第1章
gangquanyougebuchengwendeguiding，xinguihuoyanwangsijingnianshigeaiqirumingdedaqingzhong。
keshangyishi，dangsijingnianmianduiwodedijiushijiuciyinyoudouhaowufanyingshi，wofanuzaletadeshufang，jieguobuxiaoxinpengsuiletayangmeisixinyiqinshouweitahuadeshigaowawa。
tameiyouzefawo，zhishixiaozhejiangwodeshenfenzhuxiao，qujingchajuqinshouweiwobanlesiwangzhengming。
zhihou，sijingnianjiangwomiyun，yixiayixiazaiwoshenshangtumanshigao，
tazaiwoerbianwenroushuodao：“yunsheng，wojilenishoufufurendeshenfen，kenitaibuzhizu，jingrandasuilexinyijiwotudeshigaowawa。”
“jiranzheiyang，rangwozuoyigerentishigaojixinyiwanwan。”
zuihou，wohunshenbeitumanshigao，zhixiersi。
zaizhengyan，wohuidaodijiushijiuciyinyousijingniandeneiyitian。
zheiyici，wozhongyuyishinengrangsijingnianyouyinyudeneigerenbushiwo。
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dangwozaiyiciyouyishishi，zhengzhanzaisijingniandeshufangmenwai。
wobenxiangzhe，zheiyicisijingnianzaicijujue，wobianyishoujiangtadizaiqiangshang，yishouqinzikaoshangtadeshuangshou，rangtawufazhaojia，zhijiebawangyingshanggong。
danwushugekebudehuiyiyixiaziyongjinnaodai，wohedeshouruan。
jieguoquejingdonglezaishufangdesijingnian。
tajiangshufangmenlakai，yanshenyansuqieweinudao：“ruanyunsheng，woshuodehenqingchule，wotianshengwuyuwuqiu，wulunshichuandezaixinggan，wodoubuhuidayingni。”
wokanzhemianqiandenanrenyouxiehuanghu，mingmingtajilewogangchengzuilongzhongdehunlixianchang，jiwodingzhishangyidehunsha，youqinzisanbuyikoushouweiwoqiupinganfu。
kezaoyushangyishi，wocaizhenzhengyishidaotaxinliaiderenshitadeyangmeisixinyi，shitazuibunengaideneigeren。
erwo，zhibuguoshiyikuaizhezhuliangrendezhexiubu。
woyanhanleihua，mianduisijingniandezhize，qiangcheleyimoxiaohuidata：“wozhidaole，yihouzaiyebuhuizuozheizhongchunshile。”
shuowan，wozaitaimoushi，wokandaolesijingnianyanliyishanerguodechayi，suizhierlaideshiyandidandandenuyi。
zaiwozhuanshenzhiji，yizhidashouturanyibazhuaizhuwodegebo，erbianshisijingniandichenercixingdesangyin：“yunsheng，qingniyihoubuyaobaifeiliqi，wotianshengqingyudan。”
情欲淡？
shizhendeqingyudan，haishizhishiduiwodanni？
xiayimiao，woquetingdaobuyuanchuchuanlaiyishunjiandeshanguangdengliang，bansuizheturuqilaidekacasheng，wochaozheneibianmengdikanqu。
zhijiansixinyishoulinazhezhaoxiangjizhengduizheshenchuanxinggandewo，xiaodetianzhencanlan。
tadeshengyinruciwenrou，danshuodemeiyizidouzhazaiwodexintou：“saosao，nizheidabankezhenxinggan，kegegeshibuhuixihuande。”
pashisijingnianbasixinyibaohudetaihao，tashangqianyibazhezhutadeyanjing，yuqichongnidao：“xiaohaizibunengkanzheixie。”
suihoutalianseyichen，duizhewochimayiju：“ruanyunsheng，nichuanzheimeshaohaipaochulaiganshenme？haibuqufangjianlihuanyifu。”
kebudengwohuida，sixinyiqueturanguzuoshengqidao：“gege，niganmaduisaosaoneimexiongni。”
hualuohou，tayangqixiaorongzoushangqianyibaqianzhuwodeshou。
“saosao，nizheiyanghenhaokan，keximeirenaikange。”
wodexingedengyixia，mianduixiaodecanlandenvren，xinzhongqueyongqiyizhennuyi，youxiediaokandao：“meimeidongshenme，nihaishigeweichujiadexiaoguniang，ziranshibudongfuqizhijiandeqingqu。”
ruanyunshenglianseyibian，yandidaizheyisihenlibandengzhewo。
zaizhunbeizhuanshenhuifangjianshi，quetingdaosixinyiyincecedichuanlaiyiju：“saosao，keshigegexinlizhiyouwoya。”
xiayimiao，tayibazhuaizhuwodeshouwan，henhenwangzijilianshangshuaishangyibazhang。
suijibansuizheyishengcanjiao，sijingnianjianzhuangchongshanglaihenhenjiangwotuidao，etouquemengranzhuangdaoqiangshang，xianxuezhiliu......
taqideyanquanfahong，leitingdanuzhizhewodama：“niyoujitiaominggandata！”
etouchuchuanlaidetengtongganshunjianmanyanzhiquanshen，wotengdehunshenzhandou，taimoushi，xianxueheleihuzhuleshixian，keyinyuhaishikandaolesijingnianneizhangbaonudeshenqing，hesixinyineifudeyidezuilian。
shihou，sijingnianhengbaosixinyiquleyiyuan。
worenzhuxindidenanguo，huanhuancongqiangbianzhanqilai，huanghuxiahuidaolefangjiannei。
fangjianli，womanmanjiangshixiannuodaosijingniansongwodelanzuanxianglianshang，haiyoushangyidedingzhihunsha，zuihoudingshangleneizhangtasanbuyikoushouweiwoqiulaidepinganfushang。
wohuanhuanzoushangqian，turanshouyangjiangpinganfuchaikai。
dunshi，wowozhupinganfudeshouhenhenyidou。
yizhanghuangsefuzhishangqueheranxiemanlesangezi—sixinyi。
shitachongaiyoujia，baiqiubiyingdeyangmeisixinyi。
cishicike，woxinzanggenbeishenmegelieyiyang，tengdesixinliefei。
yushiwochongdaohuazhuangtaishang，zhaodaoleneitiaojiazhibufeidexiangliandeanchu，kezhesixinyidemingzi。
dingzhileshangyihunshadeneice，yongbaisixiuzhesixinyidemingzisuoxie。
zheiyike，woxiaolexiao，yanliquemeiyouyisiwendu，mouzhongdeguangliangfangfozaiyishunjianyinmiele。
banshanghou，wojiyizhizaiyuandidengwodezhumaluzhiyuandaqudianhua：“zhiyuan，woyaolihunle，yigeyuelengjingqihou，laigangchengjiewo，wojiani。”