第一章
我爱顾骁整整十年！
ketaqueqinshouyaolewodeming！
1.
wohuaiyunsanzhoudeshihou，beiguxiaolashangleshoushutai。
tashiwodezhangfu，kexianzai，taquebuguwohehaizidesihuo，yaowozuogusuiyizhishoushu，jiulinxiner。
“guxiansheng，lu**huaiyoushenyun，shoushuhaiyaojixuma？”wotingdaoshoushuzhiqian，zhudaoyishengzaisanxunwen。
junmeijinguidenanrenchuanzhejiancaidetidexizhuangfushenningshizhewo，yanzhongwubanfenrouqing。leiyanposuozhong，wokandaotaweiqidebochunyizhangyihe，tuchudemeiyigezidouyourulirenwanxin。
“手术继续！”
neiyike，wotingdaolezijixinsuideshengyin。
“hahaha，hahaha……”luozhenkewendeshoushushili，woxiaodejuewangyouqiliang。
woshibeirencongbingchuangshanglaxialaide，“sibulejiujiwoqilai！”
“guxianshengyoushi，bufangzhishuo。”
taqingheyisheng，yandideyaneyichuyankuang，“zaiwomianqian，buyongzhuang，exin。”shuowan，nachushoujuancalecashou，“xinerxinglaizhiqian，nizuihaolaoshiyidian。”
woyongjinquanlikoujinlechuangdan，“gun！”
taqishenxiangqian，yibasuozhulewodehoulong，“luxingwan，woquannirenqingxianshi。yiqiannishiwopengzaizhangxindezhuyu，xianzai，”
“不过是垃圾。”
shuowan，tahaobulianxidizhuaizhuwodegebo，jiangwotuochulebingfang。
yilushang，woxiangbeishilemofadetixianmuou，renyoutabaibu。
wobeitaqiangxingtuodaoleyikuaimubeiqian。
“guixia！”talengshengmingling。
seseqiufeng，chuiluanwodezhangfa。
wocaineiyike，woyidingshijimeide。
yinwei，tadingzhewokanlehaojimiao。
zicongtarendingshiwohaileyeyezhihou，tajiuzaiyemeiyouzhengyankanguowo。
zhishi，tahenkuaidiaozhengguolai，jiangwoyongliandaozaidi。
wokandaomubeishangkezheyixingzi：guhengzhizhimu。
zheishidangchuwomenyiqifancihai，jiweilaideerziqudemingzi。
woxintouyidong，zhengyaokaikou，quetingdetoudingshangfangchuanlaiyiju，“zheishiwohexinerdehaizi，luxingwan，ruobushinixinhenshoulahaidexinerliuchan，xianzaiwoyijingzuobabale。”
“nishuoshenme？nihelinxinerdehaizi？”wobukezhixindikanzheta，xiongqianglitengtongnanyi。
“luxingwan，biejilianbuyaolian，”tayongliwojinquantou，haosizaijilikezhi，“niqiantayigedaoqian！”
我谁也不欠！
wanqiufengsheng，lengdaolejizhi，yetongdaolejizhi。
fuzaibingliangdeshuinidishang，liangjiuwocaiyouliqikaikou，“guxiao，nitingzhe，woluxingwanzheibeizizhiguitianguidiguifumu，qitaren，bupei！”
tafushoukanzhewo，xirirouqingtunqu，jinyuhenyi，“luxingwan，biebiwoshuochugengnantingdehua。”
zhouweisiyibandechenjing，haoyihuier，taranlehanshuangdeshengyincaiyouzhongxinxiangqi，“yeyedemingshixinerjiude，weicitazaiyebunengzhanzaiwutaishang，zhiciyidian，wobianduitazhisibuyu。”
wonanguodebishangleyanjing。
renlexujiudeleishui，zaiditoudechanei，dakehualexialai。
dahuozhongbeishaoguangletoufawomeiyouku，huaizheyunbeituijinbinglengdeshoushushichouzougusui，daozhiliuchanwoyemeiyouku，kezheiyike，woquekudeleiruyuxia。
yuanlaizhendeyouyizhongtong，wufayanyu。
2.
woshibeiweitongzhemoxingde。
zhengkaiyanjiukandaotoudingshangfangxuanzhedeshuxuedai，yijixiaohushixinxudejieshi，“duibuqilu**，lin**jixushuxue，xuekulimeiyougentapipeidexuexing，suoyiguzongfenfu，”
吩咐抽我的血！
呵~
wozhoumeipieleyanzijishoubeishangdezhenguan，zhuangzuobuzaiyidebishangleyanjing。
眼不见为净！
随他们折腾去吧。
jiuzheliangshuihuluantunlejikeweiyao，womimihuhushuileguoqu。
zaicixinglai，buzhijingnianjihe，zhijuetianhuimengmengde，biwodexinqinghaiyaozaogao。
wozhengzhazheqishen，xiangyaoquweishengjian，naihepinjinlequanlidoumeinengzhiqishenzi。
zuihouhaishilaidasaoweishengdebaojieayikandao，fulewoyiba，“gunianga，nishentizheimexuruo，haishidadianhuarangjialilaigerenzhaoguzhaoguniba？”
家人？
weiyikeyichengzhiweijiarendezhangfuyijingbuyaowole，worujinnalihaiyoujiaren？
yixiangdaozheige，wojiunanguo。
yuanbenyiweitacongmguohuilai，jiubahuaiyundexixungaosutade，zheiyangwomenyijiarenjiunengkaikaixinxinyongbufenlile，kemeixiangdaomanxinhuanxidenglaidequeshizheiyangyigeehao。
luxingwan，womenlihunba！
“weishenme？”wobuganxin。
“buaijiufenkai，dangchunishuode。”tahuanhuantuchuyikouxiangyan，manbujingxindao。
woyandishirun，qiangyanfuhe，baochilezuihoudetimian，“shia，woshuode。”
“lihunxieyiwohuipairensongguolai，nijideqianzi。”
ranhou，tazhanqilaizoule。
erwodingzhetalikaidebeiying，kudeganchangcunduan。
neiyike，wojuewangdeyiwei，tashizhendebuaile，caihuiduiworucijueqing。
houlai，wocaizhidao，shiqingyuanfeiwoxiangxiangdejiandan。
erzheiyiqiebeihoudeshizuoyongzhezhengtangzaiyiyuandebingchuangshang，banyanzhemeinvjiuyingxiongdekuqingxima。
shuotaxianhailewo，sheihuixiangxinni？
jiulianweiyikeyiweiwozhengmingqingbaideyeye，douchenglezhiwuren，zaiyekaibulekou。
yiqiedeyiqiedouqiaohederangrenxisijikong。
weiduguxiao，shenxinbuyi。
jianxinwojiushihaiyeyechengweizhiwurendezuikuihuoshou！
对我恨之入骨！
buguo，suoxingtahaimeiyouwanquanminmierenxing，zheijitianmeitiandouhuizhipaiyigehugonglaijiwosongfan。youshishijitang，youshishiwoxihuandelianzizhouyihuoqita。
woxinxiajidong，yiweitachaminglezhenxianghuixinzhuanyile，quebucengxiangtingdaotazheiyangduihugongshuo，“wubibatajiwokanlaole，xinermeituoliweixianzhiqian，woyaobaozhengtahuozhe。”
原来如此！
wodecunzaiyutaeryan，buguoshiyigegongjuren。
wozaiyiyuantanglezhengzhengershitian，shentifeidanmeiyousihaoqisefanerhaiyuefaxuruo。yuanlailinxinergusuiyizhihoupaiyidehenlihai，suoyiwobeipochengletadezhuanshuxuebao。
yongguxiaodehuajiushi：xinxianxueyegengliyutadebaobeixinerhuifu。
yeyechenglezhiwuren，linxineryezaizhongzhengjianhushi，guxiaodepiqiyaoduobaozaojiuyouduobaozao。
zhiqianwoyinweiconghuochangjiangyeyejiuchulaishi，buxiaoxinbeishaoguangletoufa，pohuailemaonang，houlaihaoburongyizhaolezheifangmiandezhuanjia，naixindiaolicaizhangchulaitoufa。
zhiyinguxiaoshuo，xihuanwozhangfapiaopiaodeyangzi。
keshixianzai，wodetoufadabatuoluo，xiangshimeiyouguangzedekucaoyiban。
人也瘦得不成样子。
zhongyu，zaiyiciyouyicideshuxueguohou，yishengrenbuzhutixingdao，“guzong，zaizheiyangxiaqu，lu**huiyoushengmingweixiande，ninkanshibushi，”
kemeixiangdaowotingdaodeyiranguxiaobinglengdehuifu，“tadesihuo，buzhongyao！”
tazaiyide，zhiyoulinxiner。
leishuishunzheyanjiaoqiaoqiaohualuo，anjingdebingfangli，wojiangtoumaizaibeiziliwushengdichuoqizhe。
beipianaishi，zongyoushiwukong。
我闹他笑。
keyidanbuai，tadiyishijianjiunengzhuanshen，woqueguozaihuiyili，cunbubuqian。
……
yigeyuehou，linxinerbingqingzhongyuwendingxialai，wozheicaidedaolezanshidejietuo。
zheitianxiawu，yiyuanlailehaojigechehuozhongshangdehuanzhe，yiyuanshangxiamangdebukekaijiao，wochenzhedajiabuzhuyi，toutouhuanshanglebaojieayideyifu，paolechuqu。
wozhanzaishenqiudejietou，taitouyangwangzhanlandetiankong。
jiyihuanghuchu，yiqiesihudoumeibian，queyoudoubianle。
我抑制不住悲伤。
hunhuangdeludengxia，wodunzaiwurendejiejiao，kudesixinliefei。
yejiushizaineiyitian，wojiandaolejiuweimoumiandelaotongxue---suqingyan。
“nixingle？”chunhoucixingdenandiyin。
womurankanzheta，banshangshuobuchuhua。
“zenme，burenshiwole？”tajiangchazhexiguandebeizididaowozuibian，kanwoxilejikoufangcaifangxiabeizixiaozheshenchushou，“xingwan，haojiubujian！”
“haojiubujian！”wojinliangrangzijideshengyintingqilaiwuyang。
wunianqian，wozaiguxiaohesuqingyanzhijianxuanlelujin，suqingyandezhixiaoxihoudiertianbianbanlilechuguoshouxu，congciyizoubianzaiyemeiyouhuilai。
woyiwei，womenzaiyebuhuixiangjianle。
meixiangdao，wunianhou，jinghuiyizheizhongfangshizaijianmian。
yishijian，qianchenwangshiyongshangxintou，dudewowuzangliufufanjiangdaohaidenanshou。
sixujijingzhanzhuan，zuizhong，woyezhishiwanlewanzuijiao，“qingyan，huanyingnihuilai。”
suqingyanyixiao，“wodengzhenijiwojiefeng！”
“woxianzaizheigeyangzi……”
“meiguanxi，wodengni！”
tadaiyifujinsibianyanjing，yixiaoluchuyikoujiebaizhengqideyachi，yuefatianlejifenruyafengdu。genjiyizhongdeshaonianmanmanzhonghezaileyiqi。
“xingwan，woxihuanni！”
“sannianyihuowunian，wodengni。”
shuyingbanbodeneigexiawu，fengchuiqiwodexiufa，fuguotadelianpang，baiyishaoniankanzhewodeyanli，manshixingguang。
woduitazhanyanyixiao，queshuozhezuicanrendehua，“duibuqisuqingyan，woxihuanderenshiagu。”
3.
我还是没能逃走。
yinwei，suqingyangangzou，wobianbeilianggechuanheiyidaimojingdenanrentuojinleyiliangcheli。
“zaiwodeyanpidixiasihui，luxingwan，nizhangnengnailea！”jiazhanglinkenli，guxiaodanshouniezhewodexiaba，tengdewoyanleizhidazhuan。
“kanzaiwomencengxiangaiyichangdefenshang，fanglewo！”
我近乎哀求。
“xiangaiyichang？”taxiangshitingdaolequanshijiezuihaoxiaodexiaohua，“luxingwan，zheimeduonianguoqule，nihaishizheimezizuoduoqing！”
“你什么意思？”
wozhitaxiangjiangwoqiandaowangua，lingchichusi。
但我不怪他。
“wocongmeiaiguoni！”tabochunweiqi，huanhuantuchu。
erwoquejuewuleihongding，yaoyaoyuzhui。
“suoyi，niaiderenyizhidoushilinxiner？”zongranwanbanbukan，wohaishirenbuzhuwen。
taxiazhangfengmounizhewo，“niyiweini？”
你以为呢？
zheiyike，wozhijuetiantadixian。
我被带回了鹿园。
shuoqilaigoufengci，zheiyuanzi，shidangnianguxiaoqinshouweiwojiande。nongqingmiyishi，taxichengzheilishiwomende“aichao”，erxianzai，zheiligengxiangshiyizuojingzhidelaolong。
kunzhulewo，queweibikunzhuta。
“kuaishuo，neigenanrenshishei？”yijinmen，guxiaojiujiangwohenhenshuaizailechuangshang。
woetoukezaichuangtou，dunganxianxueliuchu，danhaishangweilaidejichuli，bianbeitaqiazhulebozi，dizaileqiangshang，“shuo，neigenanrendaodishishei？”
“jiranbuai，youhebini？”wokanzheta。
xianxuehaizaibutingwangxialiu，lianshang，bozishang……zuizhongzaijiebaidechuangdanshangkaichuleyinhongdehua。
wotengdemeiyandouningbadaoleyiqi，yangzibuyongxiangdouhenchou。
ketaqueyishunbushunkanzhewo，yanshenfuzadaowochadianyiweitashizaidanxinwo，“niyiweiwochabudao？”
wobuyu，miansechaohong，jianjianchuanbushangqilai。
talengxiao，feidanbufangshou，haiyibachediaolewoyonglaizhexiudeyifu，“luxingwan，womenrenshizheimeduonian，wojingbuzhidaoyuanlainizheime**。”
我依然看着他。
kantaziyanziyuturanjiuborandanu，“cila”yisheng，jiangwoshenshangdeyifubolegeganjing，bingshunshibanglewodeshoujiao。
wozaibiesidebianyuandeyijiejiu，yushibianlengchaorefeng，“yo，xianzaibuxianwozangle？gudashaoyekezhenshijibuzeshia！”
“啪！”
yizhangxiaqu，wodebanbianlianfama。
taliyuwodeshangfang，jiuneiyangfushenkanzhewo，shuochudemeiyigezidourangwohoubeifahan，“luxingwan，woyaonipeiwoxiadiyu！”
lianggexiaoshihou，tabawochiganmojing，tishangkuzitouyebuhuideshuaimenerqu。
wosiyubantangzaineili，zhijuexiuru。
woshiqiangshanghaiguazhewomendehezhao，talanzhewo，**zaitajiantou，xiaodexiangtianzuozhihe。
queyuanlai，zheiyiqiedoushifengci。
getian，woshoudaoyifengnimingyoujian。
dakailaikan，neirongquechadianrangwohunjueguoqu。
“luxingwan，niyiweitaweishenmequni？niyiweinifumushuangshuangchehuo，jinjinzhishiyiwaima？luxingwan，nizheigeshazi，buyaozaizizuoduoqingle，guxiaoaiderenzishizhizhongdoushilinxiner。”
duanduanjijuhua，xiangshiyigeqingtianpiliyixiazijiangwopixing。
woyiweitashuodebuguoshiqihua。
却原来，都是真的。
xiangdaodangnianfumushuangshuangsiyuchehuo，budeyixiajianglushichanyedequanbugufenzhuanyidaowodemingxia，wojiurenbuzhuyizhenxinjing。
yuanlai，yuanlaitajingshibaozhezheiyangyigemude。
kuiwohaiyiweitabuguoshiyinweiaiwo！
luxingwan，nizenmezheimesha！
wokanzheqianbaolineizhangquanjiafu，zhenxiangyitouzhuangsi。
可我不能。