai，lieweimia（xingdongzhongshizong），
bingjiangrenwuyouxianji，zhuanyizhibjihua。”luyuanbishangleyan，zhangzhangdixileyikouqi。
wo“ting”jianzijibinglengdedaimashenchu，chuanlaiyishengweibukechadetanxi。wohaizaiqidaishenmeni？zheicaishita，
zheicaishiluyuan。yongyuandelizhi，yongyuande……lengku。“pizhun。”tazhengkaiyan，shengyinlizaiwubolan，
“qidongbjihua。guanyu‘xinshi’xiaoduideyiqieshuju，fengcunguidang。”tazhuanshen，zhunbeilikaizhihuishi。
jiuzaizheishi，quanxixingtudejiaoluo，yigeweiruode、daibiaozhewoshenshangqiushengxinhaodehongdian，turanshanshuoleyixia，
suijichediximie。jihuzaitongyishijian，yidaozhiyoutanengkandaode，zuigaoquanxiandexitongtishi，
zaitayanqiandekongqizhongdanchu。[yishishangchuanxieyi'yujin'yichufa。shengwutizheng（linjing，
id:07）querenxiaoshi。zhengzaigoujianbeidongguanchazhequanxian...goujianwancheng。]luyuandejiaobu，
mengdidunzhule。talianshangdexuese，zaineiyishunjian，tundeyiganerjing。2wosile。zheigeshishi，
yiyizhongbingleng、keguan、burongzhiyidefangshi，chengxianzaileluyuanmianqian。tashejide“yujin”xieyi，
shitaduisuoyouajirenyuanzuihoude“renwenguanhuai”——jibianroutixiaowang，yishiyenengzuoweibaoguideshujuzichan，
beiyongjiubaocunzaifangzhoudezhujili，gonghourenyanjiu。taqinshouxiexialezheiduandaima，quecongweixiangguo，
diyigechufatade，huishilinjing。huishitadeqizi。tadaidaidizhanzaiyuandi，shentijiangyingdexiangyizundiaoxiang。
zhihuishilideren，douchajuedaoletadebuduijing，danmeirenganshangqianxunwen。yifulinboshizhoulezhoumei，zoushangqian，
dishengtixing：“zhihuiguan？nihaihaoma？bjihuaxuyaonishouquan。”luyuanxiangshimeiyoutingjian。tademuguang，
sisididingzheneixingyijingxiaoshidexitongtishi，tongkongyinweizhenjinghenanyizhixin，erjuliedishousuozhe。
tamengdizhuanguoshen，chongxiangzijidesirenkongzhitai，shouzhiyinweizhandou，jicidoushucuolemima。zhongyu，
tajinrulezuigaoquanxiandeshujuku。zaiyigebeimingmingwei“yujinhuixiang”dejiamiwenjianjiali，
takandaolewodeid。id:07，linjing。zhuangtai：yijihuo。tadiankailewodewenjianjia。putiangaidide，
shiwodejiyisuipian。neixieweijingzhenglide、pangzade、shuyulinjingzheige“ren”deyiqie。takandaowoxiaoshihou，
zaihaiweibeiwurandediqiushang，chizhejiaozaishatanshangbenpao。takandaowodiyicichuanshangshihuangzhezhifushi，
lianshangneijijinzhangyoujiaoaodebiaoqing。takandaowomendiyicixiangyu。zaifangzhoudemonixunlianchang，tazuoweizongjiaoguan，
lengzhelianjiangwocongnitanlilinchulai，xunchiwodongzuobuguifan。erwo，quemoleyibalianshangdeni，
duitaluchuleyigecanlandexiao。takandaowomenjiehundeneitian。meiyouxianhua，meiyouhunsha，
zhiyouliangbeiyonghechengyingyangyeduichengde“xiangbin”。tabenzhuodiduiwoshuo：“linjing，yihou，wodeming，
fenniyiban。”……zheixiehuamian，xiangyibabajiandao，fanfuqiegezhetajinbengdeshenjing。tahuxijicu，
etoushangshenchuximidelenghan。tashituyuwode“shuju”jinxingjiaohu。
[＞zhiling：hujiao‘yujin-07’][xitonghuiying：quanxianbuzu。‘yujin’xieyiweibeidongguanchamoshi，
wufajinxingzhudongjiaohu。]tabusixin，youchangshidiaoquwozuihoushikedexingdongluxiang。
[＞zhiling：diaoqu‘xinshi’xiaoduizuihou72xiaoshixingdongjiluyiyingxiang。
][xitonghuiying：shujubaoyanzhongshousun，zhengzaichangshixiufu。yujixiufushijian：48xiaoshi。]wufajiaoliu。
wufakuijian。tazhinengquedingyijianshi：wosile。erwode“linghun”，zhengbeikunzaizheibinglengdeshujuqiulongli，
wushengdizhushizheta。zheibidanchundesiwang，gengrangtagandaoyizhongqiansuoweiyoudekonghuang。taxiangshifengleyiyang，
kaishifanyuesuoyouyuwoxiangguanderenwubaogao，fenxibaogao，xinlipinggubaogao。takandaowodexinliyisheng，
zaiyigeyueqiandepinggubaogaoshangxiedao：“duixiang（linjing）zhangqichuyugaoyarenwuhuanjing，
banlv（luyuan）zhangqiqingganhushi，yichuxianzhongdujiaolvjiyiyuqingxiang。jianyilijijinxingxinliganyu，
bingqiangzhixiujia。”baogaodezuihou，shiluyuanzijidepishi。zhiyoulianggezi：“bohui。
”houmiangenzhetadepizhu：“dangqianfangzhouziyuanjinzhang，ajirenyuanbucunzaixiujiakeneng。
qingganbodongweigerenwenti，yingzixingkefu。”“zixingkefu……”luyuannannandinianzhezheisigezi，
shentikongzhibuzhudizhandouqilai。tafangfonengkandao，wodangshikandaozheifenpishishi，
lianshangneishiwangde、luomodebiaoqing。“zhihuiguan！”yifulindeshengyinzaicixiangqi，zheiyici，daizheyisiyanli，
“fangzhoudenengyuanjingbaoyijinglaxiangle！ruguonibunenglvxingnidezhize，wojiangqidongjinjiyuan，
zanshijieguanzhihuiquan！”luyuanmengditaiqitou，neishuangshenyuanbandeyanjingli，bumanlehairendexuesi。
takanzheyifulin，neigehetayiyang，xinfengzheshujuyulixingdenvren。“gunchuqu。
”tacongyafenglijichulianggezi。“nishuoshenme？”“worangni，gunchuqu！”tamengdiyiquan，
zazailejianyingdehejinkongzhitaishang，fachu“peng”deyishengjuxiang。zhenggezhihuishi，yaquewusheng。
suoyourendoubeitazheituruqilaidebaonu，hedebugandongdan。tamencongweijianguo，yongyuanlengjingzichidezhihuiguan，
huirucishitai。luyuanchengzhekongzhitai，dakoudakoudichuanzheqi。taganjuezijideshijie，zhengzaiyicuncundibengta。
neigeyongyuanzhuizaitashenhou，yongmingliangdeyanjingkanzheta，shuo“luyuan，nijiushiwodeguang”denvhai，
neigehuiyinweitayijuwuxindekuajiangergaoxingyizhengtian，yehuiyinweitayicilengmodehushiertoutoukuqidenvhai，
neigetayiweihuiyongyuanzaineili，dengtahuitoudenvhai……zhende，buzaile。erta，jiushineigeqinshou，
jiangtatuirushenyuande，guizishou。3linjingdesi，beidingyiwei“yingongxunzhi”。
fangzhouweiwojubanleyichangjiandande、wushengdezangli。meiyouyiti。zhiyouyigebinglengdeyiguanzhong，
lizaijinianbeilindeyijiao。mubeishang，kezhewodemingziheid。luyuanmeiyouchuxi。
tayi“shentibushi”weiyou，jiangzijisuozailefangjianli。wo“piao”zaitadefangjianli，kanzheta。
buguoduanduanliangri，neigecengjingyiqifengfa、yisibugoudezhihuiguan，yijingbiandetuifeibukan。tameiyouguahuzi，
zhifuzhoubabadirengzaidishang，yanzhongbumanlexuesi，zhenggerendousanfazheyigunongzhongde、lingrenzhixidebeishang。
tayibianyouyibiandi，kanzhewomendehezhao。neishifangzhouli，weiyideyizhang。zhaopianshangdewo，xiaodexianggeshagua，
yonglidibaozhetadegebo，erta，zeyouxiewunaidi，renyouwohunao，
zuijiaoquedaizheyisitazijidouweichajuede、qianqiandexiaoyi。tashenchushou，zhijianzhandoudi，
fuguozhaopianshangwodelian。“linjing……”tadishenghuhuanzhewodemingzi，shengyinshayadexiangbeishazhimoguo，
“duibuqi……”zheishiwodiyici，congtakouzhong，tingdaozheisangezi。kexi，woyijingtingbujianle。huozheshuo，
wotingjianle，quezaiyewufahuiying。“zhihuiguan。”menwaichuanlaitongxunguandeshengyin，“jinianyishijijiangkaishi，
suoyouajirenyuandouyidaochang，zhi……zhidengninle。”luyuanxiangshimeitingjian，yijiuyidongbudong。
menwaidetongxunguandenglexujiu，zhinengwunaidilikai。wozhidao，tabushibuxiangqu。tashi……buganqu。
tabuganqumianduineikuaibinglengdemubei，buganqumianduineixiecengyuwobingjianzuozhandetongbanmentongqinghuozhizedemuguang。
tazheigegaogaozaishangdezhihuiguan，diyici，chengleyigenuofu。……jinianyishishang，yifulinboshidaitiluyuan，
zhiledaoci。tadedaoci，jianduan、keguan、lengjing。“linjingduizhang，shifangzhouzuiyonggandezhanshi。tayongshengming，
jianxingleshihuangzhedezuigaoshiming。tadexisheng，shiyoujiazhide。womenyingdangmingjitadegongxian，ranhou，
jixuqianxing。yinwei，fangzhoudeweilai，buyunxuwomenchenniyubeishang。”yifanhua，shuodeguanmiantanghuang，
wuxiekeji。wo“ting”zhe，zhijuedefengci。ruobushitade“lixing”jianyi，
ruobushitaduiluyuanqianyimohuadeyingxiang，huoxu，woheluyuan，genbenbuhuizoudaoneiyibu。yishijieshuhou，
woyiqiandefuguan，yigejiao“chuizi”dezhuanghan，zhaodaoleyifulin。tahongzheyanjing，xiangyitoubeijinudexiong。
“yifulinboshi，wozhixiangwenyiju，”chuizideshengyinyinweifennuerzhandou，“ruguodangshi，
womenfenchuyibufennengyuanqujiu‘bihu’xiaodui，duizhangta……shibushijiubuhuisi？
”yifulintuiletuibiliangshangdeyanjing，shenqingmeiyousihaobianhua。“genjushujumoxing，jibianfenchunengyuan，
‘bike’xiaoduideshenghailvyirandiyu20%。er‘xinshi’xiaoduiderenwuchenggonglv，
zehuixiajiang12.5%。congzuiyouhuadejiaodukan，zhihuiguandejueding，shizhengquede。”“qu**zhengque！
”chuizizhongyubaofale，tayibajiuzhuyifulindeyiling，jiangtadizaiqiangshang，
“laozibuguannimenneixiegoupishuju！laozizhizhidao，duizhangta，jiushibeinimenzheibanglengxuede**，
jibiside！”jingweixunsuchongleshanglai，jiangqingxushikongdechuizilakai。yifulinzhenglileyixiabeinongzhoudeyiling，
kanzhebeituozoudechuizi，yanzhongshanguoyisiqingmie。“yuchundeganxing。”talenglengdipingjialeyiju，zhuanshenliqu。
wo“kan”zhezheiyimu，shujuliumeiyourenhebodong。yinwei，woyijingmeiyoufennuzheizhongqingxule。wozhishijuede，
henkebei。renleiwenmingzoudaolejintou，zhishengxiazheizuihouyizuogudao。womenmeiyoubeitianzaidabai，
meiyoubeiguaiwuxiaomie，quehenyoukeneng，huiyinweizijineibude“lixing”yu“ganxing”zhizheng，
erzouxiangzuizhongdemiewang。erwo，buguoshizheichangzhengdouzhong，yigeweibuzudaodexishengpin。4liangtianhou。
wozuihou72xiaoshidexingdongjiluyiyingxiang，zhongyubeixiufule。luyuandiyishijian，
jiangzijisuojinlezuigaoquanxiandeyuelanshi。wozuowei“yujin”chengxu，yutayongyoujihutongjidefangwenquanxian。
wokeyi“kan”daotasuokandaodeyiqie。judadequanxipingmushang，yingxiangkaishibofang。huamianjuliedihuangdongzhe，
jiazazhecierdedianliusheng。neishigaoqiangdunengliangfengbaoduishebeideganrao。wokandaowoziji。huozheshuo，
shineigehaihuozhedelinjing。tachuanzhehouzhongdewaigugezhuangjia，jiannandizai“chenjizhigu”zhongbashe。
sizhoushiziheisede、jiejinghuadeguiyizhiwu，tiankongzhong，fangunzhehuilvsedefusheyun。“duizhang，
nengliangfengbaotaiqiangle，womendehudunkuaichengbuzhule！”yigeduiyuandeshengyinzaitongxunpindaolixiangqi。“bizui！
”wodeshengyin，lengjingerjianding，“baochiduixing，jixuqianjin！zuobiaodianjiuzaiqianmian！
”luyuansisididingzhepingmu，shuangshoujinjindizuanchenglequantou。huamianyizhuan。
womenzhongyuzhaodaolemubiao——neikuaisanfazheyoulanseguangmangde“puluomixiusizhihuo”。
tabeibaoguozaiyigegulaowenmingdenengliangrongqili。jiuzaiwomenzhunbeihuishoutadeshihou，yiwaifashengle。
chenjizhigude“yuanzhumin”——yizhongbeichengwei“aihaozhe”deguijishengwu，beiwomenjingxingle。
tamenxiangchaoshuiyiban，congdidiyongchu。zhandou，shunjianbaofa。guangshu、baozha、canjiao，chongchizhezhenggehuamian。
wodeduiyuan，yigejieyigedidaoxia。luyuandehuxi，biandeyuelaiyuejicu。
tayanzhengzhengdikanzheneixiecengjingxianhuodeshengming，zaitamianqian，beisichengsuipian。zuihou，zhishengxiawoyigeren。
woyongjinzuihoudeliqi，jiang“puluomixiusizhihuo”gudingzaihuishouwurenjishang，shedinglefanhangchengxu。ranhou，
wozhuanguoshen，mianduizhechaoshuibanyonglaide“aihaozhe”。wodezhuangjiayijingposunbukan，zuobeibeiqigenzhanduan。
wobeikaozheyikuaijudadejiejingshi，juqileshouzhongdegaozhouboliziren。wozhidao，wohuibuqule。
jiluyideshijiao，shiwotoukuidezhushijiao。wokandao，zaizhandoudejianxi，wotaiqijincundeyoushou，zhandoudi，
zaibumanxuewuheliehendemianzhaoshang，caleca。woxiangkanqing，yuanfang，fangzhoudefangxiang。ranhou，
wotingdaolewozijideshengyin。neishengyin，buzaishiduizhangdelengjing，yebushiqizidebeifen，
zhishiyizhong……pibeidaojizhide，nannanziyu。“luyuan……wohaolenga……”“nishuo……rensile，
huibianchengtianshangdexingxingma？”“ruguonengbianchengxingxing，woxiwangnengbiancheng，linizuijindeneiyike。
zheiyang……jiusuannizaiyekanbujianwo，
…”“duibuqi……wohaoxiang……haishimeinengrangnimanyi……”“wozhishi……youdianxiangnile……”yingxiang，
daozheili，jiaranersheng。yipianheian。zhishengxiatongxunpindaoli，wozuihouneiyisheng，
beiguaiwusihoushengyanmeide、weiruodetanxi。yuelanshili，siyibandejijing。luyuanjiangzaizuoweishang，yidongbudong。
xujiu，xujiu。yidiguntangdeyeti，congtayanzhonghualuo，zazaibinglengdekongzhitaishang，suichengqianwanpian。jinjiezhe，
shidierdi，disandi……tazaiyewufayizhi，jianglianshenshendimaijinshuangshouzhong，
fachulerutongshoushangyeshoubande、yayiertongkudewuyan。neikusheng，zaikongkuangdeyuelanshilihuidang，
chongmanlewujindehuihenyujuewang。wo“ting”zhe。binglengdeshujuliu，diyici，
chanshenglejuliede、wuxudebodong。xiangshizaimoniyizhong，jiaozuo“xinsui”deqingxu。
5luyuankaishixianggefengziyiyang，gongzuo。tabuzaihuifangjianxiuxi，chizhudouzaizhihuishi。tayonghailiangdegongzuo，
laimabiziji，shitujiangnaohaizhongneiduanposuideluxiang，quganchuqu。fangzhoudebjihua，zaitadeqianglituidongxia，
yiqiansuoweiyoudexiaolvjinxingzhe。suoyourendoujuede，neigelengjing、guoduan、shenzhiyouxielengkudezhihuiguan，
youhuilaile。zhiyouyifulin，kanchulebuduijing。tazaiyigeshenye，zhaodaoleluyuan。
“nideshentikuaidaojixianle。”tajiangyifentijianbaogao，fangzailuyuanmianqian，“zaizheiyangxiaqu，nihuicuside。
”luyuantouyemeitai，yijiudingzheyanqiandexingtu：“fangzhoubuhuiyinweishaoleyigeren，jiutingzhiyunzhuan。
”zheijuhua，rucishuxi。wojide，zaibujiuzhiqian，yeyouyigeren，duilingyigeren，shuoguoleisidehua。
yifulinchenmolepianke，shuodao：“luyuan，wozhidaonihennanguo。dantashijunren，zhansishachang，shitadesuming。
niyeshijunren，nibugai……”“tabushijunren！”luyuanmengditaiqitou，daduanletadehua，
yanzhongbumanlexuesi，xiangyitoubeibirujuejingdekunshou，“tazhishi……yigexihuangenzaiwoshenhou，
xiaodehenshadeguniang！tahuiweilejiwozuoyidunxiangyangdefan，paobianzhenggehouqinbuqusoujishicai！
tahuizaiwoaoyegongzuoshi，yishengbuxiangdijiwopishangyijianwaitao！tahuiyinweiwozhouyixiameitou，
jiujinzhangyizhengtian！”“tabushibinglengdeshuju！
tayebushinikouzhongneigeweile‘daju’keyisuishixishengdeqizi！tashiwoqizi！yifulin！tashiwoqizi！
”tajihushipaoxiaozhe，shuochuzuihouneijuhua。yifulinbeitadeyangzi，zhenshezhule。
tacongweijianguorucishikongdeluyuan。tazhanglezhangzui，queyigezidoushuobuchulai。luyuanjuliedichuanxizhe，
xiongkouyinweijidongerjulieqifu。tachengzhezhuozi，huanhuandizuolexialai，jianglianmaijinleyinyingli。“nizouba。
”tadeshengyin，chongmanlepibei，“rangwoyigeren，daiyihuier。”yifulinkanzhetaluomodebeiying，zuizhong，
haishiwushengdituilechuqu。……luyuankaishipinfandi，fangwenwode“yujin”shujuku。tayibianyouyibiandi，
guankanneixieshuyuwodejiyisuipian。takandaolewocongweiduitatiguode，wodetongnian。wokandaota，
diyicizhidao，wodefumu，shizaifangzhoujianlichuqideneichang“jinghuazhanzheng”zhong，
weilebaohutasuozaideshiyanqu，erzhudongyinbaolejubianhexin，yudirentongguiyujin。takandaolewoderiji。
neixieyongzuijiandandewenzi，jiluxiade，shaonvdexinshi。[yongan37nian，7yue9ri。
jintianyoubeiluyuanjiaoguanmale。tahaoxiong，dan……tazhoumeideyangzi，haohaokan。][yongan38nian，
3yue12ri。wobawodeyingyanggao，fenleyibanjita。tahaoxianghenjingya。tabuzhidao，
wokandaotabazijideneiyifen，doujileneixiegengxiaodehaizimen。][yongan41nian，1yue1ri。
taxiangwoqiuhunle。tashuo，tademing，fenwoyiban。wogaoxingde，yiwanshangdoumeishuizhe。wojuede，
woshiquanshijiezuixingfuderen。][yongan43nian，5yue20ri。womenchaojiale。tayuelaiyuemang，
yeyuelaiyuelengmole。woyoushihoujuede，taliwohaoyuan，yuandexiangtianshangdexingxing，wozenmenuli，dougoubuzhe。
][yongan45nian，8yue15ri。wohaoxiang……youle。yigexiaoxiaodeshengming，zaiwodeshentilifayale。
wobugangaosuta。taneimemang，fangzhoudeweilai，douyazaitadejianshang。wobuxiang……zaijitatianmafanle。
zheigexiaomimi，jiurangwoyigeren，xianzangyihuierba。]dangkandaozuihouneiyitiaorijishi，
luyuanshouzhongdeshujuban，“pa”deyisheng，diaozailedishang。tazhenggeren，xiangshibeichouzoulesuoyoudeliqi，
tandaozaiyizishang。haizi……women……cengjingyouguoyigehaizi……erta，jingranyiwusuozhi。tashenzhi，
haizaitahuaiyundeshihou，weilesuoweide“daju”，qinshouqianxialepaitaquzhixingjiusiyishengrenwudemingling。
“a——！”yishengyayidaojizhide、tongkudesihou，congtahoulonglibengfachulai。taxianggehaiziyiyang，
quansuozaibinglengdehejindibanshang，qibuchengsheng。tazhongyumingbai，tashiqude，bujinjinshiyigeairen。
tashiqude，shiyigewanzhengde、bengaishuyutadeshijie。erzheigeshijiedemubei，shenzhi……doubucunzai。
6congneiyitianqi，luyuanbianle。tabuzaifengkuangdigongzuo，yebuzailihuifangzhouderenheshiwu。
tajiangsuoyoudezhihuiquan，douyijiaojiletadefuguan，heyifulinboshi。tajiangziji，
chedisuojinleyijianchenfengyijiude、zuigaojibiedeshengwushiyanshili。wo“kan”zheta。
tadiaochulefangzhousuoyouguanyu“rengongzhineng”、“fangshengxue”he“yishiyizhi”dejinjiziliao。
tayaozuoyijianshi。yijianzuyidabaifangzhoulunli，shenzhikenengdailaihuimiede、fengkuangdeshi。tayao……fuhuowo。
tayaoyongzuidingjideshengwucailiao，weiwozhongsuyijuyimoyiyangdeshenti。ranhou，
jiangwoneibeikunzaishujukuzhongde“yujin”yishi，yizhijinqu。tajizheigefengkuangdejihua，qileyigemingzi。
“puluomixiusi”。taxiangzuoneigedaohuozhe，congbinglengdeshujushentanshang，jiangwodelinghun，zhongxindaihuirenjian。
zhenggeshiyanshi，chengletadewangguo。wushudejixiebei，zaitashenbianfeiwu。fuzadejiyinxulie，
zaiquanxipingmushang，riyebutingdigundongzhe。tafeiqinwangshi，yanzhongbumanlefengkuangdexuesi。
tadeshentiyirouyankejiandesuduxiaoshouxiaqu，dantadejingshen，quechuzaiyizhongjidukangfendezhuangtai。
tashizai……shuzui。yongyizhongjinhuzicandefangshi。fuguanchuizi，cenglaizhaoguotayici。“zhihuiguan，
nifenglema？！”chuizikanzheshiyanshilineigezhengzaipeiyangminzhong，zhujianchengxingde、wodeshenti，zhenjingdihoudao，
“nizhibuzhidao，nizaizuoshenme？！zheishijinjijishu！yidanshikong，
zhenggefangzhoudouhui……”“neijiurangtahuimiehaole。”luyuantouyemeihui，shengyinpingjingdekepa，
“yigemeiyoutadeshijie，huile，youyoushenmekexi？”chuizibeitahualidefengkuang，jingdeshuobuchuhualai。
takanzheluyuanneixiaoshouerzhiaodebeiying，zuizhong，zhinengzhangtanyikouqi，zhuanshenliqu。tazhidao，meiyouren，