第1章

1982nian9yue,shanbeijunqujiashuyuan。

songxushengcongminzhengjushenqingwanqiangzhilihunhuilaihou,jiukaishizijidedongxi。

zhanzaijingziqianshi,takanjianlimianzijidemiankong,nianqingyouyiqifengfa。

zheiyike,tacaizhendeshishizaizaiganjuedaozijizhongshengle,zhongshenghuidaolesanshinianqian。

neigehaimeiyoubeifenmuyibandehunyineshade,xianhuomingliangdeta!

shangbeizi,tahechengjingjiehun,liangrenshenghuoleyibeizi。

ketadeyixinyiyiquehuanlaitadelengdanhemoshi,shenzhisanshinianlaitadoujiangtashirukongqi、danrumoluren,guanxihaiburuzuolinyoushe。

siqiantacaizhidao,yuanlaidangchudehunyin,shitadefuqinyongenqinghuanlaide。

chengjingbushixinganqingyuanjiajita,xinliyehaiyouzhebaiyueguang。

zhonghuoyihui,yidingshishangtiankantabeiku,jitadeyicijihui。

suoyizheici,tazaiyebuyaohechengjingjiuchanle。

suishuoqiangzhilihunhaiyaodengshangbangeyue,danzaicizhiqian,yeyaotiqianshoushihao,gaidabaodedabao,gairengdiaoderengdiao。

dengdaoshijianyidao,tabianshuozoujiuzou。

qingwanyiju,gangzuohaofan,chengjingbianhuilaile。

tashenxinggaotiao,meiyanpiaoliang,shenchuanjunzhuangshizuiweiyingzisashuang。

meijiehunqian,tashijunqulinantongzhizuixiangqudenvren,shangbeizisongxushengyeshiyinciduitayijianzhongqingde。

weilebubeichajue,tazoushangqian,xiangjitatuoquwaitao。

chengjingquetuihouyibu,shensedandan:“shenshangzhanlehui,biezanglenideshou。”

huayugongjingderangrenbunengzhizhaibanfen,yebinglengshengshudehaoxiangtamenbushijiehunsanniandefuqi。

ruoshiyiqian,songxushengyidinghuidangzuotingbujian,yijiushenshoudashangtadeyijin。

chengjingyehuirenyoutadongzuo,buzaijujue。

danshitaneishuangruxingdexingmouliyidinghuifuchubinglengdeyane。

songxushengjiushibeineiyangdeyanshenshenshencitonglesanshinian,cidexinshangdeshangbayongyuanyebuhuihao。

danzheici,tazhidianlediantou,jiushouhuishouzhuanguoshen,quchufangduancaichulai:“wozuolenizuixihuandechaojidan,nilaishishihebuhekouwei?”

chengjingtuoquwaitao,buweisuodong:“woshuoguo,womeiwanhuizaishitangchi,nimeibiyaoweiwoxishouzuogeng。”

shangbeiziyeshizheiyang,sanshinianlai,tameiyouchiguoyikoutazuodefan。

songxushengmoranpianke,yuqipingjingquejianding:“wohenxiangnichangchang,jiuyikou,xingma?”

bijingzheishidiyici,yeshizuihouyici,tayaoweizijizuoyigejieshu。

huayinluoxia,tabiankanjianchengjingchuizaishencedeshoumengranzuanjin。

dantashuo:“hao,fucongmingling。”

wenyan,songxushengxintouhenhenyici。

chengjingshishanbeijunqudiyituandetuanzhang,ertasuiranshiwenzhi,danjibiebichengjinggao。

suoyiqianshimeicisongxushengxiwangchengjingzuoshenmeshi,tadouhuishuo“fucongmingling”,qingchudigaosuta,tazhisuoyizuo,shiyinweibunengbuzuo。

而不是因为爱。

chengjingmianwubiaoqingdecongsongxushengshenpangzouguo,zuodaozhuoqian。

yigudandandexiangqicongtashenshanglverusongxushengbixi,tadunledun,xiayishituokouerchu:“nijintianyouqukanlinliangle?”

meirenbitagengqingchu,zheiguxiangqishichengjingdeqingmeizhuma,linliangzuichangyongdexiangzao。

chengjingpingdandeshenseshunjianbianle,sangyingengshibinglengdaolejizhi:“nipairengenzongwo?”

kanzhetaneilinglimuguang,songxushengxinzhongmomingbeiai,daolezuibiandehuazainanchukou。

molepianke,tadandandao:“leileyitian,zaodianshuiba。”

shuowan,tajiuwangwoshizouqu。

buxiangchengjingquegenlejinlai,songxushengbuyoudeyihuo:“nizheishi?”

chengjingyanlitouzhejifenjifeng:“jinrishishiwu,bushinishuozaodianshui?”

songxushengzheicaixiangqilai,shangbeizi,chengjingbuyuanyihezijixingfuqizhishi,tajiuzhineng“mingling”ta,bingbarizidingzailemeigeyue15hao。

chengjingjiangtatuidaochuangshang,huayuqueciren:“silingzhidaotadeerziyongzheiyangdeshouduantongfangma?”

songxushengshenhoudeshouhenhenqiajinzhangxin,tongdaomamu。

xiayimiao,tatuikaitakaojinderouruanshenqu:“jinwanbuyongle,yihouyedoubuyongle。”