lixiaomeng，wodeguimi，shiwoqinzixuande“shentirongqi”。wozongrongtadejidu，yindaotadetanlan，
shenzhishoubashoujiaotaruhe“touzou”woderensheng。dangtazhongyuyongwodelian，
zhanzaiwodenanyoushenbianshi……wozaijingshenbingyuandechuangbian，duizhejiankongweiweiyixiao。nikan，zheiyiqie，
doushita“ziyuan”de。diyizhang wanmeiliehenwocongyizhensixinliefeidekesouzhongjingxing。heianzhong，
woquansuozaijiazhibufeidezhensichuangdanshang，xiangyizhibinsidexiami。houlongshenchushihuizhibuqudexuexingwei，
woshuliandichouguochuangtoudeshijinwuzhuzui，youshiyizhenjuliedezhandou。tankai，yueguangxia，yimoanhongchumujingxin。
woqishenzuodaoshuzhuangjingqian，jingzhongyingchuwocangbairuzhidelian。jibianbingtainanyan，
zheizhangliandeguxiangyijiuwanmei——xingyan，tingbi，chunxingbaoman。danzheixiebierenyanxiandeenci，
cikequechengweilewodejiasuo。wotaiqishou，zhijianqingfuguojingjianneitiaocongbulishendexianglian。
xiangliandezhuizishiyiketianranzichengdexuehongsebaoshi，cike，tazhengsanfazheweiruodenuanyi，
buduandixiangwozheijucanpodequtishusongzhenengliang。zheigeshijiehencanku，yehengongping。
youxierenyichushengjiushouwomingshi，buganwangmanleshuo，shigeliqimayouqige，zhibuguoyouderenchushengshi，
meiwojin，diulezheigeguanghuan。mingshizaishou，shuyingsuiwo——tashitongwangwanmeirenshengdezuobiqi。erwo，
shiqizhongdexingyuner。jushuowochushengshi，zuilibianhanzhezheikeshitou，bukubunao，
anjingderangchanfanglideyishenghushidouyiweishigeyaba。zhidaomingshibeiquchu，
wocaifachulelaidaorenshidediyishengtiku。congci，woderenshengyilukaigua。
tajilewopangrenxianshadeyiqie：meimao、zhihui、haoyun……dandaijiashi，tajiasuranshaozhewodeshengming。
woxuyaoyigexinde。yigejiankang、nianqing，bingqie……“ziyuan”derongqi。wodemuguanglveguofangjian，
luozaiqiangbiyifuyulixiaomengdeheyingshang。zhaopianli，woguangcaiduomu，tazhanzaiyipang，
xiaoronglidaizheyisiyangmuheqienuo。“xiaomeng……”wodishengziyu，zhijiandemingshisihuyouwenrelejifen，
“yexu，wokeyifenxiangjiniyigeshixianyuanwangdejihui。”dierzhang wenchuangyudushehezudegongyuli，
mimanzhewancandexiangqi。lixiaomengjiangzuihouyipancaiduanshangzhuo，huanzhewozaishafashuazheshoujidewo：“ayu，
kuaiquxishou，kaifanle。jintianzuolenizuiaichidetangcupaigu。”wowenlewenkongqizhongdexiangwei，
yilianxiangshoudewolazhetazuoxia，muguangmanshizhenchengdeganji：“xiaomeng，younizai，zhenhao！neixiechounanren，
genbenbudongwomenzhijiandeganqingyouduozhongyao。”wojialeyikuaipaigufangjinzuili，biaoqinglidoushimanzu，
“nidechuyiyoujingjinle，douyaobeiniweipangle。”lixiaomengkanzhewo，miantiandexiaolexiaoshuo:“nixihuanjiuhao，
yihouwojingchangjinizuo。”jintian，woheyuhaofenshoule。yinweitajingranduiwoshuo：“nineigeguimi，
kannideyanshenrangwohenbushufu。tahaoxiang……bingbuzhishibanidangpengyou。”wodangchangjiujiletayigeerguang。
meiyourenkeyilijianwohexiaomengyouyi。lixiaomengdeyandixunsujijuqishuiqi，tawozhuwodeshou，
lidaodadejingren：“duibuqi，doushiwobuhao……haideniheyuhao……”“bietita！”wodaduanta，
lianshangliuluchufennu“nanrenruyifu，jiemeicaishishouzu。weileni，fenshousuanshenme？wozaojiushuoguo，
rongbuxianideren，wojuebuhuigentazaiyiqi。”woduanqishoubiandehongjiu，yiyinerjin，
“zheishiwoduinidechengnuo，yeshiwojiaonanpengyoudedixian。”wokandaotakuijiudidixialetou，
danzuijiaoneiyishanerguode、jibukechadehudu，yeyitongluoruwodeyandi。tabuzhidao，
tazangzaiketinglvzhilideweixingshexiangtou，zaojiubeiwofaxianle。neibujinjinshiweilejiankongwo，
gengxiangshiyizhongbingtaide、tanlandekuishi。taanlianyuhao，jiduwoyongyoudeyiqie，
queyouxiangtengmanyiyangyifuzhewo。duomewanmeidewenchuang，peiyuzhetanlandedushe。erwo，
zhengzainaixindidengdaitaliangchuduya。disanzhang emodediyuyeshenle，
canzhuoshanghengqishubadaozhejigekongjiuping。wotanruanzaishafashang，yanshenmili，
shouliquehaisisizuanzheneizhigaojiaobei。lixiaomengye“zui”le，takaozaiwoshenbian，
yanshenjinhuchimididingzhewodelian，muguangyidong，zuizhongluozailewojingjiandemingshishang。“ayu，
ta……zhenhaokan。”tazhuangzuobujingyi。“taa……”wochichidixiaoqilai，jiangmingshijudaotademianqian，
renyouneixuehongdeguangzezaidengguangxialiuzhuan。“takebushihaokanneimejiandan……ta，
shiwodeming……”womengdicoujinlixiaomeng，daizhenongzhongdejiuqi，yadileshengyin，
xiangshiyaofenxiangyigejingtianmimi：“xiaomeng，wogaosuniyigemimi……tabushiyikuaiputongdebaoshi，
taneng……shixianrendeyuanwange……”lixiaomengdehuxidunshijicu，bukezhixindikankanwo，youkankanta，
“zhen……zhende？”“ng！”woyonglidiantou，biaoqingbiandeshenmierguiyi。
“tazuowan……zaimengligaosuwole……taxiangyaoyigegengjiankang、gengyouhuolideshenti……tashuo，
zhiyaoduifangshixinganqingyuande，tajiuneng……jiuneng……”woturanjuliedikesouqilai，mingshicongwoshouzhonghualuo，
chuizaixiongkou，yimobuyichajuedehanguangshanshuoleyixia。lixiaomenglianmangbangwopaibei，
muguangquexiangbeicishixizhuyiyang，sisidingzhewoxiongkoushangdeneikebaoshi，dingzheyuwang。woshunguoqi，
yongjinzuihouyisiliqi，nannandiyu，
shengyinjinmanguhuo：“jiuneng……jiaohuan……lianggerendeyiqie……”shuowanzheijuhua，wotouyiwai，
fangfozuisiguoqule。bizheyandeheianzhong，wonengganjuedaolixiaomengzhiredeshixian，
yijitayinweijidongerweiweizhandoudeshenti。taneixindetanlanheyuwang，zaianjingdeketinglixuanxiao。wozhidao，
yuer，zhongyuyaogoule。jinjiezhe，wotingjiantazhanqishen。ketinglihuidangzhetajiaozaobuandejiaobu，ranhou，
jiaobushengtingzailechufangdefangxiang。sijizhong，wotingjianle——jiqiqingwei、quelingrenmaogusongrandejinshumocasheng。
“zheng……”neishi……daojiashangdeneibashuiguodao，beichouchulaideshengyin。tadejiaobusheng，zaiyicixiangqi。
chaozhewo，xiaoxinyiyidizoulai。zuizhong，tingzailewodeshafaqian。wonengganjuedaotafuxiashendailaideyinying，
jinzhangdehuxihunzazhejiuqipensazaiwodelianshang。binglengdedaofeng，qingqingditieshanglewodebojing。
disizhang renxingdekaoyanbinglengdechuganrangwobojingshangdehanmaoshunjianshuqi。
wonengganshoudaolixiaomengcishijidukezhidexingfenyujiejinbingtaidekongzhiyuruhequshizhetazouxiangjiduan。
danwoyijiuweichizheshenchende“zuitai”，shenzhilianhuxidepinlvdoumeiyousihaogaibian。binglengtingzhibuqian。
lixiaomengshengxingduoyiyoudanxiao，tabuganzhendedongshou。wozhidao，tazaishitan。tazhishixiangyongzheizhongfangshi，
querenwoshifouzhendezuisiguoqu，haoweitakepanderenshengjinxing……tasuolijiede“yishi”。guoran，
daofengbingmeiyouyongli，zhishiyanzhewodejingxian，huanhuanshangyi，zuizhong，daojiandizhulewojingjianmingshidexiayuan。
mingshicaishitazhenzhengdemubiao！tasihuyeganyingdaoleneifentanlan，zaiwojingjianfachuweibukechadezhuore。
woganjuedaotalingyizhishouyeshenleguolai，shitujiekaixiangliandedakou。buzhishiyinweijinzhanghaishijidong，
tadeshouzhizhandoudelihai，jicidouhuakaile。jiushixianzai！woshenxiyikouqi，turanfanzhuan，
xiangshiyaodiaozhengyigeshufudezishi，shentiquekeyixiangtashoulidedaofengbijin。zuilifachuyishenghanhudeyiyu。
“wu……ganbei……xiaomeng”zheigedongzuofudubuda，queqiahaogekailetazhengzaijiexiangliandeshou。“kuangdang！
”shuiguodaodiaoluozaicizhuanshang，fachuqingcuideshengxiang。lixiaomengxiangshoulejingdetuzi，mengdixianghoudankai，
yi**tanzailedishang。wonengtingdaotajicudehuxisheng。wuxuzhengyan，
taneizhangyinjingkongerniuqudelianyiqingxifuxianzaiwodeyanqian。wozalezazui，fanshenbeiduizheta，
zaicifachujunyundehuxisheng，jiazhuanggangcaideyiqiedouzhishishuimengzhongdeouran。shenhou，
shilixiaomengjiehouyushengbandecuzhongchuanxi。kaoyantongguole。jingguozheifanjixiandelache，
taduiyu“duoqu”zheijianshi，xiexialedaodefudan。jiexialai，tajiangyiwufangudi，
tiaojinwoweitazhunbeideshenyuan。wonaixindidengdaizhe。fangfoguoleyigeshiji，woganshoudaotazhongzhenhouzaicikaojin，
meiyourenheyouyudiquxialewodemingshi。xiangemosuoyuandediyushengchuanlai。
neishiwomengzhong“buxiaoxin”touludexuyuanzhouyu。tadeshengyinzhandouzhe，daizheyizhongpofuchenzhoudeqipan。
mingshihongguangzhouqi。yishi，kaishile。diwuzhang sheishiliewuzaicihuifuyishi，
shizaiyizhanggecizuoxiangdetiechuangshang，shangmianpuzhelveweifanhuangdebaichuangdan。wofuzhejutongdetou，zuoqishenlai。
zhidaomenwaichuanlaigaogenxiezaicizhuandishangtachudehuixiang，youyuanjijin，zuihoutingzaiwodebingfangmenqian。menkaile。
lixiaomengzhanzaimenkou，guangxianliangli。wotaitouyutaduishi，
jingkongzaiwoyanzhongwuxianfangdashang——neishi“wo”delian。lixiaomengchuanzhewoyimaojianlineitiaogaodinglianyiqun，
tacengjingwushucizaiwobuzaijiadeshihou，toutoushichuanguo，quechuanbuchuyanlidexiaoguo。
jianshangkuazhewopaiduisangeyuecaimaidaode**kuanbaobao，tacengaibushishoudefanfufumo，
quezaikandaojiagehoutuique。talianshanghuazhejingzhiwuxiadezhuangrong，tacengjingcongbuhuazhuang，yinweitashuotaimafan。
tazaixuanyao。“lixiaomeng，nixingle？！”duifangyongwodeshengyin，hanchuletademingzi。
wohuangluandimoxiangzijidelian，chugancucaoermosheng。wopudaochuangtou，shiqizhuoshangdeyimianjingzi。wocai，
zheishitateyizhunbeide。bukesiyididingzhejingzizhongdeziji，jingzhongyingchude——shilixiaomengneizhangpingfandelian。
“bu——！！！”woxiesidilidijianjiao，jiangjingzihenhenshuaizaidishang，jingziposuideshunjian，
wopuxiangneigeqiequlewoshenqudezei。wodashengzhiwenta，“nidaodiduiwozuoleshenme！
”lixiaomengxiangzaoyouyuliao，duokailewo，tianbuzhichidihuidadao:“wobuzhidaonizaishuoshenme？
”womenniudazaiyiqi，woyongjinquanshenliqiqiazhuneigemaopaihuodebozi。menturanbeizhuangkai，
jigechuanzhebaidaguadenanrenchonglejinlai，cubaodijiangwoconglixiaomengdeshenbianlakai。wobeizhongxinyahuileneizhangchuang，
binglengdeshufudailejinlewodeshouwanhejiaohuai。yiliangongjingdeyuanzhanghezhuzhiyishengjiangtahuzaileshenhou。“xiaomeng，
”takaikou，yongdeshiwodeshengyin，quedaizheyizhongkeyidebeimin，“xiaomeng，nizenmebianchengzheiyangle？
”budebushuo，lixiaomengdeyanjichuhuwodeyiliao。womengdizhengzhaqilai，shufudaihenhenlejinrouli，
yidaodaoyanhongfuxian。wosisidengzheta。“nizheigeqiezei！
qiezei……”yishenglianmangshangqianjieshi：“li**shoudao**hou，yizhiyouyanzhongdeyixiang，
renweizijishinin……”lixiaomengjixuyunniangzhetadebiaoyan，tayankuangyihong，shirunzaiyanjiaodazhuan，
buguyishengdezulan，zoudaowodechuangbian，jidongdiwozhuwobeibangzhudeshou。“xiaomeng，haohaotingyishenghua，
nihuihaoqilaide。”tafuxiashen，yongzhiyouwomenliangrennengtingqingdeyinliang，yaozhewodeerduoshuo，“niderensheng，
henwanmei，woshouxiale。”tadekaojin，daizhewochangyongneikuanxiangshuideweidao，querangwofanqiyizhenexin。
“yuhaozuowan……genwobiaobaile。”tajixudiyu，shengyinlidaizheyayibuzhudedeyi，“tashuo，
zhiyaowodayingfuhe，tashenmedoutingwode。nikan，nidebudaode，woqingyijiudedaole。
”woxiangshibeizheijuhuachedijikua，fachuyishengqilidejianjiao，fengkuangdiniudongqilai，leishuihunzhekoushuihengliu，
biaoyanzheyigejingshenbinghuanzhejizhidebengkui。“jitazhushezhenjingji。”yuanzhangyishengzhiling，
yihurenyuanyiyongershangjiangwozhizhu。lixiaomengtuidaoyipang，youyadicalecayanjiaodeleihen，
duiyuanzhangshuo：“qingyidinghaohaozhaoguta，feiyongbushiwenti。”menzaiciguanshang。jiaobushengyuanqu，
bingfanglizhishengxiawoduzichuanxi。xujiu。wopingfuhaoxinqing，qingzhuanshouwan，
neixieyuanbenjinjinlezhuwosizhideshufudaijingjiekaile。zuoqishen，wozoudaofangjianweiyidexiaochuangbian。
waimiandemingmeitouguochuang，jiangwolongzhaoqizhong。yangguangzhaozaizheizhangpingfandelianshang，
goulechuyigemoshengermanyidexiaorong。wojiangshouzhifushangjingjian——neili，buzhiheshi，duoleyitiaoxianglian。
xuehongsedebaoshisanfazheyouyoudelengguang。xianzaitaguishuyuzheigejiaolixiaomengdenvren。
woduanxiangzhebolishanglixiaomengdedaoying，zhijianfuguojingjianbingliangdemingshi。“ng，
suiranputongledian……danhenjiankang，wohenmanyi。”“xianzai，jiurangsuoyourenkankan，
zaizheichangyouxili——”jingzhongneishuangshuyulixiaomengdeyanjing，lveguoyisibinglengdefengmang。“daodi，
sheicaishisheideliewu。”diliuzhang shibaidetiaoxinyizhouhou，zaiyicilixingde“qingxuwending”pingguhou，
wobeiyunxuzaijianhuxiajinxinghuwaihuodong。lixiaomengyouguolaitanshi，tayijiudabanyanli，
henbudejiangcengjingxianmuwoyongyoudeneixiefushupin，zuoweishenglidexunzhang，tongtongzhanshichulai。tapingtuilepangren，
zhanzailiwojimiyuandedifang，yongxianqidemuguangsaoshizhecengjingdeziji。“zheiliderizi，haoshouma？
”taturanxiaozhewen，yanbuzhudexingfenkouwen。womeiyoulita，ziguzidikaozheweilan，zaishijieshangzuolexialai。
“zenme，nibushengqi？”wodefanyingxianranchaochuletadeyuliao，cuobaiganjiqitadefennu。wotaiqitou，
pingjingdikanxiangta。“neijushenti，neixieziyuan……nixihuan？”wodandandiwen。talengleyixia，