第3章
现世薨星宫
xiayoujieconghuangquanfanhuixianshi，yishizhujianhuifudeguocheng，jiuxiangshicongzhaozelibeiyigenshengsuotaojinlebojing，beishangmianyigejingerdecubaotuozhuai，ranerxiayoujiedeshentiquefeichangchen，xiangyijuchenzhongdeshitineiyangbeizhaozetunshi，baoguo，chenchende、zhongzhongdefugaizaiquanshen，bunengzhengzhafenhao。
xiayoujiedefeibubeitineidegutouhexueroubutingdijiyazhe，zaizhixibandexuanyunzhongzhongyutuchuleyikouqi。
xueyezaixiongqianglizhongxinyunzhuan，xinzangzaitututiaodong，liandaizhetaiyangxueyeyoulechuijidedongdongshengxiang，erbianshimohubuqingdedongjing，jianjianbiandeyufacaoza，wuxiuzhidemanyandaodanaozhong。
zhouranbengfadejutongyanzhetademeiyigenshenjinghuaguo。xiayoujiezaimanshanghoulongdexingtianzhongqiangxing，feihuolaladeteng，fanjiangdaohaibandejianruijutongmanyanzhetadeganzhi，yanqianyizhenzhenfahei，xiongqiangdetongchurucizhenshi。
我回来了？
......zheishinaer？
tingzhideshijiekaishizhuandong。
xiayoujiedongdanbude，shentijiuxiangshitanhuanleside，lianxiangyaopiantouqukanyiyansizhoudounanyizuodao。
tawangjianleshangfangneiyaobukejideqiongding，meiyoujintoudiyanshenchuqu，zuanjinleshenbukecedeheianzhongqu。tashenxiatouzhesensenlengqi，jinruguzilideleng——yeyoukenengshiyinweitayijingkaishishixueguoduodeyuanyin。
这是哪儿？
tongdeyaosi，wozheishiyouyaohuiquleme？
zheigeniantoufangfogelehenyuandejulifuxianzaitadenaohaili。
zheigedifanghenyanshu，taqueyishijianbianbiebuchulai。
dongdongdong，shijiaobusheng，congshengyuandefangxiangmanguolaideyingzizhezhulexiayoujiedeshixian，nizheguangderenyingzaipiaofudehuichenzhonglunkuomohu，xiayoujiedefanyingbeijutongtuomanle，kanbuqingyanqianderenying，wufaquedingxianzaidechujing，zheisicengxiangshi，queyoubucengjiqi。
明明这么绝望。
xiayoujiefeilidetaiqiyanpi，qiaojianyigezuijiaodaizheshangbadenanrenchuxianzaitadetouding，yishunjian，ehanbianbuquanshen，lingtahunshenshengleng。
“shenmea，haiyouyishia，gouwanqiangde。”
nanrenchixiaozhe，taishousaolesaohounaodeduanfa。
shencedongdiyishengmenxiang，xiangshishenmechendiandiandedongxibeirengzaileshibanshang，youbingliangerniannideyetibengjiandaoxiayoujiedecelianshang，shunzhetadeyanjiaoheejiaohuanhuandihualuo。
他想起来了，全部。
绝望的最开始。
husongxingjiangtitianneilizishijian。
zheigenanrenmingjiaoshanyuanshener，jiushita，rangbeichengweizuiqiangdeerrendieluogudi，baochangbaibeiziwei。
yerangbaifadeliuyanshenzijuexingdengshangshentan，chengweimingfuqishidezuiqiang。
shanyuanshenerditoufushixiayoujie，shenqingliyoulejifenxinqideyiwei。
“zenmegaode，haoxianghuanleyigeren，haishiyijingsiguoyihuile。”
tacishijiyuxiayoujiedemuguang，hedunzaicaoconglidehaizicheduanlezhamengdehoutui，xiangkankantajiujinghainengbengdaduojiudemuguangbiewuerzhi。
yizhonglingrenshenghandetianzhen。
xiayoujiecaixiangfuhuojiediankenengjiushizijichuyubinsizhuangtai，zheiyangdehua，chulexianzai，lingyigebinsijiedianjiushibeiwutiaowushasizaineitiaoxiaoxiangli，henmingxianzheigeshijibijiaoheshi，danhenxianran，yeyouxiangdangchengdudefengxian。
buguo，bukenenggengzaole。
xiangdaozheili，xiayoujiebuzhudekesouleqilai，mianqiangjianghoulonglimimandexuexingqiyanxia，chongzheshanyuanshenerliekaizuijiaoxiaoleqilai。
“zhoulingcaoshu，wencheyaofei。”
suoyoudeshengyinquanbuxiaoshile，shenzhikongqizhongpiaofudehuichendoudoujurantingzhi，erzaijingzhiyidongdeguangchenzhizhong，tudechuxianyimingyaoyanmeilishenzhehongsehefudenvzi，youmeidelingkouluchulecuiruodejingbei，tingzhidebeiji，wuheilianglidezhangfa，xiandegewaijingzhimeili。
“好恨好恨”
wencheyaofeinannanziyu，zaizhenluoyoushengdecikexiandeshizudeaiyuan。
“haohenhaohenhaohenhaohenhaohenhaohenhaohenhaohen！！！haohenaaaaaaa！！”
congnannanziyudaoqilideruixiaohaibudao1fenzhong，zhoushenchanraodeyuanqidouranzengda，chanshengdeqiliuchongpohongxinggongneicengcengxianyandeniaojuhezhangzimen，guoxiezhechongxiangshanyuanshener。
sheneranganbumiao，jigeshanzhuanbianbikailegongji，shunshicongzhoulingzuilichouchuzijideguanyongwuqi，youyun。
suijidengshenjichong，shuaikaiyouyunyileitingzhishixixiangwencheyaofei，danbeipingdishuranxianqidejifengbidelianlianhoutui。
zheixiabuhaobanle，shenerxindao，kanxiangmianqiangzhichengzijizhanqilaidexiayoujie，ruguoshasishushi，zhoulingbiranyinweiquefaguanzhikuangxingdafazaochengwufaguliangdehouguo，chuliqilaiyezhishituzengmafan。
buguozheigeyuanling，shijiaxiangtejiyuanlingme，neimetadejinengshishenme？
shenerbaichujiashichongxiayoujietiaoxindao：“lianshoufudezhoulingdouzheimemei，xianzaidegaozhuandouzhinengpeiyangnimenzheizhongzhongkanbuzhongyongdexiaoguileme？”
xiayoujiechongdishangtulekouxuemo，wencheyaofeishengtengqilaideheiseyuanqiyijingmimanlezhenggehongxinggong，zhetianbirirutongwanquandeheiye。
zuoweizhoulingcaoshudeshiyongzhe，xiayoujiezaitounaozhongyijinglaxiangjingbao，wencheyaofeidefengkuangchengdujueduichaohuxiangxiang，wanquanfangrendeqingkuangxia，bieshuoshigaozhuan，jiuliandongjingdounengbeiwanquantunshi。
ergengkongbudeshiwencheyaofeidejineng，dangzijizhixiaohou，diyiniantoujingranshiyongyuanbuyaoshiyonggaiyouduohao。
wencheyaofeitaiyansisidingzheyanqiandeshener，yuandudemuguang、jinyaodeyaguanhezhangchumimimamadeyanqiudehongsehefurangchangshangerrendeneizanghaosibeihaowuzhangfadejiaodongleyiban，zhijiaotoupiyizhenfama。
“batianneilizideshitiliuxia，fouzeworangnisi......”xiayoujieyashengdao。
“ha？shuodehaoxiangnengyingdeyangzi，zhenlingrenbukuai。suiranmeirenchuqianyaonideming，woyemeiyoudabaigongdeaihao，keshizheisiyatoudeshitiyenenghuanlai5qianwan，meiyoushoushoudedaoli。”shenerhaosiqileshenmexingqu，tajiangjiaobiantianneilizideshititidaoyibian，redexiayoujieyaoyaqiechi。
shenershouwoyouyunduizhewencheyaofeifaqikuangfengbandemenggong，dandoubeiyuanqixingchengdebileidangxia。
“qu！”shenerzashe，youcongchoubaozhoulingzuilitaochulingyibatejizhouju：shihundao。xiayoujiezaishenersihouyeduozouletadewuqiku，suoyishenzhizheigezhoujudeqiangda，tadenenglishinenggouwushiyiqiewutideyingdu，zhijiegongjihunpo，jiangqizhanlie。
jiusuanwencheyaofeiyuanqizaiqiangyezhishizhouling，beigongjidaoyemianbulehuifeiyanmie。
kezheigeshihou，wencheyaofeiquehuransisizhuazhuzijizhujianpengzhangqilaideduzi，taniudongzheshenqufangfochengshouzhejudadetongkubuduancanhao，zhouweidekongqifangfodoubeineiqicandeshengyinqiege，buduanzhenzhanqilai。
天啊......
wencheyaofeicongzijidexiashenhenzhuaichulaiyigeyinghai，tizheyingerdexiaoxiaodetuirengdaodishang，shunjianguiyidekushengxiangqi，yinghaiyichangrennanyilijiedesuduchengzhang，henkuaijiucongyinger、haitong、shaonianbianchenglehesheneryiyangyouzheheisetoufa、shenzhilunluodoujiweixiangsideqingnian。
xiayoujiedeliansebiandefeichangnankan，sheneryeluchuleyiliandexiane，kanjianzheigegangchushengyuzijifeichangxiangside‘dongxi’bennengdedaotuilehaojibu，suihouyouxunsubaihaojiashi。
“piaoliangme？zheihaizishichenqiehenindehaizi，shibushijipiaoliangyoujiankang，aa，wohaoaita，wohaoaita。”wencheyaofeishuodao，hurantaiyandengzheshener，shenqingmizuideshuodao，lianshangfanqidehongyunrangtabuxiangshigezhouling，fangfoshiyiweichongfei，zhengzaiduizhezijidejunwangsajiao。
kexiayoujiequegandaocongjiaodibuduanpanshangtoudingdeehan，tazhidaojinengyijingkaishile，zheizhongjinhuwujiedecankujineng。
“ha？nandaoshuozheishiwodeerzi？”shenerbukeqidedaxiaochusheng，wozheshihundaodeshouqueyufazuanjin。
“youdameinvtiwoshenghaizihenkaixinshimeicuo，danzhoulinghaishimianleba。”
shenertidaobianjiangtazheiweigangchushengde‘erzi’yaozhan，jiezhedongzuobuting，zhijiechongzhewencheyaofeierqu。
kejiuzaitayaozhanneimingqingnianshi，shuxideshijianchizhiganyouchuxianle，xiayoujiezhidaozheishiwencheyaofeidebeiyuanzaicikongzhizhouweideshikong。
“juranganjuranganjuranganjuranganshalewokeaidehaizi！！wozuiaidehaizi！！”
“zuzhounizuzhounizuzhounizuzhounizuzhouni！！！”wencheyaofeipudaozijide‘haizi’mianqiantongku，jiezhejiangneishitisisuichengyipianpianxuekuaiyoutunrufuzhong。
鬼子母神。
xiayoujienaohaizhongfuxianchuneigexihuanshashishijianrendehaitongdeguizimushen，suizhewencheyaofeitunshidedongzuo，shenerjingranyegandaoqieshidebeisiyaojujiaodejutong。
shenermianqiangzhichengqishenti，tuicezheigezhoulingdezuzhoukongpajiushidaichang，‘huaiyun’houshengxiadirendehaizi，zaitongguohaizidexuemailianjiezhengzhudeganguanjiayizuzhou。
juebunengrangtazaiduineige‘erzi’zuochushenmechugedeshiqingle！
shenershuaichuwanlisuoraoguowencheyaofei，zhijiekunfuzhuxiayoujie，jiangtazhuaidaozijishenqian，xunsudachuyiquanjizhongxiayoujiedefubu。
“ea！！”xiayoujiefachuyinyadeaiming，buzhutuxue，beijichidekacheyingmianzhuangjidelidurangtadeneizangfachubaoliedemensheng。
fanguansheneryebuhaoguo，jutongbudanmeiyoujianqing，wencheyaofeiqueyijingtaochule‘haizi’dexinzangwozaishoulibuduansuojin。
shenerdexinzangyetongyanghuikuilebeijiyadetong，wencheyaofeijianlidezhijiamanmanfumozhexianhongdexinzang，shenerdexinyebeishouzhifuguo，tiaodongdeganjuebeiyayizhu。
“zhoushushixiaogui，yiheba。”shenertiqixiayoujie，chongzhetuxuebuzhidetatulekoukoushui。
“kaozhefumuenhuidexingyunjiahuoyebuxiangzaizheilidiudiaoxingmingba，wochengrennidezhoulingkeyishasiwo，danwozaineizhiqianjiukeyishasini。meiyourenchuqianyaonideming，woyemeiyoudabaigongdexiguan，suoyiwomengetuiyibuzenmeyang。”