第二章

尘埃落定

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wowozaianxiazedefangjianlibuganchumen,shengpabeirenpengdao。

zaofanmeichi,wufanyemeichi,duziedegugujiao。

kezheijiahuojiuhaoxiangshicunxingenwozuoduiside,zhidaowanjiancaihuilai。

woedeqianxiongtiehoubeide,lianzhanqilaizouludouqingpiaopiaode。

jiandaowoshi,anxiazeyouxiexujingya,tamianwubiaoqingdewen:“zenme?shebudezou?”

“woyaojianwodie!”wodudingdekanzheta。

tachixiaoyisheng:“wozhidayingrangtaguodeshufudian,kemeishuorangnijianta。”

“你……”

“yaoshu,bierewobukaixin,fouzeshoukudeshinidie。”

tashenmeshihoubiandezheibanwulaile?

woqigugudekanzheta:“daodizenyangnicaikenfangguota?yimingdiyiming,nidietasiyouyugu,niyaobaofuchongwoyigerenlai。”

“wodieshigefengzi,yiqiedoushiwozuode,tashenmedoubuzhidao!”

anxiazedaxiaoliangsheng,niwoyiyan:“zheichangyouxiwoshuolesuan,nimeidexuan。”

“fangxin,zaiwowannizhiqian,tabuhuiyoushi。”

“anxiaze,nibeibi……”

wozhijuedetineiqixueyizhenfanyong,jinjiezhebianyanqianyihei。

yunguoquzhiqian,wohaoxiangkandaoleanxiazejiaojidelianpang。

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wozuoleyigehenzhanghenzhangdemeng。

cengjing,woyouyigehenxingfudejia。

diedieshihoufulidezhangfangxiansheng,ruyajunyi。

niangqinshididouyoumingdexiuniang,xinlingshouqiao。

zaiyigehanlengdedongye,anxiazedefuqinanyuanshandaizheyiqunrenbaoweilewodejia,jiangwojiafanlegedichaotian。

woqinyankandaoanyuanshanchuangjinwoniangdefangjian,dangzhefuqindemian**leta。

niangqinbukanshouru,yaoshezijin。

weimanyisuidedidibeianyuanshanhuohuoshuaisi。

fuqinaileyidaodangchangdaoxia。

nianyoudewobeianyuanshanshouxiaderenlinqilairengdaolejingli。

fuqinmanshenshixuedebawocongjinglilaoleshanglai,jiaojidepaizhewodelianhuhanwodemingzi。

womingda,neikoujingshikude。

keshenhouxiongxiongliehuoquechayidianjiangwotunmei。

fuqinbaozhewotaolilehuochang,ketaqueyinweixirutaiduoyouduqitihunmilehenjiu。

zaixinglaideshihou,tazhenggerendouchishale,shenmedoubujidele。

congneiyihou,woxinliyanlichulefuchouzaiwuqita。

wodaizhechishadefuqinyiluqitao,hunjizaisanjiaojiuliuzhizhong。

zhidaowoyujianlelimingyu,shitabawodaidaoleshifushenbian……

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congyikaishijiejinanxiaze,wojiushidaizhemudede。

woyequeshichenggongbaofuletadefuqinanyuanshan。

worangtashenbaiminglie,diuleyiqiediweirongyao。

可这一切还不够。

tayougeyouxiuzhijideerzi,jibianruciluopoyehaishiwurenganqi,jinyiyushi。

wofaguoshi,ranganyuanshanguizaiwoniangdelingweiqianchanhui。

yushiwoshejibangzouleanyuanshan。

zaiwoyaoshatadeshihou,anxiazecongtianerjiang。

taqiuwo,raoanyuanshanyiming。

taduiwoshuo:“ayao,wozhidaotafanlewufaraoshudecuowu,kewulunruhe,tashiwodie。taxianzaishenmedoumeiyoule。”

“niraotayiming,woyuanyizihuiqiancheng,zainimuqinlingqianririchanhui。”

neigexiaoyongshanzhan,congwubaiji,kaozhejuejiajianfawenmingyushideshaonianjiangjunzaiwomianqiandixialegaoguidetoulu,haobuyouyudefeilezijideyoushou。

tashengleijuxiadekanzhewo:“ayao,napaniduiwoyouyidingdianai,jiufangguota,haobuhao?”

neishi,woyijingbaolebisidejuexin。

wobukenchengren,yebuganchengrenaishanglechourendeerzi。

“xingxingba,anxiaze,niyiweiwohuiduiniyouganqing?congtoudaoweiwobuguodoushizailiyongnibale!”

“jintian,zhiyoulianggejieguo。”

“yaomeanyuanshansi,yaomewoheanyuanshanyiqisi!”

之后发生了什么呢?

wodetouyizhenjutongzhengkaileyanjing。

limingyushuowoshanglenaozi,suoyiwangjileyixieshiqing。

tahaigaosuwo,anyuanshansile,anxiazeweitaliaolilehoushi。

wodiexialuobuming,kenenghaihuozhe。

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yingruyanliandeshiwenruandezhuguang,haiyouanxiazeneizhangjunlian。

taxieyizairuantashangkanshu,meiyouhuitou,quezhidaowoyijingxingle。

“yaoshu,youzaishuashenmehuayang?guyieyunboquwodetongqing?”

“niyiwei,wohaihuiduiniyouganqing?”

wolenghengyisheng:“zhenghao,ganqingneiwanyierwozaojiumeile。”

“anxiaze,haishineijuhua,yaobaofuchongwoyigerenlai。”

tayaoxiangshawomenlianggezaojiushale,hekudouzheimedayigequanzi。

wozhidaoanxiazehenwo,chayidian,taderenshengjiuzheimehuile。

zhiyaowodiehaohaode,wozenyangdouwusuowei。

anyuanshanyijingsile,fuqinbianshiwohuozaizheigeshishangweiyideqianbanle。

yaoshitayemeile,wojiusuizhetayiqiquyinjian,zheiyangwomenyijiajiuyounengtuanjule。

zhengxiangzhe,menwaiyingjinlaiyimoyingzi,yourenbatuopanfangzaidishang,momolikai。

anxiazeqishenduanjinlai,nongyudefanxiangweiyixiazizuanrulewodebijian。

duzibuzhengqidegugujiaoqilai。

anxiazelengmodeshengyinchuanjinlewodeerduoli:“guolai,tibenguanshishizheixiefancaiyoumeiyoudu?”

woqishenmanyouyouzoudaozhuoqian,taimoukanta:“nidaodiyouduotaoyancainengyourentiantianpanzhenisia?”

tagoulegouchunjiao,sixiaofeixiao:“zuipanzhewosiderenbujiushinima?”

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wonazhekuaizideshouyidun:“zaiquedingwodiedeanquanyiqian,wohaibuxiwangnisi。”

“xiangshiduzheiyangdekuchashi,jiubiehuohaibierenle。”

shuozhe,wobiandakoudakoudechileqilai,zhidaofancaidoujiandideshihou,womeichuxidedalegebaoge。

duianxiazedao:“shiguole,meidu,xianzaishoufudarenkeyifangxinchile。”

talenghengyisheng,xianqidekanlewoyiyan:“kanzhenijiujuededaoweikou,nalihaiyouxinqingchifan,gun!”

wolejianqicheng,jingzhilikai。

zheiye,woyikedoumeixiuxi,batajialifanlegedichaotianyemeizhaodaowodiedezongying。

denghuidaofudideshihou,tianyijingdaliangle。

funeiyipianpingjing,hewoliaoxiangzhongdeyiyang。

guoran,zheixiedoushianxiazederen,ziranbuhuiyourenweiwodeshizongerzheji。

dangran,woyemeishadezaitamenyanpizidixiachuandixiaoxi。

getian,taihouxuanwojingong。

shuoshiyaodangzhonggongbuwodeshenfen。

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wochuanshangshinvnajiwodeyiqun,renyoutamenweiwoshuzhuang。

shenhoudexiaoyahuanrenbuzhuzantanyisheng:“gongzhuzhenshiguosetianxiang,shinubijianguozuihaokanderen。pashizhiyoushoufuneiyangdeqingniancaijuncainengyuzhixiangpeile。”

wokanzhejingzhongdeziji,mianwubiaoqing,lenglengdao:“sheidoukeyiyuwoxiangpei,weidutabuxing。”

sishiduitashuo,gengxiangshiduiwozijishuo。

bijingwomenzhijiangezheshafuzhichou,shamuzhihen,zenmekenenghuizoudaoyiqiqu。

erzheichangsuoweidegongyan,yebianchengleduiwokouzhubifadehaomenshengyan。

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neixiegaomenguinvyilunqiwolaihaobubihui。

wojiuzuozaiyipang,jingjingdetingzhe。

“yigeminjianlaidejianpeizi,yebuzhidaoyongshenmeazashouduanpashangleshoufudarendechuang,zheicaihuanlegegongzhudefenghao,zhenshibuzhilianchi。”

“biechibuzheputaoshuoputaosuan,zheiyangdeshouduandaodiyebushiwomenzheixieshenfengaoguidemingmendinvnengzuodechulaide。pinzeweiqi,benweiqie。nimenshuo,zheisuanshenme?”

“kuaibieshuole,lianshijingtongyaodouzaichang,dongbianlailegeyaomeimei,yueergaogaodaizhucui,houmenjinzhaimenchu,delefenghaoleyouyou。”

womianwubiaoqingdekanzhezheixiechaoxiaowoderen。

xindiquelengchiyisheng,anxiaze,zheijiushiniduiwodebaofu?

rangwoshenjugaowei,beishirentuoma。

rangwomingjiejinhui,xiukuizijinersi?

buhaoyisi,nideruyisuanpandacuole。

我没那么容易死。

zheishi,yougebuzhisihuodenvrenduanzhejiubeilaidaowodegenqian:“jiemeimen,rangwomenyitongjubeiweibenchaozuixiazuodegongzhuqingheyixia!”

neinvrengaogaozaishangdekanzhewo,manyandejiduyubugan。

jianwoduanqizhuoshangdejiubeitalianshangdedeyigengshen。

suijitaranggongrenduanlaiyizhengtanzijiufangzaiwomianqian,jijinchaofeng:“gongzhudarenjinerbubazheiyitanzijiuheguang,kebunengzoua。”

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woweiweiyixiao,shouzhongdejiubeibupianbuyidezazaileneinvrendeetoushang,jiubeiluozaidishangshuaichengsuipian,xianchangdunshiyipianhunluan。

wolinqineitanzijiu,baikaineinvrendexiaba:“bushixianghejiuma?jinernijiuhegegou!”

zheichangnaojuyitaihoudedaolaishouwei,suoyourendoushoudaolezefa。

wobeidaidaogonglidejingxindianchaoxiefojing。

lingluandezijiyiruwocikedexinqing。

bangwan,machezaizhewochulehuanggong。

lushang,woqinertingdaoleneishourumawodegeyao。

wozhijuedehunshendexueyedouzaixiangshangfanyong,xinlizhoumaleanxiazeqianbaibian。

jihuabixutiqianshishi,fouzeyiwozheipiqijueduihuibeiqisi。

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yiri,wocongxiarenkouzhongtingdaoxiexubagua。

jushuo,anxiazefalehaodadehuo,chuzhilexuduoguanyuan。

zuiyouyisideshi,neitianhewofashengchongtudenvren,buzhilianchidezuanjinlezijiamanudebeiwo,beirendangchangzhuajian。

xianzaijietouxiangweidouzaiyilunzheijianshi,guanyuwodeliuyanziranyebeirenmenpaozhunaohou。

zheibandishuibulouleilifengxingdeshouduanyikanjiushichuzianxiazezhishou。

他这算什么?

jiwoyibazhangzaijigetianzaochi?

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dongzhineitian,waimianpiaoqileemaodaxue。

我看着窗外发呆。

purencongwaimianmailailewozuiaichideguihuagao,qianchangyikou,rukoujihua,shicuifangzhaidebujia。

wodiyicitajinleneizuoliangting。

guangzhejiaocaizaidibanshang,nuannuande。

dibanshangdetuanyehenshitebie,liangkexinyidayixiao,yongjianchuanzaiyiqi。

woshuliandewenqilejiu,pingtuizuoyou,yigerenxiangshouzheibanqieyideshiguang。

shihedejiacenglizangzheyizhangzhitiao,kanwanhouwobujinxinxiruokuang,zhongyuyaojiandaodiediele。

yebuzhidaozheiyinianduotaguodehaobuhao?

anxiazeyoumeiyounvedaita?

zheici,woyidingdaitazou。

(18)

jietoudidianshihoufudelaozhai。

suoyoudeenyuanjiugedoushicongneigedifangkaishide。

ziconganyuanshanchushi,neizuozhaizijiukongluolemeirenkanguan,guaibudewomeiyouxiangdao。

tajuranbarenzangzailezheili?

kanzheyanqianshuxideyuanluo,wozhixiangkuaidianchongjinqubawodiedaizou。

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zoujinhunandedilao,yuanyuandewojiukandaoyougetaozheheisetoutaoderenyingbeibangzailimian。

wojiaojidepaoguoqu,yibianpaoyibianhuhan:“die,biepa,wolaijiunile!”

zoujin,wocaifaxianbuduijing,zhuanshenxiangtaodeshihouyijinglaibujile。

shenhouturanbeiwushuhuoguangzhaoliang,wozhaodeneiyingjuranzhanzaianxiazeshenbian。

tabaoqiandekanlewoyiyan,chuixiatou。

woqidezuanquan,zhijiahenhendekouzheshouxin,zhidaoweiyuhehaodeshangkouzaiciliekai,xianxueranhongzhijiacaihuiguoshen。

anxiazeyeyudekanzhewowen:“buxiangkankanbeibangzhederenshishei?”

yizhongbuxiangdeyuganziwoxindifanqi。

xiayimiao,limingyudelianchuxianzailewodemianqian。

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tadezuibeiduzhe,yishuangxuehongdeyanjingyuanhenzhijidedingzheanxiaze。

zheiyikewoqingchudezhidao,womenlianggedoubeianxiazejisuanjile。

shishishang,wobingmeiyoujieshoulimingyurenhebangzhu。

wohetashuodehenqingchu,hetajuewukeneng,rangtabuyaozhaorewo,yebiezaiwoshenshanglangfeishijian。

padejiushianxiazebaduiwodehenyifaxiedaotadeshenshang。

wonileanxiazeyiyan,wenta:“shoufudarenzheishiheyi?”

anxiazedeshizhihengzaichunbian,bihualeyigexudeshoushi,yongyanshenshiyishenpangderennaxialimingyuzuilisaizhedepobu。

limingyutulebantiankoushui,yaobushidaohengzaibojingshang,pashizaojiuchongguolaiheanxiazepinmingle。

anxiazeweiweigoulexiachunjiao,bujinbumandekaikoudao:“yechuangbenguanfudi,shenyebangjiagongzhu,litonglingshuoshuo,yizhaolvfagairuhechuzhi?”

“yaoshayaoguaxitingzunbian,yongzheibanxiazuodefangfayinwoshanggou,anxiazeniweimianyetaibeibiledian,youzhongjiuhewozhengdaguangmingdebishiyifan?”

anxiazewenyanbianhahadaxiaoleqilai,tashenchuneizhibahenchouloudeyoushou,yishuangyaoraodedanfengyankanxiangwo:“ayao,zheijiushinixihuandenanren?haoxianghaimeiduannai?”

xianchangderendourenbuzhuxiaoleqilai。

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“anxiaze,ninayaoshukuangwo,nibudehaosi!”

limingyufafengsidehanzhe。

wozhuanmoukanxianganxiaze:“shuoba,nizenyangcaikenfangguota?”

anxiazemouzilidenuqixianeryijian,siyoujifenchiweidezhiwenwo:“nijiuneimeshebudetasi?”

“dui,jiushishebude。”

hualuo,anxiazedebiaoqingjiujiangzailelianshang。

wochaofengdexiaolexiao,yuqiyeyu:“zenme?biegaosuwonihaifanjiandeaizhewo。”

“anxiazea,anxiaze,zheimejiulenizenmeyidiandoumeibianni,haishineitiaoaiwodegou!”

wodehuashuodehenzhong,wokandaoanxiazebozishangdeqingjindoutulechulai。

taturanlengxiaoyisheng:“yaoshu,renuwodehouguo,nichengshoubuqi。”

“lairen,balimingyubangqilai,duochengroujiangweigou!”

wochengren,zaineixierenjijiangdongshoudeshihouwohuangle。

woxiangdoumeixiangdezhuazhuleanxiazedeshoubei:“nibunengshata!”

tadengzhewodeyanjinglimanshihanyi,wozhidaotashizhendeshengqile,yuqibianruanlexialai。

“yaoshinixiwangwoduitakuijiuyibeizi,jiujinguansha。”

“wozuibuxihuanqianrenqingzhai,limingyu,ruguowozheicijiuleni,jiudanghainiyiming,congciwomenjiuliangqingle。”

wenyan,anxiazedeliansehuanhelejifen。

“nipingshenmerenweiniyoubenshijiutachuqu?dangniantazuochuneiyangdeshinihaiyaojiuta?”

wotingbudonganxiazezaishuoshenme,zhikandaolimingyuturancangbaidelian。

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tazhengzhazhedahan:“anxiazebietamazaizheitiaobolijian,yaoshajiukuaidian,laozidanfanzhayixiayanjingjiushinishengde!”

anxiazewalewaerduo,qingmiaodanxiedeshuoleju:“nimenjigequjilitonglingsongsonggu,tadezuitaiyingle。”

yiqunrenshunjianfengyongershangduilimingyuquandajiaoti,quantouhaobuliuqingdechongzhetadelianzaqu,xueshashibianshunzhetadezuijiaotanglechulai。

limingyukanzhewo,yanzhongmanshishenqing,duanduanxuxuanweidao:“shumeibiepa,shibanianhou,laoziyoushiyitiaohaohan!”

wodeyankuangyixiazijiuhongle,woshizaishikuiqiantataiduole。

“biedale,zhushou,nimenbiedale……”

wozhengzhazheshangqian,shoubeiquebeianxiazesisizhuaizhudongdanbude。

wohanleideyanjingwangxiangtashenglengdeceyan,zhanshengqiuta:“anxiaze,qiuni,qiunirangtamenzhushou,biedale,biedalehaoma?”

anxiazemengrannieqiwodexiaba:“yaoshu,niweiletaqiuwo?”

“nijiuneime**,shibushiweilerenheyigenanrendoukeyiqiuwo?”

erbianxiangqilimingyudehansheng:“shumei,bieqiuneige**!”

“wo……ningyuansi,yebuyuankanni……disanxiasideqiuta!”

qingjizhixia,wobaxiatoushangdefazanzhazaibojingshang:“anxiaze,fangleta,fouzewoxianzaijiusizainimianqian!”

“wosile,nijiuzaiyebunengbaofuwole。”

tadeliansenankandaolejidian,lengxiaoyisheng:“niyiweilaozizhenpanisi?”

“jintianfangleta,yihounikendinghuizhuihuimoji。”

“buyongniguan!”wodahanzhe,yonglicijinpifu,baozhebisidexintai。

anxiazezhongyurangrentingshou,fanglelimingyu。

luguotashenbiandeshihou,limingyuyaoyaqiechideshuo:“anxiaze,zhiyaowohuozhe,zaowanyouyitianrangnifenshensuigu。”

anxiazezhishibuxieyigudexiaolexiao。

kanzhelimingyuliangqianglikaideshenying,yishuangyoulidebeibangbawokangzaijianshang,yuqisenlengdao:“nisile,wojiurangnidiehelimingyuyiqijinipeizang!”

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yanleibuzhengqideliulechulai,woyibiankuyibianchuidaanxiazedehoubeidama:“**!anxiazenizheige**!”

anxiazebaworengdaomacheli,pinmingchoudazhemaer。

zhengliangmachedoudiediezhuangzhuangde,wobeihuangdetouyunmuxuan,jieliantulehaojiqi。

wobuzhidaozijishizenmehuidaozhuzhaide,zhizhidaohunshenxiangsanjialeyiyangtengtong。

henzhangyiduanshijian,wobazijiguanzaiwuzili,bufenzhouye。

anxiazeyemeizailaidaraowo。

zhidao,wobeizhenchulaihuaiyoushenyun。

wojingranhuaileanxiazedehaizi?

neiyike,wowanruoleipi。

xiangliudiao,queyouxiabuqushou,woshizaishitaikewangqinqingle。

zheigeshijietaileng,taigudu,woduomexiwangyougeqinrenpeizaiwoshenbianzhichengwohuoxiaqua!

ruoshiwodiemeifeng,dezhizheiyixiaoxikendinghuibeiqisiba。

wohuailechourendehaizi,haiyoushenmelianmianqujianta?

倒不如死了干净。

woleile,haoleihaolei,zhongyukeyibishangyanjingxiexiele。

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zaicizhengkaiyanjingdeshihou,anxiazejiuzuozaiwodechuangbian。

taderongyankanqilaiyouxiexupibeiquerengranbushijunmei。

tazhuazhewodejianbangzhiwenwo:“yaoshu,nijiuzheibantaoyanwo?qingyuanqusi,yebuyuanshengxiawodehaizi?”

“对。”

neiyike,wokandaotazangzaiyandishenshendeshangtongyuluomo。

wodexinyegenzhetengleqilai。

“anxiaze,womenzhijiangedebuzhishishanhai,haiyoushamuzhichou,shafuzhihen。”

“beifuzheiyangdexuehaishenchou,nirangzheigehaizishengxialairuhezichu?”

“rangtalaidaozheigeshishang,caishitianliburong!”

“hushuo!”tawunaidekanzhewo,tanlekouqi:“anyuanshanbushiwoshengfu。”

“buguannixinbuxin,womeipianni。”

wenyan,wozhenggerendoulengzhule,bukezhixindekanzheta。

“dengniyanghaoshentiwojiudainiqujiannifuqin。”

shuozhe,taduanqiyiwanshourouzhousongdaowochunbian,naixindehongwohexia。

womozhehaiweilongqidexiaofu,xinxufanluan。

anxiazetiexindeweiwocalecachunjiao,qingshenghuanwo:“ayao,biezaihewoouqile,haobuhao?”

yishunjian,yanjingliyouwuqihuaguo,wotaimoukanta:“nibuhenwo?”

“biqihen,wogengpashiquni。”

“ayao,womenyihoudouhaohaodexingma?”

yanleibuzhengqidediaoxialai,anxiazeqingqingyongworuhuai,wobatoumaizaitahuailifangshengdaku。

“weishenme?weishenmepengdaozheizhongshiqingdeshiwomen?”

tafuzhewodejibei,roushenganwei:“bieku,dengnihaole,wojiugaosunisuoyouzhenxiang。”

kanzhetazhenzhideyanshen,woxuanzelexiangxin。

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zhihoudemeiyitian,anxiazedouhuilaipeiwo,wodeshentijianjianhaolexie,danhaishixuruodehen。

jiashangyuntu,zhenggerendoubeizhemodebuchengyangzi。

anxiazeyejiuhongzhewo,yituozaituodemeirangwoqujianwodie。

tayibianweiwopaibeiyibianningmei:“made!zaozhidaohuaigeyunzheimexinku,jiubuliuzheigexiaotuzaizile!”

wobeitadehuadouxiaole:“xianzainadiaoyebuwan。”

“buxing,nideshentichengshoubuqi。”

wocongtadeshenqinglichajuechujifenbutongxunchang。

woshigeyizhe,quemeichajuedaozijishentideyiyang,zhidangtashixintengwo。

zheiduanshijian,wozhongyuguoshanglelixiangzhongdeshenghuo。

yourenpeiwokanxueshanghua,yourenpeiwoqingmeizhujiu。

buyongjiejinnaozhidefuchou,yebuyongweishengjidanyou。

kehenkuaijiuyinglailebiangu,wocongxiarenzuilitingdaoliangguojiaozhan,chaotingjiejiebaituidexiaoxi。

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anxiazekaishihuilaideyuelaiyuewan,youshihouhuilaishiyishishenye。

tazongshizaiwuwaiyongtanpenbashenshangkaodenuannuanhuhudecaijinwubaozheworushui。

wojinrishishuidehen,ouerdaqijifenjingshenlaiwentaxianzaidezhuangkuang,tayezongshibaoxibubaoyou。

zaiwohuaiyunmansangeyuedeshihou,waimianyishichuhanzhanuan。

tapotianhuangdemeiqushangchao,zaifulipeilewoyizhengtian。

dangtianwanshangtagaosuwo,tayaoqichengbenfuzhanchang。

woyigeshishen,dasuileshoubiandebeizi。

tawozhewodeshouchengnuodao:“fangxin,wojiushiqukankan,buhuishangchangshadi,woyidingganzainishengchanzhiqianhuilai。”

“wozuiyingdao:“sheidanxinnile?woshidanxinwoziji,bijingnvrenhuaiyunshengzijiuxiangchuangguimenguan,baobuqi,wojiuyimingwuhusizainiqianmianle!”

talimawuzhuwodezui,saqisidezaiwochunshangyaoleyikou:“buxuhushuo,jibianwobuzaile,yehuibaonimenmuziyishiankang。”

我嘟起嘴,不理他。

jibianxinlibuqingyuan,yegaibianbulezheigeshishi。

wojuedezijizhenshimeichuxi,zheicaijitiana,jiuduitaruciyilaile。

haixinxudemeiqukaozhengneijianshiqingdezhenjia。

huoxuchajuedaowodeqingxu,tayizhangjunliancoudaowogenqianwen:“shebudewo?”

wosuibianzhaolegeliyoutangsai:“kaikoujiumuzimuzide,wanyishigenverni?”

anxiazexiaole,canlanderutongxiaridenuanyang,yishunjianhuangdewoyouxiezhengbukaiyan。

“nvergenghao,xiangniyiyangconghuipiaoliang。”

shuozhe,tabatoufangzaiwodeduzishang,ceertingzhe。

wobeitayouzhidejudongdouxiaole,xianzaiwodeduzicaiweiweilongqi,haizineimexiao,nalihuidong。

neiye,tazhenggerendoutiezaiwoshenshang,bawobaodehenjin。

tanannanzaiwoerbiandiyu:“ayao,yaoshizhennengxuanyizhongsifa,woxiwangsizainishenshang。”

woyouxiuyounaodechuiletaliangxia,tazuanzhewodeshouqingroudewenzhe。

“ayao,biequsongwo。wopahuimoukanniyiyan,jiuzaiyeshebudezoule。”

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womeishuohua,neizhongmaodundeqingxunanyiyanbiao。

chuzhengneitian,wojiantashenzheyishenrongzhuang,weiwujunlang。

wanruowomendiyicijianmiandeneiyang。

tazaiwoetoushangluoxiashenshenyiwen,bahuailidejindaisaijinwoshouxinli,yangzhangerqu。

womeiqusongta,wangzhetalikaidefangxiangjiujiubunenghuishen。

shinvwenwoyanjingzenmehongle?shibushishebudedaren?

wobaqingxuyazaiyandi,daleyiju:“fengchuide。”

tazouhou,wodakaileshoulidedongxi,dajingshise。

henkuai,wojiujiedaoleshengzhi,dazhiyisishitaihoubingzhong,huangdinianyou,fengwoweizhanggongzhu,chuiliantingzheng。

zheiyanghuajideshiqingdangranzaodaoleyouxiedachendefandui。

anxiazedeqinxinjiukuazhedaojianzhanzaiwoshenpang,yibubuhusongwodengshangdadian。

wocongweixiangguo,youtiannengzhanzaizheiyangdegaotaishangfukanzhongsheng。

suiranbuzhidaoanxiazeweishenmezheiyangzuo,danhaishizunzhaotadexinyizhixingle。

wonengweitazuodeshiqingshizaishitaishaole。

woguyibahufuguazaixiongqianzuixianyandeweizhishang,dangchangdianlejigerendemingzi,xiaozheshuolejijujiandandewenhou。

“peishangshu,ninfurenshentihaihaoba?”

“lishilang,jinnianzhuangjiadeshouchengzenmeyang?”

“qinwuzhang,xinzhaiyuandejinduruhe?”

tamenmianmianxiangqu,jiaohuanleyixiashense,jinjiezhebeigongquxidexiangwoxingleli。

kanzhemanchaowenwudekoubai,woxinlimomosongleyikouqi,kezhangxindelenghanhaiweitunqu。

anxiazeliujiwodeshizheixierendebabing,haiyouzhengzhengsanshiwandejingbing。

zheiliangyang,zuyizuowodehushenfu。

yizhongbuhaodeyuganshashiyongshangxintou。

kanlaizheicidezhanyidequejishou,tazijiyemeiyouwanquanzhice。

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meiyoutadeyewan,woshuidehenbuanwen。

haozaishichangshoudaotabaopingandelaixin。

jibianzhiyouliaoliaoshuyu,woyenengpengzhexinzhigaoxinghaojiu。

wozhongyuyishidaotazaiwoxinlibukedongyaodeweizhi。

yexushiqingxutaiguobodong,dulidehaiziyegenzhedongle。

woqingqingfumozhedupi,nannanziyu:“niyexiangdiedieleshibushi?”

zheiye,wozuoleemeng,mengdaoanxiazemanshenshixuedenadaohuixiangwo,woyixiazijiubeihexingle,jiujiubunengrushui。

tianbuliang,wojiubeiyizhenhaojiaoshengjingxing。

qianchaochuanlaianxiazezhenwangdexiaoxi。

diguojieliandasheng,hanhuayaotianchaojuguotoujiang。

shunjian,suoyouzhenjiaoquandouluanle。

anxiazedeqinxinhuosugandaowoshenbian:“shoufudarenlinzouqianfenfuguo,taruochushirangwojinindaijuhua,tadexinzhiyouninnengdakai。”

“wozaifuwaihouzhe,suishidengnindiaoqian。”

naohailifanfuxiangzhezheijuhua,wodemuguangzuizhongdinggezaichuangwaideliangting。

wofeisupaoguoqu,pazailiangtingdedibanshangzixideguanchazheneiliangkexinxingtuan,guozhenbieyoudongtian。

wobodongshangmiandetukuai,zailiangkexinbingchengyikedeshihou,dimianxiachenchuyigeangelai。

limianyouyigeyingerdebaobei,yifengniandaijiuyuandexueshu。

anxiazedequebushianyuanshandeerzi,tadeshenshilikendingzangzhegengdadeyinmou。

wokanzhetaliuxiadeqinbishuxin,leishuimohuleshuangyan。

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“ayao,dangnikandaozheifengxindeshihou,woxiangwoyijingchushile。”

“duibuqi,wopianleni,wobunengdainiqujiannidiele。”

“zheishiwodiyicipianni,yeshizuihouyici。”

“haizi,shiwonengliujinizuihaodenianxiangle,yuanliangwodezisi,haohaohuozhe。”

“bincheng,younixihuandeyiqie,luobinhuianpaihaosuoyoushiyi,weiyuanniyishengankang。”

woleiyanmohudekanwandama:“pianzi,anxiaze,nizheigepianzi!”

wosisiyaozhechun,bukenkuchusheng。

wobuxiangxintajiuzheimesile。

tashuoguo,huizaiwoshengchanqianhuilai。

congweiyouguodexinhuangyongshangxintou:“anxiaze,anxiaze,woyaoniqinzihuilaigaosuwozhenxiang,hewojieshiqingchu,fouze,wozheibeizidoubuhuilinile!”

kongqilianjingdekepa,zaiyemeiyourenqingshenghongwo,yongworuhuaile。

zhongzhongguowangyimumuziwonaohailishanguo。

wokudeshangqibujiexiaqi,jinjiezheyanqianyihei,toukaishijulietengtong,wushusuipianziwonaohailipincouchulai。

woxiangqilaile,quandouxiangqilaile。

我爹早就死了!

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neitian,zhongshangdeanxiazebeishuxiadaizou,lingyihuorenjingenzheshalejinlai。

shilimingyudaitoujiuleanyuanshan。

anyuanshanxiangshawo,beiwodiedangzhu。

neiyijianzhijiecichuanletadexiongtang。

tahaiyaoshawobeilimingyulanxia。

limingyushuo,youbanfarangwowangdiaozheiyiqie。

wobuhuichengweitamendebanjiaoshi。

ranhou,wojiuzhendewangle……

duomekexiao,xiaochoujingranshiwoziji。

anxiazezhidaowodiesile,limingyuyezhidaowodiesile。

kezheilianggerendougaosuwo,tahaihuozhe,dengzhewoqujiu,dengzhewoquzhao。

woyoukuyouxiao,xianggefengzi。

zenmeyexiangbutongzheijigerenzhijiandeguanxi。

wozixucongming,quebeitamenshuadetuantuanzhuan。

shenshenxilejikouqi,wonazheanxiazejiwodehufuquletianxiadiyige。

neishitashoujitianxiaqingbaodedifang,suoyouwenrenmoke,chaotingmingguandemimidouzangzailimian。

woruyuandezhileshiqingsuoyoudezhenxiang。

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yuanlai,limingyujingranshidiguodeerhuangzi,taheanyuanshanzaojiugoujiezaileyiqi,tongliuhewu。

anxiazeshianyuanshantongxiangquanlidianfengzuidadebanjiaoshi,wodechuxianganghaochengweiletamenqianzhianxiazedeliqi。

qiliao,shiqingbingweiwangtamenqidaidefangxiangfazhan。

wojingrangaodaoleanyuanshan,lingtashenbaiminglie,yiwusuoyou。

woxiangshatabaochoudeshihou,anxiazejiuzhidaolezheixiezhenxiang,haishiganniantazheimeduoniandeyangyuzhien,yaoworaotayiming。

kexianganyuanshanzheiyangdeerenzenmehuitihuidaotadeliangkuyongxin?

anxiazezifeiyishouyeshianyuanshanshiliaoweijide。

zhiyuhoulaifashengdeshiqing,sheiyemeiyouyuliaodao。

xingguolaideanxiaze,yesuanshijileanyuanshantimian,weitacaobanlesangshi。

zhishibeimaizangderen,shiwodefuqin。

wozhongyulijietafanglimingyudeshihouweishenmehuiduiwoshuoneijuhua:“jintianfangguota,niyihoukendinghuihouhui。”

duibuqi,anxiaze,shiwohaileni。

yizhiyilai,wodouzhangzheniduiwodepianaiweisuoyuwei,maiyuanni,shanghaini,keniqueduiwoshizhongruchuyi。

你回来吧,好不好?

我求你。

zhiyaonihuilai,wozuoshenmedoukeyi。

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laibujiganshangtaijiu,waimianxiangqiluobindeshengyin:“zhanggongzhu,wohusongninqubincheng。”

congtakouli,wodezhilezhanchangshangdezhenshizhuangkuang。

tashuo,duifangyebuzhidaoyongleshenmeyaofa,keyilingzhanchangshangdexiongdizixiangcansha,lizhiquanwu,jiuliananxiazeyezheletamendedao,zhijinxialuobuming。

woxinlidunshigedengyixia,yuqidudingdao:“shisuohunzhen。”

limingyujingranlianzheizhongtianliburongdejinshudouyongshangle,kanlaiduinaxiatianchaoshishizaibidele。

cishi,woxinlibaozheyizhongjiaoxing,anxiazekendinghaihuozhe。

yaoxiangzhenfafachuzuidaweili,zhujiangbixushaqichongtian,anxiazeshizuihaoderenxuan。

womeiqubincheng,jixuliuzaitasongwodezhaizilianwenduri。

duibuqi,anxiaze,wobunengtingnide。

congqian,woweifuchouerhuo。

houlai,weiwodie,weiduzhongdehaizierhuo。

zheici,woxiangzijizuoyihuizhu。

meidengluobinjujue,wobianbahufubaidaoletademianqian:“zheishijunling。”

wunai,tazhinenganwoshuodezuo。

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zaisansilvlejitian,wozuochuyigejingrendejueding。

tengkongdidou,sanshiwanjingbingfenfangfendi,quanbujiejiaguitian。

suoyourenjizhonganpaizaihuandidoufangyuanwushiliyineidedoucheng。

huangbangyichu,minjianyipianmasheng,fenfenkuhan,zheicitianchaoshizhendewanle,wanzaiwozheimeyigejiannvrenshoushang。

duici,wozhishiyixiaolezhi。

budongnideren,jieshizaiduoyeshibaiche,hekuduofeikoushe。

weilejihuashunlishishi,wojihusanjinlezheixieniandejixu,bujinruci,haidashangleanxiaze

所有的家财。

womozhegaogaolongqideduzi,qingshengshuo:“baobao,nishuodiediezhidaohuibuhuiqidezhijietiaochulaimawo,nizheigebaijianvren!”

“haojiudoumeiyoutingdaotadeshengyinleni!”

(34)

wominglingsuoyouyudijunduizhidejunduizhituibugong,budaosangeyue,dijunjiuyijinggongdaoledidou。

bishi,woyihuaiyunqigebanyue。

neisuohunzhenlikaizhanchangziranyejiushiqulezuoyong。

chengzhongrenxinhuanghuang,dijunxialezuihoutongdie,santianshijian,bujiaoxietoujiang,bianhuipocheng。

jieshi,chengzhongbuhuiliuyigehuowu。

wojiaojiluobinyijiyaofang,rangtabangwopeiqi,tabuzhidao,neishicuichanyao。

当晚,我就生了。

shigenanhai,zhoubabade,henxuruo,haimeizhituzida。

tazhangdeyidianyebuhaokan,lianshengdoukubuchulai。

wowenlewentadexiaoshou,batajiaojiyipangdewenpo,youjiletayibiqian:“baozouba,shisishihuojiutingtianyoumingle。”

现在我不能不狠心。

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dijunbinlinchengxianeitian,suoyourendoushuojianlegui,anyuanshanmeisi,jiuliananxiazedoutoudipanguole。

junzhongshunjianjiuluanle,suoyourenwuxinyingzhan,zhijiekailechengmen。

dezhizheiyixiaoxideshihou,woxiaole,taguoranhaihuozhe。

duifangdezhujiangzhengshilimingyuyuanyuanshan。

tamenpobujidaidedaizheqinxinzhujinlehuanggongxiangle。

yanxiatianchaozaitamenyanlijiushiwengzhongzhibie,meiyouyidianweixie。

yeshizheidian,zhengzhongwodexiahuai。

wulunshilimingyuhaishianyuanshan,wodoutaiguolejiele。

tamenliyongwananxiazezheizuihouyici,kendinghuipobujidaideshaleta。

wodezaizheizhiqianqugonglijianlimingyucaixing。

yushi,shengzhuangdabanzhihou,wobaozhehelirugongzhongqiujian。

wodaodeshihou,dadianneisizhuruer,wujizhenghuankuaideqiwu,wanquankanbuchuguopojiawangdechangjing。

shenglishitamenzheixierenchonghunletounao,wanquanmeilejiebeizhixin。

wodishangtouchengdechuanguoyuxi,hufu。

anyuanshanbujinchizhiyibi:“anxiazezhenshixialeyancaihuikanshangnizheizhongshexiedufu……”

tahaixiangshuoshenme,quebeilimingyuyiyandenglehuiqu,zhidemomodehemenjiu。

limingyuzuiyimenglongyilianrouqingdekanzhewo:“shumei,wodexinyuanzhongyudachengle,nixiangyaoshenme,jinguanshuo。”

wocuizhedudemuguangwangxianganyuanshan,manbujingxindao:“yaotasiyexingma?”

limingyuhahayixiao,anyuanshanyegenzhehahaxiaoleqilai:“**dezaishuoshenmehuhua?tazenmekenenghuishawo……”

huayinweiluo,anyuanshandexuejiujiandaolezijidejiubeili。

limingyudandandekaikou:“dangran,zhiyaonixiang,junwuxiyan。”

taxianzaijiubazijidanghuangdile。

woxiaole,nachushoupalaicazhetalianshangdexueji,tazhuazhewodeshouxiangwobiaobaidao:“shumei,jiajiwo,hewoyiqigongxiangtianxiaba,ruhe?”

woningshizhetadeyanjing:“tingshuoanxiazehaimeisi。”

tadunshimingbailewodeyisi,rangrenbaanxiazedaileshanglai。

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zhijiantalianseqinghui,shuangmuwushen,beirenyongtielianxianggouyiyangdeqianzhe,haoxiangxingshizourouyiban。

wodexindunshihenhenjiuzaileyiqi,tengdebunengziyi,yehendebunengziyi。

limingyudijiwoyibadao:“ruoshihaipawobangni。”

wodangjidaduantadehua:“woqinzilai。”

“shumei,niguozhenneibanhenta?”

womeidahua,jingzhidezoudaoanxiazegenqiantaiqiledao。

zhongmukuikuizhixia,wobalirenzhajinlezijidexiongkou。

limingyudengdayanjingcuoedehanzhe:“nizheishiganshenme?”

taxiangpaoguolaiquefaxianzhenggerendouhunshenwulidongdanbude。

buzhishita,haiyouzheixiecanjiaqinggongyanderen。

limingyuzhiwenwo:“nidaodizuoleshenme?wozheiyangaini,nizenmekeyiruciduiwo?”

wolengxiaoliangsheng:“kuaibieexinneigeziyanle,jiazhutaohuafenpeijiubujiushizuihaoderuangusanme,ganggangdewudaohaokanma?”

“niweileyijisilidadonggange,shesuohunzhen,rangbianjiangxueliuchenghe,rangwushujiatingqilizisan。zheiwengzhongzhuobie,jiushinizuihaodebaoying。”

“yaoshu,niweimianyetaitianzhenledian,chenglichengwaidoushiwodejundui,niruheyingwo?”

“gounu,shalezheigenvren!”

mianqiandeanxiazebachuliren,yibubuchaozhewozoulai。

wochouchuchazaishenshangdeduandao,xueshunjianfeijianchulai,luozaianxiazedelianshang,shenshang。

neiyike,limingyuchedihuangledahanzhe:“nizenmehuizhidaopojieshehundefangfa?bukeneng,bukeneng!”

tahenqingchuanxiazeaiwozhiji。

zheizhongyinduzhijidexieshujiushiyaoyiminghuanyiming,dexuzuiaizhirendexintouxuecaikehuanhuidangshirendehunpo。

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anxiazemunedemouzilizhongyuyoulebiaoqing。

“阿瑶,阿瑶……”

tahuanwo,bawoyongzaihuaili。

wopengzhetadelianxiao:“duibuqi,wolaidetaiwanle,niyidingshoulehenduokuba。”

anxiazeyaotoubaoqiwo:“taiyi,wozheijiudainiquzhaotaiyi,biepaayao,henkuaijiumeishile。”

tanalishianweiwo,gengxiangshizaianweitaziji。

zheishi,luobinlvlingjunduibaoweilezhenggehuanggong。

takanleanxiazeyiyan,haishifuxiashenlaigongjingdexiangwobingbao:“sanshiwanjingbingjizhongzailie,xianyikongzhizhudiguosuoyoujundui,suishidenghouzhanggongzhuchaqian!”

woyaotou:“zheiyangdekuchashi,wokebuganle,zaiyebuganle,haokun,anxiaze,woxiangshuiyihuier。”

yidileizazaiwodelianshang,tazhanshenghongwo:“bieshui,biediuxiawoyigeren,qiuni……”

“anxiaze,wojinishenglegeerzi,haishouzhulezheiwanliheshan,libulihai,kuaikuakuawo。”

tatiezhewodelian,zaiwoerbiandao:“lihai,wojiaayaozuilihaile,zaijianchiyihuier。”

“wobutukou,sheiyebunengnazounideming,tianwanglaoziyebuxing!”

wocongweijianguozheiyangdeanxiaze,cikedetajingleiliumanmian,kudexianggehaizi。

wojiannandedianlediantou:“hao,wobusi,sibule,jiushixiangshuihui,jiuyihuier。”

yishiyidiandianbolishenti,zhidaomeilezhijue。

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事实上我的确没死。

zheixietianzongyourenzaiwoerbianjijizhazha,yibianyibiandesushuozhewomenzhijianfashengguodeshiqing,youwozhidaode,yeyouwobuzhidaode。

ouerhaiyoujishenghaizidetiku。

woxiangzhengkaiyanjing,quedongdanbude。

zhidaozheitian,haiziyiponiaodashiwodebeizi,wofaxianwonengdongle。

wotibixieleyizhangpiandeweifufazefangzaianxiazeshuzhuozuixianyandeweizhishang。

bingzhuming:ruoyouweibei,bishisuoai。

meiguoyihuier,anxiazejiufengfenghuohuodetuikaimenlaidaolewodechuangbian。

“ayao,ayao,nixingleshibushi?”

“nikan,wobudanqianminganleshouyinhaizhuanmenkaleguanzhang。”

“niruohaijuedebuwentuo,woxianzaijiudangzhenidemianfagedushi。”

womeirenzhupuchiyishengxiaole,huanzhetadeyaowenzhuletadechun。

“woyeyinshangzhangle,yihoujiushuyuwoyigerenle。”

tadizhewodeetouxiao:“zhiyaonixiangyao,xinshinide,mingshinide,jiuliantianxiadoushinide。”

wodanxiaobuyu,woyaozheitianxiaganshenme,woyaodeyijingdedaole。

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shentidahaozhihou,anxiazedaiwoqujianlewodie。

neishiyichufengjingjijiadededifang,sanzuomubeijinjinyiweizaiyiqi,wokandeyankuangdouhongle。

shangmianzijigongzhengdediaokezhe,yuefudaren,yuemudarenzhimu……

woniutoukanta,shuoleju:“nihaichawosanmeiliupin,mingmeizhengqu。”

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