chentaiyineijushipotianjingdeduanyan，rutongtourugunyoudelengshui，shunjianzaizheixiaxiaoyinlengdewuzilizhakai！
“handu？！sannian？！”zhaomamashishengjianjiao，neizhangkebanyansudelianchediniuqubianxing，yanzhuzidengdejihuyaotuokuangerchu，nanyizhixindemuguangzaichentaiyiningzhongsurandemiankonghewopingjingwubodelianshangfengkuangsaoshi。furenjiaodaiderenwushizuoshi“fengbing”！shirangzheijianyatouyongyuanbizui！zenmehui……zenmehuichechushenme“handu”？haishisannian？！zheilaodongxishichicuoyaolema？！
“chen……chentaiyi！”zhaomamadeshengyinjianlidebianlediao，daizheqijibaihuaidezhandou，“nin……ninshibushizhencuole？er**nianjiqingqing，shenziyixiang……yixiangyesuankangjian，zenmekeneng……zenmekenengzhongshenmehandu？haishisannian？zhei……zheijianzhihuangmiu！”tashituyongqishiyaren，shenzhianshixingdijiazhongle“huangmiu”erzi。
chentaiyiquemengdiyishuaixiupao，shanyanghuqideqiaoleqilai，yizhedezunyanbeizhiyirangtashunjianchenlelian，shengyinyedaishanglehuoqi：“zhaomama！nizheishizaizhiyilaofudeyishu？laofuxingyishushizai，zaitaiyiyuanyedangzhiguo，zheimaixianghuasechenzhi，hanningqixuezhixiangrucimingxian，qihuiyoucuo？！er**maixiangxufuwuli，zhongjiaoningzhi，shouzujuelengzhizhengdingshichangniancunzai！zheijuefeiyichaoyixiluoshuishouhansuonengzhi！gengfeishenmexinshendongdangdefengbingmaixiang！”
tayueshuoyuejidong，zhuanshenduizhewo，yuqidaizheyizhededudingheyisibuyichajuedelianmin：“er**，ninshifouchangnianweihan，shouzubingliang，jibianshengxiayenanyounuanyi？meifengyueshi，shifoufutongrujiao，jingxueanheiyoukuai？shifoushichangjingshenjuandai，shiyubuzhen？”
meiyigezhengzhuang，doujingzhundiqiaodazaiwojiyishenchu。qianshi，zheixietongkurufuguzhiqu，zhemolewozhenggeshaonvshidai，quebeizhoushiqingpiaopiaoyiju“tiruoweihan”、“nverjiadouyoudemaobing”tangsaiguoqu，zhirangchufangmeiriaoxiewenbuquebutongbuyangdetangyao。yuanlai，jingshidu！
wohuanhuantaiqiyan，yingshangchentaiyiruilidemuguang，meiyoujinghuang，meiyoukusu，zhiyouyipianchenjingde、lingrenxinjidehuangliang。woweiweihanshou，shengyindaizheyisibuyichajuedeshaya：“chentaiyisuoyan……jujushushi。weihan、futong、juandai……yiyouduonian。”
“er**！”zhaomamachedihuangleshen，jianshengdaduanwo，“nin……nindingshijicuole！huoshi……huoshijinriluoshuihehutule！furendaininshirujichu，nindeyinshiqijunayangbushijingxinzhaoliao？zenhuiyoudu？zheijuebukeneng！”tayuwulunci，zhixianglikejiangzheigehuatiansi。
“jingxinzhaoliao？”woqingqingzhongfuzhezheisigezi，zuijiaogouqiyigebinglengdaojizhidehudu，muguanghuanhuanzhuanxiangzhaomama，neiyanshenrutongcuilebingdedaofeng，“shia，dimudaiwo，queshi‘jingxin’。”wokeyijiazhongle“jingxin”erzi，qizhongdefengciyiweibuyaneryu。
“chentaiyi，”wobuzaikanmianwurensedezhaomama，zhuanxiangmeitoujinsuodelaotaiyi，shengyinqingxierwending，“ninjizhenchuhandu，kezhicidulaiyuan？yougairuhejie？”
chentaiyilvzhehuxu，shenseningzhong：“cidengmanxinghandu，duoyouyaoshixiangqinsuozhi。xunchangyinshibuyijileizhicidengchengdu，chufei……shizhangqifuyongmouxieyaoxinghanliangshenzhihanyouhanduzhiwu！zhiyujiefa……”tachenyinpianke，yaoleyaotou，“handuruti，genzhizangfujingluo，feichaoxikechu。xuxianduanqiyuan，zaixuxuwenbu，yiyanghezhiyaoqusanhanxie，diaoheqixue。zhishi……duonianchenke，jibianjiedu，duigenjidesunshang……kongyenanfuruchule。”
“nanfuruchu”sigezi，rutongzhongchui，henhenzazaijijingdekongqizhong。chuntaozaiyipangwuzhulezui，yanzhongmanshijinghaihexinteng。zhaomamadelianseyijingyoucanbaizhuanweihuibai，shentiweiweihuanglehuang。
“duoxietaiyizhiyanxianggao。”woduizhechentaiyi，zhengzhongdixingleyili，zitaifangdejidi，quedaizheyizhongburonghushidejuejue，“taiyijinrizhenduanzhien，qingyimingjiyuxin。zhishi……”wohuafengyizhuan，muguangzaicisaoguoruzuozhenzhandezhaomama，shengyindouranzhuanleng，daizheyizhongyushijufendejianrui：
“zhishiqingyixinzhongyouyihuo，haiwangtaiyijiehuo！woshenweihoufushunv，shenjujianchu，yinshijieyoufuzhonggongji。zheizhangdasannian、nengsunrengenjidehandu，jiujingshiruherifuyiri、qiaowushengxidijinruwodetinei？！”
“shifuzhongyourenbaozanghuoxin，xuyimouhai？！”
“haishi……zheitangtangwuanhoufu，lianzuijibendeyinshianquandouwufabaozhang，renyouduwuhengxing？！”
“ruoshihouzhe，fuqinshenweiyijiazhizhu，chaotingmingguan，zhijiashangqieruci，heyizhiguo？！”
“ruoshiqianzhe……”womengdidunzhu，muguangrutongliangdaobinglengdelijian，zhizhishexianghunshenjiangyingdezhaomama，shengyindouranbagao，daizhesilieyiqiedebeifenhezhiwen：
“zhaomama！nifangcaikoukoushengshengdimudaiwo‘shirujichu’、‘jingxinzhaoliao’！neime，zheisannianhandu，niyouzuohejieshi？！zheimeirisongdaowoqingyiyuandetangyaofanshi，keshijingyounishou，huoshiyouniqinzianpai？！zheidu，jiujingcongheerlai？！”
轰——！
yilianchuandezhiwen，rutongjingtaohailang，jiangzhaomamachediyanmei！tazhijuedeyiguhanqicongjiaodibanzhichongtianlinggai，yanqianzhenzhenfahei。tazhangzhezui，houlonglifachu“hehe”deshengxiang，queyigeziyetubuchulai。jieshi？ruhejieshi？furenrangtalaizuoshifengbing，jieguozuoshilehandu！zheijianyatougengshizhijiejiangmaotouzhixianglefurenheta！taganshuozheidushifurenxiadema？taganshuozheitangyaofanshiyouwentima？
“wo……wo……”zhaomamamianrusihui，zuichunduosuozhe，lenghanjintouleliyi。taqiuzhubandikanxiangchentaiyi，xiwangtanengshuodianshenmehuanhejumian。
chentaiyicikeyeshilianseningzhong，meitoujinsuo。taxingyiduonian，shenangaomenneizhaideyinsiwochuo。zheier**maixiangzhongdehanduzuobudejia，sannianzhiqiyejuefeixuyan。zaikanzheizhaomamadefanyinghenei“jingxinzhaoliao”detangyao……daanjihuhuzhiyuchu！taxinzhongantanyisheng，zhidaojinrizijiyijuanruyichangjudadexuanwo。tabikailezhaomamademuguang，duizhewo，yuqidaizheyizhedeyanjinheyisibuyichajuedeshuli：
“er**，laoxiuzhishiyizhe，zhinengjiumaixianghezhengzhuangzhiyanxianggao。zhiyuduconghelai……cinaihoufujiashi，laoxiubuganwangyan。dangwuzhiji，shilikeduanleduyuan，zaifuyiwenyangsanhan、huoxuetongluozhiyao，manmandiaoli。laoxiuzheijiukaifang。”
tazoudaozhuobian，tibizhanmo，shouwanchenwen，xunsuxiexiayizhangyaofang。bifengningzhong，yaomingjieshiwenbuquhandemengyao：fuzi、ganjiang、rougui、wuzhuyu……jiliangnaniedejiyoufencun，jikaolvyaoxiao，yegujiwoshentichengshounengli。
“cifangxuyongwenhuojiujian，meirizaowangeyifu。qieji，jianyaosuoyongzhishui、zhiqi，wubiganjing！rukouzhishi，gengyaoshenzhiyoushen！”tajiangyaofangdijiwo，yuqizhengzhongdidingzhu，muguangyiyousuozhidisaoguozhaomama。
“qingyimingbai，duoxietaiyi。”wojieguoyaofang，zhijianfuguoneilitouzhibeideziji，ganshouzheneichendiandiandefenliang。zheizhangzhi，bujinshijiumingdeyaofang，gengshizhanxiangchoudidediyibaliren！
“laoxiugaoci。”chentaiyibuyuanzaiduoliupianke，tiqiyaoxiang，duizhewoweiweigongshou，youduijianglidangchangdezhaomamashiruowudu，zhuanshenkuaibuliqu。beiyingdaizheyizhongtaolishifeizhididecangcu。
wuneizhishengxiawo、chuntao，yijimianwurense、hunbushoushedezhaomamahetadailaidelianggejinruohanchandeyahuan。
空气仿佛凝固的冰。
wohuanhuanzoudaozhuobian，naqineiliangzhizhoushi“shangci”delaoshancan，zhijianbingliang。rencanxingwenbuqi，kansizhengui，keduiyuyigetineijicunhandu、qixueyuzhiderenlaishuo，xubushoubu，fanerkenengjiazhongbingqing！haoyige“yajingbupin”！
“啪嗒！”
yishengqingxiang，wosuiyidijiangneiliangzhirencandiuhuiqipanli，rutongdiuqiliangkuaiwuyongdemutou。shengyinbuda，querangshihundezhaomamamengdiyiduosuo。
wozhuanguoshen，muguangpingjingdiluozaitalianshang，neipingjingzhixia，shishenbujiandidehantan。
“zhaomama，”wodeshengyinbugao，quedaizheyizhongwuxingdeyali，“chentaiyidehua，nidoutingqingchule？”
zhaomamashentiyoushiyizhan，zuichunxidong：“lao……laonu……”
“handusannian。”wodaduanta，yiziyidun，qingxiwubi，“taiyishuo，yaoshixiangqin，zhangqifuyonghanduzhiwusuozhi。”
woxiangqianbijinyibu，julitajinbanbuzhiyao，binglengdeshixiansuozhutahuangluanduoshandeyanjing：
“woqingyiyuanmeiridefanshitangyao，jieshijingxiaochufangzhishou，zaijingyounianpaiderenshousonglai。”
“zheidu，jiujingshisheixiade？”
“是你？”
“haishi……”woweiweiqingshen，shengyinyadejidi，rutongdushetuxin，meiyigezidoudaizhezhimingdehanyi，qingxidizuanjinzhaomamadeerduoli，“……nibeihouneiwei‘shiworujichu’dedimu？”
“hong！”zhaomamaruzaowuleihongding，tuiyiruan，zaiyezhichengbuzhu，“putong”yishengtanguizaidi，etouzhongzhongkezaibinglengdedimianshang，fachuchenmendeshengxiang，hunshendouderutongfengzhongcanzhu。
“er**mingjian！er**mingjiana！”tashengyinsiya，daizhekuqianghejizhidekongju，“laonu……laonuduitianfashi！laonujueduibuganzuozheidengshangtianhailizhishi！laonu……laonuzhishifengmingxingshi！zhei……zheifanshitangyao……doushi……doushixiaochufangan……anfurendefenfuzhunbeide……laonu……laonuzhendebuzhidaolimianyou……youdua！”tayuwulunci，tileihengliu，pinmingketou，shitupieqingguanxi，quezaibujingyijian，jiangzhoushituidaolefengkoulangjian。
“e？furendefenfu？”wozhiqishen，jugaolinxiadikanzhetabeiweipufudezitai，zuijiaoqinzheyisibinglengdexiaoyi，“neimamadeyisishi，zheidu，shidimuxiade？”
“bu！bushi！laonubushizheigeyisi！”zhaomamahedehunfeiposan，mengditaiqitou，lianshanghumanleyanleibitihedishangdehuichen，langbeibukan，“furen……furenzenmehui……er**！zhei……zheiqizhongdingyouwuhui！dingshi……dingshixiamianderenshuhu！huoshi……huoshicaigoudeyaocaichulewenti！dui！yidingshizheiyang！laonu……laonuhuiquyidingchechaxiaochufang！yanchengneixiexiedaidenucai！jier**yigejiaodai！”tahuangluandizhaozhejiekou，zhixiangjinkuaituoshen。
“jiaodai？”woqingqingzhongfu，yuqidaizheyisiwanwei，“mamadasuanruhejiaodai？shizaizhaoyigetisiguichulaidingzui？jiuxiangdangnianwoniangshenbianneixie‘gaojiahaixiang’、‘shizuluojing’dexiarenyiyang？”
zhaomamatongkongzhousuo，xiangshibeiqiazhulebozideji，suoyoushengyinjiaranerzhi，zhishengxiacuzhongde、jingkongdechuanxi。takanzhewodeyanshen，rutongkanzhediyupachudeegui！
wofushizheta，yanshenbinglengrushuang：“mama，huiqugaosudimu。”
“chentaiyidezhenduan，yizibuloudigaosuta。”
“zheizhangyaofang，”woyangleyangshouzhongmojiweigandezhi，“yegaosuta，wohuianshifuyong。wozheitiaoming，rujinjinguidehen，taizidianxiajinkouyuyanhaizaierbian，ruoshizaizhei‘jingxinzhaoliao’zhixiazaichubandianchachi……”wokeyitingdun，muguangsaoguozhuoshangneiliangzhirencanhezhoushisonglaidedianxin，yuqidouranbiandesenhanwubi：
“kongpajiubuzhishihoufu‘jiashi’neimejiandanle。taizidianxiajinrijiranshuole‘shimuyidai’，xiangbi，tayehenxiangzhidao，zheiwuanhoufudeshui，daodiyouduoshen，duodu！”
“滚！”
zuihouyigezi，rutongbingzhui，henhencichu。
zhaomamarumengdashe，liangunpadaidicongdishangzhengzhaqilai，yegubudeshenmeyitai，daizheneilianggezaoyiheshadeyahuan，jihushishoujiaobingyongditaolilezheijianrutongbingkubandewuzi，lianzhuoshangnei“yajingbupin”douwanglena。
fangmenpengranguanshang，gejuelewaimiandeguangxian，wuneizhongguihunanjijing。
zhidaomenwailingluancanghuangdejiaobushengchedixiaoshi，wojinbengdejibeicaijibukechadisongxieleyisi。lenghan，zaoyijintouleneishan，jintiezaibinglengdejifushang。gangcaineifanjiaofeng，kansibubujinbi、zhanjushangfeng，shizeshizaixuanyabianxingzou，shaoyoubushenbianshifenshensuigu。zhoushidefanying，houfudedongxiang，haiyoutaizineimocedetaidu……dourutongxuanzaitoudingdelijian。
“er**……”chuntaoqieshengshengdeshengyinxiangqi，daizhedanyouhehoupa。takanzhewodeyanshen，chongmanlejingweiheyizhongnanyiyanyudexinteng。
wozhuanguoshen，lianshangdebinglengshunjiantunqu，duizheta，luchuyisijiqipibeiquezhenshidexiaoyi。wojiangneizhangyaofangzhengzhongdijiaodaotashouzhong：“chuntao。”
“nubizai！”chuntaoliketingzhileshouruodejibei，shuangshougongjingdijieguoyaofang。
“congjinriqi，worukoudemeiyikoushui，meiyilimi，meiyiwanyao，douyouniqinzijingshou。”wodeshengyindicheneryansu，daizhequanrandexinren，“jianyao，yongwomenyuanzhongzijidexiaoluzi，qufuzhongdachufanglingganjingdeyinshuangtan。yongshui，zhiquhouyuanneikoulaojingqingchendashanglaidediyitongshui。yaocai……”wodunledun，yanzhonghanguangyishan，“nazhewodeduipai，qinziqufuwaizuidade‘renjitang’zhuayao！jizhu，yaofangzhinengjizuotangdedafukan，zhuayaoshiniquanchengdingzhe，yaobaoqinzinahuilai，buxurenherenzhanshou！mingbaima？”
“nubimingbai！”chuntaoyonglidiantou，xiaolianshangchongmanleqiansuoweiyoudezhengzhongheshiminggan，“nubiyongxingmingdanbao！jueburangrenherenyoujihuizaiyaolidongshoujiao！”tajiangneiyaofangxiaoxinyiyidizhehao，tieshenzangjinzuilicengdeyijinnei，fangfoneishibixingminghaizhongyaodedongxi。
“haiyou，”wozoudaoweiyidejiumujuqian，dakai，congzuidicengyigebuqiyandejiaoluoli，mochuyigexiaoxiaode、modefaliangdehuangtongduipai——zheishiwoshengmuliuyiniangliuxiadeweiyiyiwu，yeshiwozuoweihoufu**jinyoude、keyizhiqushaoliangfenliyinqiandepingzheng。wojiangtadijichuntao，“nazhezheige，quzhangfangzhishiliangyinzi，jiushuowoyaozhuayao。shengxiade，maixieshizaidemiliangroucaihuilai，yihouwomenxiaochufangzijikaihuo。”
chuntaojieguoneimeixiaoxiaodeduipai，ganshoudaoshangmiancanliudeweiliang，yanquanyouhongle，dantaqiangrenzhe，yonglidiantou：“shi！nubizheijiuqu！”
“buji。”wolanzhuta，muguangzhuanxiangyizhishouzaimenwai、cikecaigantantoujinlaideqiuju，“qiuju。”
qiujulianmangxiaopaojinlai，lianshanghaidaizhejinghunweiding：“er……er**？”
“nigenzhechuntaoyiqiquzhangfang。”wokanzheta，yuqiburongzhiyi，“jizhu，zhilingyinzi，buduohua。lingleyinzi，chuntaoquzhuayao，ninazheyinziquxishi，maixieshanghaodejingmi、baimian、zhuyou、larou、jidan，zaimaixieshilingcaishu。yaoxinxiande，tiaohaodemai，buyaopahuaqian。”wojianglingyikuaishaodaxiedesuiyinzisaijiqiuju，“shengxiade，maixieyitanggaobinghuilai，nimenlianggefenle。”
qiujukanzheshoulideyinzi，youjingyouxi，lianlianyingsheng：“shi！shi！nubiyidingbanhao！”
lianggeyatoulingming，daizheyizhongjianfuzhongrendejinzhanghejidong，congconglikaileqingyiyuan。
wuneizaicizhishengxiawoyiren。jijingwusheng，weiyouchuangwaifengchuiguokuzhidewuyan。wozoudaochuangbian，tuikaineishanzhiyazuoxiangdejiuchuangling。shenqiudefengdaizhelinliedehanyiguanru，chuifuzailianshang，binglengcigu。
寒毒……三年……
wobishangyan，ganshouzhetineineiguruyingsuixing、shenrugusuideyinhan。qianshizhongzhongbeihushidexijie，neixiebeiqingmiaodanxiedaiguodetongku，cikedouhuazuoleqingxidezhengju。zhoushi！haohendudexinchang！bujinyaowoniangsi，haiyaowozheige“niezhong”huodeshengburusi，zuizhongwushengwuxididiaoling！
henyirutongbinglengdeduyan，zaixiongqiangliwushengranshao。
dancike，zheiguduyan，quechenglewoshouzhongzuifenglidewuqi！
chentaiyidezhenduan，taizineiju“shimuyidai”，jiushiwocikezuidadehushenfu！zhoushitoushujiqi，duanqineijuebuganzaimingmuzhangdandizaiyinshitangyaoshangdongshoujiao。tazhihuigengfengkuangdixunzhaobiedejihui，gengyinmidizhiwoyusidi！
erwo，yaodejiushitadong！zhiyoutadong，wocainengzhuazhutadepozhan！
“笃笃笃。”
轻微的敲门声响起。
“jinlai。”woshoulianxinshen，dandandao。
menbeituikaiyitiaofeng，yigechuanzhesandengyahuanfushi、kanqilaizhiyoushiersansui、shoushouxiaoxiao、mingjiaoxiaohedeyatouqieshengshengditanjinbangenaodai。tashizheiqingyiyuanfuzedasaodecushiyatou，pingshichenmoguayan，jihumeishenmecunzaigan。
“er……er**，”xiaohedeshengyinxiruowenna，daizhejinzhang，“gangcai……gangcainubiqudaoyexianghuilai，luguo……luguoxiaochufanghoutoudejiadao……kanjian……kanjianzhaomamashenbiandecaiyunjiejie……ta……taguiguisuisuide，ba……bayibaodongxi……saijin……saijinlehouqianggenneigezhuanmendaosoushuidepotongli……ranhou……ranhoujiucongcongzoule……”
xiaoheshuowan，feikuaididixiatou，shouzhijinzhangdijiaozheyijiao，fangfoyongjinlequanshendeliqi。
我的眼神骤然一凝！
soushuitong？zhaomamadetieshenyahuancaiyun？
“niquedingshicaiyun？kanqingchushishenmedongxilema？”woshengyinfangdejiqing，quedaizheyizhongwuxingdeyali。
xiaoheyonglidiantou：“nubi……nubikandezhenzhende！shicaiyunjiejie！tachuanzheneijianshuihongsedebijia！neibaodongxi……yong……yongyouzhibaozhe……kanzhebuda……”
hao！haoyigezhoushi！dongzuoguorangoukuai！zheishiyaohuimiezhengjule！
woxinzhonglengxiao，mianshangquebuxian，zoudaoxiaohemianqian，congxiuzhongmochujinshengdeliangmeitongqian，qingqingfangzaitabingliangdexiaoshouli：“xiaohe，zuodehenhao。zheiqianninazhe，qumaigerebaozichi。”kanzhetashunjianliangqideyanjingheganjideshenqing，woyadishengyin，yuqidaizheguliheyisiburongjujuedezhiling：
“xianzai，niqiaoqiaoguoqu，buyaojingdongrenheren，baneigeyouzhibaocongsoushuitonglinachulai。xiaoxinxie，bienongzangleziji，yebierangrenkanjian。nahuilai，zhijiejiaojiwo。mingbaima？”
xiaohejinjinzuanzhuneiliangmeidaizhetiwendetongqian，xiaolianshangmanshizhengzhongheyizhongbeiweiyizhongrendejidong，yonglidiantou：“nubimingbai！er**fangxin！”taxiangyizhilingqiaodemaoer，zhuanshenjiuliulechuqu，shenyingxunsuxiaoshizaiyuanjiao。
woguanshangchuang，gejuelehanfeng，wuneizhongguihunan。xinzangzaixiongqianglichenwenyouliditiaodongzhe，daizheyizhongbinglengdexingfen。
eryisaxia，wangyizhangkai。
zhoushi，zheichangxi，caiganggangkaishi。
wodaoyaokankan，nizheihui，younengtuichusheilaitinidingzui！