第5章 不甘

kanzheshuyanmanlianhuibai,lewushengqudeyangzi,siluomeiyousihaodexinruan,shenshoutuoqitadabuchulexinfang。

tadongzuoculudaojizhi,ertahaichuanzhedanyi,tuochuxinfangmenwaimianshibingtianxuedi,shuyandaleyigehanzhan,yazhesangzi:“niyaodaiwoqunali?”

“jintianshixueerjiri,ziranshidainizheigezuikuihuoshouqujibaixueerle。”siluoyuqilitouzheyiguyinhen,tingzaishuyanerduolizhijueliangsousoude。

“bu!”shuyandashengfanbo:“womeiyouhaita!xueerdesihewomeiyouguanxi!siluowozhendemeiyouhaita!”

keshibuguantashuoshenme,siluodoutingbujinqu,tajiuzheiyangtuozheshuyanchuleyuanzizhibenmenkou。

menwaitingleyiliangmache,siluobashuyanrengzaimacheshangmian,zijigenzhetiaoshangqu。

shuyanbeibenlaijiuyunlezheixuduorizi,shentixuruodaojizhi,beitazheiyangsuishouyishuai,dangshiyanmaojinxingyunleguoqu。

zaicixingguolaideshihoufaxianzijitangzaibinglengdedishang,hunshendoubeidongjiangle,tazhengkaiyanjingkanleyixia,faxianjingranshimudi。

mubeishangdeshuxueerjigezicijidetayixiazizuoleqilai,suizhetazuoqilai,siluoyinlenglengdeshengyinxiangqi:“jixueerkeershisigexiangtou,wojiuraoniyiming!”

“bu!wobuketou!”shuyanjidongdefanbo:“womeiyouhaita,pingshenmejitaketou?”

“zheikeyoubudeni!”siluoyinlenglengdedengzheta,ruguomuguangnengshasiren,tashenshangyinggaizaojiubeitatonglewushugekulongle。

“siluo,wozhendemeiyouhaisixueer,zhendemeiyou!”

“xiaojie!”yigebeiqieqiedeshengyindaduanleshuyandejieshi,tazhuantoukanguoqu,jianzijitieshenyahuanxiaolianmanlianshishangbeijigeshiweituozhechuxianzaimudi。

“xiaolian!nizheishizenmele?”kanjianxiaolianhunshenshishang,shuyanmanlianzhenjing。

xiaolianyibubudepadaoletademianqian,“xiaojie,nichengrenleba,jierxiaojierengecuo,zhiyaoniketourencuo,wangyejiuhuifanglenide。”

“shenme?nizaishuoshenme?”shuyandengzhexiaolian,wanquanbuganxiangxinzijidetieshenyahuanjingranhuishuochuzheiyangdehualai。

qifenhejingerangtayouxieyuwulunci:“nizhidaonizaishuoshenmema?xiaolian,nizhidaozijizaishuoshenmema?woshenmeshihouhaiguoxueer?a?”

“shidaorujinnifourenyemeiyouyong,xiaoliandouzhaole,shinituileshuerxiaojiexiashui,zaitahunmishihouyoumaitongdafuduishuerxiaojiexiadu,haidetahuayangnianjijiucansi,shuyan,nidexinkezhenshigouhendea!”

wenqingyichuanzhebaisedehupidayi,huanhuanerlai。

“xiaojie,woyeshimeiyoubanfa,wobuxiangzhaogongde,keshiwodefumugegesaozi,haiyounianyoudezhier,yijialiuqikourendemingdouxizaiwoshenshang,duibuqixiaojie,wobuyaochengrende,keshiwobunengyanzhengzhengkanzhetamendouqusi!”

xiaolianguizaitamianqian,manlianleishui,sesefadou。

shuyankanzhexiaolian,kanzhezheigezijiyizhixinrendeyahuan,xinlijianjiandefaleng:“weishenme?wodainibuboa?niweishenmeyaoruciwumiewo?”

“xiaojie,woyebuxiangbeipannide,keshiwopaya,woyizhihaipaerxiaojiedeyuanhunhuilaisuoming。”

“pa”shuyanyongjinhunshenliqiyigezuibashanzaihushuobadaodexiaolianlianshang,“daodishisheizhishini,rangnirucihushuobadao,wumiezhuzi?”

“pa!”genzheyoushiyishengcuixiang,shuyandelianshangyeailesiluoyigebazhang,liandoubeidadepiandaoleyibian。

“nizheigeefu,shidaorucijingranhaixiangdilai,haixiangzhangshiqirenma?”

“siluo,womeiyouhaixueer,buguannixiangbuxiangxin,wodouyaoshuo,woshuyanguangmingleiluo,wojuebuhuizuochuzheiyangdeshiqinglai。”

siluomeiyoulihuita,zhishiyinchenchendedengzheta:“guixia!”

“我不!”

“wozaishuoyibian!guixiajixueerketou,wojiuhuiraoniyiming!”

“woyezaihuidaniyibian,wobuhuigui,woshuyanmeiyouhaita,woweiditaweishu,woweizhang,taweiyou,pingshenmeyaojitaxiagui?”

“nizheishijingjiubuchichifajiule?lairen!”siluoyanzhongshanxianhenli:“batajiwoanzaizheimuqian,rangtaketou!”

jiedaominglingmashanglianggeshiweixiangtazouleguolai,shuyanjuewangdaojizhi,doushuonanerxixiayouhuangjin,tatangtangxiangfudichuxiaojie,guitianguidiguifumu,weiheyaojibitaxiaodeshuxueerxiagui?

bunengjieshouzheiyangdewuru,tameiyouzuocuoshenme,siyebuhuixiangshuxueerdemubeixiagui!

muguangzuihousaoxiangyipanglengyanpangguandesiluo,xinsuichengyipianpiande,jiranaicuole,jiranfuchuzhishiyigexiaohua,tahaihuozheganshenme?

silejiushijietuo,yilebaile!

shuyanmengdezhanqilai,yitouxiangmudiyipangdeshibeizhuangqu。