woqinshoushaodiaoleayuedemaishenqi，yiweineishiduiyigezhongpuzuihouderenci。wokanzhetaguizaixuedili，leiyanposuodixieen，xinzhongshenzhiyouyisibeitianminrendezide。kewobuzhidao，neizhangbobodezhi，ranjindebushiyigeyahuandenuji，ershiwocishengquanbudexingfu。houlaiwocaimingbai，tayanlideleibushiganji，shidecheng；takexiadetoubushixieen，shichaofeng。tayongyigemitiandahuang，huanzoulewodefujunlushiyan，yehuanzoulewoshenshuwanyibeizideanning。rujin，wuyemenghui，neichangdaxue、neizhangqiyue、neishuanghanleideyanjing，douchenglefanfulingchiwodeliren，tixingwojiujingyouduoyuchun。
neiyinian，woshiqisui，shitaifufuzuishoujiaochongdedinv，jijiangjiajimingmanjinghuadexinkezhuangyuanlushiyan。
neishiwoyishengzhongzuichongmanqidaiganderizi。
guifangdechuanggeshanghuzhexinhuandeyunmuzhi，yangguangshaijinlai，luozaiwoqinshouxiudeyuanyangxishuihehuanbeishang，jinsedesixianliuguangyicai，fangfoyushizhewoneijinguangshanshandeweilai。
“**，ninkan，zheijinxianzoudekezhenyuncheng，zhuangyuanlangjianle，dinghuikua**huizhilanxin。”
shuohuadeshiayue，wodetieshenyahuan。tazhengxiaoxinyiyidibangwozhenglixiubeng，yuqilimanshizhenzhidezantanhehuanxi，biwozijihaiyaoqueyue。
woniletayiyan，zuijiaoqinzheyabuzhudexiaoyi：“jiunizuitian。tayigezhizhishengxianshudeshudaizi，nalikandedongzheixienverjiadezhenxianhuo。”
huasuizheimeshuo，kexinliquetiandexiangguanlemi。
lushiyanbushishudaizi。tawenrunruyu，caihuahengyi，maqiuchangshangyeshiyibahaoshou。gengzhongyaodeshi，tadeyanjingli，youwo。
woyutadehunshi，shifuqinyuludaxueshiqinzidingxiade，mendanghudui，tianzuozhihe。danwozhidao，zheizhuanghunshili，zangzhewomenbicidexinganqingyuan。yuanxiaodenghuishang，tazengwoqinshouzhadetuzideng；shangsijiequshuiliushang，tapiaodaowomianqiandejiubeixia，yazheyishouweiwoxiedezangtoushi。
jingzhongrenrenyanxianwoshenshuwanhaofuqi，nengderucijiaxu。
我亦深以为然。
ayuejiangxiubengshouhao，youduanlaiyizhanyanwogeng，roushengquandao：“**，daijiaderizizuishiaoren，yezuishishangshen，ninkuaichenreyongle，yangyangjingshen。ninkannin，weilezheijiayi，rendouqingjianlexie。”
wojieguobaiyuxiaowan，kanzhetaguanqiedemeiyan，xinzhongyipianwennuan。
ayueziwobasuiqijiugenzaiwoshenbian，zhijinyiyoujiunian。tabiwodaliangsui，conghui、titie、shouqiao，mingweiyahuan，shizeqingtongjiemei。wodexinshicongbumanta，wodexinuailetazuishiqingchu。tadongwomeishaoyitiaoshiheyi，yedongwozuijiaoyipieshiweihe。
shenzhi，tabiwozijigengdongruherangwokaixin。
“ayue，nishuo……tahuiyizhiduiwozheimehaoma？”daijiadenverjia，xinzhongzongshichongmanletianmidechongjing，heyisisibuquedingdehuangkong。
ayuedunxiashen，weiwoqingqingchuizhetui，yangqiliankanzhewo，muguangqingcheerjianding：“**，ninshitiandixiazuihaodeguniang，zhuangyuanlangyeshirenzhonglongfeng，nimenshitianzaodishedeyidui。taruobuduininhao，tianlidouburong。ayuegannaxingmingdanbao，zhuangyuanlangjianglaiyidinghuiba**pengzaishouxinlitengde。”
tadehuaxiangyikedingxinwan，jiangwoxinzhongneidiankexiaodeyilvqusandeyiganerjing。
woxiaozhepailepaitadeshou：“jiunipinzui，hainaxingmingdanbao。”
neiduanrizi，fulishangshangxiaxiadouyangyizhexiqi，weiwodehunshimangliuzhe。muqinlazhewodeshou，yibianbiandikanneiwufusonglaidefengguanxiapeiyangshi；fuqinzejiangtazhenzangduoniandegubengujidoubanlechulai，lielezhangzhangdedanzi，shuoyaoyibingzuoweiwodejiazhuang，shengpawozaifujiashouleweiqu。
erwo，zechenjinzaiyizhongjudade、mianmidexingfuyuqidaizhizhong。woqidaizhedahunneiri，fengguanxiapei，shilihongzhuang；qidaizhexiankaigaitoushi，lushiyanneishuanghanxiaodeyanmou；gengqidaizhewanghouyusheng，yutahongxiutianxiang，juanqimei。
zheiqidaiganshiruciqianglie，yizhiyuwohulvelexuduobengaizhuyidaodezhusimaji。
biru，neiyiri，lushiyantuorensonglaiyizhitaqinshoudiaokedemuzan，zantoushiyiduoxuxurushengdewanxiangyu，zhengshiwomingzilide“wan”zi。wohuanxideshenmeside，nazaishoulifanlaifuqudikan。
ayuezaiyipangweiwobucai，kansibujingyidishuodao：“zhuangyuanlangdeshoukezhenqiao，zheizanzidiaodezhenhao。zhishi……zheiwanxiangyudehuayang，zongjuedeyouxieyanshu。”
wodangshibingweizaiyi，zhidangtashisuikouyishuo，xiaozhejiangmuzancharufajian，zaitamianqianzhuanlegequan：“haokanma？”
“haokan，**daishenmedouhaokan。”taxiaodewenwan，yandiquesihuyoushenmedongxiyishanerguo。
xianzaixianglai，neibushibiede，zhengshitajingxinbuzhidexianjing，luoxiadediyikeqizi。
biangu，fashengzaidahunqiandeyigeyue。
neiriwuhou，wozhengyuayuezaixiaohuayuanlijianhua，zhunbeizuoxiexiangnangguazaihunfang。ayueturan“aiya”yisheng，shouzhibeimeiguidejiancizhapole，shenchuyikexiaoxiaodexuezhu。
wolianmanglaguotadeshou，youxiexintengdizebei：“nizheiyatou，zenmezheimebuxiaoxin？”
taquexiangshibeineidiancitonggouqileshenmexinshi，yanquanshudijiuhongle，yanleihaowuzhengzhaodigunluoxialai。
wodunshihuangleshen，yiweitashouleduodadeweiqu：“zenmelezheishi？zhadehentengma？kuairangwokankan。”
ayueyaozhetou，yonglichouhuishou，beiguoshenqu，jianbangyisongyisongdichouqi，shengyinyayiyouposui：“bu……buguan**deshi，shiayueziji……zijimeiyong……”
tayueshizheiyang，woyueshidanxin。woyutajiuniandeqingfen，zaoyichaoyuelezhupu。wojiangtafuzheng，qiangyingdirangtakanzhewo：“ayue，daodichuleshenmeshi？niruohaidangwoshini**，jiugaosuwo。tiandadeshi，youwojinidanzhe。”
tayouyulexujiu，leiyanposuodikanzhewo，yuyanyouzhi，neifumoyang，fangfoneixinzhengjinglizhetianrenjiaozhan。
zhengshizheifumoyang，rangwoxinzhongshengqiyigubuxiangdeyugan。
“**……nin……nindaiayueenzhongrushan，ayueshizaiburenxinkannin……kanninbeimengzaiguli……”tazhongyukailekou，meiyigezidoushuodewubijiannan。
“mengzaiguli？wobeisheimengzaigulile？”wozhouqimeitou。
ayueyaozhechun，xiangshixiadingletiandadejuexin，conghuailizhanzhanweiweidimochuleyikuaibanjiudeyupei。neiyupeizhidibusuanshangcheng，zhishiputongdehetianqingyu，shangmiankezheyige“yan”zi。
是陆时砚的“砚”。
worendezheikuaiyupei，lushiyanshichangpeidai，shitamuqindeyiwu。
“ni……ninalilaidezheige？”wodexin，mengdiyichen。
“shi……shiqianjiri，zhuangyuanlanglaifushangbaijianlaoye，ayuezaihuayuanxiaojingshangjiandaode。”ayuedeshengyindaizhekuqiang，“ayuebenxianglikehaijizhuangyuanlang，ke……keyoupa……”
“pashenme？”wozhuiwendao，shengyinyijingyouxiefajin。
“patahaihuilai，bushiweiledaxie，ershiweile……weileduwusiren。”
“duwusiren？sishei？”wodezhijiajihuyaoqianjinzhangxin。
ayue“putong”yishengguilexialai，zhongzhongdijiwokelegetou：“**，ninshuzui！ayuejiexialaiyaoshuodehua，danibudao，keayueruoshibushuo，zheibeiziliangxindounanan！”
tataiqitou，lianshangmanshileihen，yanshenlichongmanleduiwojijiangshoudaoshanghaidetongkuheburen。
“zheiyupei……conglaidoubushizhuangyuanlangde。tazhenzhengdezhuren，shilinjiadeneiweiwanqingbiaomei！”
“linwanqing？”wonaozhongyipiankongbai。zheishishei？wocongweitingguozheigemingzi。
“shiludaxueshiyiweiyuanfangqinqidenver，ziyoujiyangzailujia，yuzhuangyuanlangqingmeizhuma，liangxiaowucai。”ayuedeshengyinyadejidi，fangfozaisushuoyigejingtiandemimi，“jingzhongzhidaoderenbuduo，yinweilinjiajiadaozhongluo，wanqing**youtiruoduobing，changnianyangzaishengui。tamen……tamenzaojiusidingzhongshenle。”
“sidingzhongshen？”zheisigezixiangyidaojinglei，zaiwoerbianzhakai。wozhijuedetianxuandizhuan，jihuzhanlibuwen。
wojiaoaoleshiqinianderensheng，woqidaileneimejiudemeimanyinyuan，shunjianchuxianleyidaozhengningdeliefeng。
“bukeneng！”wolishenghechi，yebuzhishizaifanbota，haishizaishuofuziji，“lushiyanbushineiyangderen！taruoxinzhongyouren，weihehaiyaodayingyuwodehunshi？”
“yinwei……yinweiwanqing**debing，xuyaoyiweijiqimingguideyaocaixuming，erneiweiyao，zhiyoutaifuninfushangcaiyou。zhuangyuanlang……ta……tashiweilejiuwanqing**deming，caibudebu……weiquqiuquan……”
ayuedehua，zizijujudouxiangcuiledudegangzhen，henhenzhajinwodexinli。
weilejiulingyigenvrendeming，suoyicailaiquwo？
wosuoyoudeqidai，wosuoyoudehuanxi，nandaodouzhishiyichangjingxincehuadejiaoyi？
woliangqiangzhehoutuiyibu，zhuangzaishenhoudehuajiashang，jiaonendeqiangweihuabanluolewoyishen，neifuyudexiangqi，cikewenqilaiquelingrenzuoou。
“zhengjuni？nishuodezheixie，keyouzhengju？”wosisididingzheta，baozhezuihouyisixiwang。
ayuefangfozaojiuliaodaowohuizheimewen。tacongxiuzhongyouquchuyizhangzhediedezhengzhengqiqidexinzhi，shuangshouchengshang。xinzhiyijingfanhuang，bianjiaodouqilemao。
wozhandouzheshoujieguolai，zhankai。
shangmianshilushiyandebiji，wozaishuxibuguole。neibifengshoujingyouli，qingjuanxiaosa。
kexinshangdeneirong，querangworuzhuibingku。
“wanmeiqinqi：jianzirumian。jinlaihanzhong，wangduozhenzhong。xiongciqu，weiqiulingyao，yiweiqiancheng。rancixin，tiandikejian，weixiqingyiren。daixionggongcheng，bijiandangritaohuashuxiazhinuo。wunian。shiyanzi。”
meiyouluokuanriqi，danneiziji，fenmingjiushilushiyande。
婉妹……婉清……
此心，唯系卿一人。
bijiandangritaohuashuxiazhinuo。
wodenaoziwengwengzuoxiang，yanqianfahei。neizhangxinzhiqingpiaopiaode，zaiwoshouliquezhongruqianjun。woyizhiyinyiweiaode，taduiwoduyiwuerdeqingyi，yuanlaicongyikaishijiushigexiaohua。wocaishineigebeiliyongde、kexiaodedisanfang。
neizhiwanxiangyudemuzan，cikehaichazaiwodefajian，xiandewubifengci。
ayuejianwomiansecanbai，lianmangpaguolaibaozhuwodetui，kudeganchangcunduan：“**！doushiayuedecuo！ayuebugaigaosuninzheixie！keayueshizaiburenxina！ninshijinzhiyuye，zenneng……zennengjiajiyigexinlizhuangzhebierendenanren，shouzheifentiandadeweiqu！”
tadekusheng，tadeyanyu，douzaibuduandijiashenwodetongku，jiangwotuixiangfennuyujuewangdeshenyuan。
womeiyouku，zhishijuedehunshendeliqidoubeichouganle。wokanzheguizaidishangweiwo“buping”deayue，kanzhetashoulineikuaishuyu“linwanqing”deyupei，zaikanzhewoshouzhongzheifeng“qingzhenyiqie”dexin。
woshiqinianlaijianlidejiaoaoyuzixin，zaizheiyike，beijidefensui。
woyiweideliangyuan，buguoshiyichangpianju。
womanxinqidaideweilai，shunjianhuaweipaoying。