xiongqiangliyizhongmoshengde、guofenyoulidexintiaoshengbawozaxing。
dong。dong。dong。chenhuan，youli，zhendeermofameng。
不对。
womengdizhengkaiyan，ruyanshixiantiaolenglidehuisetianhuaban，bijianyingraozheyiguqingliedexuesongqixi，wanquanbushiwoneigeduimanwanou、daizhediantianninaiyouweidechuzuwu。
shentideganjuegengbudui。chenzhong，gugejianying，meiyicunjiroudouyunzangzhewobushuxidebaofali。wotaishou，xiangrouroufazhangdeejiao，yingruyanliandequeshiyizhinanrendeshou。zhiguxiuzhangfenming，wangutuchu，pifushilenggandebaise，zhijiaxiujiandeyisibugou。
这不是我的手。
konghuangxiangbingshuiyiyangshunjianyanmeitouding。womengdizuoqishen，sirongbobeicongshenshanghualuo，luchujilifenmingdexiongtanghe……pingtande、shuyunanxingdequti。
“啊——！”
yishengduancudejingjiaokazaihoulongli，fachudequeshidichenweiyadenansheng。
woliangundaipadichongxianeizhangdadelipudechuang，chijiaocaizaibingliangdedibanshang，diediezhuangzhuangpujinwoshifudaidejudaxishoujian。dengguangganyingliangqi，canbaideguangxianshunjianzhaoliangyiqie。
jingzili，shiyizhangnanrendelian。
lunkuoshenke，meigutouxiadandandeyinying，bilianggaoting，bochunminchengyitiaoquefawendudezhixian。yanjingshishentanyiyangdehei，cikezhengyinweijizhidejingkongerweiweizhengda，xieluchuyisibushuyuzheizhangliandehuanghuo。
zheizhanglian，wozaicaijingzazhiheyulebandehuabianxinwenlijianguowushuci。
陆沉。
neigeduoduojiaojinrongquanjiuyaodousandou，chuanwenzhonglengkuboqing、shouduanhenlideshangjiedalao。
wotaishou，jingzilideluchenyetaishou。woqiazijidelian，jingzilidetalianshangchuxiantongyangdedongzuo，chuganzhenshidekepa。
不是梦。
我真的变成了陆沉。
nei……woni？wodeshentini？
judadexuanyunganxilai，woyibachengzhubinglengdexishoutai，zhijieyonglidaofabai。jiuzaizheishi，waimianketingchuanlaiyishengjianruidaobianxingdejianjiao，shuxidelingwomaogusongran——neishiwozijideshengyin！
wojihushichuaikaixishoujiandemenchongchuqude。
ketingjida，jijiandezhuangxiufenggetouzheyizhongmeiyourenqidebingleng。cike，yigechuanzhewoneijianzhoubabacaomeituanshuiyi、dingzhewoneizhangliande“nvren”，zhengshoujiaobingyongdicongneizhangkanqilaiguideherendeshafashanggunxialai，jingkongwanzhuangdidingzhezijideshou，youmomozijidexiong，zuihoufachuyilianchuanyuwuluncide、shuyuwodeshengyindewuyan。
“wo”yitaitou，kanjianchongchulaide“luchen”，yanlidejingkongshunjiandadaodingfeng，mengdihoutui，xiaotuikezaichajishang，tongde“ta”ziyaliezui，quehaishiqiangchengzhejuqiyigeshuijingyanhuigang，shengyinfadou：“ni……nishishei？niduiwozuoleshenme？！zheishishenmezhenggujiemuma？！”
zheihuamiantaiguiyile。kanzhezijidelianzuochurucichunmengyoujingkongdebiaoqing，haiyongwodeshengyinshuozheshahua。
woshenxiyikouqi，shituyongzheijushentidedichensangyinrangzijitingqilaizhendingyidian：“bayanhuigangfangxia，taozhenzhen。kanqilai……womenyudaolediankexuewufajieshidezhuangkuang。”
“taozhenzhen”sangezisihuchuozhongleguanjian。
“wo”jiangzhule，juzheyanhuigang，yanjingdengdeliuyuan，shangxiadaliangzhe“luchen”，banshang，cainanyizhixindi、xiaoxinyiyidishitan：“……lu……zong？”
shifenzhonghou，womenmianqianggaoqingchulezhuangkuang。
bushizhenggu，bushizuomeng。woheluchen，zaigezishuileyijuezhihou，haowuzhengzhaodihuhuanleshenti。
wo，taozhenzhen，yigezhengzhazaiwenbaoxianshangdeshibaxianxiaoyanyuan，cikezhuzaileluchenjiazhiyiwandedingshegongyuli，dingzhetayimibajiu、kuanjianzhaiyaodeshenti。
erta，luchen，neigechuanwenzhongyigexiaoshinengjuedingshangyizijinliuxiangdenanren，xianzaibeikunzaiwoyimiliuwu、weileshengdachefeijingchangpaodeqichuanyuyudeshentili，chuanzheqiqiudeshuiyi，yilianshijiemorijianglindebiaoqing。
womenmianmianxiangqu，kongqilimimanzhehuangmiuhejuewang。
tadeshoujixiangle，shiwodejingjirenlanjie，sangmendadejishimeikaimiantiyeqingxikewen：“taozhenzhen！nisinaerqule！shangwujiudianguanggaoshijingniwangle？！ganjinjiwogunguolai！zuihouyigedaodebierentiaoshengxiadejiaosedoubuyao！”
jihutongshi，wodeshoujiyexiangle，shitaneigeyisibugoudetezhuzhoumingdeshengyin，gezhedianhuadounengganshoudaoneifengongjinghegaoxiao：“luzong，zaohuideziliaoyizhunbeituodang，cheyizailouxia。lingwai，lin**neibianxunwenninjinwanshifouyoukonggongjinwancan。”
我们再次对视。
takanzhewo（tadelian），liansetieqing。
wokanzheta（wodelian），mianwurense。
“shijing？”“ta”deshengyinjianxi，daizheyizhongguiyideniuqu。
“wancan？”“wo”deshengyindichen，chongmanmangran。
地狱，这就是地狱。
luchenyongwodeshentiqushijingle。dangran，meicheng。
ju（beiposhouzaidianhuapangdengdaihuibaode）woshuo，tadingzhewodelian，yongtaguanchangde、kaihuixunchigaoguandebinglengyuqipingjiadadangnanyanyuan“yanjifukuadexiangliezhiwutaiju”，chenggongqizouledaoyanhetouziren，haichadianrangwobeilanjiedangchangsile。
erwo，yongtadeshentiqucanjialeneigezaohui。
judadetuoyuanxinghuiyizhuobianzuomanlejingying，touyingpingshangshanshuozhetianshuyiyangdequxianheshuju。tezhuzhoumingjiang“wo”yindaozhuwei，gongjingdidishangziliao。
wozuoxia，ganjue**xiadeyizidouzaitangren。
“luzong，guanyushanggejidudeshichangzhanyoulvbodong，ninkan……”yigegaoguanxiaoxinyiyidifayan。
wobengzhelian，muguangfangkong，nulihuixiangluchenpingshikanrenshineizhongmeishenmewenduqueyapoganshizudeyanshen，hanhudi“ng”leyisheng。
quanchangjingmo，suoyourendouzaideng“wo”dexiawen。
lenghanshunzhewode（luchende）jibeiwangxiahua。woshenxiyikouqi，mofangzhetaneizhongmeishenmeqifudediaodiao：“shuojutidian。”
neigaoguanmingxianyeleyixia，caigengxiaoxindikaishichanshu。
zhenggehuiyi，wojihuquanchengbanyanrenxinglipai，kao“ng”、“jixu”、“shujuzhicheng”、“zaiyi”zheijigecihunongleguoqu。jieshushi，ganjuexiangpaoleyichangmalasong，linghundoukuaicongzheijugaodadeshentilixutuochulai。
这还不算完。
wanshang，wobeipoyongluchendeshenti，qufuneiweilin**deyue。
yijiaxuyaotiqiansangeyueyudingdefashicanting，dengguangaimei，xiaotiqinshouzaipangbianyiyiyaya。lin**mingyandongren，yanshenxiangdaizhegouzi，yanyujianquanshitiaodouheshitan。
“luzongzuijinhaoxiangyoudianbuyiyangle。”taqiezheniupai，xiaoyinyindikanzhewo。
wo（dingzheluchendelian）nulixiangbaniupaiqiechengjunyundexiaokuai，quezongjuedezheishuangshoubutingshihuan，daochachadianfeichuqu：“……youma？”
“biandegeng……qinhele？”taqingxiao，“yiqianninkebuhuizheimezhuanzhudi……ng，yanjiuniupai。”
**xiaoliangsheng，liandoukuaijiangle。qinhe？luchenzhidaowoyongtadeshentizheimediurenma？
shoujizaikoudailizhendong，shi“wo”（luchen）falaideduanxin，yanjianyigai，hetaderenyiyanglengying：【bingxiangkongle，maidianchidehuilai。yaosuannai，yuanwei。】
wokanzheduanxin，youkankanduimianfengqingwanzhongdelin**，yigumomingdefanzaoyongshanglai。wozaizheilititayingfutaohua，tadaohao，zaiyongwodeshentiguangchaoshi？
【zaimang。zijidianwaimai。】wofeikuaidihuiguoqu。
【nideyinxingkaedubugou。】tahuidegengkuai。
【……】
wobiezheyikouqi，zhaolaishizhejiezhang，zailin**cuoedemuguangzhong，jichuzuihouyigejiangyingdeweixiao：“baoqian，lin**，turanyoudianjishi。”
zhuaqixizhuangwaitaojihushiluohuangertao，shenhouhainengganshoudaoneidaonanyizhixindezhuoreshixian。
kaichehuidaogongyu，shoulilinzheyidaichaoshimailaidesuannaihesudongjiaozi，wojuedezijixianggehuangmiudesonghuoshangmenfuwuyuan。
dakaimen，dingzhewoneizhangliandeluchenzhengwozaishafali，baozhewodebijibendiannao，meitoujinsuo。kanjianwojinlai，tataiqiyanpi，lengdandisaoleyiyanwoshoulidedaizi：“taimanle。”
neiguhuoqizhongyuyabuzhule。
wobadaiziwangdishangyireng，suannaihebengtiaoleliangxia：“luchen！nishikeerzhi！wobushinideyongren！nikankanxianzaizheidoujiaoshenmeposhi！”
taheshangdiannao，zhanqishen。yongzhewoneijujiaoxiaodeshenti，yanshenqueyijiushijugaolinxiadeshenshi：“kongzhinideqingxu。xianzaidahoudajiaodeshiwodelian，diudeshiwoderen。”
“nideren？neinilaia！”woqidekoubuzeyan，“niqugennidelin**diaoqinga！niqukainineijianguidezaohuia！pingshenmewoyaozaizheilitinishouzui！”
tachenmodikanzhewo，yanshenlimeishenmebolan，querangwoshunjianyahuo，zhishengxiaxiongqiangjuliedeqifu。
anjingli，zhiyouwomenlianggeren……bu，shidingzhebicipinangdelianggeren，cuzhongyoumoshengdehuxisheng。
liangjiu，taxianyikaimuguang，zouguoqu，wanyaojianqidishangdesuannai，yuqipingdanwubo：“mingtianniyouyigewenxi。”
我愣住了。
“wotuibule，nidejingjirenrenweizheishigezhongyaojihui。”tasikaisuannaigai，yuqixiangzaishuomingtiandetianqi，“nixuyaogaosuwo，gaizenmeyan。”
我：“……”
杀了我就现在。