第4章
咔嚓-
病房门被推开。
脚步声缓缓靠近。
xujiayuntaimoukanxianglairen。
shixianduishangdeneiyishun，nanrenmousebinghan，“xujiayun，zheigehaizinibixusheng。”
tazhanzaichuangbian，yiyigegaoweizhedezitaifushizheta。
xujiayundingdingdekanzheta。
空气静默几秒。
nanrendelianseyufayinchen。
xujiayunshuangshouchengzhuchuang，huanhuanzuoqishen，yizhishouniezhebeizi，taimouwangxiangta，“neiwomenshenmeshihoubanhunli？”
tasangyinwenruan，yuqiqueshiduding。
buzhidaodehaiyiweijiehunzheijianshitamenzaojiushuohaole。
peisangyuheimoulishanguoyishundeyiwai。
xiayimiao，tamomeihenhenyicu，fushenyibahenhenqiazhuxujiayundebozi。
“nishibushiyouxiangzhaosile！”
tayanshenhenli，shoubeishangqingjintuqi，fangfohenbudexiayimiaojiuyaobatadeboziningduan，“peijiashaofurendeweizhiyeshininengxiaoxiangde？”
xujiayuntongkudeningzhemei，shuangshousisizhuazhetadeshou，“teng......”
“tengjiuduile！”peisangyulengheyisheng，yaoyadao：“xujiayun，nishibushiwanglenideshenfen？nimashalewoba，nizenmegangenwotanjiehun？！”
“wo......”xujiayunyileng，suijiyoumengdizhouqimei，“woyiweiwomenzhijianzaojiukuayuelefumuneiyibeideenyuanle......”
peisangyumouseyufayinchen，shoushanglidaojiashen，shoubeiqingjintuqi。
“zaojiukuayue？neishiyitiaorenming！xujiayun！nishuodeqingqiao！nidexinguoranhenineigeedushilideqinmayiyangangzangzisi！”
“nixian......xianfangkaiwo......”xujiayunkesouyisheng，“nizheiyang......womeibanfa......shuohua......”
peisangyukanzhetazhanghongdelian，chiyipianke，songkaileshou。
xujiayunwuzhebozikesouqilai。
houlongdebushiganhuanjiehou，xujiayunzaicitaiyankanxiangpeisangyu，shengyinliranlejifenweiqu，“ayu，nishihouhuilema？kenizhiqianmingmingshuoguo......”
“bizui！”peisangyucuzhemei，yanshenhenli，“sheiyunxunizheiyangchenghuwode？！”
“ni......”xujiayunyankuangfahong，sihushoulejidadedaji，cangbaidelianliuluchujifenbeitong，“nishibushibianxinle？”
peisangyulengjundemianrongyoushiyizheng。
变心？
zheinvrendaodizaihushuobadaoshenme！
peisangyudingzheta，heimoufengli，fangfoyaojiangtakanchuan，“xujiayun，shaojiwozhuangfengmaisha，niyiweizheidianxiaojiliangnengpiandelewo？”
“我骗你什么了？”
xujiayunxiumeijinning，turanyenaole，chongtadihoudao：“womenmingmingzhiqianshuohaode，youlehaizijiujiehun！xianzaiwohuailenidehaizi，bujiehunnandaonishiyaowomendehaizidangsishengzima？！”
peisangyumomeicuqi，heichendemousisidingzheta。
xujiayunzhishizheta，mouguangjianding，“peisangyu，nibixuquwo，zheiyeshiwodedixian！”
底线？
peisangyulenghe，heimouyinchenwubi，“jiuni，yepeihewotandixian？”
“zhiqianmeiyouhaizinizenmewanwodoukeyiren，danxianzaibuyiyangle，womenyoulehaizi......”xujiayunkanzhepeisangyu，yiziyijushuodao：“nibixuquwo。”
“quni？”peisangyulengheyisheng，“nizhenyiweihuailehaizijiukeyinaniewole？zheigehaiziwoyaoshiweilegenghaodezhemoni，danniruoshitaizuo，woyebujieyixianzaijiurangtaxiaoshi！”
wenyan，xujiayunshenmedoumeishuo，zhishiyishunbushunwangzhepeisangyu。
nuhuochongchizhetadeshuangyan，yankuangyidiandianbianhong，qingkejian，doudadeyanleiyikeyikeluoxia，jinshitabenjiucangbaideliandan。
tajinyaozhechun，yinrendaoxiababushoukongdefadou，yebuyuanyifachushenglai。
破碎又倔强。
peisangyuyinyudelianyoupiankedehuanghu。
guoqusangeyue，buguantayongshenmeshouduanzhemobaofu，xujiayunconglaibuhuishiruoqiurao，napashibeiguanjinleyinlengchaoshidedixiashi，tayecongweidiaoguoyidiyanlei。
现在她竟哭了？
为了这个孩子？
peisangyuwangxujiayunfubusaoleyiyan，heichendemouranlejifenxixue，“kanlailiuxiahaiziqueshinenggenghaodezhemoni。”
xujiayunmeixinyitiao，zhuazhebeizideshouyonglidaozhandou，“nizheishi......shenmeyisi？”
“shenmeyisiyihouniziranhuizhidao。”
peisangyubochunweigou，yimobinglengdexiaoyidangkai，“xujiayun，nizheiyangjinzhangzheigehaizi，rangwodoubujinkaishiqidaizheigehaizichushengle。”
nanrendingzheta，shuozheihuashineiguyinyuganzhimianbilai。
xujiayunhuxiyizhi，yigumomingdekongjucongxindimanyankailai。
peisangyubuzaiyutaduoshuo，zhuanshenlakaimenjingzhizoulechuqu。
‘peng’deyisheng，menzhongzhongdeguanshang。
xujiayunbishangyan，shenhuxi。
lenghanjinshijinbengzhedehoubeiyidiandianfangsongxialai。
zaizhengyan，tataishoumoqulianshangdeleihen，mouzhongzhishengbinglenghejueran！
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半小时后。
jiangmuhengdaizhexinlikezhuanjiawangyishengcongxujiayunbingfangzouchulai，zhuanshenjinlegebidevipxiuxishi。
shafaneibian，nanrenzhijianjiazheyan，taimoushi，zuilituchuyanwu。
niaoniaoqingyanxia，nanrenshenseyinyu，“tazhuangdeduima？”
jiangmuhengtanshengqi，“yinggaishixinlichulewenti。”
peisangyuzhoumei，xianranduizheigejieguobingbumanyi。
“tahetaneigeedudemayiyang，guanaishuaxinji！”peisangyuqialeyan，lengshengdao：“tapiandelenimen，pianbuguowo！”
“woyikaishiyejuedebukeneng，danshi......”jiangmuhengshuozhekanxiangpangbiandexinlizhuanjia，“wangyisheng，nilaigenpeizongjieshiyixiaxu**deqingkuangba。”
wangyishengdianlexiatou，huibaodao：“peizong，genjuxu**muqiandeqingkuang，chubupanduanshi‘chuangshanghouyingjizheng’。zheigebingdezhengzhuangbaokuoduichuangshangqingjingjiyifanyingguodu，chuangshangjiyidebuzizhushanhui，kongjuxiaotuigongnengshousun，bufenbinglibanyourenzhizhangai、xuexizhangaiheemeng。danxu**deqingkuanghuixiangduifuzayidian......”
wangyishengshuodaozheili，tingxialai，guanchazhepeisangyudefanying。
peisangyutaishouningmei，yuqibunai，“jiezheshuo。”
“xu**linchuangdebiaoxianzuimingxiandeshijiyicuoluan，renzhicuowu，zheizhongqingkuangshaojian，bingqiemuqianlinchuangshangyemeiyoutebieyouxiaodezhiliaojilu。”
“shuaiyijiaojiuyingjile？”peisangyulengheyisheng，“zaiwokanlai，douzhuangde，zheizhishitaxiangtaopaoshuadexinji!”
xujiayuncengweiletaopaoliancongerloutiaochuangdeshiqingdouganzuo，zheicikendingyeshiweiletaopaocaiguyiyanzheimeyichukurouji！
dui，zheiyidingshitadekurouji！
wangyishengmianseweijiang，kanxiangjiangmuheng。
jiangmuhengzhidaopeisangyunaixinyidaojixian，ganjinrangwangyishengxianlikai。
休息室门关上。
peisangyuzhongxindianranyigenyan，mizhemouyinchendao：“tayiweizhuangfengmaishawojiunengfangguota？zhenshiyixiangtiankai！”
jiangmuhengqingleqingsang，shuodao：“wogangyezaipangbiankanzhe，taneigeyangzibuxiangshizhuangde，taxianzaidejiyili，shinapagezheshangyibeideenyuannimenyejiandingdexiangaizhe，tashuonimenjihuajiushixianzhanhouzou，youlehaizijiehunnimuqinyezuzhibule。taganghaiwenwo，niweishenmeturanjiufanhuile？wokantaneiyangzi，shizhendehenxihuanzheigehaizi......”
wenyan，peisangyutaimouyigedaoyansaoguoqu，“nihenlejieta？”
jiangmuheng：“......neimeiyou。”
“takeshixuyinglandenver，tadexinhexuyinglanyiyanghen，zhishicongloutishuaixialaijiuxinliyingjile？nijuedezheikeneng？”
“huayebunengzheimeshuo。”jiangmuhengpingliangxinshuohua，“nizhemorendeshouduancengchubuqiong，yicibiyicihenlibiantai，chengshounenglizaiqiangdoubuyidingkangdezhu，genghekuang......xujiayuncai20sui。”
peisangyuhenhenchoulekouyan，tuntuyunwujian，weixiandemilemiyan，“nixianzaidaoshitingguanxintade。”
jiangmuhengzuijiaoyichou，“nibuyaobeichouhenchonghuntounaojiuduiwowuchabiegongjia！”
peisangyubuyan，yinchenzhelianzhanqishen。
talakaimen，shenhoujiangmuhenghuojihuoliaodeshengyinchuanlai：
“wozhidaonibuaiting，danzuoweiyishengwohaishiyaoduozuiyiju，duidaiyunfuyaowenrou......”
‘peng’deyisheng，menbeiyongliguanshang，gejuelejiangmuhenghoumiandehua。
peisangyuzhanzaimenwai，heimoudingzheneishanjinbidebingfangmen。
xujiayun，wokanninengzhuangdaoshenmedibu！
tanachushouji，botongzhoujingdedianhua，“baxujiayundewaipo......”
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“jinidiandeshiyingyangye，nixianzaihuaizheyunyebunengyongyao，suoyizhinengwochuangjingyang。”
bingfangli，hushidiaoshihaodiandi，ditoukanyiyanbingchuangshangdexujiayun。
xujiayunduishanghushideshixian，meiyanweiwan，“wozhidaole。”
tabenjiushengdeyizhangnvrendouweizhijingyandelian，youqishineishuangyanjing，jingliangdehuposetongren，xiaoqilaitebiehaokan。
zaizheiyangdemeiyangongjixia，hushizaikaikouyuqidoubuzijuewenroulexuduo，“neinihaohaoxiuxi，youshianling。”
“谢谢。”
病房门关上。
xujiayunyanlidexiaoyichedidanqu。
她转头望向窗外。
微风吹动窗帘。
chuanglianshangyinzhezhuanshuyupeishiqixiasiliyiyuandelogo。
qianshi，niannianjiushizaizheijiayiyuanchushengde。
shishenzhiyanhaita36zhoujianxuezaochan，niannianshengxialai4jinbudao，zhijiezhuandaoxinshengerke。
ertayinweiyangshuishuansaizaiguimenguanzouleyizao，zaiicuhunmisantiancaixinglai。
xinglaicaizhidaoniannianfeibuganran，zaitahunmidesantianli，niannianlianxuxialesancibingweitongzhidan！
tabuguhushizulan，tuozhexuruodeshentiqulexinshengerke。
neishixujiayundiyicijiandaotadeniannian。
xiaoxiaodeshentichamanleguanzi，gulinglingdetangzaibaowenxiangli。
tadenianniancongyichushengjiushoujinkunana......
huiyixianglijian，yidaoyidaolingchizhexujiayundexin。
buzhiheshi，yanleizaoyijinshizhentou。
tafumozhepingtandexiaofu。
niannianbupa，zheiyishimamayidinghuibaohuhaoni！
mamayidingzainichushengzhiqian，jiangneixieshanghaini，duiniyouweixiederenyiyichanchu！
xujiayuntaishoucaganyanlei，yanzhongdebeitongbeihenyiqudai。
shangyishishitaruanruoyuchun，duocidonglexiangliudiaohaizideniantou，yierzaiderenupeisangyu，huanlaigengjiacanrendezhemo。
zheiyishi，tabuhuizaizhongdaofuzhe。
tayaohaohaodebaniannianshengxialai，buguangruci，zheiyishi，tayaopeisangyubashangyishikuiqiannianniandeshuangbeihaishang！
gaogenxiedeshengyinyouyuanjianjin，bingfangmenbeirentuikai。
shenzhiyanshoulitizheyigebaowenhezoujinlai。
“meimei，wolaikannile。”