心头血
zhouxuyanyouyongdaolaiquwodexintouxue,jidijiezuoyaoyinzile。
zhishizheiyici,tameixiangwangchangneiyangjizhelikai,ershifulefuwobeilenghanjinshidetoufa。
shengyinqingrou:“zairenyiren,chuchudebingjiuyaohaole,yihouwohuihaohaobuchangni。”
ketabuzhidao,wozaoyidengkuyoujin,meiyouyihoule!
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dahundangri,baiwantiandi,wozuozaidongfanglidengzhefujunzhouxuyan。
心中满是甜蜜幸福。
youjiaobushengchuanlai,jiezhegaitoubeixiankai。
zhouxuyanyishenzhenghongsexifu,kelianshangquemeiyourenhexise,yanzhongyequanshilengmoshuli。
“相公……”
我轻轻唤了一声。
huahaimeishuowan,tabiancongxiuzilitaochuyibabishou,zhijiezhaxiangwodexiongkou。
juliedetengtongshiwoxiayishikaishizhengzha。
kezhouxuyanquesisiyazhewodeshoujiao。
bishoushanzhelengguang,tadeshengyingengleng。
“chuchuxingmingchuiwei,jiuquyidiannidexintouxuezuoyaoyinzieryi,bieluandong。”
daojiantiaokailewodeyishan,shenshengeruxiongkou,xianxuexiongyongerchu。
zhouxuyanquwanxue,gaihaopinggai,zhuanshenjiuzoule。
yiyandoumeiyoukanshangkouhaizaixueliubuzhidewo。
wolenglengdikanzhemanwudehongse,mingliangdeyuanyangzhu,zhuoshangdejiaobeijiu。
xinliturantengdechuanbuguoqilai。
yuanlaizheijiushizhouxuyanquwodeyuanyin。
yaogewodexin,quwodexuejidijiesongxingchuruyao。
可是,可是……
dangchutatiqindeshihou,mingmingshuohuihuwoyishengyishidea。
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wocongxiaojiuxihuanzhouxuyan,zhengzhengqinian。
ketadexinliyanlizhiyouwodesongxingchu。
songxingchutiruoduobing,congxiaoyaobulikou,duoxingjibulubianhuiqichuanyuyu。
wosuoyoudeqingyihetaohao,doubibushangtayishengjiaoruodekesou。
jiuzaiwoanranshenshang,shoushihaoxingnang,xiangduziqubiansaishi,zhouxuyanquelaitileqin。
neiyiri,tadaizhefenghoupinli,zaizhengtangzhizhongyiziyijushuodewubiqingxi。
“xuyanqingmuerxiaojie,xiangyaoqiuquweiqi,aihuyishengyishi。”
chaneijian,wojidongdenaozhongjihuyipiankongbai。
jiulianzuomengyebucengxiangguo,tajingranxiangyaoquwoweiqi。
gubushangxiuse,wocongpingfenghouchongchu,lazhutadeshou,huanxidishuo:“xuyangege,nishuodeshizhendema?”
tajikuaidicekailetou,chuizheyanmou,dianlediantou。
婚事定了下来。
woshouqilewangridehuopohaodong,yixinxiangxuesongxingchudewenjingxianya。
yiweizheiyang,biannenggengtaozhouxuyandexihuan。
hunqian,tadengmenbaifang,wotoutouquzhaota,songjitayigezijiqinshouxiudehebao。
woxuelehenjiu,jiangshigenshouzhizhadexianxuelinli。
可还是有些歪扭。
wohongzhelian,xiaoshengshuo:“xuyangege,nibiexianqi,haobuhao?”
tashouxiale,congcongsaoleyiyan,jiusaijinlexiuzili。
neishidewo,yixinchenjinzaijiangyaojiajitadexiyuezhong,wanquanmeiyouzhuyidaotacuqidemeitou,fuyandeshense,hebuyouzizhudiwangxiangsongxingchuyuanzidemuguang。
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yizhengye,wogulinglingdidaozaichuangshang。
tianlianghou,zhouxuyanhuilaile。
takandaobeixueranhongdebeiru,shunjianbianlelianse。
“zenmeliulezheimeduoxue,yebuquqingdafu。”
shuowan,tayoujicongcongzoule。
dafuhenkuailaile,jianchalewodeshangshihou,zhouzhemeishuo:“zenmexiashouzheibanzhong,youtuolezheimejiucaizhi?zheikongpahuiluoxiabinggen。”
“dafu,qiuqiunile,yidingyaojiangtadeshangdiaoyanghao。”
zhouxuyanshuodeneimeqingzhenyiqie,fangfoshiduiwoyipianshenqing。
zhihou,taqinziweiwohuanyao,heyao,xixinzhaogu。
queshizhongchuizhetou,bugankanwodeyanjing。
zheitian,hewanyao,tafuwotangxia,qingqinglazhulewodeshou。
wojikuaidibashouchoulehuilai,lengshengshuo:
“nibubiruci,wosibulede,buhuiyingxiangsongxingchuyongyao。”
tademouguangzhongneijiujiazazhelianmin,xiaoshengshuo:“neiwanchuchubingqingxiongxian,woqingjizhongxiashoushileqingzhong。yihouwoyidingxiaoxin,buhuijiangnishangdezheimezhong。”
以后……
woxindimanqiyizhenbeiliang,zhuanguoshenbuzaikanta。
ketaqueshenchushoubei,jiangwobaojinlehuaili。
“chuchumeiyueyinnidexintouxueyici,yinianhoubiankequanyu。ayue,jianglaiwohuihaohaobuchangnide。”
woxiaolexiao,xiangwenta,wobeiniansuidexin,beiqizhirubideshenqing,beiyidaocihuideailian。
他要,如何补偿?
kezuizhong,woshenmeyemeiwenchukou。
meiyuechusan,zhouxuyandouhuilai。
yongdaozigewodexin,quwodexue。
taxuehuilexiaoxinyiyi,xiashoujinliangqing,kewohaishihuitengdequanshenzhandoubuyi。
zuikaishi,woyongjinbanfaxiangyaotaochuqu。
tajiumingrenjiangwuzidemenchuangquanbudingsi,jibianshibaitianyetoubujinyidianyangguang。
wozhengrizaiheianzhong,huodeburenbugui。
houlai,zhongyuyouyitian,zhouxuyandakailemenchuang。
tashuo:“ayue,waimiantianqizhenhao,qushaishaitaiyangba。”
keneishiwoyixuruodezhanbuqilai。
yuefuyiyue,wodexueyuelaiyueshao。
daozixuyaotongdeyuelaiyueshen。
zhouxuyandemouzhongdaizhemingxiandeyoulv。
wozhidao,tashihaipawodexuebuzuyichengdaosongxingchubinghao。
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zheitianyizao,woyiguanlengqingdeyuanzilichuanlaiyizhenzhenxiaosheng。
yougechuanjiangseyedizhangqundenvzizoulejinlai。
是宋星楚。
shencaiyiyi,rongsejiaoyanyudi。
jingguowodexuedabanniandeziyang,tazaiyebushicengjingneifubingyanyandeyangzi。
“ayue,zheiduanrizinishoukule。”
tazoudaochuangbian,shangxiadaliangzhewo。
qiheimingliangdemouzili,shiwocangbaianrandemianpang。
“xuyanzongrangwoanxinyangbing,buyaosilvtaiduo。kewoxinlishizhongdianjizheni,bingqingganghaozhuan,jiulaijizhelaikankanni。”
tazheiyangshuozhe,lianshangquequanwuyouse,faneryinyindaizhesideyi。
womianqiangchengzhezuoqishen,danshengshuo:“duoxiejiejieguanian,womeishi。”
“meishijiuhao,”tayanranyixiao,weizhewodewuzizhuanleqilai。
biankanbianshuo:“xuyanzenmezheiyang,jingrangnizhuderucijianlou。”
“woneiliyouxuduoxuyansongdeshoushibaishe,nixihuanshenme,suiyitiao。”
“ayuenibieqi,dengxuyanhuilai,wotinimata,kantayihouhaiganbuganqifuni。”
songxingchuyijuyijushuogebuting。
erwoshizhongdizhetou,qingqingfuzheyizaiwohuaizhongdemao,taotao。
tadebudaohuiying,youxiewuqudibishanglezui。
queyouzaikandaotaotaoshi,yanzhongmaochuleguang。
“zheibushidangniandiediesongwodemaoma,zenmezainizheili?”
wodouledou,jiangtaotaobaodegengjinlexie。
taqueshishidiesongjisongxingchude,kesongxingchuquexianmaoseza,diuqizaiyuanzili。
wojuedekelian,jiangtabaohuiqu,xiaoxinweiyang。
yihuangshunian,tazhangdale,zhihewoyirenqinjin。
“zhenshiguai,”songxingchucouguolai,lvlelvtaotaodemao,shuodelisuodangran:“woxihuan,batajiwo。”
congxiaodaoda,tayixiangruci。
fuqinhedimushuo:“chuchushidizhangnv,shentiyoubuhao,taxiangyaoshenme,sheiyebunengbuji。”
suoyiwoderenhedongxi,zhiyaotaxihuan,jiuhuizhijienazou。
但是桃桃不一样。
tashiwozaizheianwutianrideshenghuozhongdeweiyidepeiban。
meiyouta,wohuihuobuxiaqude。
“buxing,taotaoshiwode。”
songxingchumeixiangdaowohuihaobuyouyudijujue,lengleleng,suijilengxiaoqilai。
“songhuaiyue,kankannizheifuyangzi,pingshenmeyuwozheng?”
shuozhe,tazhijieshenshouguolai,yaoqiangzoutaotao。
erwoyepinjinquanli,jiangtaotaohuzaihuaizhong。
zhengzaizhengqiangzhong,menkouchuanlaileqinglengshengyin:“nimenzheishizaizuoshenme?”
是周叙言来了。
“xuyan,”songxingchushunjianhongleyankuang,zhuazhutadeyixiu,weiqudishuo:“zheishidiediesongjiwodemao,quebeitatouzoule。”
zhouxuyanweichenlelian,zouguolai,qingshengshuo:“ayue,bamaohaijichuchu。”
woyaojinchun,pinmingrenzheyanlei。
“bu,taotaoshiwode。”
zhouxuyanyouxieweinan,tazhuanguotou,kanlekanyijinglihuadaiyudesongxingchu,youduiwoshuo:“chuchudebinghaimeihao,buyaoretashangxin。”
“不!”
wodashengjujue,baozhetaotao,wangqiangjiaosuo。
kezhouxuyanquebuyunxuwoduo。
tayibazhuazhuwodeshoubei,yigenyigenbaikaiwodeshouzhi。
将桃桃抢走了。
songxingchuxixiaoyankai,yishoufue,ruanruandikaojinlezhouxuyandehuaili。
“woyouxiebushufu,xuyan,nisongwohuiquba。”
“好。”
zhouxuyandiantou,lanzhesongxingchuwangwaizou。
“桃桃,还给我。”
wohanleyisheng,gangzhuichuqu,xiongkoujiuyizhensixinliefeideteng,shuaidaozaidi。
zhouxuyantingdaoleshengxiang,jiaobudunledun。
dantameiyouzhuanshen,yimeiyoutingliu,daizhesongxingchulikaile。
我艰难地爬回床上。
meiyicichuanxidoutengdezhibuzhuduosuo。
意识逐渐涣散。
yebuzhiguoleduojiu,hunhunchenchenzhong,ganjueyourenjiangwobaoqi,weiwochiyao。
feilidizhengkaiyan,shizhouxuyanhuilaile。
taxiuzhangdeshouzhimolemowodeetou,chenshengshuo:“ayue,nifashaole。”
woqueshenmeyegubushangle,zhizhikanzheta,aishengdao:“bataotaohaijiwo,qiuqiunile。”
tayanzhongshanguoyisitongchu,lileliwokuhuangsanluandetoufa。
“neizhishiyizhimaoeryi。”
一只猫而已。
无尽悲伤汹涌而来。
“zhouxuyan,zicongjiajini,woyijingshenmedoumeiyoule。”
“zaibunengchumenqima,zaibunengtaqingshanghua,shenzhibunengzouchuzheigeyuanzi。”
“womeitianbeikunzaizheiliyankoucanchuan,zhiyoutaotaopeizhewo,wozhiyoutale,weishenmenihaiyaobataqiangzou?”
yicicibeiquxintouxue,wodoumeiliuguolei。
kezaicishi,quekudejijinbengkui。
zhouxuyanliansecanbai,jiangwojinjindibaozaihuaili。
手臂隐隐在发抖。
“ayue,”tadeshengyinyinya,“bieku,bieku,wozaisongniyizhimao,yongyuanpeizheni,haoma?”
kezheishishangzhiyouyigetaotao,jiurutongwozhiyouyikexin。
beiqiangzoule,jiuzaiyemibubuhuilaile。
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zhouxuyandailaileyizhixiaomao,zhangdehetaotaohenxiang。
tajiangmaofangjinwodehuaizhong,youxieqidaidiwen:“xihuanma?”
womianwubiaoqingdijiangmaofangxia,taishouqujielingkoudekouzi。
“woyouxieleile,niqudekuaiyixie。”
“阿月……”
taqingqingjiaoleyisheng,dixialetou,wozhedaodeshouzhijianyonglidaofabai。
zheiyiciquwanxue,tabingmeiyouxiangwangchangneibanjizhejisongxingchusongqu。
ershifulefuwobeilenghanjinshidetoufa,roushengshuo:“chuchudebingjiuyaohaole,yihouwohuihaohaobuchangni。”
wocetouduokai,chuanlexujiu,caiyouliqihuita:“zhouxuyan,dengnixiageyuequwanxuehou,womenheliba。”
tamingxianlengle,suijilaqiwocangbaibingliangdeshou,longzaizhangxinlinuanzhe。
“ayue,xiangxinwo,wohuizhaoguniyishengyishide。”
又是一生一世。
wocengjingshizhendexiangxintatiqinshishuodehua,kexianzai,wokandaotajiuhuixiangqineihuakaideshangkou,neiguguliuchudexianxue。
yiciyouyici,taitengle。
tengdaowomeicijiantalai,jiuhuiquanshenrenbuzhufadou。
我想要大声说:
zhouxuyan,wozaiyebuxianggenniyishengyishilea。
kexianzaiwotaileile,lianzhangzuideliqidoumeiyou,zhinengmomobishangleyanjing。
zheitianyeli,tabaozhewotangzaichuangshang,qingqingfuzhewodelianjiashuo:“bianguandajie,mingwanbixiajuxinggongyan,ayuenigenwoyiqiquba。”
zheiliangnian,tashitushunsui,yuelaiyuedehuangdiqizhong,pingrilimeishaochurugongtingyanhui,yizhidulaiduwang。
jintianbuzhizenmele,xiangdaiwoyiqi。
woyaotoujujue,ketaquedingzhewodeyanjing,mouguangwenrousishui。
“ayue,nishiwodeqizi,yihouyaoyizhipeizaiwoshenbian。”
“erqiezheicixuduobianguanjiangshidouhuilaifuyan,jugonghuanqing,renaofeifan,niyidinghuixihuande。”
bianguanjiangshidouhuilaifuyan?
woxinzhongyidong,naozhongfuxianchugeshenying。
yexumingwantayehuijingong。
xiangdaozhei,wodianlediantou,“hao,woqu。”
zhouxuyangoulegouchun,meiyanduochujifenrouruanqianquan。
“ayueguai,mingtiandengwolaijieni。”
diertian,zhouxuyanhenzaohuilai,mingrenjiangwoshengzhuangdabanyifan。
zhishizaifanhuadeyishi,yeyanbuzhuwodecangbaiqiaocui。
yilujinlegong,yudaobushaozhouxuyandetongliao。
tamenkandaowo,doumianlujingya,xiaodeyouxieyiweishenzhang。
“tingshuozhoudarenyizhizhongqingdeshisongjiadichudedaxiaojie,zenmehuanleren?”
zhouxuyanyuwoshizhixiangkou,qianqianxiaozhe:
“chuanyanyouwubale,zhoumouxinaizhiren,yizhidoushiwojiaayue。”
ruxiluozuo,zhouxuyanyizhizhaoguzhewo。
wenroudaojizhi,fangfowozhendejiushitayizhixinaizhiren。
“ayue,youshenmeshima?zenmezongshixinbuzaiyandi?”
wozhengzaidadianderenqunzhongzhaoneixiangjianderen,turanbeiwenhuadaduan。
woshouhuimuguang,chuixiatou,xiaoshengshuo:“meishenme。”
shenbianderenqingtanleyisheng,meizaishuohua。
gongyangangjinxingguoban,wojiuyijingshenbuji,leidejihuzuolibuzhule。
“woxianzaihaibunenglixi,ayuenixianhuijiadengwohaoma?”
zhouxuyantaishou,jiaolaipucong,xixijiaodailexuduo,yaotamenwubijiangwotuotiesonghuifu。
wanggongmenkouzoudelushang,turantingdaoshenhouchuanlaiyigekoushaosheng,jinjiezheyourenjiaowo:
“小月亮。”
huitou,dengguangxiazoulaiyigeqizhangshenying,maisepifu,yanjingmingliangruxing。
我顿时笑了起来。
“cuijin,sannianbujian,nizhendehuilaila。”
cuijinshiwoxiaoshihoudewanban,daizhewopashumoyu,haishoubashoujiaowoqima。
houlai,tasuijunzhushoubianguan,yizoujiushisannian。
“xiaoyueliang,”tamaikaizhangtui,jibubianzouleguolai,daliangzhewo,meitouyuezhouyueshen。
“quniannixiexin,xiangyaoquzhaowoqima,kehoulainiyoushuoyaojiaren,bunenglaile,haidewobaigaoxingyichang。”
“nizaixinlishuoyaojiajizhiaizhiren,xingfuwubi,zenmehaibudaoyinian,jiubianchengzheifubingyangyangdemoyang。”
wobeiwendeyakouwuyan,xinzhongmanqiwuxianbeiliang,yanleixiongyongerchu。
jianwoluolei,cuijinyouxiehuang,shouzuwucuodiweiwocalei。
“haohaodezenmekule?shibushishouleweiqu?gaosuwo,wojinichuqi。”
“wo,woxiangheli,ranhouyongyuanlikaishangjing。nihai,hainengshouliuwoma?”
wogengyanzhe,duanduanxuxushuowan,yangzhetoukenqiudikanta。
taquemingxiansonglekouqi,zhanyanyixiao。
“wodangchuleshenmeshi,zheihaibujiandan,dengnidaolebianguan,wodaini......”
“niyaodaitazuoshenme?”
cuijindehuahaimeishuowan,jiubeiyigejilengdeshengyindaduan。
buyuanchu,zhouxuyanzhanzaiyipiandengyingxia,shoulinazheyijianpifeng。
tazouguolai,yibajiangwochejinlehuaili,youkanxiangcuijin,muguangyinleng。
“cuixiaojiangjunyaodaizheneizizuoshenme?”
cuijintaiqixiaba,chelechezuijiao。
“nijiushixiaoyueliangdexianggonga,tajiajinihaibudaoyinian,jiubingruozhici,wohaixiangwenwenniduitazuoleshenme?”
zhouxuyanlianseyibai,lengshenghui:“yuniwuguan。”
shuowan,yongpifengjiangwocongtoudaojiaozhezhu,lanyaobaoqijiuzou。
“xiaoyueliang,shenmeshihouxiangzou,suishilaizhaowo。”
shenhouyouchuanlaicuijindehansheng。
zhouxuyanbaozhewodeshoubeijinlejin,zoudegengjiakuaile。