第一章

我明明已经死了。

dangwotingdaozhangxuxiangfuwenchuanbaobeidexiaoxi,wolengzhule。

woyizhiyiweitabuzaiyiwo,meixiangdaotayehuizaiwobuzhidaodedifangdatingwodexiaoxi。shizaimibuma?

wodishenglengxiaodetongshi,tingdaozhangxushuowodejinkuang,“furenzaijianyulizhaochang,meiyoushenmebianhua,yemeiyourenkeyidiaonanta。”

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shenmezhaochang,shenmemeibianhua,shenmemeibeirendiaonan,womingmingyijingsile。

sizaileneigebuweirenzhidejiaoluo。

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heliuzhiwengangjianmianhaishihaohaodi,jiezhetajiudaizhewoqulepianpidedifang,zheigeshihouwocaizhidao,liuzhiwenhuiguodeyuanyin:qianxiayibijukuan。

taxiangjiangwosongjitadezhaizhu,tajiangwomiyunqiandayanbucandishuo,“yaobushiyinweinidechuxian,zheijianshiduifuwenchuanlaishuojiushixiaoshiyizhuang。”

haozaiwoduitayousuofangbei,zhuangyundetongshi,hainachulezijibeihaodedao,wolangbeididaochuduo,buzhiduoleduojiu,zoudaohaibianjiujiandaolebeirenzaotaledeliuzhiwen。

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chuyudaojishidiyibaibashiwutian,wobeirenweizaijiaoluolioudazhisi。

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