【danaojicunzhong…dianjinlaidebaozimenliugejiaoyinya~weilaibidingshunfengshunshuishuncaishen,yinxingkayueduojiashige“0”!】
1964nian12yue6ri。
hushidewenduyijingzhibilingdu,queyijiubujianhushirenminshenghuodereqing。
dajieshangrenlairenwang,ouerhaiyouxiaofandejiaomaisheng。
luwuyuquefangfozhishenshiwai,yuzheisushidexuanxiaogegeburu。
tarutongyouhunyiban,manwumudedizouzaidajieshang,meiyichudouyoutacengjingmeihaodehuiyi。
mingmingshi18suichengrenlidedaxirizi,ketaquezhishengxiamanshendebeiliang。
cengjingxingfudejiating,zhaozeirendianji,yixizhijianhongrandaota。
yiqiejiurutongmenghuanpaoyingbanxiaoshile。
kefeiwuruta,quelianweifumubaochoudouzuobudao!
mingmingqianjirifumuhaizainiantaozhe,rujinjushibuminglang,gancuizhunbeibianmaijiachan,jujiaqianwangxiangjiangshenghuo。
zhiyaoyijiarenzaiyiqi,zainalishenghuodoushiyiyangde。
keshitadejia...quemeile!
tayigerenyougaihequhecong?
她想过死。
更不怕死。
死了何尝不是解脱?
keyixiangdaomuqinlinsiqiansibumingmudeyangzi,tajiuzenmedouxiabuquneigeshoule。
keshizijishenmedoubuhui,shenzhimeiyouzibaodenengli,nenghudezhuzuzubeibeixinxinkukuzhengxialaidejiyema?
yuexiangyuemangran,yuezouyuejuedehunshenwuli。
xiayishun,yanqianyihei,luwuyuchedixianrulehunmi。
hunmiqiantahaizaixiang,yaoshinengjiuzheiyangyishuibuxingjiuhaole......
muqinneimetengziji,xiangbiyebuhuiguaizijideba?
ranershiyuyuanwei,tayudaoleyiqunrexinchangderen,chenggongbeisongdaoyiyuanlijiuzhile。
shenzhihaiyouhaoxinrentitajiaoleyiyaofei,liangexingmingdoubucengliuxia。
mingmingshizaihunshuizhong,taqueyebuansheng,menglishineimedeguangguailuli。
zaicihuifuyishi,luwuyujingdeyixiazicongbingchuangshangzhitingtingzuoleqilai。
“哥哥不要!”
xinzangzaifengkuangtiaodongzhe,zhangxianzhetacikedebuanyuhuangluan。
zhidaoshixianhuifuqingxi,tacaiyishidao,yuanlaiganggangneiyiqiezhishimengeryi。
不!
gengzhunqueyixielaishuo,neibuzhishijiandandemeng,ershi...tadeqianshi!
tazhongyujuexingleqianshidejiyi!
qishiwulunshiqianshijinsheng,tahaoxiangyizhidoushigexiaofeiwu。
zhibuguojinshengyunqihaoyixie,qianshibanianyoufumuchongai,shenghuofuzu,wuxuweishenghuobenbo。
qianshidetaziyoujiyiqijiuzaigueryuan,zaijiashangyoulianyoukuaihendadeyueyataiji,rutongyinyanglianyiban。
tachengleyuanlirenrenqilingqulededuixiang,tarenkouzhongde“guaiwu”、“choubaguai”、“yinyangren”……
shiqingdezhuanzhedianshizaitaliusuideshihou。
guchaoyang,neigexinggerumingzichaoyangyibanreliederen,xiangyishuguangyiyangzhaojinletadeshengmingli。
chengletashangyishiyishengdejiushu。
chushishiguchaoyangcaishisui,fumuchehuoerwang,qinqizhijianhuxiangtipiqiu,sheiyebuyuanyishouyangta。
yuanyishouyangtadeyebushizhenxinde,ershiweileneibikeguandepeichangjin,yijigujiadejiachan。
weiciyidunaodaolefayuan。
xiaoxiaonianjidetazaifatingshangzhudongyaoqiuqugueryuan。
fumudechehuopeichangjin、fangzi、chezi,taquanbulaolaohuzaishouli。
benshiwujiaojidelianggehaizi,yiciyiwai,luwuyufaxianguchaoyangbanyezaitoutoumoyanlei。
tazhishijiletayiketang。
他便给了她一个家。
zaijianshidaogueryuanlideheianzhihou,guchaoyanghaobuyouyudidaizheluwuyutaopaole。
neishihoudetamen,yigeqisui,yigeshiyisui。
kebenxiangziyoudejiaobuquesihaomeiyouyouyuguo。
有钱能使鬼推磨。
luxiaohuazhengshigaimingweiluwuyu,guchaoyangqinzititaqidemingzi,zuizhongyechuxianzailegujiadehukoubenshang。
xiaoxiaonianjidetamenbiankaishixiangyiweiming,xianghufuchideshenghuo。
yilukankequeyepinganzhangdale。
guchaoyangyecongweixianqiguotadezhangxiang。
zaitazibeiminganshi,guchaoyanggaosuta,zhangxiangcongbugaishizibeideliyou。
她很美。
zaiguchaoyangdegulixia,taxuehuilehuazhuang,chengweileyimingquanwangchaoqianwandemeizhuangjianmeishibozhu。
tazhixuyaoanxinzuoziji,zuozijixihuandeshiqing,wanshiyouguchaoyangtitazhefengdangyu。
yiqiedouchaozhehaodefangxiangfazhan。
lianggerenyeziranerranzoudaoleyiqi,xiangyuezailuwuyushengridezheiyitianlingzhengjiehun。
kejiuzaitamenjijiangmaixiangxingfudeneiyike,yigebiantaisishengfanturanchuxian,ertadeshouzhongshiyibaminghuanghuangdebishou。
得不到就毁掉。
neibabishouzhijitademingmen。
qianjunyifazhiji,shiguchaoyanghaobuyouyudititadanglezhimingyiji。
congci,shishangzaiwuguchaoyang,luwuyuzuizhongmeinengwuyu。
guchaoyangsihoudedisannian,tahaishimeinengaoxiaqu,zishayutademubeizhiqian。
sihousuoyoudeyichanquanbujuanxianjilegedidefuliyuan。
mingmingyijingxianggeliangshi,keguchaoyangdangdaodeneiyimu,querutongmozhouyibanshenshenjuankezaitadenaohaili。
taqingxidijideshangyishizijisihou,fangfotingdaoleyishengruoyousiwudetanxi。
很轻,却很熟悉。
neifenmingshi…gegedeshengyin!
kehaibudengtazixitingqingchu,bianchedishiquleyishi。
meiyounaiheqiao,meiyouwangchuanhe,yimeiyoumengpotang。
tazhijiechengweilezheiyishideluwuyu。
wuyuwuyu,mingmingshisuoyourenduitameihaodezhuyuan,keweihelaotianyecongbucengrangtazhenzhengdewuyuguo?
ruguomeiyouhuifuqianshidejiyi,huoxutahuitongyangzuochushashi。
huoxutahuiruxingshizourouyibanhuozhe,renyoulujiaruodadejiyezaigemingdelangchaozhongmeiluo。
yihuoshihaimeichengdaoneigeshihou,lujiabianyijingbeihushidandandeqinqiguafen。
keshixianzaitazhidaotabuneng!
tadexindiyinyinyougeshengyin,zheiyishishigegetitazhenglaide!
tabunengzaiqingyilangfeishengmingle!
她要活着!
napazheiyishitazaiwufumutengai,zaiwuguchaoyangdepeiban!
keshizijigaizenmezuocainengpojuni?
wangqianzou,wanghoutui,fenmingdoushibisidejieju!
时间愈发紧迫了。
tashenzhibuzhidaoneibaxuanzhededaoshenmeshihouhuiluoxia?
rujindanaohuifuleqingming,luwuyuzhongyuxiangqifumuyunanqian,lianseshiyiribiyiridiningzhong。
hunhuneedeshijianyijinggoujiule,yijingmeiyoushijianjitalangfeile。
tabixuyaojinkuaizhaodaopojudebanfa!
下乡?
yihuoshigaitouhuanmiantaolizheili?
youhuozhexianzaitaolihushiquxiangjianghailaidejima?
luwuyuzhijiebalezhengzaishuyedezhentou,zaiquerenyijingjiaofeizhihou,jiaobucongcongdilikaileyiyuanli。
shoushangshixixilililiuzhedexianxue,shenhoushihushijiaohandeshengyin。
“tongzhi,biezoua!nihaimeishuwanye,haizaifagaoshaoni……”