diyizhangwuyejinghunwoyouyicizailingchensandianjingxing，hunshenlenghan。
neizhongbeikuishideganjuexiangzhuwangyiyangnianzaipifushang，huizhibuqu。heianzhong，womengdizuoqi，huangusizhou。
woshilijingqiaoqiaode，zhiyoukongdiaoyunzhuandeweiruoshengxiang。chuanglianyansihefeng，menyeguandehaohaode。
kewojiushijuedeyoushuangyanjingzaidingzhewo。zheibushidiyicile。lianxuliangzhou，zheizhongguiyideganjueruyingsuixing。
qichuzhishizaishenye，houlailianbaitianzaijiagongzuoshiyehuituranjibeifaliang，fangfoyourenjiuzhanzaiwoshenhouhuxi。
“linshen，nizuijinheiyanquanhenzhonga。”tongshizhoumingdijiwoyibeikafei，meitouweizhou，“xiangmuyalitaidale？
”womianqiangxiaolexiao，meiganshuowojuedezijibeigenzongle。yigeershibasuidedananren，
shuozijizongjuedebeirentoukui，tingqilaijiuxiangshizaizhaojiekoutoulan。danzheizhongganjueyuelaiyuezhenshi。zuotianxiawu，
wozaichufangzhumian，mingmingtingdaoshenhouyoujiaobusheng，mengdihuitouqueshenmedoumeiyou。qiantianwanshangxizaoshi，
yulianwufengzidong，wohedechadianhuadao。“wojianyinianzhuanggejiankong。”haoyouchenhaotingwanwodemiaoshuhoushuodao，
“zheiyangjinenganxin，wanyizhenyoushenmeyenengliuxiazhengju。”wojuedeyoudaoli，
dangtianjiuzaiwangshangdinggouleyitaozhinengjiankongshebei。anzhuangjiankonghoudiyitian，xianganwushi。diertian，yiqiezhengchang。
disantian，wokaishihuaiyizijishibushizhendeyalitaidachanshenglehuanjue。zhidaodisitianwanshang。
neitianwojiabandaoshidiancaihuijia，leidezhijietanzaishafashang。
shoujidanchujiankongtixing——xitongjiancedaoyichangdongtai。woxintiaojiasu，diankaihuifang。
ketinghuamianzaiyewanmoshixiayipianyoulv。shijianxianshishiwanshangjiudiansanshiqifen，wohaimeihuijia，
fangjianlibengaikongwuyiren。danhuamianzhong，shafashangdekaodianweiweixiaxian，jiuxiangyourenganggangqishen。wopingzhuhuxi，
babofangsududiaoman，yizhenyizhendichakan。shenmedoumeiyou。zhishikaodianziranhuidaneryi，wogaosuziji。
kenengshibaitianbeiyadao，wanshangcaimanmanhuifuyuanzhuang。danjiexialaidepianduanrangwomaogusongran。jiudiansishierfen，
shufangdemenwushengdikaileyitiaofeng。wofangdahuamian，sisidingzhumenfenghoudeheian。shenmedoumeiyou，
zhishimenmomingqimiaodikaile。huozheshibeifengchuikaide？kewoqingchudijideshufangdechuanghushiguanzhede。
wojixukuaijinshipin，zhidaowohuijiadeshijiandian。huamianzhongdewopibeidikaimen、kaideng、fangxiagongwenbao，
yiqieruchang。danjiuzaiwozouxiangwoshishi，shipinjiaoluolideyingzirangwojiangzhule。neibushiwodeyingzi。
dengguangcongyoucedalai，wodeyingziyinggaixiangzuoyanshen。danzaidibanshang，haiyoulingyidaomohudeheiying，
duanzandichuxianhouyouxiaoshile。wofanfuguankanzheiyiduan，xintiaorugu。zuizhong，worendingneizhishiguangxiancuojue。
“kenengshigongzuoyalitaidale。”xinliyishengliyishengwenhedishuo，“zuijinxiangmujiezhiqikuaidaole，shima？
”wodiandiantou，meiyougaosutajiankongdeshi。wopatajuedewofengle。“wokaixieanshendeyaojini，
jinliangbaozhengchongzushuimian。ruguoqingkuangmeiyougaishan，womenkeyizaizuoyicishenruzixun。
”wonazheyaofanglikaizhensuo，xinqingfuza。yifangmianxiwangzhendezhishiyalisuozhi，
lingyifangmianyouyinyinjuedeshiqingmeineimejiandan。huidaojia，wojuedingzaichakanyibianzuowandejiankong。zheici，
wodiaochuleduogeshexiangtoudehuamian，tongshibofang。keting、chufang、zoulang...yiqiezhengchang。
zhidaowodemuguangluozaiwoshihuamianshang。lingchenliangdianshisifen，wozhengzaishushui。huamianzhongdewofanlegeshen，
beizihualuoyiban。jiuzaizheishi，zhentoushangchuxianleyigeweixiaodeaoxian，jiuxiangyourenqingqingkaoleshangqu。
wohoubeifaliang，fangdahuamian。zhentoudeaoxianhuanhuanhuifu，fangfoneigekanbujiandezhonglianggangganglikai。bukeneng。
jueduibukeneng。wozhandouzheshou，jichenhaofaxiaoxi：“nixiangxinshishangyouguima？”tamiaohui：“？？？
nihaihaoma？”womeizaihuifu，ershijixuchakanjiankong。rifuyiri，
yichangjileiqilai：wuguyidongdegangbi、zidongkaiqidebingxiangmen、shenyecesuodechongshuisheng...zuikepadeshi，
suoyouzheixieyichangdoufashengzaiwolijiahuozheshushuideshihou。jiankongcongweipaidaorenheruqinzhe。zhouwuwanshang，
wojuedingtongxiaokanjiankong。wobasuoyoushexiangtouhuamiantoupingdaodianshishang，paolenongkafei，zhunbeidachijiuzhan。
shijianyifenyimiaoguoqu，fangjianlizhiyouwohekafeideshengyin。dianshipingmushang，sigehuamianjingzhiruhua。
lingchenyidian，wokaishifankun。yidianban，woyanpidajia。liangdianzheng，wojihuyaoshuizhele。jiuzaizheishi，
ketinghuamianturanshanshuoleyixia。womengdijingxing，zhuaqiyaokongqihuifang。shipinxianshi，lingchenliangdianlingsanfen，
ketingdeshexiangtouxinhaoyoushunjianzhongduan，chixushijianbuzu0.1miao，jihunanyichajue。
yaobushiwoyizhidingzhepingmu，genbenbuhuizhuyidao。erzaixinhaohuifudeshunjian，
chajishangdezazhiyemianweiweipiaodong，jiuxiangyourenjingguodaiqidefeng。wohunshenxueyedouliangle。zheibushicuojue，
bushiyali，shizhendeyoudongxizaiwodegongyuli。jiexialaidejigexiaoshixianganwushi。lingchenwudian，
tiankaishimengmengliang，wozhongyuchengbuzhu，zaishafashangshuizhele。xinglaishiyishizhongwu，yangguangciyan。
worouzhesuantongdeboziqishen，diyijianshijiushichakanjiankongjilu。zuoyewoshuizhehoudeshipinyiqiezhengchang。
wosonglekouqi，huoxuzhendeshiwotaiminganle。weiqiuanxin，
wojuedingbazuijinyizhoudesuoyoujiankongshipindoubeifendaoyunduan。zhenglidaodisantianwanshangdewoshishipinshi，
wowuyizhongdiankailejiasubofang。huamianzhong，wozaichuangshangfanlaifuqu，shuimianzhilianghencha。lingchensandianzuoyou，
woturanjingzhibudong，xiangshixianruleshendushuimian。jiuzaizheishi，wozhuyidaoleyingzi。
chuangtoudeyedengzaidishangtouxiawodeyingzi，suizhewodefanshenerbianhua。dandangwowanquanjingzhihou，
yingziquemeiyoutingzhiyidong。tahuanhuantaiqileyizhishou，duizheshexiangtoudefangxiang，bileyige“ye”deshoushi。
wojiangzaiyuandi，xueyeniliu。neibushibierendeyingzi——neiqueshishiwodeyingzi。guangyuan、jiaodu、lunkuo，
doumingquebiaomingneishiwoshentitouxiadeyinying。danwodeshentimingmingyidongbudongditangzaichuangshang。
wozhandouzhefangdahuamian，yizhenyizhendichakan。meicuo，yingziqueshizaizhurenjingzhideqingkuangxia，
zijizuochuledongzuo。neigevzishoushiqingxikejian，shenzhidaizhejifenxixue。woganjuehuxikunnan，
lenghanjintoulechenshan。zheibushirushidaoqie，bushiezuoju，shenzhibushiputongdenaogui。
zheishimouzhongwowufalijiededongxi，tasihuyuwoyimoyiyang，huozheshuo，tajiushiwodelingyimian。
wodiyishijianshanchuleshipin，queguishishenchadibeifendaolejiamiwenjianjia。
lizhigaosuwoyinggailijigeshihuasuoyouneirong，danmouzhongguiyidehaoqixinzuzhilewo。neitianyuxiadeshijian，
wozuolinanan。meicijingguofanguangdebiaomian，doubuganduokanzijideyingziyiyan。wanshang，
wozhanzaiyushidejingziqianshuaya，guyizuochugezhongdongzuo，guanchayingzishifoutongbu。yiqiezhengchang。
jiuzaiwoshaoweianxinshi，yanjiaopiejianjingzhongdeyingzisihumanleyipai。womengdizhuantou，yingziyesuizhizhuandong。
cuojue，yidingshicuojue。dandangwozhunbeilikaiyushishi，tongguojingzi，
wosihukandaowodeyingzi——zaidengguangxiayinggaijinsuiwojiaobudeyingzi——tingliuzaiyuandi，duizhewoweiweiyixiao。
wojingkongdihuitou，dishangdeyingzizhengchangdigenzaijiaobian。yalihekongjuzhongyujikualewo。
woyuyueleliyishengdejinjizixun。“linxiansheng，nidezhuangtaibishangcigengchale。”liyishengdanyoudishuo。
woyouyuzaisan，haishimeiyoutijiyingzidejutishiqing，zhishuozijiganjuebeijianshidezhengzhuangjiajule。
“wojianyinixiuxiyiduanshijian，huangehuanjingkenenghuiyoubangzhu。”liyishengxiexiajiatiao，
“ruguoqingkuangjixuehua，womenkeyikaolvgengshenrudezhiliao。”wojieguojiatiao，
turanchongdongdiwendao：“liyisheng，nixiangbuxiangxinrenyoudoppelgänger？”talengleyixia，
jinshendihuida：“doppelgängertongchangbeirenweishixinlixianxiang，shiyalixiadeziwotoushe。
”“danruguotakanqilaishizhenshicunzaideni？”liyishengruoyousuosidikanzhewo：“youshihou，
womenneixinbuyuanmianduidebufen，huiyigezhongxingshibiaoxianchulai。zhongyaodeshi，buyaohaipamianduita。
”buyaohaipamianduita。shuodeqingqiao。huidaojia，wozuochuleyigejueding：woyaozhudongyinchuzheige“dongxi”。
jirantasihuyuwodeyingziyouguan，wojiuyaozaiguangxianxiayutaduizhi。zhoumowanshang，wozhunbeileqiangguangshoudiantong，
jiangketingbuzhidedenghuotongming，jihumeiyouyinyingcunzaidekongjian。wozaiketingzhongyangfangleyibayizi，
zhengduizhezuidadeshexiangtou。wuyeshierdian，wozuozaiyizishang，shenhuxi。“wozhidaonizaizheili。
”woduizhekongqishuo，“chulaitantanba。”meiyourenhehuiying。fangjianlijingdenengtingdaozijidexintiao。
wojixudao：“wulunnishishenme，wobuxiangzaizheiyangxiaqule。womenkeyizhaodaogongcundefangshi，
huozhenizhijielikai。”dengguangturanshanshuoleyixia。wowojinshoudiantong，quanshenjinbeng。
qiangshangdeyingzisuizhedengguanghuangdong，danhenkuaiwendingxialai。wozixijianchameiyigejiaoluo，meiyouyichang。
jiuzaiwoshaoweifangsongjingtishi，suoyoudengguangturanximie。yingjidengjimiaohouliangqi，hunandeguangxianxia，
wokandaoduimianqiangshang，wodeyingzibeiladezhangzhangde。danyingzipangbian，haiyoulingyidaoyingzi。
tamenjihuyimoyiyang，rutongshuangbaotai。dierdaoyingzihuanhuanzhuantou，kanxiangwosuozaidefangxiang。suiranmeiyouwuguan，
danwonengganjuedaotazaixiao。ranhou，tataiqishou，zaicibichuneigelingrenmaogusongrande“ye”deshoushi。
wojianjiaozhedakaiqiangguangshoudian，yingzishunjianhuifuzhengchang。fangjianlizhiyouwoyigeren，chuanzhecuqi，hunshenzhandou。
jiexialaidejizhou，woshenghuozaichixudekongjuzhong。
yingzidexiaodongzuoyuelaiyuepinfan：youshitahuizaiwozhiqianzuochudongzuo，youshitahuibaochiwojimiaozhongqiandezishi，
youshitashenzhihuizhixiangmougefangxiang，erwoshunzhefangxiangzonghuifaxianyixieyichang——birumomingdakaidechuanghu，
huozhebeidongguodewupin。zuikepadeshi，tasihuzhizaijiankongxiahuofanguangbiaomianbiaoxianchuyichang。zhijiekanqu，
yiqiezhengchang。wokaishibimianzhaojingzi，lashangsuoyouchuanglian，shenghuozairuoguanghuanjingzhong。wociqulegongzuo，
jihubuchumen。pengyoumendeguanxindianhuawoyefuyanleshi。chenhaozhongyuzhaoshangmenlai：“linshen！
nizaibukaimenwojiubaojingle！”woyouyupianke，haishidakailemen。chenhaokandaowo，
daoxiyikouliangqi：“laotian，nizenmebianchengzheiyangle？”jingzilidewoqueshiheren：yanwoshenxian，huzilacha，
shoudequangutuchu。“womeishi，zhishiyoudianlei。”woshituguanmen，beitadangzhu。“nizheiyangzijiaomeishi？
”taqiangxingjijinmen，“daodifashengleshenme？shibushixidule？duboqianzhaile？”wokuxiaozheyaotou。
yaozenmejieshiwojuedezijideyingziyouzizhuyishi？chenhaoxunshileyiquanwodegongyu，
meitouyuezhouyuejin：“zheilizenmezheimean？niduojiumeichumenle？”zaitadebiwenxia，wozhongyubengkui，
hepantuochu。baokuojiankongshipin、yingzideshoushi，yijizuijinjizhoudeguiyijingli。chenhaochenmoditingwan，
biaoqingfuza：“linshen，wojuedenixuyaobangzhu。”“nibuxiangxinwo。”“woxiangxinnizhendejinglilezheixie，
”tajinshendicuoci，“dankenengbushichaozirande。yalizhendehuirangrenchanshenghuanjue。”wojidongdinachupingban，
xiangyaojitakanbeifendeshipin，quefaxianjiamiwenjianjiakongkongruye。suoyouyouguanyingziyichangdejiludouxiaoshile。
“tamenbujianle！mingmingjiuzaizheilide！”wofengkuangdifanzhaocunchukongjian。chenhaoanzhuwodejianbang：“tingzhe，
worenshiyigehenlihaidexinliyisheng，zhuangongchuangshanghehuanjuezhiliao。wopeiniqukankan，haoma？
”wokanzhetayanzhongdelianmin，zhidaoshuoshenmedoumeiyongle。zaitarenkanlai，woyijingfengle。
zuizhongwotongyiqukanyisheng，danneixinzhidaozheibushihuanjue。neigeyingzi，neigedoppelgänger，
tashizhenshicunzaide。erqietazhengzaizhujianqinshiwodeshenghuo。neitianwanshang，woduzizuozaiheianzhong，sikaoduice。
ruguozheibushihuanjue，neimetayidingyoumude。ruguotashiwodeyingzi，weishenmehuiyouzizhuyishi？
ruguotabushi，youweishenmeyaomofangwo？turan，yigekepadeniantoujizhonglewo：ruguoyingzinenggoudulixingdong，
neitashifouyenengdulicunzai？shifouyouyitian，tahuiwanquanqudaiwo？zheigexiangfarangwobuhanerli。
wojuedingzuozuihouyicichangshi——yutagoutong。wozaiketingzhongyangdianleyiquanlazhu，
zhizaochurouheerwendingdeguangyuan。ranhouwozuozaiquanzhongyang，bishangyanjing。“wozhidaoninenglijiewo。
”woqingshengshuo，“gaosuwonixiangyaoshenme。”meiyouhuiying。zhiyoulazhuranshaodexiweishengxiang。
wojixudao：“ruguonishilaiziwoneixindemoubufen，qingyiwonenglijiedefangshibiaoda。”turan，
wogandaoyizhenhanyi。zhengkaiyanjing，wofaxianzhouweiqiangshangdeyingzibuzaishiwodezuozi，ershizhanlizhe，mianxiangwo。
zuikongbudeshi，suoyoudeyingzidouzaitongbuyidong，taiqishou，zhixiangshufangdefangxiang。wozhandouzheqishen，
zouxiangshufang。yingzimendeshouzhisuizhewodeyidongerdiaozhengfangxiang，shizhongzhixiangshufangchouti。wolakaichouti，
limianzhiyouyixiejiuwenjianhewenju。yingzimendeshouzhixianzaizhijiezhixiangchoutizuishenchudeyigejiuxiangce。
wonachuxiangce，fankai。limianshiwotongnianheqingshaonianshiqidezhaopian。yingzimendeshouzhizaiqizhongyiyetingxia，
zhixiangyizhanggaozhongbiyezhao。neishiwohechuliannvyouxiaoyadeheying。womencengjingxingyingbuli，zhidaotaturanzhuanxue，
yinxunquanwu。zheiduanganqingwujierzhong，chengweiwoxinzhongyizhideyihan。“zheihexiaoyayoushenmeguanxi？
”wowenyingzi。yingzimenmeiyouhuiying，zhishihuanhuanfangxiashou，huifuchengzhengchangdetouying。
wodingzhezhaopianzhongxiaoyacanlandexiaorong，turangandaoyizhenxinji。biyehoubujiu，
tajiusuijiarenbanquleqitachengshi，womenshiqulelianxi。wojidezijicengjingfeichangtongku，jihuyiyu。
nandaozheigeyingzidechuxian，yuzheiduanweijiedexinjieyouguan？jiexialaidejitian，
wochangshitongguogezhongfangshixunzhaoxiaoyadexialuo，danyiwusuohuo。tajiuxiangrenjianzhengfaleyiyang，
lianshejiaomeitishangdouzhaobudaorenhehenji。yucitongshi，yingzidexingweibiandegengjiaguiyi。
takaishibuzaizhishimofangwo，ershibiaoxianchudulidegexing。youshiwohuifaxianjialidewupinbeizhongxinbaifang，
shiwubeitouchi，shenzhiwodeyifuyoubeichuanguodehenji。zuirangwobuandeshi，yiciwoouranchakanshouji，
faxianxiangceliduoleyizhang**——zhaopianzhongde“wo”xiaodecanlan，danneigexiaorongwanquanbushuyuwo。
beijingshiwodewoshi，shijianchuoxianshishilingchensandian，dangshiwozhengzaishushui。tazhengzaishituchengweiwo。konghuangzhong，
womailailezuiliangdezhaomingshebei，quebaogongyulimeiyourenheyinying。woshenzhikaolvbanjia，dandanxintahuigensuiwo。
yitianwanshang，wozhongyuzaijingziliyutazhengmianxiangdui。neibushiyishanerguodecuojue，ershichixushumiaodeduishi。
jingzhongde“wo”youzhewocongweiyouguodejiaoxiabiaoqing，tawushengdikaikou，
kouxingqingxikebian：“henkuaijiubuxuyaonile。”wozasuilejingzi，suipianzhongwushuge“wo”douzainingxiao。
wozhidao，zheichangyuzijidezhanzheng，wobixuying。fouze，wojiangbuzaishiwoziji。
danruheyuzijideyingzizhandou？ruhexiaomieyigekansiwuchubuzaiqueyouchubukejidecunzai？
wohuiyiqiyingzizhixiangxiaoyazhaopiandejudong。neiyidingshiguanjianxiansuo。yexujiejuezheiyiqiedefangfa，
jiuzangzaiwoguoqudemougejiaoluo，mougebeiwoyiwanghuoyayidejiyizhong。wojuedinghuidaolaojia，
xunzhaoguoqudehenji，zhaochuyingzichuxiandezhenzhengyuanyin。yexuzhiyouzheiyang，wocainengzhongxinzhangkongzijideshenghuo，
baituozheigeriyiqiangdadedoppelgänger。shoushixinglishi，wowuyizhongpiejianqiangshangdeyingzi。
tajingjingdilizaineili，meiyourenheyichang。danwozhidao，tazhengzaidengdai。dengdaiwanquanqudaiwodeneiyitian。
dierzhangyingzidemimiwolianyedinglehuilaojiadejipiao。shoushixinglishi，woguyijiangmeigedongzuodouzuodejiman，
yongyanjiaoyuguangguanchazijideyingzi。tayirujiwangdizhengchang，fangfozhiqiandezhongzhongyichangdouzhishiwodehuanjue。
danwozhidaobushi。jichanghoujitingli，wozuozaizuiliangdequyu，zhouweirenlairenwang。anquanganshaozongjishi，
yinweiwozhidaotakenengjiuzangzaimougejiaoluo——huozhegengzao，tayijinggenzhewolaile。dengjihou，
woteyixuanzelekaochuangdeweizhi，bimianyuqitarenyoushixianjiechu。feijiqifeishi，
wodingzhexiaozhuobanshangzijidedaoying，turanyishidaoyigewenti：ruguoyingzizhendeyouzijideyishi，
neitashifouxuyaoguangcainengcunzai？ruguomeiyouguang，tahuizainali？“xiansheng，qingwenxuyaoyinliaoma？
”kongjiedeshengyinjiangwolahuixianshi。woyaoyaotou，bishangyanjingshituxiuxi。danshuiyiquanwu，
mannaozidoushineigeguiyide“ye”deshoushihejingzhongneigebushuyuwodexiaorong。feijijiangluoshiyishibangwan。
wotuozhexinglixiangzouchujichang，jiaoleliangchuzuchezhibenlaochengqu。yantudefengjingjishuxiyoumosheng，
zheizuowozhangdadechengshizaishinianjianfashenglefantianfudidebianhua。laojiafangziziwofumuqushihouyizhikongzhe，
ouerqingrendasao。tuikaimen，huichenzaixiyangdeyuhuizhongfeiwu，jiajudougaizhebaibu，xiangyigegechenmodeyouling。
wodakaisuoyoudedeng，kaishifanzhaojiuwu。gaozhongshidaidewupindoucunfangzaigeloudeyigedaxiangzili，
woyijingduonianmeiyoudongguotamen。xiangziliyoujiukeben、jiangzhuang、tunsedezhaopian，
haiyouyitayongsidaikunhaodexin——neishixiaoyaxiejiwodeqingshu。wojiekaisidai，yifengfengfanyue，
neixietianmierzhinendezijurangwoxintousuanchu。zaixiangzizuidiceng，wofaxianleyibenheisefengpiderijiben。
zheibushiwodeziji，danfeiyeshangquexiezhewodemingzi。wozhoumeifankan，neirongrangwomaogusongran。
rijicongwunianqiankaishijilu，zhengshiwojuedebeigenzongdeneiduanshijian。
danlimiandeneirongwanquanbushuyuwodejiyi：“jintiantayoujiabandaoshenye，wozhihaoduzizaijia。
kanzhejiankonglideta，zhenxiwangtanengzaodianhuilai。”“tazuixihuanchuanneijianlansechenshan，
jintianwoyechuanleyiyangde。jingzili，womenzhendeyimoyiyangle。”“tafaxianlejiankonglideyichang，
kaishihaipale。zhenhaowan。”zuihouyiyeshisantianqianxiede：“tayaohuilaojiale，zhenghao，woyegaihuiqukankan。
”wodeshoudoudejihunabuzhurijiben。zheibushiwodebiji，danmeiyiyedouqianzhewodemingzi。gengkepadeshi，
rijixiangxijilulewoguoquwuniandeshenghuoxijie，baokuoyixiewoquexincongweigaosuguorenherendeyinsi。
geloudedengguangturanshanshuoqilai。womengditaitou，kandaoduimianqiangshangdeyingzixunsuhuifuzhengchang。
danjiuzaineiyishunjian，woquexintabishijidewoyaogaojilimi。“chulai！”woduizhekongqidahan，
shengyinzaikongkuangdefangzilihuidang。meiyouhuiying，zhiyousiyibandejijing。wozhuaqirijibenchongxialou，
juedinglikequzhaokenengzhidaoxiaoyaxialuoderen。gaozhongshidebanzhurenwanglaoshihaizhuzailaochengqu。kandaowoshi，
tajingyadituiletuilaohuajing：“linshen？zhenshihaojiubujianle！”womianqianghanxuanjiju，
zhibenzhuti：“wanglaoshi，ninhaijidesuxiaoyama？womenbiyehouzaimeilianxi，woxiangzhidaotahoulaizenmeyangle。
”wanglaoshidebiaoqingturanbiandeguguai：“xiaoya？ta...tabushibiyeneinianjiuqushilema？
”woruzaoleiji：“shenme？bukeneng！womenmingmingyiqipaibiyezhao，
tahaishuoyaoqubeijingdudaxue...”wanglaoshibeishangdiyaotou：“chehuo，jiuzaibiyedianlihouyizhou。
nidangshishoudaohendadaji，zhuyuanzhiliaoleyigeyue。zheixienidoubujidele？”wodiezuozaiyizishang，
danaoyipiankongbai。xiaoyasile？shinianle，wojingranwanquanwangjilezheijianshi？“nifumudangshihendanxinni，
”wanglaoshijixushuo，“yishengshuozheishichuangshanghouyingjizhangai，nixuanzexingyiwangleneiduanjiyi。
”wohuanghudilikaiwanglaoshijia，jietounihongdengdeguangyingzaiyanqianmohuchengyipian。ruguoxiaoyazaoyibuzairenshi，
neizheixieniandejiyishizenmehuishi？woyiweidechulian，neixietianmidehuiyi，nandaodoushiwodehuanxiang？
huidaolaofangzi，wofengkuangdifanzhaobiyejiniance。zaibanjiheyingzhong，xiaoyamingmingjiuzhanzaiwopangbian，xiaodecanlan。
wozhaodaobiyewanhuideshipinguangpan，zaijiudiannaoshangbofang——huamianzhong，wohexiaoyayiqitiaowu，
jieshoutongxuemendeqihongzhufu。zheiyiqierucizhenshi，zenmekenengshijiade？dandangwozixiguankanshipinshi，
faxianleguiyizhichu：shipinzhongdexiaoyacongweizhijieyuqitarenhudong，tadeshenyingzaimouxiezhenzhonglvexiantouming，
youshishenzhihuichuxianduanzandexiaoshi。zuikepadeshi，zaishipindemouyike，
dang“xiaoya”zhuantouduizhejingtouweixiaoshi，
tadeyingzizaiqiangshangqingxidibileyige“ye”deshoushi——yuwozaijiankongzhongkandaoderuchuyizhe。
lenghanjintoulewodehoubei。zheimeduonianlai，woyizhizaiyuyigehuanyingtanlianai？shenzhibiyehoude“fenshou”，
douzhishiwoqianyishichuangzaodeqingjie？woturanmingbaileshenme，chonghuigelou，zhongxinfankanneibenguiyideriji。
zaizilixingjian，wozhaodaolexiansuo：rijizhongde“wo”jingchangtidao“womenzhongyuyiyangle”，
yiji“tajianghuimingbai，gudushizuihaodebaohuse”。yigekepadecaixiangfuxianzainaohai：zheigeyingzi，
zheigedoppelgänger，huibuhuijiushixiaoyadeguihunsuohua？huozhegengzao，
shiwozijiyinweiwufajieshoutadesiwangerfenliechudedierrenge？yeshenle，
wojingpilijindidaozaitongnianwoshidechuangshang，rijibentanzaixiongqian。banmengbanxingjian，
woganjueyourenzaiqingqingfumowodetoufa，shuxierwenrou。“xiaoya？”womimihuhudihuandao。fumotingzhile。
woqiangpozijizhengkaiyanjing，kandaochuangtoujushangdejingzili，wodeyingzizhenghuanhuanshouhuishou，
lianshangdaizhexiaoyateyoudeqiaopixiaorong。ranhou，tayongkouxingwushengdishuo：“yongyuanzaiyiqi。
”wojianjiaozhezasuijingzi，suipianhuashangleshou。xianxuedizaidibanshang，xingchengyitananhongsedewuzi。zaidengguangxia，
neitanxuedeyansesihubizhengchangdeyaoanyixie，jihujiejinheise。jiexialaidesantian，wobimenbuchu，
zixiyanjiuneibenrijihesuoyouyuxiaoyayouguandewupin。jianjiandi，
yigekepadezhenxiangfuchushuimian：xiaoyaqueshizaibiyeneinianqushi，erwoyinweiwufajieshouzheigeshishi，
chuangzaoleyige“tazhuanxuelikai”dexujiajiyi。dangenglingrenbuandeshi，
rijianshizheige“yingzi”yijingcunzaiduonian，shenzhikenengzaixiaoyaqushiqianjiuyijingchuxian。
youyiyexiedao：“jintiantiyuke，tashuaidaole，woqueganjuebudaotengtong。yuanlaiyingzishibuhuishoushangde。
”zheijuhuarangwoxiangqigaozhongshideyiciyiwai：wozaitiaogaoshishuaishang，xigaifenglewuzhen。danqiguaideshi，
woqingchudijideshuaidaodeshunjian，quemeiyourenhetengtongdejiyi。nandaoneigeshihou，yingzijiuyijingcunzaile？
disitianqingchen，menlingxiangle。touguomaoyan，wokandaoyigeyixiangbudaoderen：chenhao。“nizenmezhaodaozheilide？
”wokaimenhoujingyadiwen。“nimashengqianjiguowobeiyongyaochi，paninatianchushi。”chenhaodaliangzhewo，
“kanlaitashiduide。nikanqilaizaotoule。”worangtajinwu，jianyaoshuominglefaxian：xiaoyadesiwang，
wodeshiyi，yijiyingzikenengyutayouguan。chenhaodebiaoqingcongdanyoubianweizhenjing：“linshen，zheitaifengkuangle。
jishixiaoyazhende...qushile，neiyezhishigebeiju，gennideyingziyoushenmeguanxi？
”wonachurijibenjitakan。chenhaofanlejiye，meitouyuezhouyuejin：“zheibiji...henshuxi。
”“nijianguo？”tachensipianke，turanliansedabian：“zheikanqilaixiangshixiaoyadebiji！
”womenfanchuxiangzilixiaoyadeqingshuduibi，guoran，rijidebijiyuqingshushangderuchuyizhe。“danzheibukeneng，
”chenhaoshengyinzhandou，“xiaoyayijing...erqiezheishiniderijiben。”woturanxiangqishenme，
chongjinwoshinachubiyejiniance，fandaobanjitongxunluneiyiye。zaixiaoyademingzipangbian，
qingxidiyinzhetadeshengri：1994nian3yue15ri。erwodeshengrishi1994nian3yue14ri。
womenzhichayitian。yigehuangdanerkepadeniantoujizhonglewo：ruguoyingzibushixiaoyadeguihun，
yebushiwodefenlierenge，ershimouzhonggenggulaodecunzai？mouzhongliyongwomenduibicidezhinianershitihuadedongxi？
neitianwanshang，wozuolegeguiyidemeng。mengzhong，wohexiaoyazhanzaigaozhongxiaoyuandeyinghuashuxia，
tadexiaorongmingliangeryoushang。“linshen，nibixufangshoule，”mengzhongdexiaoyashuo，
“fouzetahuiyongyuankunzhuwomenliangge。”“tashishenme？yingzishishenme？
”xiaoyadeshenyingkaishibiandetouming：“takewangchengweizhenshi，ernidezhinianjiletaliliang。jizhu，
youxiejiexianbugaibeikuayue...”wojingxingshi，yueguangtouguochuanghusazaidibanshang。meiyoukaidengdefangjianli，
wodeyingzibeiladezhangzhangde，zhizhifangmenfangxiang。woshunzhefangxiangkanqu，faxianfangmenxuyanzhe，
waimianchuanlaixiweidexiangdong。xiaoxinyiyidizoudaomenkou，wokandaolezhongshennanwangdeyimu：ketingli，
yigeyuwoyimoyiyangderenzhengzaipaocha，dongzuoshuliandefangfotacaishizheifangzidezhuren。“nixingle？
”“wo”zhuanguotou，luchuyigeyouhaodeweixiao，“yaohechama？”disanzhangjingzhongguiyingwojiangzaimenkou，
xueyefangfoshunjianninggu。ketinglineige“wo”shentaiziruo，jiuxiangzheishizaizhengchangbuguodechangjing。“nishishei？
”wodeshengyinsiya。“wojiushinia。”“ta”qingxiao，diguoyibeicha，“huozheshuo，
woshinixiwangchengweideneigeren。”womeiyoujiechabei，
sisidingzheneizhangyuwobiewuerzhidelian：“xiaoyazainali？”“ta”dexiaorongningguleyishun，
suijihuifuziran：“xiaoyayizhidouzai。zainidejiyili，zaiwodecunzaizhong。”dengguangxia，
“ta”deyingzizhengchangditouzaidibanshang。dandangwoyidongshi，
wofaxianleyigekepadexijie：zheigejiamaozhedeyingziyushitidedongzuoyouweixiaodebutongbu，
jiuxiangjiankongshipinzhongneigeyichangdeyingzi。“nishiwodeyingzi。”woquexindishuo。“yingzi？bu，
”“ta”yaotou，“woshigengwanzhengdecunzai。woshiniyiwangdebufen，shinibuganmianduideziwo。
”“ta”xiangqianyibu，dengguangzhaoliangle“ta”debojing。neiliyouyidaodandandebahen，
shiwogaozhongshishoushuliuxiade。zheigemaopaihuolianzheizhongxijiedoufuzhile。“nidaodixiangyaoshenme？
”wohoutuiyibu，shouqiaoqiaomoxiangkoudailideshouji。“henjiandan，”“ta”shuo，“woxiangyaohuoxiaqu。
zhenzhengdihuoxiaqu，zouzaiyangguangxia，beisuoyourenrenkewei‘linshen’。”“ranhouni？qudaiwo？”“qudai？
bu，shironghe。”“ta”deyanshenturanbiandekuangre，“xiangxiangyixia，linshen。nibuzaigudu，buzaiyouruodian。
womenkeyichengweizuiwanmeidecunzai。”womengdianxiashoujidejinjibohaojian，chenhaodehaomashiyushedekuaijiejian。
xiwangtanengyishidaobuduijing。“ta”sihuchajuelewodexiaodongzuo，danbingbuzuzhi：“jiaosheilaidoumeiyong，
chenhaozhihuirenweinide‘bingqing’gengyanzhongle。”dianhuajietongle，wodashengshuo：“chenhao，kuailailaofangzi！
yougemaochongwoderenzaizheili！”dianhuaneitouchenmopianke，ranhouxiangqichenhaokunhuodeshengyin：“linshen？
nihaihaoma？wojiuzaiketinga。”wolengzhu，kanxiangjiamaozhe。“ta”juqishou，
shouzhongnazheyibuzhengzaitonghuazhongdeshouji——neishiwodeshouji。“kanlainidepengyourenweiwocaishizhenzhengdelinshen。
”“ta”weixiaozheshuo，shengyinyuwoyimoyiyang。dianhuabeiguaduanle。jimiaozhonghou，wodeshoujixiangqi，
pingmushangxianshizhe“chenhao”demingzi。wozhandouzhejieting，chenhaojiaojideshengyinchuanlai：“linshen？
nigangcaishuoshenme？wojiuzailaofangziketing，zheilizhiyouwoyigerena！”wotaitoukanxiangketing，
neigejiamaozheyijingbujianle。fangfogangcaideyiqiedoushiwodehuanjue。“wo...wokenengzuoemengle。
”womianqianghuida，guaduandianhua。huangusizhou，ketingkongwuyiren，
zhiyouyibeihaizaimaoreqidechazhengminggangcaibushihuanjue。wozoujinchaji，faxianchabeipangfangzheyizhangzitiao，
shangmianshishuxidebiji：“mingtianxiawusandian，muxiaoyinghuashuxia，womenzuogeleduan。
”zitiaobeimianhuazheyigejiandandexiaolian，
zuijiaoshangyangdehudurangwobuhanerli——neizhengshixiaoyadebiaozhixingxiaorong。neiyiyewowumian，
zuozaiketingzhidaotianming。chenxitouguochuanghushi，wozuochulejueding：wulunzheigeyingzishishenme，wodouyaomianduita，
jieshuzheichangemeng。diertianxiawu，wotiqianlaidaomuxiao。yinghuashuyiranzhifanyemao，zhishiwushirenfei。
wozhanzaishuxia，huiyiqiyuxiaoyazaizheilidediandiandidi——huozheshuo，woziyiweidehuiyi。“nihenzhunshi。
”shenhouchuanlaishengyin。wozhuanshen，zaicikandaoneigejiamaozhe。yangguangxia，“ta”deshenyingqingxishizai，
meiyourenhetoumingdejixiang。“zhishuoba，nidaodishishenme？”wodandaozhiru。
“ta”tanlekouqi：“woshuoguole，woshinixiwangchengweideren。gengzhunquedishuo，
woshiniyinweixiaoyadesierchuangzaochude‘wanmeibanben’。”“jieshiqingchu。”“haijidexiaoyaqushihou，
niyouduotongkuma？”“ta”qingshengshuo，“niwufajieshouxianshi，
yushiqianyishichuangzaoleyigetidaipin——yigeyongyuanbuhuilikaini、yongyuanbuhuishanghainide‘wanmeibanlv’。
dannibumanzuyuci，nixiwangzijiyenengbiandewanmei，peideshangzheiduanganqing。”“ta”xiangqianyibu：“yushi，
nifenliechulewo。woshinilixiangzhongdeziji：jianqiang、zixin、yongyuanbuhuibeiqinggansuokun。duonianlai，
woyizhizainishenbian，guancha、xuexi、chengzhang。zhidaozuijin，wozhongyuqiangdadaokeyishitihuale。
”zheifanhuarangwoxiangqixinlixueshangde“tulpa”gainian——tongguoqianglieyinianchuangzaochudeshiti。
danneishiweikexue，bushima？“ruguonishiwochuangzaode，weishenmehuiyouzijideyishi？
weishenmeyaoweixiequdaiwo？”“yinweisuoyoushengmingdoukewangcunzai，”“ta”deyanshenbiandebingleng，
“wobuxiangyongyuanhuozainideyinyingxia。woyaozhenzhengdihuozhe。”yuanchuchuanlaixiake**，
xueshengmenluxuzouchujiaoxuelou。jigexueshengxiangwomentoulaihaoqidemuguang，xianranzhuyidaolelianggeyimoyiyangderen。
“kan，tamennengtongshikandaowomen。”jiamaozheweixiaozheshuo，“zheiyiweizhewoyijingzugouzhenshile。
”yigedadandeniantoushanguowodenaohai：ruguozheigeshitishiyinweiwodezhinianercunzai，
neimedangwozhenzhengjieshouxiaoyadesiwang，fangxiaguoqushi，tashifoujiuhuixiaoshi？wobishangyanjing，
nulihuiyibiyeneitianzhenzhengdechangjing：bushiwoyiweidetianmigaobie，
ershijiedaodianhuatongzhixiaoyasixundeshunjian；bushichengnuobaochilianxi，
ershizaizanglishangwufayizhidetongku...dangwozhongxinzhengkaiyanjingshi，
yanqiandejiamaozhesihubiandemohuleyixie。“meiyongde，”“ta”lengxiao，“woyijingtaiqiangdale，
buzaiyilainidexinniancunhuo。”jigexueshengyuezouyuejin，zhizhewomenqieqiesiyu。wobixujinkuaijieshuzheiyiqie。
“xiaoyayijingsile。”wodashengshuo，jishiduijiamaozhe，yeshiduiziji，“tayongyuanbuhuihuilaile。
wosuohuainiande，zhishiwozijichuangzaodehuanying。”jiamaozhedeshenxinghuangdongleyixia，xiangxinhaobuliangdedianshihuamian。
danhenkuaiyouwendingxialai。“zhenshiganren，”“ta”jifengdao，“danniyiweizheimejiandanjiunengbaituowo？
taitianzhenle。”“ta”turanxiangqian，zhuazhuwodeshouwan。chuganzhenshierbingleng。“ganshouyixia，linshen。
woshizhenshide，binigengzhenshi。yinweiwobushouqinggandeshufu，buhuiyinweishiquertongku。”woshituzhengtuo，
dan“ta”deliliangdadejingren。gengkepadeshi，zai“ta”jiechuwodeshunjian，
yixiemoshengdejiyiyongruwodenaohai：wokandao“ziji”zaishenyedejiedaoshangyoudang，
kandao“wo”duizhejiankongshexiangtouweixiao，
kandao“wo”zairijibenshangxiexianeixielingrenmaogusongrandejuzi...zheixiebushiwodejiyi，
queshitongguowodeyanjingkandaodejingxiang。“zheixie...shishenme？”wojiannandiwen。
“zheishigongxiangkaishidebiaozhi，”“ta”deshengyindaizheshenglidexiyue，“henkuai，womenjiangbuzaiyouqubie。
wohuiyongyounidesuoyoujiyi，nihuijieshouwodesuoyoujingli。womenzhongjiangheerweiyi。”yuanchu，
wokandaolechenhaojicongcongpaolaideshenying。taxianrantingxueshengshuoleyoulianggeyimoyiyangderen，ganlaikangejiujing。
“linshen！”chenhaozaiyuanchuhandao，kunhuodikanzhewomenliangge。jiuzaizheiyifenshenzhiji，
jiamaozheturansongshouhoutui，dashengduichenhaoshuo：“xiaoxin！tashimaochongde！”chenhaolengzaiyuandi，kankanwo，
youkankanjiamaozhe，xianranwufafenbian。“chenhao，shiwo！”wojimangshuo，“jidedaxueshinizhuineigenvsheng，
shiwobangnixiedeqingshu！”jiamaozhetongshikaikou：“chenhao，taduqulewodejiyi！jidequniannilihunshi，
shiwopeiniheleyiyedejiu！”chenhaodebiaoqinggengjiakunhuo，zheiliangjianshidoushizhende，
danfenbiefashengzaibutongshiqi。woyishidaozheishigexianjing：zheigejiamaozhebujinmofanglewodewaimao，
haiqiequlewodejiyi。tazhunbeiderucichongfen，xianranxumouyijiu。“tashoushangyoubahen，
”woturanxiangqiyigexijie，“jinzaowobuxiaoxintangshangde！”chenhaokanxiangwomenliangrendeshou。woshenchuzuoshou，
shoubeishangqueshiyouyikuaixinxiandehongzhong。erjiamaozheshenchushou——wanmeiwuxia。“kanlaizhenxiangdabaile。
”chenhaosonglekouqi，xiangwozoulai。danjiuzaizheiyishunjian，