第一章

jiejiedeyiyuanshiyaowomaixiajingjiaozuihaodemudi。

weilezhuangouqian,wopinmingdedagong,

shenzhihaowuzunyandeqiudaoheyanqianmian,

tabaqianshuaizaiwomianqian,queduiwojijinwuru:

“nidangchuweileqianlikaiwo,xianzaizheiwushiwangoumainizheitiaojianmingma?”

wopobujidaidediantou,rutongyitiaosangjiazhiquan。

tahaiyiweiwoshiweileqianbeipanleta,yiweiwoshiqianruming,buzeshouduan。

yushizheiciwoyexinanlidebazijimaijileta。

我的尸体。

……

shigeqinianzaijiandaoheyanshizaiyichangwanyanshang。

yinweiqueqian,wobeilinshijiaoqudangshiyingsheng,

而贺琰,

tashizheichangwanyandekeren。

woyinweibuxiaoxinbahongjiusazaikerendequnzishang,beijiudiandelingbanlindaozoulangshangma:

“**deshibushimeizhangyan?neitiaoqunziniganyinianyepeibuqi,nizheizhongyouandidewokenyongnijiutouzheleba……”

wochuizhetouxiangyizhianchun,shouzhiwucuodezhuazheyijiao。

congjianyuchulaihoudehenzhangyiduanshijian,weilezhuanqianwoshenmedougan。

daduoshiyixiebutai“timian”degongzuo,mailiqide,buxuyaoxuelide,bujieyiyouandide。

jintiandewanyanyeshiyiyang,yinweijiqianduo,

所以就来了。

duibuqihebuhaoyisihuanzheshuo,shuodaozuibadouganle,lingbancaidafacibei,

huanzuoshicongqian,wokendingbuhuirenzheiyangdeshi,kongpayaobazheishenfuwushengyifushuaidaolingbandelianshangzaimatayijuyoubing,

ranhoujiejiuhuijiuzhewodeerduomawo:“weizhiyi,nengbunengbanidegoupiqishouyishou!”

tamingmingyemeibiwodajisui,danhenduoshihoudouyaogenzaiwo**houmianshoushiwonaoziyirebanchulaidechunshi。

可是言犹在耳,

woquezaiyemeiyoujiejiele。

womannaozimangrandewangqianzou,yitaitou,

huminghuandezoulanglizhanzhegeren。

嘴里叼着只烟,

贺琰就站在那里。

yishenxizhuanggelv,moshengyoushuxi。

qishitaheqinianqianyijinghenbuyiyang,cengjingneixieshaonianyiqi、waifangdezhangkuangrujindoubiandeshifenneilian。

danwohaishiyiyanjiurenchuleta。

haoxiangqinianqianhenworugudeneizhanglianrujinyexuehuiledaishangyidiantimiandeweizhuang。

changmianjizhuanzhixiadebiandegengjiazaogao。

womeifataokaitaluozaiwoshenshangdeyanshen,

一潭死水的,

看垃圾一样的眼神。

wozaizheiyangdeyanshenlibaixiazhenlai,pingshengdiyicixiangyaoluohuangertao。

zhentongshicongxinzangkaishimanyande,jianjiandesizhidoujuedemamu。

woxiayishidehoutuilebanbu。

fangfoyoutingdaohenduonianqian,heyanzuihoukuzhechaowohandeneijuhua:

“weizhiyi,nizheizhongzaotazhenxinderenhuibudehaosi。”

shijisuideheyanmarendehuahaihenpinji,zheishenzhisuanbushangyijuzuzhou,

danquequeshishidechenglewohenduoniandemengyan。

wuyemenghuiwochangkandaoheyandelian,ailiande,haixiude,fennude,liuleide,zuizhongdinggezaihetajiandezuihouyimian,

heneijuzaimenglichuxianlehenduoci,yizhiyuwoyewangletashibushizhendeshuoguode:

“我恨你。”

xianzaizheizhanglianyouchuxianzaiwomianqian,xiangdiyusuomingdeluocha,wodalegehanzhan,

heyandemoyangkanqilaihenshijugaolinxia,

neihenmingxiandedaizhebuxiedechaonong,takanqilaixiangshizhendezaihaoqizheijianshi,yexiangshiguyixiurudewenwo:

“weizhiyi,guodehaihaoma?”