第1章
“妈妈，我害怕。”
“wuwu......”
lisiwentoutongyulie，hounaoxiangbeichuizizaoleyiyang，nongliedejiuchouweirangtaexindexiangtu，erbiandechouqishengjingshirucizhenqie。
“zenmehuishi？wobushiyijingsileme？”
lisiwennulidezhengkaishuangyan，faxianzijizuozaibingliangdeshuinidishang，polanbukanmanmuchuangyidefangjiansanfazhenianjiushixiudechaoshiwei，banbodeqiangbishangtiezheyizhanglaojiuderilika，shangmianheranxiezhesigeshuzi，1990。
“1990nian？buhuiba？meng，yidingshimeng。”lisiwenshijingdishuaileshuaitou，quemaochuyigerangtabuhanerlidexiangfa：“sirenyouzenmehuizuomeng？”
meicuo，tayijingsile，zaiyubingmodouzhengdewunianli，zongrantashenjiabaiyi，yecuiruoderutongyizhimayi，zuihoushike，taqinzibadiaoleyangqiguan，jieshulezijichuanqideyisheng。
raner，taweihechuxianzaizheili？mofeizhongshengle？
lisiwendengdaleyanjing，wushujiyishunjianyongrutadedanao。
zheigerenyejiaolisiwen，yutazhongming，1965niancaozhoushengren，wufuwumu，yeyezaitashibasuideshihoubingshi，ertayinweimeiyoushangguoxue，zhijinyezhaobudaozhengjinggongzuo，zhengriyoushouhaoxian，hunhundundundeguorizi，shiyigebuzhebukoudeerliuzi。
zaicuozongfuzadejiyizhong，lisiwenlvqingleshenfen，gengquedingzijizhendezhongshengle，linghundaolelingyigenanrendeshentili。
keshijidongguohou，taqueyishidaoleyigeyanzhongdewenti，rujinbujinshiyushidaituogoude1990nian，tahaishiyigelianwenbaodouchengwentidefeiwu，jibianzhongshengyouyoushenmekegaoxingdeni？
“laotianye，nishirangwolaizheilitiyanpinkushenghuodema？”
lisiwenkuxiaobude，bierenzhongshengyaomejiushixuanhuanxianxia，yaomejiushihuangzihuangsun，napachushenbeijian，yeshouwonitiangaimingdebug，jibianzhongshengdaodoushiyeshiyaochanwanguanyinengjiashen，ketani？tangtangbaiyifuhao，queyiluoqianzhangdebianchengleqiongguangdan。
zheishinaonayang？shixiangrangtazhongcaojiuye，rongdengshijieshoufu？taxiaolexiao，xianzaideziji，napanenghuozhedouxuyaomodadeyongqileba？
“mama，mamanishuohuaya，mama！”
xiaonvhaidekusheng，zaicijichuanlelisiwendeermo，jiangtachennidesixushunjianjingxing。
lisiwenxunshengkanqu，faxianyigepengtousanfadenvrendaozaihunandejiaoluoli，shouzhongwozhejizhangzaoyituishidebaiyuandachao，nvrenyidongbudong，sihuyijingmeiyouleqixi。
zainvrenshenbian，yigeersansuidexiaonvhai，zhengkukulieliedehanzhemama，yanleishunzhetonghongdeliandanwangxialiuzhe。
“wokao，wobuhuishirushiqiangjiesharenba？”lisiwenguluyishengyanlexiakoushui，zheiwanxiaokaidetaidale。
tajinzhangdewangqiannuoleyixiaobu，gangxiangkaikou，xiaonvhaiqueturanzhuanxiangta，naomenhenhendikezaileshuinidishang：“shushu，qiuqiunibiedamamale，xiaonibuzhuyuanle，xiaonibuzhuyuanle。”
sixinliefeidekushengranglisiwenshentiyizhen，danaodetengtongshitachadianyunjue，wushujiyiyouruhuandengpianyiyangzaicixilai。
zheibushifanzuixianchang，yanxiadenvrenshitadelaopozhouwenjing，yigewenroushanliangderen，jiehunsinian，zhouwenjingkaozheyishuangshouchengqilezheigejia，erxiaonvhaizeshitamendenverxiaoni。
keshixiaonichenghuzhouwenjingmama，weihejiaozijishushuni？lisiwennaomenshangmaochuleyiduilvsedewenhao？？
danhenkuai，tabianshuliqingchule。
xiaonibingbushitamendeqinshengnver，ershizhouwenjingjiejiedehaizi，xiaonisangeyuedadeshihou，fumuchehuoshenwang，yinweinanfangmeiyouqinshu，bianbaxiaonijiaojileniangjiaren，yejiushizhouwenjingdebama。
ranerzhoujiazhongnanqingnv，situnlexiaonifumudebuchangjinhou，biandasuanbatasongdaogueryuan，dezhizheiyixiaoxidezhouwenjingyiranjuedingshouyangxiaoni。
dangshilisiwenjilifandui，bijingbuchangjinmeilaodao，weihebaiyangbierendehaizi？wunaidezhouwenjingzhinengtichumeigeyuejitayibaikuaiqian，lisiwenzheicaimianweiqinandetongyi。
zaizheigeniandai，yibaikuaiqiansuanshi“jukuan”le，zhouwenjingzaiwazichangyigeyuedegongziyecaiyibaiwushikuai。
zidazheiyihou，lisiwengengjiahaochilanzuo，busijinqu，shenzhizaibushunxinshihaihuiduizhouwenjingquanjiaoxiangjia。
ruguoshiqitanvren，yexuzaojiulile，zhouwenjingyecengxiangguo，danxiangtazheizhongnilaishunshoudewenshunxingge，genbenmeiyouyongqitichulai。
yihuangjinianguoqu，zhouwenjingshizhongrenqitunsheng，ruoshiweichixianzhuang，yibeizikenengcaocaoleshi，danpianpianlianggeyueqian，nianmansansuidexiaonituranchachulexiantianxingxinzangbing，zheiduiyuyigebenbufuyudejiatinglaishuo，wuyiyumiedingzhizai。
weilejixiaonizhibing，zhouwenjinghuaguanglesuoyoujixu，shenzhilianjilisiwendeqianyegongbushangle，zheiranglisiwenfeichangbuman，duocizunaoxiaonijiuyi。
jintianzaoshang，yinweihaizifashao，zhouwenjingzaicitichurangxiaonizhuyuanzhiliao，keshilisiwenbujinbutongyi，haidasuanqiangduozhouwenjingjielaidezhuyuanfei。
zhouwenjingbucong，lisiwenbianhenhendidaleta，dongshoudeguochengzhong，lisiwenyinweihelejiu，yibuxiaoxindiezuozaidi，hounaozhengqiaokedaolezhuojiao。
zheiyikebuyaojin，zhijiejiangbaleyangqiguandelisiwenkeleguolai。
“wokao，wobujinshigefeiwu，haishigechusheng。”
lisiwencongweirucizibianguo，danzheihuaqueyidianmaobingmeiyou，buwuzhengyedalaopo，zheihechushengyoushenmequbieni？
yaozhiqianshitasuiranhongyanwushu，danneixienvrennagebushiweileqian？suoyizhidaobishangyanjingyeweinengquqishengzi。erzheigefeiwu，quleyigerucishanliangdelaopo，jingranhaishedequandajiaoti？
aonaozhiyu，kanzhetangzaidishangdenvren，xinlikaishidagu：tabuhuibeiwodasileba？gangzhongshengjiubazijilaopodasi，xiaoshuodoubuganzheimexieba？
lisiwenxiaoxinyiyidezouleguoqu，manmandiwanxiayaobaxiaonilaleqilai：“guai，biekule。”
“shushu，biedamamale，xiaonizhendebuzhuyuanle，xiaoniqiunile。”xiaonijinzhangdezhuaizhulisiwendekuzi，shengpatazaicidongshou。
“biepa，wobuhuizaidatale。”lisiwendishenganwei，zhanzhanjingjingdebashoufangdaolezhouwenjingdejingdongmaishang。
zheiyimiao，shijianfangfojingzhi，tadexintidaolesangziyan，buguohenkuaitabianrushizhongdandesonglekouzhangqi。
“haihaozhishiyunleguoqu，womashangdainimenquyiyuan。”
jifenzhonghou，yiliangkaiwangcaozhouyiyuandechuzucheli，lisiwenzhongyuyoushijianxiankaizhouwenjingdezhangfa，dangyizhangqingchunjiebaidelianjiachuangrushuangyan，tajihuyishunjianbianbeixiyinle。
wanwandemeimao，bobodezuichun，fengyanweibiquezangbuzhuneilianglidemouzi，suiranmeiyoubandianzhuangrong，quejingzhidexiangmingxingyiyang，zheishiyigehenmeidenvren，weiyidexiacikenengjiushilianshangdeyuqing。
lisiwendeneixinbujinchuxianyisihuangluan，zheizhongshanliangpiaoliangdenvrenbuzhengshitasuoqiwangdetame？nandaozheijiushizhongshengdeyiyi？
“shushu，mamashuizhelema？”
tianzhendeshengyindaduanlelisiwendesikao。
“嗯，睡着了。”
lisiwenkanzhexiaoni，yanshenwubicankui。
“shushu，nibuyaozaidamamalehaoma？”
xiaonisihuguzulesuoyoudeyongqi，caiganshuochuzheijuhua。
“wo......”lisiwenchenmolejimiaohou，caidiantoudao：“hao，wodayingni。”
cikedeta，xinqingshuobuchudefuza，yigeshanliangpiaoliangdelaopo，yigeguaiqiaodongshidenver，zenmetanshanglezheiyangdeyigezhangfu？