第一章

wojiaoyesangsang,shiyigeyongyougonglvenanzhuxitongdegonglvezhe。

yiwaibaolushenfenhou,nanzhuluhenianhenwoxinongletadeganqing,bawoguanzaichangnianbujiantianridedixiashi。

到如今,已经五年。

gangbeiqiujindeyiliangnian,luhenianhaihuishichanglaidixiashikanwo。

meicitadouhedelanzui,shuangyanchihongfalefengyiyangdewenwo,shuoyuanwo。

qingxingzhihouyouyishengbuhangdelikai,congbuduojiwoyigeyanse。

yinianyouyinian,luhenianlaidixiashidecishuyuelaiyueshao。

xianzaishiwojueshixunsidedisantian。

chenzhongdetiemen“zhiya”dakai,womeikan,yezhidaoshilaijiwosongfandexiaren。

dongledongganliedezuipi,woxuruokaikou:“badongxifangzaineiba,wobuxiangchi。”

yidaodichendaizheyunnudeshengyinzhouranzaiwotoudingxiangqi:“nishixiangjueshi,silezhihouhaolikaiwo?”

woyizheng,zheicaijiangshijiaodeyanshenzhongju,ceshenkandaoleluhenian。

luheniandemouziheidexiangshenyuan,xiangshiyaobawowanquantunshidaijin。

cengjingtakanwoshi,yandimanshishengmanhuoyanbanchiredeaiyi,rujinquezhishengxiakegudeyanzeng。

shicongshenmeshihoukaishide?

我想起来了。

wunianqian,wohetadehunlidangtian,jiaohuanjiezhineiyike。

luhenianxinghongzheyan,nachuyizhangwoxiemanzidefeizhi,hongzheyanwenwo:“yesangsang,suoyizheishiniandeganqing,nidouzaipianwo?”

neifeizhishang,mimimamashiwodeziji。

[luhenianzhishiwodegonglveduixiang。」

[我不喜欢他。]

neishiwozaigonglvetadeguochengzhong,zairenwuheganqingzhijianzhengzhashiyonglaitixingzijide。

taxinghongdeshuangmoucitonglewo,wogenglesheng,rushidadao:“shi,woshipianleni,danwoyeaishangleni。”

wocongmeixiangguo,wohuizhendeaishangluhenian。

taweiwomaixiacbdxieziloushushangwomingzishi,womeidongxin。

tajiangmingxiasuoyouzichanzhuanyidaowomingxiashi,womeidongxin。

kedangtajiwoguixia,nachuyongqinshoubianzhidegouweibajiezhishi,wodongxinle。

congxiaoguerchushendewo,congmeidedaoguoneimeduodeaiyidewo,zenmenengbuaita。

keshineitian,wodiyicicongtadeyanshenzhongkandaolezengehejuewang:“neinigaosuwo,renwuwanchengzhihou,nishibushijiuhuilikai!”

我好想说我想留下。

keshimeiyourenheyiligonglvechenggongzhihou,hainengjixuliuzaiweimianshijiedexianli。

wodechenmogongpoleluhenianzuihouyidaoxinlifangxian,tachedidefengle。

taqinshouhuidiaolewohetadehunli,yeshouhuileduiwodesuoyouxinren。

wobenyiweiluhenianhentoulewo,yijingbuzaihuwodesihuo,dantingtaxianrujindeyuqi,haoxianghaishimeiyouyaofangguowodeyisi。

woyanshenkongdongdeyanshenluozailuhenianlianshang,rangchenmodaitiwohuida。

xiangzheiyanghuozhe,haiburusile。

jiangchipianke,tamoranshenchushou,henhenqiazhewoxianshoudebojing。

wobiedemanliantonghong,luhenianquezaiwojuliedekesoushengzhongchaonongdikaikou:“yesangsang,nixiuxiangjiuzheimerongyisile。”

tasongkaiwodebojing,qianzhuwoxiahe,zhuaqiwanlifancai,qiangxingguanjinwozuili。

renyouwozhengzhadoubukenbaxiu。

zhidaowanlifancaijiandi,tazhongyutingxia,taiqiwodexiabaposhiwokanxiangta。

luhenianyoushendemouneixunsudianranliangculieyan,neihuo,sinu,siyu,keshengyinshayayoudaizhedianweiqu:“sangsang,wohaoaini,kuaishuoniyeaiwo,niyongyuandoubuhuilikaiwo。”

wokanzhetarijianxiaoshou,baiyihuanheiyi,pianzhibaoli、manyanxuesideyangzi。

jibiantaguanlewowunian,tazheiju“wohaoaini”haishinengrangwodexindixue,wohaishihuidongrong。

huoxuzhiyaoshuochuzheijuwohaiaini,wohetadoukeyihuidaocongqian,woxidonglechun:“henian,wo………”

“zhiya”tiemenshengxiang,yidaoqingkuainvsheng,gaizhulewoshuohuadeshengyin。

“henian,yuanlainizhendezaizhei。”

woxunshengwangqu,zhijianyigenvrenzoulejinlai。

tachuanzhewocengjingzuiaidequnzi,congyinyingzhongzouchu,neizhanglianheranyuwozhangdeyimoyiyang。