jingzhuiduanliedecuixiang，xiangnianjiushixiudemutoumengranzheduan，youxiangbingmiancurankailie。shengyinbingbuda，
queqingxidizhazaiwodeermoshenchu，gaiguoleshentigunluoloutishineichenmendezhuangjisheng。shijieshunjiandiandao，mohu。
zuihoudeyishixiangfengzhongcanzhu，yaoyezhe，buzhuodaozhouleineizhangyinfennushangweixiaotuiyoushunjianpamanjingkongdelian。
taguixialai，shouzhizhandouzhe，penglepengwodejingwo，youxiangbeitangdaoyiyangsuohui。“ba…ba！
”tadeshengyinbianlediao，daizhekuqiang，“zenmeban？wozhishi…zhishixianglazhuta，
womeiyongli…zhendemeiyongli…”jiaobushengchenwendikaojin。woneiyongyuanxizhuanggelv，daizhejinsibianyanjing，
yifurushangmoyangdegonggong，zhoujianguo，dunxiashen。tameiyouxiankanzhoulei，ershishenshou，
lianggenshouzhijingzhundiyazaiwobojingyice。tadeshouzhihenliang，biwozheijuzhengzaixunsushiwendeshentihaiyaoliang。
pianke，tashouhuishou，shengyindichendexiangjiebingdehemian，shuochuleyijurangwolinghundongjiedehua：“dishisangele，
yishixuyaoxinxiandejipin。jiushuotacabolishizijishuaide。”shisange？jipin？yishi？shenmeyishi？
wodenaozixiangshibeizhongchuijizhong，wengwengzuoxiang。nandaowodesi，bushiyiwai，shenzhibushijiandandejiabaozhisi，
ershi……yichangmousha？yichangyouyumoude，zuoweimougekongbu“yishi”dexianji？
wubiandeheianhebiheiangengbinglengdekongju，cheditunshilewo。……yishihuilongdeshunjian，
shizhixibandejiyagan，jinjiezheshicimudeguang。womengdizhengkaiyan，dakouchuanxi，feibu**lade，
fangfoganggangcongshenshuizhengzhaerchu。“qianqian？nizenmele？zuoemengle？
”shuxiyoudaizhedianmoshengqingsedenanshengzaierbianxiangqi。wojiangyingdizhuanguotou。zhoulei。shishinianqiandeta。
lianpanglunkuoshaoxianyuanrun，shaolehoulaideyinyuheliqi，yanshenlidaizheqiadaohaochudeguanqie。
tachuanzheneijianwojiyishenkedeqianlansegezichenshan，shiwomenquedingguanxihoutamaidediyijian“mingpai”。erwo，
zhengzuozaidaxuetushuguankaochuangdelaoweizhi。wuhoudeyangguangtouguogaodadebolichuang，
sazaitankaide《shichangyingxiaoxue》kebenshang，zijiqingxi，moxianghunhezhejiushuyedeweidao，zhenshidekepa。
woditoukanxiangzijideshou，shouzhixianxi，pifujinzhi，meiyouzhangqijiawuliuxiadebojian，
yemeiyouneicitazhengchaoshibeiwojinu，yongyantoutangshangdeqianba。zheibushimeng。wohuilaile。huidaoleshinianqian。
judadezhenjingguohou，shigengshendehanyi。ruguowodesishixianji，neimezhouleide“jiabao”，zhoujianguodelengjing，
shenzhitamenzhoujia……beihouyinzangzheshenme？“qianqian？”zhouleijianwobushuohua，shenshouxianglaipengwodeetou。
wojihushibennengdimengdihouyang，yizituiyudimianmocafachucierde“zhiga”sheng。
zhouweijigemaitouxuexidetongxuebumanditaiqitou。“mei…meishi。”woqiangpozijikaikou，shengyinyouxiefase，
queshiwoershisuishideqingliangsangyin，“keneng…kenengzuowanmeishuihao。
”wodemuguangbuyouzizhudipiaoxiangtushuguanqiangshangguazhededianzirili。2033nian5yue17ri。
juliwohezhouleidehunli，haiyousangeyue。juliwojiyizhong，xiayigemanyuezhiye，chabuduoyeshisangeyuehou！
xinzangzaixiongqianglifengkuangleigu，bushiyinweiailian，ershiyinweineishenrugusuidehenyi、jiehouyushengdezhanli，
yijiyizhongkuijiankongbuzhenxiangyijiaodemaogusongran。zhouleihuyidikanlewoyiyan，danhenkuaibeiwodejieshishuofu，
huozheshuo，tabingbuzhenzhengzaiyiwoxiweideyichang。tacoujinxie，yadishengyin，
yuqidaizhexingfen：“gaosunigehaoxiaoxi！wobatongyizanzhuwomenbiyelvxingle！quyunnan，yusuanzheigeshu！
”tashenchusangenshouzhi。ruoshicongqian，wodinghuiweitade“titie”hetajiade“dafang”gandongbuyi。xianzai，
wozhikandaotayandineimobuyichajuedeshisheganhezhangkongyu，yiji……huoxuhaiyougengshende，
yunei“yishi”xiangguandepansuan？zhoujiaqueshiyoudianxiaoqian，zhoujianguojingyingzheyijiabudabuxiaodejiancaigongsi，
erwojiazhishiputonggongxinjieceng。congyikaishi，zaizheiduanguanxili，diweijiubuduideng。“zhende？taihaole。
”wochechuyigefuhetaqidaide、jingxidexiaorong，shouzhizaizhuoxiaqiaoranshoujin，zhijiashenshenxianjinzhangxin，
neixiweidetongganrangwobaochizhejueduideqingxing。fuchou！wobixufuchou！
danbujinjinshibaofutamendebaoliyuqipian，gengyaojiekaineigesuoweide“yishi”dezhenmianmu，chedicuihuita！
woshidishisangejipin？neiqianmianshiergeshishei？tamenyexiangwoyiyang，beiweizhuangchengyiwaima？jiexialaiderizi，
woxiangyigezuidingjiandejiandie，wanmeibanyanzheshinianqianneigedanchun、lvedaiqienuo，
manxinchongjingzhehunyinshenghuodelinqian，tongshikaishilemimidiaocha。wojieshouzhouleideyuehui，
zaitashitulouwodejianbangshi，qiaomiaodijiekouxixiedaiduokai；woshouxiatasongdeliwu，
jiazhidehuiliduzhutakenengshuochude“woweinihualeneimeduoqian”dehua；woshenzhigengjiapinfandiquzhoujiabieshu，
mingweipeiyangganqing，shiweixunzhaoxiansuo。zhoujianeidongzhuangxiudefulitanghuang，
quezongtouzheyigushuobuqingdaobumingdeyinsenqixidebieshu，meicitaru，wodejibeidouhuicuanqiyiguliangyi。
zhoujianguoyijiushiyifuchenggongqiyejiadepaitou，xiaorongheai，danrujinzaiwoyanzhong，
neixiaorongdixiakenengyinzangzhechirendeemo。wozixiguanchata，guanchazhoulei，guanchazheidongfangzidemeiyigejiaoluo。
yici，wojiekoujieyongweishengjian，qiaoqiaoliudadaoleerloushufangfujin——neishizhoujianguodejinqu，
qianshiminglingjinzhiwojinru。shufangmensuozhe，danwozhuyidaomenbashouhemenkuangbianyuan，
sihukezheyixiejiqixiwei、niuqudewenlu，buxiangputongzhuangshi，faner……gengxiangmouzhongfuzhou？haiyouyici，
zhouleimuqin，neigezongshichenmoguayan、miansecangbaidenvren，zaiduanshuiguoshi，xiukouweiweishanghua，
wopiejiantashouwanneiceyouyidaochenjiude、leisigeshangdebahen，weizhixiangdangguiyi。zheixielingsuidefaxian，
rangwoxinzhongdeyiyunyuelaiyuezhong。tongshi，wokaishiliyongsuoyoukeyushijianfengkuangdixuexi、dagong、jileirenmai。
woshenzhi，xiangyaoduikangzheiyinzangzaianchudekongbu，jingjihejingshenshangdedulishijichu。wobuzaixiangqianshineiyang，
yibiyejiutingcongzhouleihetafuqindeanpai，jinlezhoujiagongsidangyigeqingxiande“shaonainai”。
woxuanzeleyijiayuzhoujiayewuhaowuguanliandehulianwangchuangyegongsi，congzuijichudegangweizuoqi。
pingjiezheduochushiniandeyueliheduiweilaijinianjingjizoushi、xingyefengxiangdemohujiyi，
wohenkuaijiuzaigongzuozhongzhanxianlechaochunianlingdeminruihenengli。zaigongzuozhujianwendinghou，
wokaishilegengweixiandexingdong——diaochazhoujiadeguoqu，yijinei“dishiergejipin”。zheibingburongyi。
zhoujianguosihuhenshanzhangyangaihenji。wotongguoyixiefeizhengshidequdao，
birubendidelaodanganyuan、shequlixiaoxilingtongdelaoren，pangqiaocejididating。guochenghuanmanerjiannan，
zhidaoyouyitian，wozaishitushuguandejiubaozhidianzidangankuli，
yong“yiwaisiwang”、“nianqingnvxing”、“zhoujianguogongsifujin”dengguanjiancijiaochasousuo，
zhongyufaxianleyisiduanni。dayuezaishiernianqian，bendixinwenbaodaoguoyiqinishuishijian，
sizheshizhoujiagongsiyiminggangruzhibujiudenvhuiji，mingjiaosuxiaowen，
wanshangjiabanhoubushendierugongsifujindejingguanheshenwang。baodaopianfuhenxiao，yuyanbuxiang。shiyinianqian，
yimingzaizhoujiazuoguoduanqibaomudenvhai，juchengyinmeiqizhongdusizaizijizuzhudefangzhong。shinianqian，
yigeyuzhouleiduanzanjiaowangguodenvdaxuesheng，chehuoshenwang。……shijianxianwangqiantui，jihumeigeyiliangnian，
jiuyouyigeyuzhoujianengcheshangguanxidenianqingnvxingfeizhengchangsiwang，siyingeyi，dandoubeidingxingweiyiwai。
zhidaowo——anzhaoshijian，yinggaishidishisange。yiguhanqicongjiaodizhichongtianlinggai。zheijuebushiqiaohe！
suxiaowen……wojizhulezheigemingzi。tongguoyixieyinmideshehuiguanxiwangluochaxun，
wozhaodaoletaweiyihaizaibenshideqinren——yigenianmaideyima。woyidaxuezuoshehuidiaocha，
yanjiubendinvxingzhiyebianqianweiyou，baifanglezheiweilaoren。tiqiwaishengnv，laorenlaoleizongheng：“xiaowenneihaizi，
laoshibenfen，zenmehuineimebuxiaoxin……taqushiqianyizhenzi，haoxianghaitinggaoxing，shuogongsilaobanhenshangshita，
haidaitacanjiaguoshenme……shenmesirenjuhui……ai，doushiminga……”sirenjuhui？shangshi？
wominruidibuzhuodaoleguanjianci。zhoujianguoshangshiyigegangruzhidenvhuiji？haidaitacanjiasirenjuhui？
zheibufuhechangli。daobielaorenhou，wogengjiaquexin，zhoujiabeihou，
yinzangzheyigejudade、yinianqingnvxingweijipindekongbumimi。zheige“yishi”demudeshishenme？weilecaifu？
diwei？haishigengxieededongxi？wobixujiakuaixingdong。bujinyaozuzhizijichengweijipin，gengyaojiechuanzheiyiqie。
wojuedingbingfenlianglu。yifangmian，wojixubanyanwuhaideweihunqi，
shenzhibiaoxiandeduizhouleigengjia“yilai”he“chongbai”，yicijiangditamendejiexin，
bingsijixunzhaogengduoguanyu“yishi”dezhijiezhengju，birushufanglidedongxi。lingyifangmian，
wokaishizhenduizhoujiashangyeshangderuodianbuju。wozhidaozhoujianguohenkuaihuijingbiaochengbeixinqude**anzhifangxiangmu，
erqianshi，zheigexiangmuhoulaibaochushiyongledaliangliezhijiancai，zhoujiagongsiyincishengyusaodi，chadianpochan。
dangshitigongliezhigangjinde，shiyigejiaowangdefadegongyingshang。wobuxuyaoqinzijubao，neitaimingxian。
woxuyaozuode，shiquebaozhoujianguoneng“shunli”naxianeigexiangmu，bingqie，quebaotahuihezheiweiwangdefaxiansheng，
“jinmihezuo”。wotongguoyixiezhongjianren，
“wuyi”zhongxiangwangdefatoululezhoujianguojingbiaochengbeixiangmu、zijinlianjinzhang、jixu“bianyi”jiancaidexiaoxi。
同时，
woyenimingxiangxiangmuzhaobiaofangtoululezhoujianguogongsiyujijiaxinyubujiadegongyingshangguowangmiqiede“xinxi”，
jibuzuyiquxiaotadezige，younengcushitazaiyalixia，gengqingxiangyuxuanze“bianyitinghua”dewangdefa。yuer，
zhengzaiyouxiangerliao。yucitongshi，woduizhouleide“gaizao”yezaijinxing。wobuduan“guli”tazilimenhu，
baituofuqindekongzhi，bing“wuyi”zhongrangtajiechudaoneixiefanggaolidaideren。zhouleibenjiuxingaoqiao，
zaiqianshijiubeifuqinyadechuanbuguoqi，rujinzaiwodeshanfengdianhuoxia，guoranchunchunyudong。tamanzhezhoujianguo，
yigerenmingyijielejuegaolidai，
tourudaoyigetahetaneibangjiuroupengyoukanhaode、shizeloudongbaichudexiangmuzhong。wozhidao，neigexiangmu，
zhudingshibai。liangtiaoxian，shangyehejiating，douzaixiangzheyinbaodianwenbutuijin。raner，
jiuzaiwoyiweiyiqiejinzaizhangwoshi，fashenglediyizhongyiwaifanzhuan。neishiyigezhoumo，woyoubeijiaoquzhoujiachifan。
fanhou，zhouleibeipengyoujiaozou，zhoujianguojielegedianhuayequleshufang。ketinglizhishengxiawohezhouleidemuqin，
lixiulan。tamomodishoushizhechaji，dongzuochihuan。wozhengxiangqishenbangmang，taqueturantaiqitou，
neishuangzongshidichuizhede、meishenmeshencaideyanjing，zhizhidikanxiangwo，limianchongmanle……yizhongfuzade，
jinhuaiqiudeqingxu。tafeikuaidipieleyiyanshufangfangxiang，quedingmenguanzhe，
deshengyinduiwoshuo：“qianqian……zou……kuailikaizheili……likaizhoujia……yueyuanyuehao……”wohunshenyijiang，
xinzangzhoutingleyipai。tazhidaole？tazhidaoshenme？woqiangyaxiaxinzhongdejinghai，
yadishengyinwen：“ayi……weishenme？”tazuichunduosuozhe，yanshenkongju，gangyaozaishuoshenme，
shufangmenbashouzhuandongdeshengyinchuanlai。talikexiangshoujingdetuziyiyangdixiatou，huifuleneifumamuchenmodeyangzi，
kuaibuzoujinlechufang。wozuozaiyuandi，shouxinquanshilenghan。lixiulandejinggao，zhengshilewodecaice。
zhoujiaqueshiyoubukegaorendemimi，erqie，zheigekansinuoruodenvren，shizhiqingzhe，
shenzhi……kenengshishouhaizhe？tashouwanshangdeshang……zheishiyigetupokou！danwobixugengjiaxiaoxin，
zhoujianguoyuanbiwoxiangxiangdeweixian。shijianyitiantianguoqu，julimanyuezhiye，juliwode“siqi”yuelaiyuejin。
zhouleidegaolidaijijiangdaoqi，tadexiangmuhaowuqise，jiaotoulane。zhoujianguodechengbeixiangmuyijingkaigong，
yuwangdefadehezuojinmi，daliangde“bianyi”jiancaizhengyuanyuanbuduanyunwanggongdi。fengbaozaiyunniang。
woliyongzhouleipinfanyuwosuku、xunqiuanweidejihui，gengjiapinfandichuruzhoujia，
shituxunzhaoyulixiulandandujiechudejihui，tongshiyexiangfangshefatanchashufang。zhongyu，
zaiyicizhouleihezhoujianguodouzaiwaimianyingfucuizhaihegongdimafanshi，wozhaodaolejihui。