第1章 生不如死

niyoushengburusideshihouma?

我有,且正在经历。

yigeduoyueqian,wotufaexinheoutu,quyiyuankanchangweikequebeizhenduanchuhuaiyun。

womengleyixia,wocongweihenanyouyueguojie,zenmehuihuaiyunni?

肯定是医生弄错了!

weileyanzheng,wolimahuanlejiayiyuan,jieguohaishiyiyangdezhenduan。

怎么会……

wochedihuangle,shuangtuiyiruantandaozaidi,shoulibobodebaogaodanyeruqianjinzhongyiban,yidumeinawen。

duanzandezhenjingguohou,wobizijilengjingxialai。

wanshiyouguobiyouyin,jiranzhendehuaileyun,neikendingyouyuantoukesu。

woweiyiyicihenanyouliushuchengguoye,shizaisigeyueqiandeqixiqingrenjie。neiwanwoheduolejiuduanlepian,diertianzaijiudianxinglai,dantabiaoshihenzunzhongwo,bingmeichenrenzhiweizhanyouwo。

woxinyiweizhen,xianzaixianglaishitapianlewo。

woyouyuanyounao,danhaodaishitiaoming,woyeailiushucheng,zhinengyuanliangtadexiaoxinjiyuzhijiehunle。

wodangjiquzhaota,qiliaotakanwanyunjianbaogaojiuliansedabianshuomeipengguowo,yiwobeipantaweiliyou,shuowanfenshoujiuxiaoshidewuyingwuzong,renpingwofanbianzhengzuochengshi,doumeimidetadexialuo。

rujin,kanzherijianlongqideduzi,woxinhuiyileng,youyuanyoupa。

yuandeshizijiyouyanwuzhu,yiqiangzhenxintuofucuoleren,padeshiduzifuyanghaizidejingjiyuyulunyali。

yifanzhengzha,wozuolequyiyuandejueding,paiduijiaofeishishoujitiaochuyitiaomoshenghaomadeduanxin——

“xiangzhidaohaizishisheidema?xiangdehuasusulaixiangtandajiudian,1102haofang。”

jiudianmingzihefanghao,shenshencitonglewo。

qixiqingrenjieneiwan,liushuchengjiushizaineilixunuohuiaiwoyishengyishide,kehendeshitadelebianyijiufanlianburenzhang。

woshifenquedinghaizishitade,zheiduanxinshitashuadehuazhao,kenengshihouhuilexiangfuhe。

wobushirenrenzhaozhijilaihuizhijiqudewanwu,zheizhongzhananbuzhideliulian,jishizhisuncaishishangshangce。

jiandinglequshedejuexin,kuailundaowoshiduziturandonglexia,sihushihaizizaishuotabuxiangsi,taxianghuo。

心一下子就软了。

haizishiwugude,quyitangba,ruguoliushuchengqueshihuigaile,jiukanzaihaizidemianshangjitagehuitoudejihui,yejihaiziyigehuoxialaideqiji。

xiangdaozheierwolikaiyiyuan,lanlechuzuchelaidaojiudianfangjian,taishouqiaomenshipiejianmenshixuyanzhede,wotuikai:“liushucheng。”

没人应。

chuanglianladehenyanshi,yemeikaideng,zhiyoukaizhededianshifachuweiruodeguang。

woxinxiabuman,zheisuotousuowei、bierbujiandexingwei,shidaoqiandetaidu?

naizhexingziyoujiaolesheng,haishimeirenying。

laidelushangyouduoqidai,cikejiuyouduoshiwang——

zhenshifubuqideadou,yikaobuzhudeliushucheng,shiwotaishataitianzhen,caihuiyingeduanxinjiuduitayousuoqidai,kexitajinshigelianzhengmiandaoqiandeyongqidoumeiyoudenanren。

weiqu、nanguodeqingxuyiyongershang,zaiwoyouyushizhuanshenlikai,haishijinquwengeqingchumingbaishi,wuneituranchuanlainvrendeshengyin。

xueyeshunjianchongshangnaohai,zheigeliushuchengzhenshiqirentaishen,tayagenmeixiangdaoqian,ershidaishangxinhuanlaixiuruwo!

wogubushangsanqiershiyile,zhijiechonglejinqu,kechuangshangquekongkongruye。

zhengnamenshi,shenhouyouchuanchunanrendemenheng。

woshunzheshengyinzhuanguotou,dianshijilibukanrumudehuamianzhuangruyanlian。

wowuxinxinshang,naohailizhiyouyigexiangfa,liushuchenggangcaizaizheilibiankansuqideneirongbiandengwo,zhishidengdaoyibanhouhuile,youlinzhentaotuole。

zheiyitian,wochengshouletaiduochongji,zhijuedeyizhenxinfanqimen,xiangchuqutoutouqishiwuyipielepingmuyiyan,wangwaimaidetuiyoumanmanshoulehuilai。

pingmulidefangjianbuzhi,haoxianghezheijiudiandeyimoyiyang……dengdeng,zenmelimiandenvrenyehewozhangdejixiang?

woxinzhanlexia,coujinyikan,jingtoucongnvrendelianluodaoxiongqiandezhishang,weizhi、daxiaodouyuwoyimoyiyang,erpaisheriqi,zhengshiqixiqingrenjieneitian。

我心一颤。

yourenpaixialewoshangcizhujiudianshideneirong?

gangzheiyangxiangzhe,jingtoutiaodaolenanrenlianshang。

nanrendelianbeidashanglemasaike,kegeboshangmeiguituandewenshenzaigaosuwo,tabushiliushucheng……