第1章
【yiliangweigang，quanmianfazhan】
【guangkuotiandi，dayouzuowei】
dingzhetuqiangshangdehongsedabiaoyu，zhangjunmengle。
所以。
wozhendehuidaole1978nian？
huidaolewo20suideshihou？
kanzhejiaoxianiningdetulu、liangbianlvyouyoudetianye，jiyiyongshangxintou。
那......
zhangjunjiyiyongxian，yigelianselahuang、dingzhehunshenbudingjiuyishangdeguniangfuxian。
zijixifuzaijintian，yaobeirenhuirongle！
甚至因此自杀！
zhangjunfenglesidewangjiapao。
chuanyueniufenweimimandetulu，shunzhejiyilaidaoyizuoxiaoyuanqian。
canpoxiaxiaodetufangmaozhelvlvchuiyan，xiaoyuanziyonglibaweizhu,suishuopoxiaodanqueshiduodeganganjingjing。
啪嗒。
zhangjunmengdetuikaiyuanmen，yikoutuzhidaguotaiyingruyanlian。
pangbian，yimingmianluchourongdeguniang，zhengyongshaozijiaozheguolidexizhou。
xizhoulidemilishaozhiyoushao，shenzhidounengshudeguolai。
院里没有其他人。
“xifuer！wohuilaile！”
kanzheyanqianderenying,hejiyizhujianronghe，zhangjunyankuangyinglei，fangshengnahan！
sanshinian，zhengzhengsanshiniandeganqing，zaiyikeqingxiepenyong。
guniangtingdaodongjing，taiqitoudunshiyijing，hedeshaozipadadiaozaidishang。
jingshidaizhekuqiang，xiayishihoutuiliangbu：
“jun......wo......jializhenmeiqianle。”
是了！
张军猛然想起过去。
qizishenlingjunbenshixiaxiangzhiqing,jiajizijihourizisuijianku，danliangkouzinulizhuangongfenhuanliang，daoyenengchikoubaofan。
kezicongzhangjunranshangduyinzhihou，yiqiedoubianle。
meicishuguangleqian，jiuduiqiziyoudayouma,hairangtahuiniangjiayaoqian，bujiqianjiusapodagun，yongliushutiaochouda。
huixiangneishihou，zijijianzhijiushigechusheng！
zhangjunhenbudeyidaokanleziji！
lingjundangshideduoshangxina？
ruofeiruci，lingjunyouzenmehuizuizhongjuewangzisha！
buguohaozai，laotianjilezijizhonglaiyicidejihui！
“xifu！wo......woxiangsinile！”
banbeizidesiniandehuihen，zhongyuzaicikededaoleshifang。
zhangjunshangqian，yibajiangxifulouzaihuaizhong。
shuxideliezhixifashuiweipumianerlai。
shenlingjunyoudianmihu，beituranwenroudezhangjunheleyitiao，shunjianwanghouduoleyixia：“jun......niheduole？”
yaoshiyiqian，zhangjunkendingjinlaiyoudayouma，jintianzheishizenmele？
zhangjunmeiguanneimeduo，zhilaolaodebatayongzaihuaili，shenpamengxinglelingjunjiuyouxiaoshile。
“qing......qingdian......tong！”
zhangjunzheicaiyishidaoyongliguomeng。
两人面面相觑。
shenlingjuncumeidingzheta，ditouqingshengdao：“ni......nishibushiyouxiangrangwohuijiayaoqian？wobuhuihuiqude！”
“buyaoqian！woyihouzaiyebuguanniyaoqianle。”
“woyaozhengqian、woyaozhengdaqian！”
“rangnizaiyebuyongzheimexinku，xiangyibeiziqingfu！”
zhangjuntuozheshenlingjundexiaba，jiantazheikelianbabayouweiqudeyangzi，xinliyizhenzhenchoutong，shuqisangenshouzhiduitianfashi。
shenlingjunlengleleng，xuanjipotiweixiao：
“nijiuhuishuohaotingde......”
zheiyixiao，jianzhiyaobazhangjundexindouronghuale，yibalouqixifudeyaozhi，yankuanghuore：“wokebuzhishuohuahaoting......”
“aiya！youren......”
shenlingjunmiansexiuhong，manmuzhangwang。
“dazhongwu，youshenmeren......lai，ranglaogongqinqin......”
砰！
“saozi，fanhaolemeia！”
mumenbeirencubaodechuaikai。
suiji，yimingheibuliuqiudenianqingrenzuanlejinlai。
“you，zaijianidage！”
zhangjuntaitoukanqu，limalianseyinchen。
lairenbushibieren，zhengshizijidedidizhangbing。
两人并无血缘关系。
zhunquedeshuo，shi16suineinian，zhangbingdefuqinbazhangjundaihuijiashouyangde。
zhangfuqushizhihou，zhangjunganenshouyangdeqingyi，yizhijinxinjinlidezhaoguzhangjiamuzi。
buguo，zhangbingcishilaiquemeishahaoshi。
ruguomeijicuodehua，zheixiaozijintianzhengshilaidiaokaiziji，jiejiqingbolingjunde。
suirantazuihoumeidecheng，danshilingjunyezaisichezhongbeihuilerong。
neigeshihoudeyiliaotiaojian，genbenjiubanfafuyuanshangba。
zicizhihou，lingjunbiankaishizhengriyuyuguahuan。
zhangjunfanranxingwu，jinxinjinlidezhaoguhemibu，danlingjunzaojiuxinhuiyileng，meiduojiujiutiaohezishale。
“dage，mazhaonini，rangnihuijiayitang。”
zhangbingchuizhekoushao，yishuangxiaoyandiliuliudizhuan，luozaisaozishenshang。
wangchangzhiyaozheimeyishuo，zhangjunlimajiuzoule。
shenlingjunwenyanlimazhuaizhuzhangjundeyixiu。
tazaojiukanchuzhangbingduizijichuixianyijiu，kezhangjunjiupianpianbuxin。
“jun......junge，ni......nibiequ。”
“嗯，不去。”
zhangjunxiaozhediandiantou：“xifu，nixianjinwu！”
shuoba，zhangjunbashenlingjuntuijinliwu，momohuitoulinqicaibanshangdecaidao，hunshenshaqisiqi。
nizheichusheng，shangbeizijiaoxingrangnitaole，zheiciwokanniwangnapao！
“你嘎哈啊？”
zhangbingyoudianhaipa，danyemeidanghuishi。
zhangjunshisharentataiqingchule，haigannadaokanren？
“mazhaoniyoushi，nilongla？”
zhangbinghaizaidafangjueci：“ganjingun，feiderangwobahuatiaomingshiba？qianjialideqiannikehaimeihaini！zaishuowodasaozhangzheimepiaoliang，ninapei......”
唰。
撕拉。
daoguangshanguo，xuejipucicongzhangbinglianshangpenchulai。
zhangbingmolebalian，shouxinchuquanshixianxue，shunjianjingle。
“zhangjun，nitamagankanwo？wokannishibuxianghuole！”
zhizhicishi，zhangbingyijiumeipa。
bijingtazaiwaimianhunlezheimejiu，shameijianguo？
shuachouwulaizheiyitao，tazuinashou，hainengrangniyidaojihehuzhule？
“zaibugun，xiayidaojiukannibozi！”
zhangjundianlediancaidao，yanshenbingleng。
“woqunima......”zhangbingjiaohanzhejiuchongguolai。
zhangjunceshenduoguo，yangqicaidaohenhendeduolexiaqu。
噗呲。
bozihejianbangdelianjiechushunjianpenchuxue。
zhangbingcanjiaodiedaozaidishang。
“junge，bie......biekanle！”
shenlingjunliankudaihandecongliwuchulai，lanzhuzhangjun，shengpataxiayidaojiubazhangbingkansi。
danqishizhangjunyemeixiasishou，shouliliuzhejingni。
zheigeniandai，zhensharenshihuichiqiangzide！
bijinghaoburongyizhongsheng，zongbunenghaimeirangxifuguoshanghaorizi，jiubeiqiangbiba？
suoyisharenshibuxingde，danshiderangzhangbinghaipa！
“啊！”
zhangbingwuzhejianbang，ciyaliezuidehanzhe。
cishitacaizhendehaipale，danyexiangbumingbai。
pingshiweiweinuonuo，liandatadoubuganhaishoudezhangjun，zaturanzheimemengle？
跟他娘个战神似的！
“gun！qianwohuihaide！”
zhangjunnuchiyisheng：“zheiciwobushani，shiyinweiniliuzhewogandiedexue，zaiyouxiaci，wotamakansini！”
zhangbinghepoledanzi，liantouyebuganhui，liangundaipadejiupaolechuqu。
屋内只剩两人。
“jun......ni......”
shenlingjunkebazhe，xianzaihailiansecanbai，hedegouqiang。
taqueshitaoyanzhangbing，danyebuxiangzhangjunyinweizijishalezhangbing，ranhouyoubeiqiangbi。
“junge......ni......shoushangle。”
shenlingjunnalijianguozheimeduoxue，yikanzhangjunmanliandoushi，xiayishidejiuyiweishitashoushangle。
“meishi，doushineichushengdexue，womeishi。”
zhangjunwenrouyixiao，louzhushenlingjundejianbang：“xifu，bieshengwoqila！”
“wofashi！zaiyebudu，zaiyebudani！”
“jiwogejihui，haobuhao？”
shenlingjunbukesiyidedaliangzhangjun，zicongtaranshangduyinzhihou，congmeizheimeyemen，gengbuhuihuochumingbaohuziji。
nvrenzhongjiuhaishirongyixinruan。
shenlingjunaiyuandefanlegebaiyan：“zhiyaonishuohuasuanshu，wojiubushengqi。”
“zanmenqiantamendeqian，manmanhaijiushile，zonghuihaoqilaide。”
zhuanqian，zhangjunyoudeshifazi。
bijing，zheishi1978nian。
guojiamashangyinglaixindezhuanji，fengkouzhongduo。
wozhangjunshangyishizuowei21shijijiechudenongxueboshi，xiangzaizheigedangkouzhuanqian，ziranbunan。
xiangdaozhei，zhangjunjinlejinshoubei。
“mingtian......woqutangxianlihuafeichang，nizaijiaguaiguaidengwo！”