第1章

【danaojicunzhong…dianjinlaidebaozimenliugejiaoyinya~weilaibidingshunfengshunshuishuncaishen,yinxingkayueduojiashige“0”!】

1964nian12yue6ri。

hushidewenduyijingzhibilingdu,queyijiubujianhushirenminshenghuodereqing。

dajieshangrenlairenwang,ouerhaiyouxiaofandejiaomaisheng。

luwuyuquefangfozhishenshiwai,yuzheisushidexuanxiaogegeburu。

tarutongyouhunyiban,manwumudedizouzaidajieshang,meiyichudouyoutacengjingmeihaodehuiyi。

mingmingshi18suichengrenlidedaxirizi,ketaquezhishengxiamanshendebeiliang。

cengjingxingfudejiating,zhaozeirendianji,yixizhijianhongrandaota。

yiqiejiurutongmenghuanpaoyingbanxiaoshile。

kefeiwuruta,quelianweifumubaochoudouzuobudao!

mingmingqianjirifumuhaizainiantaozhe,rujinjushibuminglang,gancuizhunbeibianmaijiachan,jujiaqianwangxiangjiangshenghuo。

zhiyaoyijiarenzaiyiqi,zainalishenghuodoushiyiyangde。

keshitadejia...quemeile!

tayigerenyougaihequhecong?

她想过死。

更不怕死。

死了何尝不是解脱?

keyixiangdaomuqinlinsiqiansibumingmudeyangzi,tajiuzenmedouxiabuquneigeshoule。

keshizijishenmedoubuhui,shenzhimeiyouzibaodenengli,nenghudezhuzuzubeibeixinxinkukuzhengxialaidejiyema?

yuexiangyuemangran,yuezouyuejuedehunshenwuli。

xiayishun,yanqianyihei,luwuyuchedixianrulehunmi。

hunmiqiantahaizaixiang,yaoshinengjiuzheiyangyishuibuxingjiuhaole......

muqinneimetengziji,xiangbiyebuhuiguaizijideba?

ranershiyuyuanwei,tayudaoleyiqunrexinchangderen,chenggongbeisongdaoyiyuanlijiuzhile。

shenzhihaiyouhaoxinrentitajiaoleyiyaofei,liangexingmingdoubucengliuxia。

mingmingshizaihunshuizhong,taqueyebuansheng,menglishineimedeguangguailuli。

zaicihuifuyishi,luwuyujingdeyixiazicongbingchuangshangzhitingtingzuoleqilai。

“哥哥不要!”

xinzangzaifengkuangtiaodongzhe,zhangxianzhetacikedebuanyuhuangluan。

zhidaoshixianhuifuqingxi,tacaiyishidao,yuanlaiganggangneiyiqiezhishimengeryi。

不!

gengzhunqueyixielaishuo,neibuzhishijiandandemeng,ershi...tadeqianshi!

tazhongyujuexingleqianshidejiyi!

qishiwulunshiqianshijinsheng,tahaoxiangyizhidoushigexiaofeiwu。

zhibuguojinshengyunqihaoyixie,qianshibanianyoufumuchongai,shenghuofuzu,wuxuweishenghuobenbo。

qianshidetaziyoujiyiqijiuzaigueryuan,zaijiashangyoulianyoukuaihendadeyueyataiji,rutongyinyanglianyiban。

tachengleyuanlirenrenqilingqulededuixiang,tarenkouzhongde“guaiwu”、“choubaguai”、“yinyangren”……

shiqingdezhuanzhedianshizaitaliusuideshihou。

guchaoyang,neigexinggerumingzichaoyangyibanreliederen,xiangyishuguangyiyangzhaojinletadeshengmingli。

chengletashangyishiyishengdejiushu。

chushishiguchaoyangcaishisui,fumuchehuoerwang,qinqizhijianhuxiangtipiqiu,sheiyebuyuanyishouyangta。

yuanyishouyangtadeyebushizhenxinde,ershiweileneibikeguandepeichangjin,yijigujiadejiachan。

weiciyidunaodaolefayuan。

xiaoxiaonianjidetazaifatingshangzhudongyaoqiuqugueryuan。

fumudechehuopeichangjin、fangzi、chezi,taquanbulaolaohuzaishouli。

benshiwujiaojidelianggehaizi,yiciyiwai,luwuyufaxianguchaoyangbanyezaitoutoumoyanlei。

tazhishijiletayiketang。

他便给了她一个家。

zaijianshidaogueryuanlideheianzhihou,guchaoyanghaobuyouyudidaizheluwuyutaopaole。

neishihoudetamen,yigeqisui,yigeshiyisui。

kebenxiangziyoudejiaobuquesihaomeiyouyouyuguo。

有钱能使鬼推磨。

luxiaohuazhengshigaimingweiluwuyu,guchaoyangqinzititaqidemingzi,zuizhongyechuxianzailegujiadehukoubenshang。

xiaoxiaonianjidetamenbiankaishixiangyiweiming,xianghufuchideshenghuo。

yilukankequeyepinganzhangdale。

guchaoyangyecongweixianqiguotadezhangxiang。

zaitazibeiminganshi,guchaoyanggaosuta,zhangxiangcongbugaishizibeideliyou。

她很美。

zaiguchaoyangdegulixia,taxuehuilehuazhuang,chengweileyimingquanwangchaoqianwandemeizhuangjianmeishibozhu。

tazhixuyaoanxinzuoziji,zuozijixihuandeshiqing,wanshiyouguchaoyangtitazhefengdangyu。

yiqiedouchaozhehaodefangxiangfazhan。

lianggerenyeziranerranzoudaoleyiqi,xiangyuezailuwuyushengridezheiyitianlingzhengjiehun。

kejiuzaitamenjijiangmaixiangxingfudeneiyike,yigebiantaisishengfanturanchuxian,ertadeshouzhongshiyibaminghuanghuangdebishou。

得不到就毁掉。

neibabishouzhijitademingmen。

qianjunyifazhiji,shiguchaoyanghaobuyouyudititadanglezhimingyiji。

congci,shishangzaiwuguchaoyang,luwuyuzuizhongmeinengwuyu。

guchaoyangsihoudedisannian,tahaishimeinengaoxiaqu,zishayutademubeizhiqian。

sihousuoyoudeyichanquanbujuanxianjilegedidefuliyuan。

mingmingyijingxianggeliangshi,keguchaoyangdangdaodeneiyimu,querutongmozhouyibanshenshenjuankezaitadenaohaili。

taqingxidijideshangyishizijisihou,fangfotingdaoleyishengruoyousiwudetanxi。

很轻,却很熟悉。

neifenmingshi…gegedeshengyin!

kehaibudengtazixitingqingchu,bianchedishiquleyishi。

meiyounaiheqiao,meiyouwangchuanhe,yimeiyoumengpotang。

tazhijiechengweilezheiyishideluwuyu。

wuyuwuyu,mingmingshisuoyourenduitameihaodezhuyuan,keweihelaotianyecongbucengrangtazhenzhengdewuyuguo?

ruguomeiyouhuifuqianshidejiyi,huoxutahuitongyangzuochushashi。

huoxutahuiruxingshizourouyibanhuozhe,renyoulujiaruodadejiyezaigemingdelangchaozhongmeiluo。

yihuoshihaimeichengdaoneigeshihou,lujiabianyijingbeihushidandandeqinqiguafen。

keshixianzaitazhidaotabuneng!

tadexindiyinyinyougeshengyin,zheiyishishigegetitazhenglaide!

tabunengzaiqingyilangfeishengmingle!

她要活着!

napazheiyishitazaiwufumutengai,zaiwuguchaoyangdepeiban!

keshizijigaizenmezuocainengpojuni?

wangqianzou,wanghoutui,fenmingdoushibisidejieju!

时间愈发紧迫了。

tashenzhibuzhidaoneibaxuanzhededaoshenmeshihouhuiluoxia?

rujindanaohuifuleqingming,luwuyuzhongyuxiangqifumuyunanqian,lianseshiyiribiyiridiningzhong。

hunhuneedeshijianyijinggoujiule,yijingmeiyoushijianjitalangfeile。

tabixuyaojinkuaizhaodaopojudebanfa!

下乡?

yihuoshigaitouhuanmiantaolizheili?

youhuozhexianzaitaolihushiquxiangjianghailaidejima?

luwuyuzhijiebalezhengzaishuyedezhentou,zaiquerenyijingjiaofeizhihou,jiaobucongcongdilikaileyiyuanli。

shoushangshixixilililiuzhedexianxue,shenhoushihushijiaohandeshengyin。

“tongzhi,biezoua!nihaimeishuwanye,haizaifagaoshaoni……”