第四章心碎的感觉！
luyingxiangzuomengdoumeiyouxiangdao，zijipanleliuniandeyingzi，juranhuizaizheiyike，chuxianzaizheili！
chuxianzaixiaomilidebingchuangqian！
yangzihaishineigeyangzi，zhishidaoxuebangangyidelianshang，chengshufengshuanglebushao。
xianglaizaibianguan，yidingchilebushaokuba！
luyingxiangchaozhechenlingxiao，mengdipuleguolai。
zheiliunianlai，tayoutaiduohua，yaoduizhangfusushuole。
然而......
啪！！！！
yidaoxiangliangdeerguangsheng，zaianjingdebingfangzhong，moranzhaxiang！
bazhang，luodaoleluyingxiangdelianshang。
luyingxiangwuzhelian，daizhule！
tacengjinghuanxiangguowushuci，zaicijiandaochenlingxiaoshideyangzi。
huoxuhuihentianmi，huoxuhuihenxinsuan，huoxuhuipingdanwubo，qiansubieli。
keshi，luyingxiangwanwanmeixiangdao，liunianhoudediyicijianmian，huishiyigeerguangdewenhou。
“nihejiubushiguominma？weishenmehaigaodeyishendejiuqi？”
“nizhidaoxiaomilizaoshoulezenyangdezhemoma？nihaiyouxinsizaiwaimianhebiedenanrenhuatianjiudi？”
“liunianlai，yinweiwobeishiwuchanshenwufacongbianguantuoshen，woshiduibuqini，rangnimenniangliangshouleku。”
“woyeyunxuniduibuqiwo，nijiusuanlikaiwo，woyebuhuiyourenheyuanyan。”
“danshi，niduideqixiaomilima？nimenxinziwen，nipeidangyigemuqinma？？”
“xiaomilibeirencongyiyuandaizoulesantian！santiana！！！nizhidaotazenmeguodema？”
chenlingxiaochaxiaomilidejiuzhenjilu，jiuzhidaolexiaomilizaozaisantianqian，jiubeirendailileyiyuan。
erluyingxiangquemeiyousihaochajue，zheiyeshichenlingxiaofennudeyuanyinzhiyi。
luyingxiangwuzhelian，yanquanmengrantonghong，zhangzuixiangyaojieshiyixia，keyoubuzhidaogairuhejieshi，yishijianxinluanruma，rutongdaojiao。
“xiaomilita......tazenmele？tabushiyizhongzaizhuyuanma？woyerangrenzhaogulede。”
chenlingxiaoshengyinbinghan：“xiaomilirangrenweiganshui，rangrenjianta！rangrenyongegousiyao！nikankantadeshangkou！！”
xiangqizijichujiannvershidecanzhuang，chenlingxiaoxinzhongdenuyanjiuyizhibuzhudeshengteng。
qingqingxiankaiyidianshangkou，rangluyingxiangkan。
“啊！”
luyingxiangxianshiyileng，jinjiezheshuangmuyuandeng，yanleishuadiduokuangerchu。
“bu！zenmehuizheiyang，wo......wobatafangzaiyiyuan，haiqinglehugongkanhude，wo......”
chenlingxiaoyinweifennu，tingbujinqurenhejieshi：“xianchuqu，buyaochaodaota。”
......
yiyuanzoulangshang，denghuolanshan。
luyingxiangzuozaizhangdengshang，butingchuilei。
nayoumuqinbuaizijidenver，ketazhendeshiyoukushuobuchu。
tebieshikandaoliunianweijiandezhangfulengliyanshen，tadexinjiuzaidixue。
“不要哭了。”
chenlingxiaodianranyizhiyan，jiangqixijinlefeili，ranhoutuchuyanwu，shengyinpingdan。
“laogong，nitingwojieshihaoma？wozhisuoyilikaiyiyuan，meiyoukanhuhaoxiaomili，yeshiqubangxiaomilixiangbanfa。tabannianqianjianchachulexinzangbing，zhenggejiuyuandoushushouwuce。”
chenlingxiaoningshiluyingxiang：“xiangbanfa？xiangchuleyishendejiuqi？”
“xiangbanfaxiangdao，rangxiaomilibeirendaizoulesantian，nidoumeiyourenhechajue？meiyoulaikanguotayiyan？”
“nikecengxiangguo，nizaiwaimianhejiuxiaodezuikaixindeshihou，jiushixiaomilizuitongkudeshihou！！”
“wochengrenwobupeidangfuqin，woliuniandouweicenghuilaijianguotayimian！”
“dannigengbupeidangmuqin！”
“luyingxiang，liunianlaiwowushucidexiangguo，huilaizhihouyongwosuoyoudeyiqiemibuduinidekuiqian。keshinidesuozuosuowei，zhendehennanrangwobaochizheigexiangfa。”
“niruguohenwo，qingniduiwobiaoxianchulaihaoma？chongwolaia！！erbushiduiwokeliandenverbuguanbugu！！”
“yihou，xiaomilideyiqiesuoyoushiqing，douyouwolaifuze。”
“dengtaxinglaizhihou，zaijuedinggenzheshei。”
luyingxiangmengrantaitou，zheishiyaojuedinghezijijueliema？
六年了！
liunianqian，chenlingxiaoshenshouzhongshang，zaisuoyourenyanli，shiyigeyiwushichudefeiren！weilehechenlingxiaozaiyiqi，talikaijiazu，buxihejiarenduanjueguanxi。
kexi，liunianhou，denglaidequeshizheiyangdejiejuma？
manhuaiqidai，jiuzheimelangbeishouchang？
luyingxiangneixinwuweizachen。
tongku，huihen，bugan......
fenzhitalai，queyourufuguzhiquban，kenshizheluyingxiangdexinzang，rangluyingxiangtongbuyusheng。
beishangdaoleyidingdechengdu，qishishimeiyouyanleide。
jiuhaoxiangxianzaideluyingxiang。
tafaxian，nongyudetongkubeishang，rangyanleiniliujinlexinli，huazailianshang，queshiyizhongjiejinshishendeluomoyupingjing。
“wodengleniliunian，denglaidejiushijuebieshima？”
chenlingxiaoganggangshibeifennusuoji，xianzaitafennushaoshaofanghuan，rujinjiandaolechaosimuxiangleliuniandenvzi，rucitongbuyushengdeshentai。
rangchenlingxiaodexinzangyefangfobeiluyingxiangdeyanshen，cidexianxuelinli。
“我......”
“nibuyongshuole。”luyingxiangsizichaosijuewangdexiaolexiao。
“womeiyounixiangxiangdeneimebukan，fangzhexiaomilibuguanquheqitananrenyuehui。xiaomilideshiqingwoyehuixiangbanfa，shijieshangbingbuzhiyouniyigerenaita。”
“ruguoniduiwoshiwang，ruguonideshengmingzhongcongcibuhuanyingwo，wohuiguaiguaidexiaoshi。”
shuodaozheili，luyingxianghuanhuanqishen，chaochenlingxiaoweiweijuleyigong：“duibuqi，laogong......bu，chenxiansheng。rangniqiangualeliunian。shiwobupei。”
shuowan，luyingxiangzhuanshen，haoxiangyijubeihuoshengshengchouganlelinghundemuou，shunzhezoulang，chaoyiyuanwaizouqu。
chenlingxiaokanzheqizidebeiying，shashijian，wangridezhongzhonghuiyi，fuguanglveyingbanzhuishaerzhi！
liunianqiandeyipinyixiao，liunianlaidechaosimuxiang，tongshishajinletadenaohaizhong！
jiangzheigenanrenlengrupanshidexinzang，hongranjisui！
“nandaoshiwowuhuitale？haishiwobugouxinrenta？”
chenlingxiaozhanzaizoulangwai，zhongyuchaoluyingxiangdanbodeshenying，kuaibuzouleguoqu......