weishengjianbinglengdedizhuantouguobobodezhensishuiqun，jianghanyiyisisidishenruwodegusui。wobuzhidaozijikuzuoleduojiu，zhidaoshuangtuimamu，shiqulezhijue。shouzhongdeyanyunbangzaoyibeiwozuandewenre，neiliangdaocimudehonggang，xiangyigejudadeluoyin，shenshendikezailewodeshiwangmoshang。
怀孕了。
zheigecengjingzaiwomengzhongchuxianguowushucidechangjing，cikequexiangyichangzuiedudezuzhou。
wocengwushucixiangxiang，dangwobazheigexiaoxigaosushenzichuanshi，tahuishizenyangdebiaoqing。tahuoxuhuixianshizhenjing，ranhoushiyizhibuzhudekuangxi，tahuibawobaoqilaizhuanquan，huixiaoxinyiyidifumowodexiaofu，yongtaneidichencixingdesangyin，duiwomenweichushidehaizishuodiyijuhua。
kexianzai，zheixiexiangxiangdoubianchenglefenglidebolisuipian，jiangwodexinzanggedexianxuelinli。
woshenzhinengcaidaotakenengdefanying。tahuizhoumei，huilengjingdifenxilibi，ranhouyongtayiguanlizhiershulidekouwenduiwoshuo：“wanwan，zheigehaizilaidebushishihou。womenhainianqing，yihou……”
以后？
我们没有以后了。
wogengpadeshilingyizhongkeneng。tahuiweilezheigehaizi，weileshenjiadejichengren，erxuanzeyonghunyinjiangwokunbang。tahuijiwoyichangshengdadehunli，jiwoshentaitaidetouxian，jiwoyishengdouyongbuwandecaifu，queweidubuhuijiwoai。tahuijixubawodangchengsuqingyandeyingzi，erwomendehaizi，jiangcongchushengqijiuhuozaiyigejudadehuangyanli。
不。
我绝不允许。
zheigehaizi，shiwoyigerende。shiwozaibeiquanshijiepaoqidezheigeyewan，weiyidejiushuhexiwang。
yiguqiansuoweiyoudeliliangcongwoshentishenchuyongleshanglai。taqusanlehanleng，yaxialekonghuang，rangwodetounaobiandeyichangqingxi。
wofuzheqiangbi，huanhuandizhanqishen。mamudeshuangtuichuanlaizhencibandetonggan，danwohaobuzaiyi。wozoudaojingziqian，kanzhejingzhongdeziji。
liansecangbai，yankuanghongzhong，zhangfalingluan。zheizhanglian，zheizhangbeishenzichuanailesanniandelian，cikekanqilairucimosheng，yourucikexiao。wotaishou，zhijianqingqinghuaguozijidemeigu、biliang、zuichun……zheixiedifang，douxiangjilehualidesuqingyan。
sannianlai，woweileyinghetadexihao，liulehetayiyangdezhangfa，chuanhetasongde、fenggexiangsideyifu，shenzhixuezhetahebujiatangdeheikafei。woxiangyigezhuoliedemofangzhe，yidiandiandibazijihuochenglelingyigerendemoyang，haizhanzhanzixidiyiweineishiaiqing。
linwan，nizhenshigeshagua。
woduizhejingzilideren，wushengdishuo。
weiliyoushiyizhenfanyong，woqiangyaxiaexindeganjue，zoudaoguanxitaiqian，ningkaishuilongtou，yonglengshuiyibianbiandipozailianshang。binglengde**rangwochediqingxingguolai。
kuqiheziyuanziaijiejuebulerenhewenti。
wobixulikaizheili。like，mashang。
wozouchuweishengjian，huidaoneigechongmanlewoheshenzichuanhuiyi，rujinquexianggehualilaolongdewoshi。xiongqianneitiao“xingye”xianglianluodewopifushengteng。wotaishou，yonglidichexialeta。
没有丝毫犹豫。
zuanshidelengjiaohuaguowodebojing，liuxiayidaoxiweidexuehen，woqueganjuewubiqingsong，fangfoxiexialeyifuqianjinzhongdan。wojiangxiangliansuiyidirengzaishuzhuangtaishang，tafachuyishengqingcuidexiangsheng，neikeshensuidelanbaoshizaidengguangxiashanshuozhebinglengdeguangmang，xiangyizhichaofengdeyanjing。
wolakaiyiju，limianmanmandangdang，yibanshiwodeyifu，yibanshishenzichuande。wodeneixieyifu，jihuquanshitamaide。gezhonggaodinglifu、shechipinpaidetaozhuang，meiyijiandoujiazhibufei，meiyijiandoufuhetaxinzhong“wanmeinvyou”dexingxiang。
我一件都没有碰。
wozoudaoyimaojianzuishenchu，congjiaoluolituochuyigemenglehuidexinglixiang。neishiwosannianqianbanlaizheilishidaide，limianhaizhuangzheyixiewozijidejiuyifu。
wodakaixiangzi，jiangneixiezaoyibeiwoyiwangdetxu、niuziku、fanbuxieyijianjiannachulai，diehao。zheixiecaishiwo，yuanlaidewo。
shoujizaichuangtoujushangtuwudizhendongqilai，pingmuliangqi，xianshizhe“zichuan”lianggezi。
wodexinzangmengdiyisuo，jihushixiayishidixiangyaojieqi。
danwodelizhizaizuihouyimiaolazhulewo。
wokanzheneigemingzishanshuo，xiangxiangzhedianhuaneitoutahuishuoshenme。shianfu？shijieshi？haishiyouyigehuangyan？
wulunshishenme，wodoubuxiangtingle。
worenyoushouji**zaikongkuangdefangjianliyibianbiandixiangqi，zhidaotazidongguaduan，guiyuchenji。
jimiaozhonghou，yitiaoduanxindanlechulai。
“wanwan，baoqian，jinwanshifaturan。qingyantaganghuiguo，chuledianyiwai，wosongtaquyiyuanle。nizaodianxiuxi，wochuliwanjiuhuilai。”
清颜。
tajiaodeduomeqinmiziran。
chuledianyiwai，suoyijiukeyipaoxiasanzhouniandejinianri，paoxiawo，haobuyouyudifeibenerqu。
erwo，dedaodezhishiyijuqingpiaopiaode“zaodianxiuxi”。
zheitiaoduanxin，chengleyakuawodezuihouyigendaocao。tachedifensuilewoxinzhongcancundezuihouyisihuanxiang。womeiyoufennu，yemeiyoubeishang，neixinpingjingdekepa。
wonaqishouji，jiangshenzichuandehaoma、weixin，suoyoulianxifangshi，tongtonglahei，shanchu。
ranhou，wobotonglelingyigehaoma。
dianhuajihushilikejiubeijietongle，yigefengfenghuohuodenvshengchuanlai：“linwanwan！nihaizhidaojiwodadianhua？nishibushiwanglenihaiyougeguimijiaozhoumi？”
“mimi，”wodeshengyinganseshaya，“woneng……qunineierzhujitianma？”
dianhuaneitoudezhoumilengleyixia，taminruidichajuedaolewodebuduijing。“nizenmele？shengyinzenmegenkuguoside？shenzichuanneijiahuoqifunile？”
“woxianzaibuxiangshuo，”woshenxiyikouqi，nulirangzijideshengyintingqilaipingwenyixie，“nifangbianma？woxianzaijiuguoqu。”
“fangbian！dangranfangbian！wodegouwoyongyuanweinichangkai！nidengzhe，wojinibakefangshoushichulai！budui，nishuiwochuangshang，woqushuishafa！”zhoumimeiyouduowenyiju，tadewutiaojianxinrenhezhichi，shiwocikeweiyidewennuan。
“xiexieni，mimi。”wodeyankuangyire，chadianyoudiaoxialeilai。
guaduandianhua，wojiakuaileshoushidongxidesudu。wozhidaizoulezijidezhengjian、yinxingka、jijianjiuyifu，yiji……womuqinliujiwodeyitiaoposudeyinshoulian。
neizhangcunyoushenzichuanjiwodeshenghuofeideyinxingka，woliuzaileshuzhuangtaishang。limiandeqianwoyifendoumeidongguo，zheishiwozuihoudejiaoao。
linzouqian，wohuangulezheigewozhulesanniandejia。ketingdeqiangshanghaiguazhewomenyiqiquruishihuaxuedezhaopian，zhaopianlidewoxiaodecanlan，yiweizaitahuaili。xuanguandexiejushang，haibaizhewoweitazhunbeidetuoxie。
yiqiedoufangfohaizaizuotian。
wozoudaochuangbian，naqineizhixianshizheliangtiaohonggangdeyanyunbang，jiangtaqingqingdifangzaileshenzichuandezhentoushang。
ranhou，wonaqineibenbeiwofanlanledesumiaohuace，heneitiaobinglengde“xingye”xianglian，yibingfangzaileyanyunbangdepangbian。
wobuxuyaoxiesidilidezhiwen，yebuxuyaoshengleijuxiadekongsu。
zheixiedongxi，jiushiwoduitawushengdeshenpan。
shenzichuan，nineimecongming，yinggainengkandongba。
nikan，nixinxinnianniandebaiyueguanghuilaile。erwozheigeyanpin，yegaituichangle。e，duile，wohaishunbiandaizoulenikenengyongyuandoubuhuizhidaode，womendehaizi。
congciyihou，womenliangbuxiangqian。
wolazhexinglixiang，meiyouhuitou，juejuediguanshangleneishancengdaijiwowushumeimengyuhuanxiangdedamen。
shenyedechengshiyijiudenghuotongming，wojiaoleyiliangwangyueche，zhibenzhoumidezhuchu。
zhoumidegongyuzaishizhongxindelaochengqu，mianjibuda，quebeitabuzhidewenxineryouyanhuoqi。tachuanzheyishenkatongshuiyi，dingzheyitouluanzaozaodejuanfa，yikaimenjiujilewoyigedadadexiongbao。
“wodebaobeiwanwan，nikesuanlaile！kuaijinlai！”
tajieguowodexinglixiang，kandaowobozishangdehuahenshi，lianseshunjianchenlexialai：“zheizenmehuishi？shenzichuangande？！”
“bushi，”woyaoyaotou，shengyinpibei，“wozijibuxiaoxinhuade。”
zhoumibanxinbanyidikanzhewo，danhaishibawolalejinqu。“xing，nibuxiangshuojiubushuo。xianquxigereshuizao，wojinizhulewanjiangzhuangnai，nuannuanshenzi。”
wennuandedengguang，shiwudexiangqi，haiyouguimidanyoudeyanshen，rangwoyizhijinbengdeshenjingzhongyusongxiexialai。wozoujinyushi，wenredeshuiliuchongshuazhewodeshenti，yefangfochongshuadiaolewozheisanniandehuangtang。
xiwanzaochulai，zhoumiyijingbayiwanreqitengtengdejiangzhuangnaiduandaolewomianqian。
“chenrehe。”tazuozaiwoduimian，shuangshoutuozhexiaba，yishuangdayanjingzhayebuzhadidingzhewo。
woxiaokoudihezhe，xinladejiangweihexiangtiandenaiweijiaozhizaiyiqi，yuntiezhewobinglengdewei。
“haole，linda**，”zhoumizhongyurenbuzhule，“xianzaikeyishuoleba？daodifashengshenmeshile？nizheifuyangzi，genbeirencongshuililaochulaiside。biegaosuwoshishenzichuanzaisanzhounianjinianrijini‘jingxi’，banijijingzhele。”
wofangxiawan，kanzheta，liangjiu，caihuanhuankaikou：“mimi，womenfenshoule。”
“shenme？！”zhoumideshengyinbagaolebadu，“fenshoule？weishenme？tabushijintianyaoqiuhundema？jiezhinidoutoutoujiwokanguole！”
“meiyouqiuhun，”wochelechezuijiao，luchuyigebikuhainankandexiaorong，“taqujiantadebaiyueguangle。”
woyongzuipingjingdeyuqi，jiangjinwanfashengdeyiqie，congneitongdianhua，daoneibenhuace，zaidaoneitiaoxianglian，yuanyuanbenbendigaosuleta。
zhoumiyuetinglianseyuenankan，tingdaozuihou，tamengdiyipaizhuozi，qidehunshenfadou：“**！shenzichuanzheigezhanan！tamade！bawomenwanwandangtishen？suqingyan？neigechuanshuozhongdexiaoyuannvshen？tahuilaile？”
“嗯，回来了。”
“tajianzhibushiren！sanniana！tazenmenengzheimeduini！”zhoumiqideyankuangdouhongle，“buxing，wodequzhaotasuanzhang！wofeidesiletaneizhangxuweidelian！”
“biequ。”wolazhujidongdeta，yaoleyaotou，“meiyiyile。”
“zenmemeiyiyi？jiuzheimebianyitale？”
“mimi，”wokanzheta，yiziyijudishuo，“wohuaiyunle。”
zhoumizhenggerendoushihuale，zhangzhezui，bantianmeishuochuhualai。jimiaozhonghou，tamengdizhuazhuwodeshou，shengyindoubianlediao：“ni……nishuoshenme？huai……huaiyunle？shenzichuande？”
我点点头。
“wodetian……”zhoumidiezuohuiyizishang，lianshangdebiaoqingbidiaosepanhaijingcai，congzhenjingdaofennu，zaidaoxintenghedanyou，“nei……neitazhidaoma？”
“wobayanyunbangliujitale。”
“ni……”zhoumikanzhewo，yanshenfuza，“nidasuanzenmeban？zheigehaizi……”
wotaishou，qingqingdifushangzijiyijiupingtandexiaofu。neili，zhengyunyuzheyigexiaoshengming，yigehewoxuemaixiangliandeshengming。
wodeyanshenbiandewubijianding，chongmanleqiansuoweiyoudewenrouheliliang。
“我要生下他。”
“tashiwoyigerendehaizi。”