第1章
大暑
huimengmengdetianqi，touzherangrenchuanbushangqilaidemenregan。
youxiepojiudehuibaisebingfangli，cibidexiaodushuiweidaochongchizaifangjiandemeigejiaoluo。
chenghuantangzaibingchuangshang，zaoyishiquleguangzedemouzili，chenmuyuliekanzheyanqiandeyiduigounannv，sanfazhetaotiandehenyi。
“qizhiming，nizheigechusheng，nimenbudehaosi......”
zhidaojinritacaizhidao，tayixinyiyiaizhedenanrenjingranhezijidehaoyougoudazaileyiqi，tamenlianshoujitaxialemanxingduyao，haitachenglexianzaizheigeburenbuguideyangzi，gengkehendeshihaixinhenshouladehaisiletadeerzi。
tadeafu，neigecongxiaojiutinghuaguaiqiaodehaizi。
“chusheng，neiyeshinideerzia，hudushangqiebushizi，qizhimingnizenmenengduinideqinshengerzixiadequshou？”
qizhimingexindekanzhebingchuangshangshoudegenguiyiyangdenvren。
“heng，chenghuanneishinideerzi，kebushiwoqizhimingdeerzi。”
kebushiwoqizhimingdeerzi......
bushiwoqizhimingdeerzi......
“轰”
qizhimingdehuajiuxiangshiyikezhadanyiyang，rangchenghuannaozilishunjianhongmingyisheng，tasisidezhuazheqizhimingdeyijiao，chongmansiqidelianshang，cikequanshizhenjing。
“ni......nishuoshenme？”
shenmejiaoafubushitadeerzi？
“zhiming，nibieshuodezheimecanren，jiejiehuibeihedaode，”xuqiaozouguolai，sishichennudekanleqizhimingyiyan，zhuangrongjingzhidexiaolianshang，youshifenlianmindekanzhechenghuan，danshishuochuhuadequebiqizhiminghaiyaoedu。
“jiejienibieshengqi，nikankannixianzaizheigeyangzi，genyizhieguiside，nizheiyanghuibazhiminghedaode。”
xuqiaoshuozhe，dunxiashenzi，jiangshoulidecaichanzhuanrangshuhegangbifangdaochenghuandemianqian，“jiejiedaoxianzaikongpahaibuzhidaoba，nineishaerziqishigenbenjiubushizhiminggede，zhiminggenengyangtadaoxianzaiyewanquanshikanzaizheiyizhangcaichanzhuanrangshudefenshang，jiejienihaishiguaiguaiqianleba。”
“bukeneng......bukeneng......”
chenghuanxiangshifengleyiyang，zhijiezhuaqimianqiandecaichanzhuanrangshu，zadaolexuqiaodelianshang。
“jianren，nimenpianwo......pianwo......”
“砰”
qizhimingzhijieyijiaochuaixianghaiyaodaxuqiaodechenghuan，jiangtashouruocanpodeshenti，zhijiecongbingchuangshangchuailexiaqu。
“疯子”
qizhimingexindekanleyiyanzijidejiao，sihupengchenghuanyixia，dourangtarenshoubule。
“jianren，dangniannizijihezuilejiuhebiedenanrenshanglechuang，wodangshihainengquni，yijingshikanzainishiyeyouchengdefenshang，duiniderencibale，jiniyangleneimeduoniandeyezhong，nibudanbuzhidaoganen，haiganduiqiaoqiaochushou，niguorangennineichishadeerziyiyang，dougaisi。”
“kekeke......”
那晚的人不是他？
neiwanderenjingranbushiqizhiming......
guaibude，guaibudecongneiwanzhihou，qizhimingzaiyemeiyoupengguoziji，tayizhizhuzaigongsideyanjiushili。
zijidangchuzhishiyiweitazuixinshiyan，quemeiyouxiangdaotagenbenjiushibuaiziji，genbenjiushizailiyongziji。
liyongzijinengjitaqizhimingdeshiyantourudaliangdezijin，rangtahexuqiaohuihuo。
chenghuanwulidepazaidishang，xiongkouchuanlaidejutong，rangtamianrongkushoudemianrongbiandeniuqu。
“kekeke......”
yizhensixinliefeidekesouhou。
“噗”
chenghuanmengdetuchuyikouxue，taruliguibanxionghendedengzheqizhiming。
“shiwochenghuanaicuoleren，aileyibeizi，jingranaileyizhichushengdouburudedongxi。”
kandaochenghuanzheifukuaiyaoduanqideyangzi，qizhimingchixiaoyisheng，“chenghuannibuguoshigenongcunchulaidecusuyeyatou，nalipeideshangwo，wobangniyanglezheimeduonianerzi，jiuyaonizheidiancaichan，yesuanshinimenmuzilianggehuibaowodele。”
shuozhe，qizhimingwanyaojianqibeichenghuanrengdaodishangdewenjian，zoudaochenghuanmianqian，zhuaqichenghuandeshoujiuanleshouyin。
zheifencaichanzhuanrangshu，youlechenghuanzheishouyinshijiugoule。
chenghuanbiezhezuihouyikouqi，xiangsuomingdeliguiyiyangdengzheqizhiminghexuqiao：“chushengnimenbudehaosi，wochenghuanfashi，sihoubuguonaiheqiao，buyinmengpotang，yongshiburulunhui，zhiyuanhuazuoligui，huilaizhaonimensuoming，weiwodeafubaochou......”
一九八三年，夏
京都大学。
药剂学教学楼门口。
“neinvdeshisheia？zenmetangzaidishanga？”
“nikantaneishenxiangxianituizidedaban，buhuishicongnongcunlaideba？”
“nikantajiaoshanghaichuanzhebuxie，neishenshangdeyifugenhuadajieside，zhentu。”
“tazenmebudonga，buhuishizhuangdaotaijieshangsileba？”
“......”
zhouweiyilunfenfendeshengyin，duanduanxuxudechuanruchenghuandeerduo。
tamangrandezhengkaiyanjing，gangxiangtaitou，“si”etoushangjiuchuanlaiyizhencitong，rangtadaoxiyikouliangqi。
这是怎么回事？
tawuzheetou，congdishangzuoqilai，mangrandekanzhesizhou。
她不是死了吗？
这是......
“ai，wogaosuniaxiangbalao，nibieyiweinizheiyangjiunengebenshaoye，zheilikeshijingdoudaxue，kebushininengsuibianpengcidedifang。”
xiaozhangshuxideshengyin，rangchenghuanmengdetaitou，wangxiangzhengzaiduitadiediebuxiudenanren。
qiaoyuan......jingdoudaxue......
“gangcaikeshinizijishuaidaode，laozipengdoumeiyoupengdaoni，niyaoshizaibuqilai，kebieguailaozibukeqilea！”
shuxideyimu，rangchenghuanzhenjingdedengdaleyanjing，tamengdekanxiangzhouweideren。
zhei......zheibushi1983nian，tazaidezhiqizhimingbeixuexiaobaosongyanjiushengzhihou，yaohetatuihun，ranhoucongjialitouleqian，toutoudezuozhehuoche，laijingdoudaxuezhaoqizhimingdeneiyicima？
yinweidangshijialibingbufuyu，tanadeqian，zhigoumaihuochepiao，laidaojingdoudaxuetayijingshiliangtianmeiyouchidongxile。
haoburongyizhaodaozheili，tahaimeiyoulaidejijinquzhaoqizhiming，yijingkuaieyundeta，yudaoleqiaoyuanzheigeershizu。
erqiaoyuanzheigeershizu，dangshikantachuandezheimetu，genhuadajieside。
haoqizhixiapailetadejianbangyixia，tajiuzhijiedaoxiale。
etouzhenghaozhuangdaomenkoudetaijieshang，dangshiyinweimeiyouqianzhishang，houlaihailuoxialeyigehennankandebahen。
suoyoucaiyoulexianzaideyimu。
chenghuanzhenjingdekanzheyanqiandeyiqie，daoxianzainaozidouhailuanluande，tabuzhidaozheishizenmehuishi。
mingming......mingmingtayijingsilea。
sizailesanshiduonianhoudeyiyuanli，beiqizhiminghexuqiaolianshouhaiside，haiyoutadeafu。
keshixianzaishizenmehuishi？