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“lihunxieyihecizhixinwodouzhunbeihaole,woyaochedilikaishenyanchi。”
dezhiwodejueding,guimidengdayanjing,
“tabushidoushuohaoyaogongkainilema?!nizenmeturanyaolihunle?”
wozichaoyixiao,woheshenyanchiyinhunwunian,dengtagongkaiwodenglewunian。
erwoxihuanta,xihuanleshiwunian,congxiaodaoda。
jiusuanshenyanchilengmodexiangyikuaibing,woyeyuanyiwuzhezheikuaibing,yiciyouyicidishuochujiushijiuci“woxihuanni”。
suoyourendoubuhuijuedewohuilikaishenyanchi。
danyizhouqian,shenaizheshenyanchidewobalihunxieyifangdaotabangongzhuoshang,renyoutaliankandoumeikanyiyanjiuqianlezi。
rujinzaidengqitian,wojiuziyoule。
guimizenmeyebuhuixiangdao,womuqinbingzhongneitian,woqiushenyansongwoquyiyuan,ketaqueyinweichulianyigedianhua,erjiangwobanludiuzaixiazhebaoyudegaosushang。
dengwopinjinliqigandaoyiyuandeshihou,muqinzhilaidejiwolewowodeshou,jiulikailerenshi。
neiyike,wodexinyesile。
cengjingwoyiweishenyanchizhishixinggeleng,budongdebiaodaganqing。
kewomuqinqushineitian,tadechulianxiaorongtianmeididuiwoshuo:
“nihaikanbuchulaima?shenyanchiduisheidouleng,weiduduiwobuyiyang。”
tabayizhanghezhaoshuaidaowomianqian,zhaopianshang,yixiangyoujiepideshenyanchizhengditoutitacaquzuijiaodenaizi,neiyanshenshiwocongweijianguodewenrou。
我再也骗不了自己。
shenyanchizheikuaibing,wowubure。
ketaduita,queshironghuadehuoshan。
我选择放手。
dianwai,shenyanchideheisejiaochetingzailubian,talaijiewo,yiruwangchanglengdan,queyouburongjujue。
tabuxiguanwonandedeanjing,meitouweizhouwen:
“qianjitiannirangwoqiandehetong,shinajiadehezuo?”
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wogangxiangshuohua,shenyanchiqueyoudaduanwoshuo:“suanle,buyonggaosuwo,fanzhengnizuoshi,wofangxin。”
wodexinxiangbeidundaoguaguo。
zheiwuniannei,meidangshenyanchiduiwozheiyangshuo,wodouhuianzixinxi,juedezijizhongyunengrangtaxinlai,zhongyubushineigegenzaitashenhoudegenpichong。
kerujinwocaimingbai,zheibushixinren,ershihaobuzaiyi。
shenyanchicongbuxiangzhidaowozuochengleshenme,shibaileshenme。
duitaeryan,wozhishitadeyigeyinhunqizi,zhiyaowobiezaigongsichuanghuo,wozuoshenmetadouwusuowei。
zheiyishunjian,woxiangpoguanziposhuai,xiangkaikougaosuta:“shenyanchi,neibushishenmehetong,shilihunxieyishu!”
kehuahaimeishuochukou,shenyanchideshoujixiangle。
takanlelaidianxianshi,meiyanyishunroulexialai,neishuangxianglailinglideyan,jingxiangbeichunfenghuakai。
shenyanchijieqidianhua,shengyinroudaojihubuxiangta:“shentibushufu,bieqiangrenzhe,womashangguoqujieni,haobuhao?”
wosuoyoudeliqidoubeichoukongle,weishuochudehuayeyanlehuiqu。
wojing**zaicheli,kanzhetabachetingzaimougejiejiao,womeiyoudengtashuohua,zhijietuikaichemenxialeche。
lengfengguanjinbojing,wodexinquebifenggengleng。
woheshenyanchishicongxiaoyiqizhangdadeqingmeizhuma。
xiaoshihoudewoxianggexiaotaiyang,xiaozhezhuizaitashenhou,yibianbianhanta“yanchigege”。
woyiwei,zhiyaowoyizhixiao、yizhirelie,zongyouyitianhuironghuatadelengmo,jiuxiangezuojuzhiwenlimianxiangqinronghuazhishuyiyang。
keshijishang,wozhishigepangguanzhe。
gaozhongshi,wojianzhengleshenyanchineiduanchiliedeqingchun,jianzhengletaduilingyigemaomaoshishidenvhai,zhanluchucongweijiguowodewenrou。
neinvhaishadekelian,sanjuhuabuli“baoqian”,zuodebiandangnanchideyaoming,fanlijiazhebanshengbushudexin,caixiandehouren。
ketiaoshideshenyanchiquenengmianbugaisechigejingguang,haitaitouxiaozheshuo:“haochi。”
tabuxiaoxinbakafeipodaotaangguidexiezishang,huangdekuaikuchulai。
shenyanchiquehuixianbatadeshoucagan,qingshenganwei:“meishi,biepa。”
congxiaodaoda,woxiaoxinyiyidizhaogushenyanchidekouwei,hualehaojiuxuezuotaxihuandecai,ketazongshidandanchijikou,congweishuoyiju“haochi”。
wozhidaoshenyanchiyoujiepi,liankaojintadouxiaoxinyiyi。
erta,keyihaowufencun。
wokanzheshenyanchiyushenfeifeixiangailesannian。
houlaitashoubuletadebieniuhelengmo,yiranxuanzechuguo。
neishishenyanchibenxiangquzhui,kesheizhijialichushi,taweilededaowojiadezhichi,budebuhewolianyin。
woxihuanletataijiu,suoyixinganqingyuandibangta。
napashenyanchiyikaishibuxihuanwo,napahunyinzhishixieyi,haitichuyaobugongkai,woyedayingleta。
yiweiwokeyiyongshijianhexinyitianmanshenyanchishenbiandekongque。
hunhoudewunian,woweitadadianshiye、yingduiwaijieliuyan,shenzhiqinshoubatadegongsicongfengyuzhonglawen,zuodaoerbashoudeweizhi。
tazhongyuduiwoyuelaiyuewenrou,shenzhizaijinnianhaojicihewoshuotazhunbeigongkaiwomendeguanxi。
wotianzhenyiweitayijingbeiwogandongle。
可沈菲菲回来了。
neigecengjingrenxinglikaideshabaitiannvhai,jushuojinglileyiduanzaogaodelianqing。
ershenyanchi,zheigewoyiweibukeyishidenanren,jingzaitahaimeiheqiannanyoufenshouganjingshi,jiuganyuanqudangtadeqishi。
wozuolewunianqizi,congweijianguotaruci。
shizhibuzhanyangchunshuideshenyanchihuiqinziweitabaotang,qinziweitasongfan,jiedaotayigedianhua,jiunengbasuoyouhuiyituidiao。
ertadangchudayingwodegongkaiguanxi,zaishenfeifeihuilaiyihoumeiyouzaishuoguoyici。
bujiuqiantahaiyiweishenfeifeideyigedianhua,jiangwodiuzaidayuqingpendegaosushang,rangwocuoguolemuqinsiqianzuihoudeyiyan。
wozichaoyixiao,dachehuijiashoushiwodedongxi。
wobayijulineixiezaoyiluolehuidequnziyijianjianquxia。
zheixiequnzi,youxieshiweilecanjiatagongsiwanyanshiteyimaide,youxieshiwohuanxiangzhetanengkuayiju“haokan”erjingxintiaode。
ketamenchuanzaiwoshenshangshi,congweidedaoguoshenyanchiyigezanmeideyanshen。
shujiashangdeshuyeshi,doushidangnianweilegenshangshenyanchidesilu,wobizhezijikanwandeyibenbenguanlixue、jinrongxuedeyingshu。
woqingqingfuguoneibenzuichudebiji,fankaiyiye,neishangmianyonghongbixiezhe:“zaijianchiyixia,tahuikandaowodenuli。”
wozhenglepianke,minchun,batafangjinzhixiang。
shenyanhuilaideshihou,kanzhekongdangdangdewuziyouxieyihuo,wenleju:“zenmeshoushiqidongxile?”
“jiule,fangzheyeshihui。”
womeikanta,yuqipingdan。
shenyanchi“ng”leyisheng,weiweidiantou,yebuzaiyi,
“maixindeba,nixihuanshenmejiumai。”
worugengzaihou,zuizhongzichaoyixiao。
woyiwei,taqimahuiguanxinwonapashiyiju。
yeli,shenyanchicongyushizouchulai,toufahaidizheshuizhu,shenshangshidandandelengsongxiangqi。
tahenzirandizuodaowochuangbian,shenshoulanguowodeyao,sangyindidide:“womawenwomenshenmeshihouyaogehaizi。”