第3章劝慰
fangjianxianruyipiannongzhongdeheian，weiyouchaxianbanshangneiyisilansedezhishideng
weiweishanshuo，rutongshenyuanzhongweiyideyidianhuxi，quefanerrangzheipianchenjixiandegeng
jiayayi。chuangwai，yuanchugaojiaqiaoshangouerchuanlaicheliangshiguodeshengyin，fangfoyaojiao
luanzheiwubiandesiji；keshengyinganggangchuxian，youxunsubeiyesetunmei，yiqieguiyu
寂静。
liuchengfanlaifuqu，zenmeyeshuibuzhe。xinlihaiguazheneichanghewangyidezhengchao，
yuexiangyuefan，queyoukongzhibuzhudihuiyiqitazuichudemoyang，haiyoutamengaozhongshi
dediandiandidi。neixiehuamianxiangyeseyiyang，yicengcengchenjizaitaxintou，shuobuqing
chudeweiqu、kuijiu、fenmen，yiqiduzaixiongkou。
jiuzaizheishi，yishengqingcuideshouji**zhouranxiangqi，fangfolirenbanhuapole
夜晚的沉闷。
“wei，xingzhemei？pinganjingtangzoubuzou？haojiumeiqupaole，nixianzaichude
laibu？wei？wei！nigesirenkuaishuohua。”
liuchengzuoqishen，roulerouyanjing，suishoutaoshangyijianwaitao，naqicheyaochi。
“zou。”tashuo，ranhoutuimenerchu。
dalaidianhuadeshijinxinyi，liuchengduoniandelaopengyou。zheigedianhuarangtaxinli
buyouzizhudifanqiyisiweimiaodexingfen——yexushizaizheiyangyigeqiheierguji
delingchen，turanjiedaoshurenneiyanglumangzhijiededianhua，rangtafangfozhongxinchumodao
了久违的生活气息。
tamenshigaozhongtongbandesidang，jiuliangaokaoyeqiaohedikaoshangletongyisuodaxue。
neishihouyoushimeishi，liangrenjiuchangqupinganjingtangpaowenquanfangsong。neishiyijiarishiren
zaowenquan，youribenrenkaishe，zhuangxiufenggejianjieningjing，guanneiyichenburan。tazaita
mendugaozhongdeshihoujiuyijingkaiye，chengleliangrenzuichangguanggudefangsongchangsuozhiyi。
houlai，daxuebiye，liuchengzhijiejinruzhichang，erjinxinyizexuanzejixugong
duyanjiusheng。suizhegongzuojiezoudejiakuai，tamenjianmianbiandexishaole。danzheizhongduo
niandetiedajiaoqing，zaoyibuzaixuyaopinfanlianxiweixi，zhiyaoyipengmian，yijiumo
契如初。
“duyanleibuleia？nizuijinkanqilaitingqiaocuide，yemeishashijianchulai
转转。”
liuchengshuozhe，batangshuiwangzijishenshangyipo，ranhouzhenggerenyitouzhajinchizi
li。wenredeshuicongbojingyizhijinrunxialai，dapeizhehunandedengguangheshuishenghuixiang，
zongsuanrangtaganjuedaoleyisijiuweidesongchi。
“leia，zenmehuibulei？shierduodegenshanside。”
jinxinyizhanzaichibian，nazhemushaocongwenquanqianyaoshuiwangshenshangjiao。“zaozhidao
wojiubukaoyanle，xietageyinianduoshufu。”
jinxinyiheliuchengyiyang，doushineizhongmianmaoputong、shencaipianshoudenansheng。ta
daizheyifushensebiankuangdeyanjing，zhenggerenkanqilaipoyou“likexueba”deqizhi。
suiranbusuankuiwu，dantashenshangqueyouyigurangrenyiwaidebaofali，anjingshixiangge
xuesheng，yidongqilaiquedaidianruiqi。
“youshihouhuitouxiangxiang，zangaozhongneishihouqishitinghaode。”liuchengyibiankanzhe
chimianshangdereqizhengteng，yibiantanlekouqi，“neishihousuiranxuexiyalida，dan
zhishaomeineimeduofanrendeshier，meitiandeshenghuoyejiandandeduo。shuobaile，haishi
比现在快乐。”
“queshi。”jinxinyidiantou，“shangdaxuezhihouganjueshadoubianle。tiantiankannei
xieshuaigemeinvchengshuangchengduiditanlianai，zijini？jimeiyanzhiyemeishejiaoli，ji
benmeirendali，chuleshangkejiushiwosushedayouxi。ai，duile，nijiaxiaojiaoqi
最近咋样？”
“taa？ai，zuijingentazhengchaojiazheni，shuoqilaijiufan。”
“zala？weishayouchao？”
“yuanbenyuehaolexiageyueyihaoyiqiqudishinide，zhiqianshuodehaohaode，
woyezhuanmenbajiaqingxialaile，jieguotazuotianturanshuobuqule。”
“啥？
”jinxinyiweiweizhengdayanjing，“tazaturanbianguale？jinishuoyuanyin
了吗？”
“shuole。”liuchengkuxiaoyisheng，“niyezhidaotazhuixingma，xihuanneigeshenme
pozikaitoudehanguonanmingxing。zuotianzaiditieshangtajiugenwoshuo，qiangdaoletamende
xunyanmenpiao，yanchuganghaojiuzaiyihaoneitian。tashuoxingchengchongtu，gancuijiubuqudi
士尼了。”
“zheiyetaituranleba？”jinxinyimeitouzhouleqilai，“zheizhongxunyankendingzao
jiukaishiyurexuanchuanle，menpiaoyekendingtiqiankaiqiang，tabukenengdaozuotiancaizhidao
shijian。zhaolishuo，zaojiuyinggaigennidashengzhaohule。”
“shia，wodangshiyemengle。”liuchengyaozhetou，yuqidaizheyisiweiqu，
“guanjianwojiadoupile，danweiyediaohaorenshile，tabujinbujuedebuhaoyisi，
haifanguolaishuowo‘zijixiangwanjiuzijiqu’，tafanzhengshibuhuiqude。nishuozhei
jiaoshenmeshier？wobenlaijiushiweilepeitacaiqude。”
“zheijiubutaididaole。”jinxinyiyibianshizhebazijipaodegengshufuxie，yi
bianzazazui，“erqiehaishuonibineigeouxiangchadeyuan？tazhenzheimeshuo？”
“ng，shuodetingzhijiede。”liuchengkuxiao，“shuoshenme‘niyoubuhuichanggetiaowu，
youmeiposhenmedezhangdehaokan，piqiyouguai’，fanzhengyidunxianqi。woshizhenmeixiang
到她会说这种话。”
“ai……”jinxinyitanqi，“youshihounvhaiziqingxushangtoule，shuohuayebu
liuqingmian。youqiwangyineipiqi，wozhidaotayoudianjixingzi。niyebietaiwangxinli
qua，zhaogejihuihonghongta，yinggaiyenenghuanhuilai。”
“wozhidaonishiquanwo，danzhendetingnande。”liuchengditoukanzheshuimian，youxie
changran，“shuoshihua，congtakaishimishangneixiehantuanzhihou，woganjuetazhenggerendou
bianle。biandeyuelaiyuebunaifan，duiwoyemeiyiqianneimeshangxinle。womenliaotianye
shaole，chuquwantayetibuqijing，zuoshenmedouxiangshizaizougeguochang。”
“kenengshinimendoukaishimianduixianshideshenghuoleba。”jinxinyidishengshuo。
liuchengmeihuida，guolepiankecaijixushuodao：“woqishiyoushihouyehuixiang，
shibushiwozijitaiminganle。kepianpianmeicixiangqitayiqiandeyangzi，woxinlijiu
止不住地难受。”
shuishengzaierbianqingqingxiangzhe，xiangshibataxindineixienanyisushuodeqingxuyiceng
一层地剥开。
“nizhidaoma？woyoushihouzhendejuede，tayijingbuzaishiwodangchuzaiwangqiu
changdiyiciyujiandeneigenvhaile。yiqiandetatebienianren，dongbudongjiuchicu。
wohebiedenvshengduoshuoliangjuhua，tanengbukaixinyizhengtian。ketazijiqueyouhenhui
guanxinren，youshihouwozhishifage‘zhuyibaonuan’dexiaoxi，tadounengkaixinyi
晚上。”
takuxiaozheyaoleyaotou，yanshenquexiangshitouguozhengqikanjianlehenyuandeguoqu。
“wojideyouyiciwomenlianmaishuijue，wotangzaichuangshangtingzhetadehuxisheng，
jieguotazuomengshuomenghuale，shuoxiangwo。tazaimenglifanfushuolehaojigexiaoshi，wo
yigezidoubushedecuoguo，jiuzheimetingzhe，zhidaotaxinglewocaibishangyanji
续睡……”
neiyike，liuchengdeshengyindidejihuyaobeishuiqitunmeile。takanzheyinyunde
wenquanwuqi，xiangshikanzheyiduanyongyuanyehuibuqudejiushiguang。
“biexiangtaiduola，xiongdi。”jinxinyishenshoupailepailiuchengdejianbang，yuqidai
着点力道，
“tanjiuleganqingkendinghuiquyupingdan，nanengyizhihonghonglieliea？
pingpingdandancaishizhenma。huitouhonghongta，shuobudingtaxianzaijiuzaidengnidigetou、
顺顺毛呢。”
taxiaoleyixia，youbuleyiju：“doutanzheimejiule，tajiuzheipiqi，ni
zuiqingchubuguole，hainengzhenheninaobailebucheng？”
liuchengmeihuihua，zhishiyouxiefanzaodinaolenaotou，zuibaweizhang、chuanzhecuqi，
fangfopaozairequanlimenchulexiezaoyi，yexiangshinaozilibeishenmeyadetoubuguo
气来。
“zongbilinyonghaodianba？”jinxinyibayitiaotuishouqi，gebodazaixigaishang，
manyouyoudishuo：“linyonggentanvpengyoutanlehaojigeyue，daoxianzaicaijianguoyimian，
zheicaishizhendecanxixi。nizheiqimahainengchaojiani，talianchaodoumeidechao。”
“ei，shuoqilai，haojiumeijianlinyongle。”liuchengweiweiceguolian，“wozuihou
yicijiantahaishiwomengaozhongbiyeneigeshujia。houlaijiutingshuotazuochengxuyuanle，
gongzibudi，jiushileidelihai。”
“haixingba。”jinxinyiyibianshuozhe，yibianyongshouyaoqiquanshuiwangzijixiongkoushang
chong，lianshangluchuyizhongfangsongdexiangshougan，“xianzaichengxuyuantingchixiangde，youqixiang
tazheizhonggangbiyejiubeilaobanyiyanxiangzhongde，daiyukendingbucha。womeixiwentadao
dinaduoshao，dangujibuhuidi。talaobanduitayebucuo，suanshinandedemingyan
人了。”
“woshizhenyoudiantizheixiaozidanxin。”liuchengxiaolexiao，yuqilidaizhexieshuren
zhijiandedaquyugankai，“nihaibulejieta？zuorenzuoshiyigenjin，sibandebu
xing。zansagaozhongneihuier，tashizuigengzhideneige，zuiyouben，changbeibanlineibang
nvshengchaofeng，zhenyushangdianshiyebuhuifanbo，quankaonijitadayuanchang。”
jinxinyiyexiaoleqilai：“kebuma，neishihoutazhihuishazhanzhe，lianhongde
genshuxiaside。wojideyouyici，tabeijigenvshengweizhewenshenme‘nishibushi
xihuansheisheishei’，tayijuhuashuobuchulai，zuihoujideyanleidoukuaixialaile。”
“hahaha，dui！”liuchengzhongyuluchudianjiuweidexiaoyi，reqiyinyunzhong，ta
mizheyanjingkaozaichibian，“xianzaixiangxiangneishihouhaitinghaoxiaode。suiranshaba，dan
也真。”
chishuifanyongzhe，reyishengteng，baneiduansanrenshaonianshiguangdejiyi，yeyiqi
蒸了上来。
“einishuoshuo，”jinxinyituranyoudianbugandiwenliucheng，shengyinlitouzhejifen
cuobaigan，“xianglinyongneiyangdedouyounvpengyou，wozenmehaiguanggunyige？”
shuozhe，tahaiyongjiaodengleyixiashuimian，jianqiyichuanshuihua，jidizhijiejiandao
leetouhetoufashang。tataishoumolemotoufa，gunongzhejixushuo：
“你好歹还
huidadawangqiu，dangnianbujiushizaiwangqiuchanggenwangyijiedeyuanma？woni……ai，
你看看我这……”
“butanyehao，zhende。”liuchengkuxiaozheyaotou，“qimashengxindian。biexiangwo，
helingdaolaihuimolebantian，haoburongyipixialaigejia，jiuweilepeitaqutangdishi
ni，jieguohaibuqule。lianyijutiqiantongzhidoumeiyou。”
tatanlekouqi，zhuanerhuanlegehuati：“shuoqilai，womenyaobunatianzhaolin
yongyiqichigefan？haojiumeisangerenzuoxialaijujule。”
“woyezaoyouzheidasuana。”jinxinyidiandiantou，“wodouyuetahaojicile，
talaoshuomang，zuijinyejiunengshipin、dageyuyinshadecouheliaojiju。eduile，
tahaizongtishuogaitianyaobatanvpengyoujieshaojizanmenjianjian，kenengdedengchunjieyoukong
了才行。”
shuozhetashuangshoupengqiyipengwenquanshuiwanglianshangyipo，zhenggerenzhangzhangdihuchuyi
kouqi，zuilihaifachu“haa——”deshushuangshengyin——kandechulai，zaizheida
banyepaogeretang，queshitingjieya。
“neijiudengdengge。”liuchengtantanshou，wunaidishuodao。
buguotaxinlidui“chunjienengbunengzhendejushang”quebubaotaidaxiwang。suiran
zuishangdayingdeqingqiao，ketaqishiyinyinyoudiandanyou。tazongganjuelinyongzheijinianhao
xiangbianle，buzaixiangyiqianneiyanghuaduo，yebuxianggaozhongdaxueneihuieryoushadougenxiong
dimenjiang，napayidianxiaofannaodouyuanyitaoxintaofeidishuo。
tayeshiguozhudonggenlinyonglianxi，danneizhongshuxideganjuesihuyuelaiyuedanle。
liuchengyoushihouhuixiang，linyongshibushijinglileshenmebutaiyukuaideshi？huozhe，shi
bushihetaneigenvpengyouyouguan？tamensanrencengjingshenmedoushuo，xianzaiquehaoxiangge
有各的沉默。
youhuozhe，jinjinshiyinweitachenglechengxuyuan，zhendetaimangle？
liuchengxiwang，zuihaozhishizheiyang。
zhijianliangrencongwenquanchilishiluludiqishen，shenshanghaidizheshuizhu，didida
dadizoudaolinyuquchongxileyibian，suihouhuanshangdianlitigongdebaiseyupao。neiyu
paohouboshizhong，jikuansongyounuanhe，yichuanshangjiuxiangshihainengbapaotangshideredulao
laosuozaishentili，wennuandelingrenchenzui。neishiyizhongrangrenchansheng“feidaizoubuke”
chongdongdeshushigan，kepianpianjiudaibuzou，wangshangyesoubudaotongkuan，xiangshizheijianwen
quanguanduyoudeshenmishechipin。
lingchendefuwuquanjingdechuqi，ruodadekongjianlizhiyoutamenlianggejingjingtang
zaitangyishang，xiangliangzhipaowanreshui、shenxinjusongdedaxingmaokedongwu，lanyangyangdi
tanzaineier，ganshoureyihuanhuansanqusuodailaideneizhongshuobuchudemanzuheyonglan。
weiyideyihan，shizheigedianyijingmeiyou**fuwule。
jinxinyizoudaolingshizizhutaiqian，tiaolejidai**tang，younalesiwupingwang
ziniunai，baozaixiongqianxiangpengzheyiduizhanlipinsidezouhuilai，dijiliucheng。
“lai，nidetongniankuaile。”
liuchengxiaozhejieguo，yiyanjiurenchulaile。tazuixihuanzheizhongniunaile——gao
zhongneihuier，meicijinxinyiluguocaochang，tadouyaorangduifangjizijishaoshangyiping，
shuoshi“jiekeyoutishen”。rujinzaijian，jingyouzhongchuanyueshiguangdecuojue。
buguoxianzaideliucheng，zaoyibushineigekejiankuangbenyaoyinliaodeshaonianle。sui
zhenianlingzengzhang、shenghuojiezoubianhua，tadebaolichangnianfangzheyigeyinsebuxiugangbao
wenbei，limianpaodebushichayejiushigouqi，ouerhaihuijiadianrencanpianhuogancaotiao，
yifuyangshengzhongnianrendejiashi。
danzheihuier，taxiangshiwangleneixie“jiankangxuzhi”，xiaoxixididakaineiguan
hongsepingshendexiaoniunai，yangtougudonggudongheleyidakou，hedetebiemanzu，zui
jiaohaidaizhedianjiuweidetianwei。hewanhou，taxianggexiaohaisidedingzhepingzikanlekan，
youyongshouzhitouqiaoleqiaopingshen，dongzuoxiaoxinyoudaidianyishigan，jiuxiangduidaiyijianjiu
biezhongfengdebaobei，huozhemouzhongyouqudexiaogudong。
“shuoqilai，woyizhijuedelinyongneigenvpengyouyoudianqiguai。”jinxinyihuran
kaikou，yuqilidaizhexiebuan，“nibujuedema？tamenyoubushiyidilian，liang
gedouzaishangcheng，kepianpianjihubujianmian。jiusuanshiyidideqinglv，coushijianjianshang
yimianyebusuanshenmenanshiba？”
“tahenmangma？”liuchengwen，meitouweicu，“wozhizhidaotahaoxianghaizaidushu。”
“jiusuanzaimang，yebukenengbilinyonghaimangba？”jinxinyiyaoleyaotou，yanshen
略显迟疑，
“linyongshiyougongzuoderen，youshihoulianzhouzhuan，tadouyoushijiantengchu
laixiangquzhaota。dantani？jiushiburangtaguoqu，shuozijixuexiaolishierduo，tai
忙了。”
tadixiatou，sihuzaizhenzhuocuoci，dunlejimiaocaijixushuo：“ranhouwozai
duowendianshenme，tajiukaishituntuntutu，yifubuyuanduojiangdeyangzi。wokantanei
yangyejiumeizaijixuwenle，zongganjue……buhaokaikou。”
“ai……zhixiwangtabieshoushang。”liuchengqingqingtanqi，shengyindidexiangshizi
yanziyu，“linyongneiren，shuoshihua，taishizaile。tashigezhenxinshiyidehaoren，
别被谁给辜负了。”
“danyemeitingtashuoguotamenchaojiashenmede。
”jinxinyizhouzhemeitou，yuqi
kaishiyouxiejidong，“yemeitingguoneinvshengxiangtifenshoushenmede。gaobuhaoshizhende
mang？woningyuanxiangxinshizheiyang，biedaotoulaizhishigejiekou，neicairangrenwohuo。”
liuchengbashuangshoubaozainaohou，wangyibeishangyikao，zhangzhangdihuchuyikouqi：
“ai……buguanle，jiajiayoubennanniandejingba。meigerenxinlidouyoudiannanyiqi
chideshi，zanyebuhaoduochazui。”
shuowan，talakaiyipingwangziniunai，heleyikouhouyoudileyipingjijinxinyi，
liangrenmomoduishileyiyan，sheiyemeiyouzaiduoshuoshenme。
zheishihou，yijingkuailingchenwudianbanle，tianbianyinyinfanqiweiguang，danliuchengyi
diankunyiyemeiyou。tashenzhibuxianghuijia——yinweitazhidao，yidanhuiqu，jiuyao
zhongxinzoujinneigetashizhongxingrongbuqingde“huiselongzi”li，neigemeibianjie、mei
xingzhuang，queyouzhenshidelingrenzhixideshenghuozhuangtai。
tagengyuanyiliuzaizheili，napazhishiyikezhong。zheipiankedepingjing，reqishang
cundeyupao，haiyouhaoyouzaipangdechenmopeiban，sihunengweitadeneixinyanzhangyidian
点喘息的时间。
youneimeyishunjian，tadaidaididingzhetianhuabanshangneikuaibuqiyandeboliban，
fajuewaimiantianhaimeiwanquanliang。taxinlihuranshengchuyisimomingdeqiexi——haoxiang
zhiyaotianhaimeiliang，tajiuhainengwandianhuiqu，hainengzaitaoliyihuier。