第四章
5
「yeluan，niweiheyaohaixueer？」
「womeiyouyaohaita......」
「啊！」
bianziyibianyouyibianchouzaiwodeshenshang，woyijingfenbuqingrujinshiheiyehaishibaitianle。
meidangwotengyunguoqu，bianhuibeiposhangyitongbingshuirangwoqingxing。
shenshangbingshuiyuxuejihunhezaiyiqi，bianzihaizaiwodeshenshanghuidong，wuqiongwujindezhemorangwotongbuyusheng。
woxiang，burujiuzheiyangsileba。
我到底有什么错？
我没有害她！
neitian，zaiyahuandedailingxiawoqulehuxintingshangyu，queshiyouxuduoliyu，kanzhehenshixiren，ranerbuzhiheshi，liuxuechuxianzaiwoshenhou，wozhiganjueyourentuilewoyiba，woxiayishizhuazhuleneirendeshou，yushiliuxueyuwoyitongluoruhuzhong。
bingganghuale，suoyihuzhongdeshuiziranshicigudehanleng，woyuliuxuedoubuhuishui，fuzhongdexiaosipawulewoyuliuxuedeqingbaidoubuganxiashuijiuren，gangcongjunyinghuilaidexiaoshaojianzhuanglijixiashuijiuleliuxue，eryutajinzaizhichidewoquebeitawangle。
wokanzhetabaozhetazoule，cigudehanlenghaoxiangchuantoulewodeshenzizhizhijinrulewodexinzang。
zaiyishixiaoshiqian，wozhiyinyuekanjianleliwoyuelaiyuejindeheiyi。
xinglaihou，wobianzaizheijianmibutoufengdexingfangli，tashuo：「xueershuonizaitadeantaiyaolixiayao，rangtataiqibuwen，tazhaonililun，niqueyutaqilezhengzhi，niyaojiangtatuirushuizhong，taluoshuiqianjiangniyeyibingdailuoleshui。」
tinglexiaoshaodehua，wolengzhule：「womeiyouhaita，meiyouxiayao，tabenjiutaiqibuwen，yuwowuguan！」
shide，liuxuebenjiutaiqibuwen，zaozaijigeyueqian，wozaiyelixiwanyifuhuiyuanzhongshiluguotadeyuanzishi，tingjiantashuo：「shixiong，nibangbangwo，woyaobaozhuzheigehaizi，xiaoshaohaoburongyiduiwoshanglexin，zhiyaowoshengxiazheigehaizi，jiunenglaolaozhuazhutadexinle！」
zheixiebushiwogaitingde，wozhengzhunbeizou，quetingjianlingyidaoshengyinxiangqi：「nizheihaizibenjiushiyongmiyaocaihuaishangde，neiweixianrenzaojiuyunyousifangbuzhisuozongle，xianzaiwurennengbaozheigehaizi。」
womeixiangdao，baobuzhuhaizi，liuxuebianxiangchuwuxianwodefazi。
woyibianbianjieshibushiwo，quemeirenxiangxinwo，yinweiliuxuedairenzaiwodeyuanzhongsouchuleyiduiyishu。
zheixiaxiaoshaochedixiangxinleliuxuedehua，yinweijingzhongguinvmeiyourenhuiquxueyi。
tamenyebuhuixiangxintangtangchengxiangzhinvhuixihuanyishu。
woyebudongxiaoshaoweiheyaoyibianbianwenwo「weiheyaohaixueer。」
woleile，zaizheianwutianridexingfangli，wozhendeleile，bianzichouzaiwodeshenshangwoyijingmeiyouganjuele，wobuhuizaitongku，buhuizaijianjiaole，wozhihuixianggeguhunyeguiyiyangpiaozaikongzhongkanzhebianzichouzaiwodeshenshang，wohaoxiangbuzaishiwole。
buzhiguoleduojiu，bianzibuzaichouzaiwodeshenshangle，wozhishibeiguanzaizheigeheiandewuzili，xiaoshaoshibushihuilaikankanwo，wowuliditangzaidishang，tazhihuiyongtaneizhonggaogaozaishang、piniyiqiedeyanshenkanzhewo。
「yeluan，niweiheyaohaixueer？」
wolengxiaoyisheng，bingmeiyouzuoda。
「nidaodixiangyaoshenmedaan？」
「niaiwoma，aluan？」
「wobuaini，wohenni。」
「niweihebuyuanfuyixiaruan，nizhiyaoshuoyiju，niaiwo，nijiduliuxuededaowodeai，nicaihaita，wolimafangnichuqu，nikeyijixuxiangshouyahuandesihou，jiangjunfurendedaiyu，hewodeai。」
「ha......hahaha，xiaoshaonifengle，ai？nigaosuwoshenmeshiai！」
「woleile，nizouba，xiaoshao。」
「buhaolebuhaole，jiangjun，youcike！」
wobishangyanjingjingtangzaidishang，erbianzhitingjianxiaoshaocongcongliqudejiaobusheng。
wuwaidaojianxiangzhuangzhengranzuoxiang，sichutaosandejiaobu，jianjiaoshenghunhezaiyiqi，haoxianghuidaoleneigeyewan。
longlongyuyezhizhong，gushengzhaqi，wuwaidaojianpengzhuangrujinglei，suwangdaibingbigongmoufan。
wuwaijinghusiqi，xianxuesijian，suwangderenshasigefuyahuanshouwei，xieqijiarenyibichaozhongguanyuanzhandui。
yesezhongzhijianruyingmanshenshixuedichuangjinwodewuzi，tashouchizhangjianhuzaiwoshenqian。
wozhandouzheshouniezheruyingdeyijiao，yushuichongshuaxiadexueshuishunzheniezhetayijiaodeshouliuxiangshoubei。
ruyinghuzaiwoshenqian，shadiaoyipiyouyipideren，buzhiguoleduojiu，tagangdaiwotaodaochengwaiyichuyuanzilibianshuangtuiyiruanguidaozaidi，wokuzhequfuta，ruyingqueyaoleyaotouyongtamanshixuewudeshoucalecawodeyanlei，tashuo：「xiaojie，bieku。」
「砰！」
yidaojingtiandeshengxiangxiangqi，wozhengkaileyan，jiubujiantianridewuzilizhaochuleguangliang，menkaile。
shenchuanxuanyideshaonian，shouchizhangjian。
tashuo：「xiaojie，bieku。」
zhidaoshaonianwennuandeshoufushangwodelianjia，wocaijingjue，buzhiheshi，woyileiliumanmian。
「ruying，nizenmecailai......」
「duibuqi，xiaojie，wolaiwanle。」