---「wanqing，zhenxianmunia，congxiaofudaohunsha，chenmohaizheimeshuaizheimenenggan，nizheirenshengshikaileguaba？
」guimilinweideshengriyanshang，wozaicichengweilepengyoumendaqudezhongxin。nuanhuangdedengguangxia，
gaojiaobeipengzhuangchuqingcuideshengxiang，kongqizhongmimanzhemeishiyuxiangshuidehunheqixi。chenmojiuzuozaiwopangbian，
yishenjiancaidetideshenlansexizhuang，chendetajiankuanyaozhai。wenyan，talikewenroudilanzhuwodejianbang，
xiaorongwuketiaoti，yandiquesihuzangzheyisibuyichajuedeyouli。「nengqudaowanqing，
shiwozheibeizizuidadefuqi。」tadeshengyindichenyueer，xiangdatiqinbanchunhou。zheijuhua，wotinglewushubian。
cengjiheshi，taxiangmitang，tianjinwoxinli；rujin，quexianglixinggongshidetaici，jibuqibanfenlianyi。
woyehuiyiqiadaohaochudeweixiao，chunjiaowanqibiaozhundehudu，zhishizheixiaorongdixia，
zangzheyisizhiyouzijicaidongdemamuhepibei。wodeshouzhiwuyishidimosuozhebeibi，
bingliangdechuganrangwoweichizheqingxing。zhouweishipengyoumenzhenxinhuoketaodeyanxiansheng。shia，zaisuoyourenyanli，
wohechenmoshixianshibandeshenxianjuanlv。daxuexiaoyuanlidejintongyunv，tazhuiwoshihonghonglielie，
zaijiaoxuelouxiayonglazhubaichujudadeaixin，zaiquanxiaoyundonghuishanggongranjiwoxianhua；lianaishititieruwei，
jidewosuoyoudexihaoheshengliqi；biyedianlishang，tachuanzhexueshifu，zaimantianpaoqidefangmaozhong，
juzhezuanjiedanxiguidi，yinlaiquanchangdejianjiaohezhufu。hunlishang，tawozhewodeshou，gengyanzheshuochu「linwanqing，
wohuiaini、huniyibeizi」deshiyanshi，wokudejihuhunjuezaitahuaili。neishi，ershichutoudewo，
tianzhendiyiwei，wangzihegongzhudabailexianshi，zhendehuiyongyuanxingfuxiaqu。jiuguosanxun，qifenyujiareluo。
chenmodeshoujipingmuzaizhuomianshangtuwudiliangleyixia，youlandeguangzainuansediaodehuanjingliyouxieciyan。
tasuiyidipieleyiyan，shouzhizaipingmushangfeikuaididianlejixia，huilegexiaoxi，
ranhoujiqizirandijiangshoujifankouguoqu。zheigexiweidedongzuo，xiangyigenzaoyizhunbeihao、cuilebingdezhen，
jingzhundizhajinlewodexinkou。zuijinzheibannian，zheiyangdedongzuoyuelaiyuepinfan。meiyici，
dourangwoxindineipianhuangwudedongtu，youjiahouyiceng。「sheiya？zheimewanhaizhaoni。」woduanqiguozhiheleyikou，
baochizhewenwandeyuqi，xiangwangchangyiyangsuikouyiwen，fangfozhishibujingyideguanxin。zhiyouwozijizhidao，
xiongqianglidexinzang，zhengweiweishoujin，daizheyizhongshuxide、dundundetonggan。「e，meishi，gongsideshixisheng，
yougejishuwentigaobuding，fandehen。」taduanqijiubei，shentaiziruodihewopengleyixia，fachuqingcuide「ding」
sheng，「lai，laopo，changchangzheige，niaichide。」tajialeyikuaijingxintihaocideqingzhengyu，
wenwendifangzaiwomianqiangucidiezili。yurouxuebai，peishangcuilvdecongsi，shashihaokan。kan，
tayiranjidewodexihao，zuodewuketiaoti，shenzhikanchengmofan。
kezhengshizheizhongliuyubiaomiande、jinhuchengxuhuade“titie”，rangwoxindineiguhanyi，xianganchuzishengdetengman，
fengkuangdimanyan，chanraodewojihuchuanbuguoqi。1buzhicongshenmeshihoukaishi，wohechenmozhijian，
geleyicengkanbujianquezhenshicunzaide、mingwei“lengmo”demo。
tayiranshineigewairenyanzhongwukezhizhaidewanmeizhangfu——zhunshishangjiaogongzika，
meigejinianridouhuisongshangjiagebufei、baozhuangjingmeideliwu，congbuyebuguisu，shenzhizaipengyoujuhuishi，
yijiuhuixiguanxingdiweiwobucai、dizhijin。dan，jia，duiyutalaishuo，
gengxiangshiyigetigongshisuhexiyifuwudekuaijiejiudian。
womencengjingneigechongmanhuanshengxiaoyu、liankongqidoushitiannidexiaowo，rujinzhishengxialingrenzhixideanjing。
woshiyimingruanzhuangshejishi，womenzheigejia，congyingzhuangdaomeiyichuruanzhuang，xiaodaochuangliandeliusu，shafabudecaizhi，
doushiwoqinzitiaoxuan、yidiandianbuzhiqilaide。woqingzhulesuoyoudui“wennuan”he“ai”dexiangxiang。kechenmo，
tasihucongweizhenzheng“kanjian”guo。tayuelaiyuexiangzheigejingzhikongjianlideyigeyouhun。
tahuijiadeshijianyuelaiyuewan，「jiaban」、「yingchou」、「xiangmushangxian，zoubukai」chengletakouzhongdegaopinci。
wokaishixiguanyigerenchiwanfan，
duizhedianshilixuannaodezongyijiemuxiafan；xiguanyigerentangzaikuandadeshuangrenchuangshang，tingzheshizhongdidazuoxiang，
shuzheyangdengdaishuiyijianglin；xiguanleyigerenduizhekongdangdangdefangzi，ziyanziyudishuo「wohuilaile」
he「wanan」。zuishendeyicihanyi，laiziwomenjiehunsanzhouniandejinianri。wotiqianyizhoujiukaishizhunbei。
qinglebantianjia，quchaoshicaigouletaaichideshicai，hualezhengzhengyigexiawuzaichufanglimangliu。
hongshaorouzaishaguoligudugududimaozhereqi，qingzhengyudehuohouqiadaohaochu，lianbaipandoujingxinshejiguo。
wodianleneikuantacengjingshuohenyouqingdiaodexiangxunlazhu，nuanrongdezhuguangyaoye，shenzhi，
wohaiguishishenchadichuanshanglelianaishitasongwode、neitiaotashuoguozuixianshencaiyezuixinggandezhensidiaodaiqun。
woconghuadengchushangdengdaoyemushenchen，zhuoshangdecaireleyouliang，liangleyoure，rutongwodexin。zhuleiduijileyitan，
ningguchengnankandexingzhuang。neitiaoqunzidanbodebuliao，dibuguoshenyedehanqi，rangwoqileyicengjipigeda。
lingchenshierdianban，xuanguanzhongyuchuanlaiyaochizhuandongdeshengyin。tadaizheyishenjiuqihuilai，lingdaichedesongsongkuakua。
kandaoketingdebuzhihechuanzheshuiqun、baozhexigaiquanzaishafashangdewo，talengleyixia，suijipailepaietou，
yuqihaowubolan，shenzhidaizheyisibeidaraodebunai：「duibuqilaopo，jintiantaimangle，wanquanwangle。」
wotaiqitou，kanzhetaneizhangcengjingrangwochimideyingjunmiankong，cikezaizhuguangxiaxiandeyouxiemohuhemosheng。
wonuliweichizheshengyindepingjing，burangyisizhandouxieluchulai：「wojinifalexinxi，yedaledianhua。」
tatuoxiaxizhuangwaitao，suishourengzaiyibeishang，meiyujiandaizheyisibuyichajuedefanzao：「bushishuolezaimangma？
fanjushangchaochaorangrangde，naligudeshangkanshouji。yigejinianrieryi，」tazouguolai，
shituxiangyiqianyiyangrourouwodetoufa，beiwoweiweicetoubikai，tadeshoujiangzaibankong，yuqigengdanlexie，
「mingtian，mingtianwojinibushang，xingbuxing？」「yigejinianrieryi。」yuanlaiwoshiruozhenbaodeyishigan，
woyongxinyingzaodelangman，wozhengzhengyitiandemangliuheqidai，zaitayanli，yijingqingpiaopiaodezhishengxia「eryi」
lianggezi。neiyishunjian，woqingxiditingdaoxinliyoushenmedongxi，「kaca」yisheng，suiliele。neitianwanshang，
taxishuwan，jihushitouyizhanzhentoujiuchuanlailejunyundehuxisheng，fangfoshenmedoumeiyoufasheng。erwo，
zaiheianzhongzhengzheyanjing，tingzhetapingwendehuxi，ganshouzheshenbianzheijushuxiyoumoshengdequtichuanlaidewendu，
diyiciwubiqingxidiyishidao——linwanqing，nizheizhibeiwenshuizhuzhedeqingwa，
yijingkuaibeizheirifuyiridelengmohehushi，zhushule。2zhenzhengrangwoxiadingjuexinde，
shiliangjiankansiweibuzudaodexiaoshi。yicishitaxiabanhuijia，woxiangwangchangyiyangjieguotadewaitao，
yigujidande、tiannidehuaxiangzuanrubiqiang。neibushitachangyongdexuesongdiaogulongshuideweidao，
yebushiwoyongyouderenheyikuanxiangshuideweidao。neishiyizhonggengnianqing、gengjuqinlvexingdetianmei。lingyici，
shiwoouranxuyaoyongtashoujichageziliao，xiayishishuruwodeshengri，pingmuxianshimimacuowu。wolengleyixia，
changshitachangyongdejigemimazuhe，jungaoshibai。tawenshengcongshufangchulai，lianshanglveguoyisijikuaidebuziran，
naguoshouji，yibianjiesuoyibianyuqipingdandijieshi：「e，qianduanshijianshoujidiaole，zhongxinshezhile。
gongsiyaoqiude，anquanshengji。」「gongsiyaoqiude，anquanshengji。」tajieshideyundanfengqing。
woxinlineigenmingwei「xinren」dexian，zaizhangqijinbenghou，zhongyu“weng”deyisheng，duanle。
huaiyidezhongziyidanluoxia，bianhuifengkuangjiquyangfen，potuerchu。yigezhoumodexiawu，tazaishufanglidayouxi，
zhankuangjilie，jianpanshubiaopipazuoxiang。shoujifangzaiketingchongdian，pingmuhuranliangleyixia，
shiyitiaoweixinxiaoxideyulan，meiyouxianshiwanzhengneirong，danfasongzhedebeizhuqingxikejian——「xingzheng-suyurou」
。wodexinmengdiyichen，xiangbeiwuxingdeshouzuanjin，jihutingzhitiaodong。suyurou？
neigexinlaide、zongshiyilianchongbaikanzhechenmodeshixisheng？kaidao？kouhong？zheilianggecizuhezaiyiqi，
xiangcuiledudezhen，cidewoyankuangfasuan。womeiyouxiangyiqianyiyang，pinmingweitazhaojiekou，
gaosuzijineishixiangduole。yiguqiyidelengjinglongzhaolewo。woyichangpingjingdinaqizijideshouji，zoudaoyangtai，
botongleyigezuoshangyediaochahexinxizixundepengyoudedianhua。「wei，qiangzi，shiwo，wanqing。bangwogemang，
chayixiachenmozuijinbannian，youmeiyouzaiyixietedingchangsuo，birugaoduanshangchang、cantingdexiaofeijilu，
yonghefaheguidetujing。haiyou，chayigejiaosuyuroude，tamengongsidexingzheng，kankantadegongkaishejiaomeiti。」
dengdaijieguodeneijitian，wobiaoxiandeyiqieruchang，shenzhibipingshigengjiawenroushuncong。
wojitabaotazuiaihedelianoutang，tingtabaoyuangongzuozhongyudaode“chunren”，
banyanzheyigechenjinzaixingfuhunyinli、haowuchajuedeqizi。chenmosihuhenshouyongwozheituruqilaide“wenshun”，
duiwotaiduyehuinuanlebushao，shenzhizhudongtichuzhoumopeiwoqukanyichangxinshangyingdedianying。danwozhidao，
youxiedongxi，yijingchedibianle。wodeneixinyipianbingleng，xiangshizaijinxingyichanggaobieyanchu。qiangzidexiaolvhengao。
jitianhou，yifenjiandandebaogaofadaolewodejiamiyouxiangli。shangmianqingxidixianshi，chenmozuijinlianggeyue，
youshucizaimougaoduanshangchangdexiaofeijilu，shijiandianyutashengcheng“jiaban”deyewangaoduwenhe。qizhongyibi，
zhengshizaiyijiazhimingkouhongzhuanju。ertongguogongkaideshejiaomeitixinxi，
wokandaoletashaichudeneizhiremensehaokouhongshisezhaopian，
peiwenshi：“ganxietiexinyouzhuanyedemoge~[aixin]zaogaodexinqingdoubeizhiyule！
”suiranmeiyouzhijiede、lugudeliaotianjilu，danzheixiegongkaide、kechazhengdexiansuo，
yijingzaiwonaohailizidongpincouchuyifuqingxidelingrenxintongdetuxiang——wodezhangfu，zaiyongwomengongtongdeqian，
zaiyuanbenyinggaipeibanwodeyewan，naixindipeilingyigenvrenguangjie，bingsongtazuyichuandiaimeixinhaodeliwu。
wokanzhepingmushangdezhengju，meiyouyanlei，meiyouxiesidili，fanerqiyidipingjinglexialai。yizhong「guoranruci」
、「zhongyulaile」dechenailuodinggan，qudailesuoyoufenluandeqingxu。zuitongkudecaicebeizhengshi，
fanershiyizhongjietuo。womeiyousihaoyouyu，
likeyuyuelebenshikoubeizuihaode、shanzhangchulihunyinjingjijiufendelihunlvshi，jinxinglexiangxidezixun。ranhou，
woxiangyitouchenmoerjingtidemushou，
danhejiangjinjilu、gupiaojijintouzizhanghu、tasuozaichuangyegongsideguquanzhengming……wojiangsuoyouzhizhiwenjiansaomiao，
dianzijilubeifen，fenmenbielei，quebaowanwuyishi。tongshi，woyi「xianghuangehuanjing，tishengziji」weiyou，
gengjiatourudigongzuo，bingkaishiliyongyeyushijian，jiechuyixiedulideshineishejixiangmu，
pingjiewoguowangjileidehaokoubeihezhashidezhuanyenengli，henkuaijiuyouleyixiesidan，
qiaoqiaojileizhezijide“xiaojinku”。wodeshangsi，yiweifeichangjingmingganlianqiexinshangwodenvzongjian，
sihuchajuedaolewodebianhua，sixialijilewohenduozhichihejihui。wozaiweiyichangzhanzhengzuozhunbei，
erzheichangzhanzheng，wobixuying。3shijizaiyigeyuehouchengshu。chenmofuzedeneigezhongyaoxiangmuchenggongshangxian，
fanxiangbucuo，tanadaoleyibixiangdangfenghoudejiangjin，zhenggerenzhideyiman，zouludoudaizhefeng。neitianwanshang，
tanandedizhunshihuijia，lianshangdaizhejiuweide、qingsongyuyuedexiaorong。「wanqing，kankanwojinidaileshenme？」
tahuangzheshoulideyigeshechipinlogodeshoushihe，「xiangmujiangjinxialaile，jinimailetiaoxianglian，
bojinxiangzuande，mibushangcidejinianri。」tadeyuqidaizheshishebandebuchangyiwei。
wokanzheneigejingzhidehezi，xinlimeiyourenhebolan，shenzhixiangxiao。yitiaoxianglian，
jiunengmoshasuoyoudeshanghaihebeipanma？wozhishipingjingdizhilezhiketingdeshafa：「chenmo，womentantan。」
tayouxiecuoe，lianshangdexiaorongjiangleyixia，danhaishiyiyanzuolexialai，daizheyisibujie。womeiyourenhepudian，
zhijiejiangneifendayinhaode、tiaokuanqingxidelihunxieyi，tuidaotamianqiandechajishang。talianshangdexiaorongshunjianninggu，
nanyizhixindinaqixieyi，feikuaidifanlejiye，yuekanlianseyuenankan，zuihoumengdijiangxieyishuaizaichajishang，
fachu“pa”deyishengxiang：「linwanqing！nishenmeyisi？**youzainaoshenme？」「yisihenqingchu，
baizhiheizi。」wodeshengyinpingjingdexiangjielebingdehumian，「woyaolihun。」「weishenme？」
taxiangshitingdaoleshenmetiandadexiaohua，mengdicongshafashangzhanqilai，jugaolinxiadidengzhewo，ejiaoqingjinweitiao，
「jiuyinweiwowangleyigepojinianri？haishiyinweiwozuijinjiabanduolelengluoleni？linwanqing，nizhiyuma？
ninengbunengchengshuyidian？wozaiwaimianpinsipinhuo，hejiuyingchou，bujiushiweilezheigejia，
weilerangniguoshanghaorizi？」zhidaocike，tayiranjuedeshiwozaiwuliqunao，shiwobugou“chengshu”，