第3章

「shengbunengtongqin,neisibiantongxue。」

zhiqiantafashaodehuyanluanyu,wolaojizaixindi。ranerjinritongxuezhiren,bushita,shitadezhangxiong,tadeyanzhongdingrouzhongci,shiwoduocimouhaidesudi。

goufengciyegougouxue,zheidagaishiwodebaoying。

活葬是什么感觉。

zuibeibutiaofengzhu,quanshenshangxiabeishengzisisikunbang,ranhourengjinlehuaguidejinnanmuguancaili。

difangbutaida,wojihushiheliuhuangzipeihuaijizaiyiqi,zheilibenjiumeiliuwodeweizhi,peizanggujiyeshihuamanmanyishixingqi。

balianggeshengqiandoudenisiwohuodesudi,zuihoumaizangzaiyiqi,shiduomeyouquyouhaowandeyijianshi。

yichanziyouyichanzidetuluozaiguancaishang,wojingjingtingzheshatusankaideshengyin,maizangzhewoshiniandechixinwangxiang。

pangbiandeliuhuangzimiansecangbai,gujiyijingsiquduoshi,wodaidaidewangzheguanding。

好压抑,好绝望。

kongqiyidiandianbiandexibo,wosisidezhengzheshuangyan,pinmingchuanxizhe,ganjueshengmingzhengyidiandiandeliushi。

jushuorensiqianhuizoumaguanhuawanzijideyisheng。

wohuiweizhesugonggongdehua:

「chenmoukefuzuoqijianduociqishangmanxia,bufuzhuling,qixinkeyi,zuiburongzhu,darudalao,gericisi,qinci——」

peijinnianshigeyanjinderen,limianmeijuhuadoushushi,weiyouyijucuole:qixinkeyi。

wodexincongweibianguo,helaikeyi,shitataiguominganduoyi。

qishangmanxia,shiwoweijitakaitongcailu,bugushengmingweixiannanxiahedahuangzizhengduojiangnanzhizaochangdeyunyingquan。biyaozhishi,kenenghuiqudahuangzixingming,hetadeshiweibingshusijuezhan,jiusiyisheng。

tabuzhunwoqu,tashuotapawosi。

yushiwomanzhetatoutoulikai,xiaoshilezhengzhenglianggeyuehou,huilaifumingshi,yuqidoudaizhehuankuai。

「jinnian,woyijingchenggongnaxiajiangnanzhizaochang,zhuzhangquanrenyichengweiwomenderen,nizhixuquneibianzougeguochang。」

bazhiqidijitashi,tameijieguo。

takanzhewo,chenmozhe,yanliyisihuanxiyemeiyou。

zhanlexujiu,wotuidouyouxiemale,tachulesheng:「zheiyangdebugaoerbie,yihouhaihuiyouduoshaoci。」

shichenshuju,taquexinwohaihuizheiyanglikai。

lengyubingren,qiexidexinqingbeiwuqingjiaomie,woyechuitouchenmole。

tacaiduile,hetashangliang,taburangwoqu,kewobixuqu。

yushizheiyangdeqishangmanxia,bufuzhulingdebugaoerbie,jiuyoulehenduoci。

rudianyingbandeguochangzainaohailidaodaizhe,meiyizhendouyouta,meiyizhendoushitixindiaodan、yuhumoucan。

zhanzaidaojianshangderizi,zhennanaoa。

renjianhenhao,xiabeizibulaile。

suizhezuihouyikouyangqidexiaoshi,wobishangleyanjing,zhixiqueyangtainanshou,wohenhenzhuashangliuhuangzilaihuanjiezhixigan。

erbianchuanlailiangliangdeshengyin:「si、zenmeliansiniyebufangguowo?」