第1章
“tazijilaide？jiumeigeqinqipengyou？”
“youa，bushizanmenyuanzhangqinzipeitong，tingshuojingdonglebushaodedarenwu，tingshuoshilidouqinzidadianhuadubanle。buguotajialirendaoshimeijianzhe，doushixiashupeizhe。”
“ze，shiliguanzhao？darenwua，neidelaoyouqianleba。”
“kebingrugaohuang，guangyouqianyoushenmeyong，qinrenpengyouyigedoumeipeizaishenbiande,nimenshuoshibushizheiniantouyueyouqianyuekou？”
bingfangwaichuanlaijigehushiqieqiesiyudeshengyin。
lihuaijuntangzaibingchuangshang，huxizhujiancuzhong，toumingdeyangqizhaoshangjiemanximidewuqi，fangfojiulianzuiqingweidehuxidongzuodouyaohaofeitamodadejingli。
他没两天了。
yichangturuqilaidejuezhengcuihuilelihuaijundabufendeshentijineng，tadeshengmingjijiangjinruledaojishi。
menwaideyilunshenglihuaijunzhenzhendetingdaole,quewuxiaquhechishenme。
zaipangrenyanzhong，lihuaijunshididaodechenggongzhe。
nianguosishijiujianggongsidazaoshangshi，zuoyongyiwancaifu，jinqian，diwei，tadouyou。kezhendaolelinledezheijitianlihuaijunxinzhongquezhishengxiawujindeshiluo。
zheibeizi，talihuaijunluopoguo，yefengguangguo。
最落魄时候,
tagenzheqianqiwojuzaibudaoshijipingmidexiaomuwulibaotuanqunuan，husuzhongchang，zongranwaitoushibingtianxuedi，lihuaijunyeyijiuganzhiruyi。
erfengguangdeshihou，tazuoyongyiwancaifu。
sanyanliangjujiunenggoujuedingliangsanwanrendeshengji,kehuidaojiazhongdedudongbieshuzhongshuqianpingmidebieshuquedoushilengbingbingde，qizhongganshoubudaobandiandeshenghuowennuan。
“qingmei......”
lihuaijunkuxiaoyisheng，bizheyan，yanqianbuyouzizhudefuxianchuyizhangxiaoyiyanrandelian。
温和，端庄，素雅。
weishifendaidelianshangjinshixianqiliangmudedaqi，xiaodetianmeiyouwenxin。
neishitalihuaijunzheibeizizuixinaide，yeshicishengzuiduibuqidenvren。
neishihou，talihuaijunshinongcunshengchanduidecunmin，erchuqingmeiqueshichenglishangshanxiaxiangdezhiqing。
liangrenyingujieshi，bingxijieliangyuan。
yuanyiweiliangrendejieheshitianzaodishedetianciliangyuan，tamenbengaiyibeizinengenairu，quemeixiangdaotianbusuirenyuan，yinchayangcuo，xinhuiyilengbaonvchuzoudechuqingmeisizaileyichangshanhongzhong。
这都怪他自己。
guaitadangchuweishenmechihepiaodu，buqiushangjin，qianxiaduzhai。
guaitaweishenmetingxinneixiezhihuijiaoergenzidebaguaponiangzhizeqingmeishengbuleerzi，yijuyijudewuqingkaikou，riyecuotuozhetazuixinaideguniang。
“是我混蛋啊。”
“keshiqingmei，woxianzai......xianzaiyouqianlea。”
lihuaijunxinrudaojiao，huibudangchu。
xianzai，tayouqianle，henduohenduoqian。
duodaokeyiqingyidejiangdangchuzuzhudetongziloumaixiabingjingxinzhuangshichengtamendexiaojia，duodaokeyiqingeryijudewanchengdangchuduichuqingmeidechengnuo，kenapatayongyoujinshanyinshanyehuanbuhuiqinvdeming。
zheishihou，vipbingfangdemenbeituikai。
yigexizhuanggelvdeqingnianzoulejinlai，lihuaijunmoranyanzhongshengchuliangguanglai，taqiangchengzheyikouqichengzuoqilai，manmiandeqidai。
sheicengxiang，qingnianyaoleyaotou，wunaidao。
“chenxiansheng......henbaoqianmeiyouwanchengnidezhutuo，liangweixiaojiedoubuyuanyichuxian，jinguanwoyijingjiliquanshuo，shuomingleninshiriwuduodeyuanyou，zhishitamen......tamen......”
qingnianyuxinburen，buxiangzaishuoxiaqu。
ershichenmodecongsuishendegongwenbaoliquchuyishuangnaleqiancengdidexiedianzi。
henjiule，jiudaomashengnadedieryijingfanlehuang。
danlihuaijunzhikanleyiyan，jiuqingchudefenbianchulezheiyishuangqiancengdishidangchuchuqingmeifuqichuzoushihouliuzaijialideneiyishuang。
“她们都在怨我。”
李怀军很清楚，
tamingbai，wulunshilaodahaishilaoerdouzaiguaita。
guaitadangchudebucierbie，guaitadangchudehunzhangcaijiaotamendemuqinbaozhelaosanfuqichuzou，ranhoubeimantianfengxueyanmaizailebingtianxuedizhong。
哪怕时至今日，
lianggeguniangyijiurugengzaihou，nanyiwanghuai。
shiwohuogai......
“陪我走走吧。”
lihuaijunmeiduoshuoshenme，ershixiaoxindejiangxiedianpengqirutongzhenbaoyibansaijinlezijidexiezizhong，tashanglejiao，tatashishidecaizailejiaodixia，rutongshipiaozaiyunduan。
青梅，等我啊。
ruguoyoulaishi，qingnimanxiezoua。
neishihou，woyidinghuidaxiayigedadadejiangshan，jinizuimeimanhexingfuderensheng。
......
啪啦——
tanpenzhongdehuoxingzitiaoyuechulailuozailelihuaijundeshoubeishang。
taxiayishidechitongsuoshou，zhengkaideyanjinghaoxiangshiqulejiaojuyibanchaozhezhouzaokanleyiyanshangqiemeihuiguoshenlai。
“bushisaozishuoni，huaijunnikedezhangdianxinba。”
“zheidoudijigele，disangeyatoupianzile，nimenlaolijiadaonizheiyibeierakejiunilihuaijunyigendumiao，nixiangrangnimenlaolijiajuehubucheng？”
“lileba，lileshengxin，huitousaozizaijinijieshaogehaode。”
erbianchuanlaiyigenvrenxuxutaotaodeshengyin，lihuaijunzongsuanhuanguoshenlai，zheicaifaxianzuozaitagenqiankaozhehuopenzideshisishiduosuidezhongnianfunv。
tanbushangfeitoudaer，putongdenongcunfunvzhangxiang，buguoshuohuadeshihouzuijiaochangchangxiangxiapiezhe。
lihuaijunhuranjiuxiangqilaile。
zheizhongnianfunvjiaoliuxiangqinshizijiyuanfangdagejiadexifu，yeshizijidebiaosaozi。
zhibuguo，zijidouyaosile，jiusuanshimengshanmengshuiyehao，zenmehuimengdaoliuxiangqinzheigetaorenxiandezaolaoniangmen？
dangchuruguobushiliuxiangqinzaiqizhongcuanduo，lihuaijunyebuhuiredechuqingmeifennulijiale。
这是走马灯？
“woshuohuaijun，nilengzhegansha，daoshijijuzhunhuaa？”
“wogennishuo，zheizhongshieryuezaojuedingyuehao，zheikeshisangepeiqianhuo，daoshihourenjiapaipaipiguzoulegelisuo，sheijiniyanglaosongzhong？”
jiandaolihuaijunzhengzhengdebushuohua，yipangdeliuxiangqintuiletayiba。
lihuaijunyigeliejuyoudianbuwen，zheicaisuanhuanguoshenlai。
niuguotouqiaoleyiquan，faxianzaizijibanzhengdunzaidishang，yipangdekangtouyigeliansecangbaidenvrenzhenglengmodedingzheziji。
niansuibuda，yejiushiershiwuliusuidenianji，sanluodetoufapanzhe。
taliansehenbai，yinggaishigangshengchanmeiduojiudeguanxi，ernvrendeyanjingliquelengbingbingdemeiyouyidianwendu，chongmanzhelengmohemamu。
只是......
dangneishuxidemeiyanchuangrushiyequeranglihuaijundexintiaozhongzhongdeloutiaoleyipai。
shichuqingmei，zijihunqianmengraoledabanbeizideqizi。
我这不是在做梦吧。
haishilaotianyetingdaolewodedaogao，rangwozhongshengle？
lihuaijunhuxipingzhu，talianlianhuxileliangcicaimianqiangyaxiaxinzhongdezhendong。
tadangranjidezheigeshihou。
yiliansantaidoushenglenvzidechuqingmeibeituishanglefengkoulangjian，chadianbeilinlijiefangdetumoxingziyansi。zheinianyue，shengnvzishipeiqianhuo，daibadenandingcaishiyanxuxianghuodebenqian，shidaidejuxianxingranglaoyibeiderenwufalixingdepanduan。
erzuoweilaolijiadumiaodelihuaijunyeshiruci。
tazuomengdouxiangyaoyouyigeerzi。
pianpianzheishihou，yuanfangbiaosaoliuxiangqinbuzhidaonaligonglegesouzhuyi，andilicuanduozhezijigenchuqingmeilihun，zaijitajieshaogegenghaode，baozhengnenglainianbaoshanggedapangxiaozi。
dangshidelihuaijunguimixinqiao，shangleqizichuqingmeidexin，houzhebaozhegangluoshengbudaosangeyuedelaosanhuilejia，quemeixiangdaoyudaoleturanbaofadeshanhong。
直至后来，
gongchengmingjiudelihuaijunfangcaidezhi，liuxiangqinliangkouzinaliyouneimehaoxin。
tamenwufeishikanshanglelaolijiadezhaijidizheicaipansuanzhejitashuoqin，weideyebushiqinqiqingyi，jiushixiangdengtajiehunhoucongzhongcuanduoluodianhaochu，quehaideqizidiuleyitiaoxingming，rangtalihuaijunhouhuizhongshen。
下意识的，
lihuaijunjiuyaoqishenjiangchuqingmeibaozaihuaizhong。
risiyexiangdeguniangzaicichuxianzailetadeshengmingzhong，lihuaijunruhuozhibao，yibeizijianguanledafengdalangdelaonanrenyishunjianxijierqi。
“huaijun，saozigennishuohuani？nibuxiangyaodapangzixiaozile？”
yipangdeliuxiangqindoumengle。
tameiliaodaoganggangzigeercaishuodonglelihuaijunzheigenmutou，zheicaizhuantoudegongfuduifangjiubudalizijile，zheizenmenengxing？
meichengxiang，zheiyijuzhiwenshuochulai，lihuaijunquexiaole。
zheiyijuwangrizhongbilingdanmiaoyaohailingyandedapangxiaoziluozailihuaijundeerzhong，quebuyayushiyichangtiandadexiaohua。
“对，不要了。”