1dushepibo＞chenhuishang，wodefanganbeijiangyudushepideyiwushichu。＞“zheizhongshuiping，
youeryuanshougongkedoubibuleye。”tajingpianhoudemuguangxiangcuilebingdedao。＞woniejinquantou，zhijiashenxianzhangxin。
sannianle，tazhenduiwodeshouduanbianbenjiali。zhiyinweidangnian……shiwoxiansongkaileshou。
＞xingzhengturanxuanbutuanjianyaowanqinglvyouxi。＞“chouqianjuedingdadang！”zhuguanxiaodexiangzhilaohuli。
＞wokanzheshouzhonghejiangyuyiyangdehaomapai7，yanqianfahei。＞mengyanhuanjie，
taniezhecaomeididaowozuibian：“zhangzui。”＞qingtiandeguoxianghunzhetashenshangshuxidelengliesongmuqixi，
shunjianjiangwozhuaihuisannianqianneigepiaozhecaomeixiangdexiaye。neishi，tadezhijianyeshizheiyang，
daizheguntangdewendu……＞womengdijingxing，quruhehun**zhi，fenhenyaoxia——quezhiyaodaokongqi。
＞zhouweihongxiaoshengzhong，tahuranyadisangyin，zhuorehuxifuguoerkuo：“zheimeji？”＞xiayimiao，
wenredezhijiandaizhebojian，burongkangjudidizhuwozhandoudechunban。＞“xianzai，yao。
”2mingyunchouqian---chenhuishidekongqiningzhiderutonglengquedeboyou。
touyingyideguangshuzaimubushangqiegechucanbaidejuxing，yingzhewoaolezhengzhengsangetongxiaocaihuachulaideshejicaotu。
wozhanzaiqianmian，zhijianhaicanliuzhemakebidemoshuiwei，houlongquegansefajin。
muguangbushoukongzhidipiaoxianghuiyizhuojintouneigeshenying。jiangyu。taxianshidikaozaiangguidepizhiyibeili，
xiuzhangdeshouzhisuiyibawanzheyizhiwanbaolonggangbi，yinhuisedejingkuanghou，neishuangcengjingshengmanwenrouxingguangdeyanjing，
rujinzhishengxiashentanbandehanyi，jingzhundisuodingwo。ranhou，neigeshengyinxiangqilai，xiangcuilebingdedaopian，
jingzhundiguaguoermo。“linwan，”takaikou，shengxianpingwendemeiyouyisibolan，queziziruchui，
“zheijiushinijiaoshanglaidedongxi？”tashentiweiweiqianqing，gangbijianbuqingbuzhongdidianzaitouyingmubushang，
chuozhetugaozhongyangneichuwofanfuxiugai、qingzhulezuiduoxinxuedejiegou。“xiantiaotuota，jiegousongsan，
haowushejiluojikeyan。”tayusubukuai，quedaizhenengniansuirenzizundelidao，
“zheizhongshuiping……”tadunledun，yisihaobuyanshidechaonongpashangzuijiao，muguangtouguojingpian，binglengdicixiangwo，
“songquyoueryuanshougongke，dagaidoubibuleye。”huiyishiliyipiansiji。kongdiaodelengfengsousoudizuanguobojing，
wozhanzaineishuciyandebaiguangxia，ganjuezhenggerenxiangbeiboguanglediuzaibingtianxuedili。lianjiahuoshaohuoliao，
指甲深深掐进掌心，
citongganmianqiangyazhuhoulonglifanyongdesuanseheyiguxiangbawenjianjiazadaotaneizhangyingjunquelengkulianshangdechongdong。
sannianle。congtakongjiangchengweiwodedingtoushangsineitianqi，zheizhongjingzhunerkebode“guanzhao”jiucongweitingzhi。
meiyigefangan，tazongnengtiaochuzuidiaozuandeci；meiyicihuibao，tadetiwendouzhijiyaohai，buliuqingmian。
tongshimensixiayilun，shuojiangzongjianduisheidoushulikeqi，weiduduiwo，xiangjieleshenchoudahen。
zhiyouwozhidaoweishenme。sannianqianneigepiaozhecaomeixiangqidexiaye，zaiyueguangxiadezhangyishang，
shiwoxiansongkailetajinwodeshou，shiwozaitajingetongkudemuguangzhong，juejuedizhuanshenlikai。liyouhuangtangyouchenzhong，
xiangyikuaijushiyazaiwoxindi，wufayanshuo。woyiweishijiannengchongdanyiqie，quemeixiangdaozaijianshi，
tachenglezhangkongwozhichangshengsidepanguan，yongzuilengkudefangshi，rifuyiriditixingzhewode“beipan”。
jiuzaizheishi，huiyishidemenbeituikaile，yizhentuwude、yusushafenweigegeburudexiangfengpiaolejinlai。
xingzhengbudexiaomintanjinbangeshenzi，lianshangduimanleguoyucanlan、shenzhidaizhedianshenmixixidexiaorong。
“daraoyixiageweidalao！”tashengyinqingcui，daizheyizhongxuanbuzhongdaxixundehuankuai，“zhongbangxiaoxi！
weilezengjintuanduiningjuli，bencijidutuanjian，tebiecehualechao——jiyouqudehudonghuanjie！
”suoyoumuguangshunjianbeixiyinguoqu，lianjiangyuyetingxialetaneilingrennankandedianping，weiweicetou，
meitoujibukechadiculeyixia。xiaominmanyidikanzhezheixiaoguo，qingleqingsangzi，
gengjiazizhengqiangyuan：“zhutishi——‘tianmiduiduipeng’！”zheimingziyichu，
dixiashunjianxiangqiyipianweibukewendechouqihejishengyayideqingxiao。“guizehenjiandan，
”xiaominwushilemouxierenshunjiankuadiaodelian，xingzhibobodizhankaiyizhangcaiyinhaibao，
“suoyoutongshisuijichouqianpeidui！wanchengwomenjingxinshejide‘qinglvmoqitiaozhan’！biru……”taguyitingdun，
muguangsaoguoquanchang，youqizaijiangyuhewojiangchidefangxiangduotingliuleyimiao，“mengyanhuweishuiguo！shuangrenjibaoqiqiu！
gongzhubaoshendun！dengdengdengdeng！jifenzuigaozuheyoushenmidajiange！”zhuguanshishidizhanqishen，
neizhangpingriliyansudeliancikexiaodexianggangtouchileshijinmitangdelaohuli，
yanjiaodezhezidoutouzheyigu“kanhaoxi”dejingming：“nianqingrenma，jiushiyaoduojiaoliu，duopengzhuang！
mocacainengchuhuohua！lailailai，xiaomin，shangqiantong！”yigexizhefensesidaidebutoumingqiantongbeiduanlejinlai。
tongshimenwengwengyilunzhe，biaoqinggeyi。wozhanzaiyuandi，shoujiaobingliang，yizhongqiangliedebuxiangyuganjuezhulewo。
qianwanbieshi…qianwanbieshineigeshuzi…qianwanbieshita！qiantongchuandaowomianqian，
limianshihuahualvlv、diedexiaoxiaodezhitiao。wobilebiyan，daizheyizhongbenfuxingchangdebeizhuang，
shouzhizhandoudishenjinqu，huluannianleyizhang。xinzangzaixiongqianglileigu，jihuyaozhuangsuileigu。woshenxiyikouqi，
manmanzhankaineizhangjuedingmingyundezhitiao。yigeqingxideshuzi：7。mojihenxin，xiangyidaocuimingfu。
“haolehaole！douchoudaoleba？”xiaominpaizheshou，shengyinchuantouwengwengdeyilun，“xianzai，
qingchoudaoxiangtongshuzideliangwei，xunsuzhaodaonidedadang！rangwomenkankan，
shinaxiexingyuneryaocachuaidehuohualeni？”“woshi7hao！sheigenwoyidui？
”cehuabudexiaowanglvxianhanlechulai，shengyinhongliang。wurenyingda。“7hao？sheishi7hao？
”xiaominyetigaoleyinliang，muguangzairenqunzhongsouxun。wodexueyefangfozaineiyishunjianninggule。
yigubinglengdejuewanggancongjiaodizhichongtianlinggai。wojiangyingdi，jiqihuanmanditaiqiyan，muguangyueguozandongderentou，
daizhezuihouyisimiaomangdeqiqiu，wangxianghuiyizhuolingyiduanneigeshenying。jiangyuzhenghaozhengyixiadikaozuozaiyizili。
tasihuduizheichangnaojuyegandaoleyisihuangmiu，chunjiaogouqiyigejidande、binglengyoujiqiaodehudu。ranhou，
zaisuoyourendezhushixia，tamantiaosiliditaiqishou。xiuzhang、gujiefenmingdeshouzhijian，
jiazheyizhangtongyangxiaoxiaodezhitiao。taqingqingyidou，zhitiaozhankai。yigetongyangqingxideshuzi：7。
rutongbeiwuxingdejuchuihenhenzazhong，wodedanao“weng”deyisheng，yanqianshunjianfahei，
shiyebianyuanfanqidapianzaodian，
erbianxiaominxingfende“e——”shenghezhouweizhouranbaofadeqihongsheng、koushaosheng、yiweishen��dexiaosheng，
quandoubianchengleyaoyuanerniuqudebeijingzaoyin。shijietianxuandizhuan。weiyiqingxide，shihuiyizhuoduimian，
jiangyujingpianhouneishuangshentanbandeyanjing。takanzhewo，lianshangmeishenmebiaoqing，
danneiyanshen……neiyanshenxiangzaixinshangliewudierujingxinshejidexianjing，bingleng，youdaizheyisicanrendewanwei。
3caomeizhiwentuanjiandangtian，dujiacuncaopingbeibuzhidehualihushao，caidaiqiqiu，yipaixujiafanrongdehuanle。
yangguangciyan，kongqilimimanzheqingcaobeishaijiaodeweidaohetiannideguoxiang。wozuozaijiaoluodezheyangpengxia，
xiangyizunjijiangbeituishangjitandeshixiang，hunshenjiangying。buyuanchu，jiangyuzhengbeijigegaocengweizheshuohua，
tadanshouchazaixikukoudaili，zitaixianshi，ouerdiantou，
zuijiaoqinzheneimowannianbubiande、shuliyouzhangkongyiqiededanxiao，fangfojijiangkaishide“kuxing”yutawuguan。
“tianmiduiduipeng”demoyinzhongyuhaishixiangchelecaoping。qianjigexiangmudehongxiaoshenglangyibogaoguoyibo。
woxianggetixianmuoubeixiaomintuisangzhe，zhandaolechangdizhongyang。toudingxuanzheyitiaoxianhongdechoubu，
xiangxingxingqiandemubu。jiangyuyijingzhanzaineili，shenzitingba，
mianwubiaoqingdikanzhegongzuorenyuanjitadaishangyanzhao——tashibeiweishideyifang。“jiexialai！wanzhongqidai！
xintiaojiasuhuanjie——”zhuchirentuozhanglediaozi，shengyinkangfendenengcipoermo，“‘mengyanmitian’！
guizechaojiandan！yifangmengyan，lingyifangfuzejiangmeiweideshuiguo，weidaodadangzuili！
kaoyandejiushijueduidexinrenhemoqi！zhuyie，weishifangbunengchushengzhihui！quanpingganjue！jishisanfenzhong，
chidaozuiduozuhuosheng！zhunbeihaolema？
”yizhisanfazhelianjiaxiangshuiwei、daizhetiwendeyanzhaobuyoufenshuoditaozailewodeyanjingshang。
shijiezhouranxianruyipiannongchou、lingrenzhixideheian。shijuebeicubaoboduodeshunjian，
qitaganguanquexiangshoujingdeyeshoubanzhouransuxing、fangda。zhouweidingfeiderenshengrutongchaoshuituiqu，
zhiliuxiajianruimohudehuixiang。yangguangdereduchenzhongdiyazaiyanpishang。raner，yadaoyiqiede，
shilingyizhongcunzaigan。yizhonglenglie、ganzao，rutongdongrisonglinbandeqixi，daizheburongzhiyideyapogan，
wushengwuxidilongzhaoguolai，yuelaiyuejin。shijiangyu。tashenzhimeiyoupengdaowo，
danneidutedeqixiyijingxiangyizhangwuxingdewang，jiangwokunzaiheiandezhongxin。wodejibeishunjianbengjin，
meiyicunpifudoumingandenengganzhidaokongqideliudong。gongzuorenyuansihudijilewoyigeguopan。womosuozhe，
zhijianchudaobingliangguanghuadeguopiheshirundedibu。shicaomei。xinmengdiyisuo。“kaishi！
”zhuchirendeshengyinrutongfalingqiang。woshenxiyikouqi，nuliyaxiazhijiandezhandou，pingganjuenaqiyikecaomei。
heianzhong，tachenmodizhanzaineili，xiangyizuosanfazhehanqidebingshan。womosuozhe，pingzheqixidefangxiang，
benzhuodijiangcaomeidiguoqu。zhijianbukebimiandipengdaoleshenme——shitachenshandeweiliangbuliao，
yijibuliaoneijinshidejiroulunkuo。woxiangbeitangdaoyiyangmengdisuohuishou，caomeichadiandiaoluo。“ze。
”yishengjiqingde、daizhebunaidebiyincongheianzhongchuanlai。shita。quruganshunjianyanmeilewo。woyaojinxiachun，
zaicichangshi。zheiyici，wogengjiaxiaoxin，zhijianniezhecaomeidedibu，
pingzheganjueheneiyuelaiyueqingxidesongmulengxiang，
manmandi、shitanxingdicoujintaqixizuinongdedifang——yinggaishichundeweizhi。
zhijiansihuchupengdaoleshenmerouruandedongxi。shitadezuichunma？wodexintiaozhouranshixu。jiuzaizheishi，
yizhiweiliang、ganzaodedashoumengdizhuazhulewodeshouwan！lidaobuzhong，quedaizhejueduidezhangkonggan，
zuzhilewojixuqianjindedongzuo。wodehuxishunjiantingzhi。heianzhong，
tazhangxindewenduhebojianqingxidiluoyinzaiwodepifushang，xiangyidaoguntangdeluoyin。sannianqian，
zheishuangshoucengwushuciwenroudibaoguowodeshou，rujinzhishengxiabinglengdejingu。taniezhewodeshouwan，qianyinzhe，
jiangneikecaomeijingzhundisongdaoletazijidechunbian。woshenzhinengganjuedaotawenredehuxifuguowodezhijian，
haiyoutashuangchunweiqishi，chunbanrouruandechuganqingqingcaguowodezhifu。xiangyidaoweiruodedianliu，shunjiancuanbianquanshen，
dailaiyizhenlingrenxinjidezhanli。tachidiaoleneikecaomei。dongzuoyouya，qiaowushengxi。ranhou，
tasongkailewodeshou。liuchengjixu。woxianggebeishedinghaochengxudejiqiren，yikejieyikedinaqicaomei，
mosuozhediguoqu。meiyici，tadouhuijingzhundizhuazhuwodeshouwan，yindaofangxiang，ranhoucongrongdichidiao。
heianfangdalezheizhongwushengdezhangkong。meiyicichupeng，meiyicitawenredehuxifuguowodepifu，
douxiangshizaitixingwo，wocikedechujing，xiangjilewodangnianpaoxiatashi，takenengganshoudaodequruhewuli。
tashizaiyongzheizhongfangshibaofuwo！yongzuiqinmiyouzuishulidefangshi，tixingwoguoqudeyiqie！
quru、fennu、hunluan，haiyouyisibeikeyihuanxingde、shenmaixindidesuanchu，zaiwoxiongqianglifengkuangfanjiao。
wodedongzuoyuelaiyuejiangying，huxiyebiandejicu。zhongyu，lundaotaweiwole。woxianggedengdaishenpandeqiutu，
jiangyingdizhanzaiyuandi。heianzhong，neisongmulengliedeqixizaiciqiangshidilongzhaoguolai，bizhiqiangengjin，
gengmibutoufeng。wonengganjuedaotagaodadeshenyingwanquanlongzhaolewo，yangguangderedusihudoubeitagejuezaiwai。
yizhishoushenleguolai。dongzuosuanbushangwenrou，shenzhidaizhediangongshigongbandexiaolvgan。zhijianweiliang，ganzao，
daizhebojian，zheiyici，jingzhundi、daizheburongzhiyidelidao，niezhulewodexiahe。“zhangzui。
”tadeshengyinzaizhichixiangqi。dichende，pingbande，meiyourenheqifu，xiangzainianyijubinglengdemingling。
hetapibowofanganshiruchuyizhe。heianzhong，zheishengyinquexiangdaizhexixiaodedianliu，jidewotoupifama。
xiahebeitaweiliangdezhijianniezhe，beipoweiweitaiqi。quruganheyizhongnanyiyanyudejinzhangmengdizuanjinlexinzang。
pingshenme？pingshenmewoyaoxianggeshaziyiyangzaizheilirentabaibu？jiuyinweineigaiside7haoqian？
jiuyinweisannianqian……？fennudexiaohuomiaozaiheianzhongtengdiranqi，shaodiaolezuihouyisilizhi。
qingtiandecaomeixiangqihunhezhetashenshangshuxidelengliesongmuqixi，badaodizuanjinbiqiang。
zheiweidao……xiangyibayaochi，mengdiqiaokailejiyidezhamen！sannianqianneigexiaye，yueguangrushui。
xuexiaohoumenneitiaopijingdexiaolushang，
kongqizhongmimanzhegangxiaguoyudenituqixihe……lubianxiaotanpiaolaide、xinxiancaomeidetianxiang。womenqianzheshou，
tazhangxinguntang，shouzhijinjinchanraozhewode。tatingxialai，zaiyueguangxiakanzhewo，
yanjinglishengmanlewenroudexingguangheshaonianrenduyoude、chiredeaiyi。tafushen，
daizhecaomeiqingxiangdehuxifuguowodelianjia，zhijianqingqingfuguowodechunban，shengyinshayaerchongni：“wanwan，
zhangzui……”neishidechugan，neishidewendu，neishideqixi……yucikezhongdie！
queyoubeiyanqianbinglengdexianshisichedezhiliposui！womengdiconghuiyidexuanwozhongjingxing！
judadequruhehunluanrangwoshiqulesikaodenengli！woshuncongdizhangkailezui——daizheyizhongjinhuzihuidefenhen，
chaozheneiqixizuinongdefangxiang，chaozhejiyizhongtazhijiantingliudeweizhi，henhendiyaohexiaqu！yachizhuangjizaiyiqi，
fachuqingxidaolingrenyasuande“kada”sheng。yaolegekong。zuilizhiyougangcaibeitaqixizhanrande、binglengdekongqi。
eryuxiangzhongnenghenhencuoshangtaxiaozhangqiyandechugan——wulunshishuiguohaishitaneitaoyandeshouzhi——tongtongmeiyou。
死寂。绝对的死寂。
fangfolianguozaodechanmingheyuanchucaopingsashuiqidesisishengdoubeiyizhiwuxingdeshoushunjianqiaduan。jinjiezhe，
rutongyayidehuoshanmengranbaofa，zheneryulongdehongxiaoshengcongsimianbafangzhakai！xiangwushuguntangdezhen，